Everywhere by Michelle Branch. Sorry for not updating sooner. More reviews help me update faster, though! Getting my iPod back would help a lot, too. BPOV
I had the most amazing dream. Edward and I were in the most beautiful meadow I've ever seen with soft, long green grass and wild flowers of various colors coming up from the ground. Forest trees surrounded the secluded meadow; we were in our own little bubble, talking, laughing, dancing, and having fun.
"I've missed you, I've missed us so much," Edward confessed.
"Me, too, Edward," I replied and kissed him tenderly.
"We're together now and that's all that matters," he whispered against my lips.
But alas, that is only in dream world. In reality, Jake is right next to me snoring his heart out. I got up and walked into the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and I looked exactly the way I looked in high school, same long brown hair, brown eyes, and skinny. I don't think I even grew an inch. Why, I'm Bella Swan. Bella Black? I'm not sure. I found an engagement ring while putting away laundry a couple of weeks ago, but he has yet to propose. Would I say yes? I honestly don't know what to do or think. We have been together for a while now, but I really only felt connected to him as a close friend and nothing more, but he had other ideas and I just went with them. I'm a bitch for leading him on like this and he knows that, but somehow he still hopes that one day I'll just feel for him the way he feels for me. In truth, he deserves so much more; he is such a great guy, just not the guy for me, so cliché. It's not you, it's me. Sounds like bullshit and most of the time it is, but not with me and Jake. I should say no to him. I should just let him go and find the person he is really meant to be with, his soul mate. At least one of us should get to be with their soul mate. Bella Cullen? I wish.
Okay, stop dilly-dallying. I quickly brushed my teeth and hair and went to the kitchen to make breakfast. I scrambled up some eggs, and made bacon and pancakes. After I set the table, I went back into the bedroom to wake up Jacob. "Jake, wake up," I said, shaking his shoulder lightly.
"Mhm, just give me five more minutes, Bells."Last time I gave him five more minutes, it ended up being half an hour and he was late for work.
"No, wake up now," I said firmly.
"Alright!" He got out of bed and muttered, "Party pooper." I just chuckled. He went into the bathroom and I went back to the dining table to eat. He joined me just a few minutes later.
"Do you have plans for today, Bells?"
"Nope, maybe just tidy up the house and read a book…."
"Do you want to go to the mall later, I could use some new shoes?"
"Sure, I guess." After we were both done eating, I gathered all the dishes and washed them. Then I did as I said I would, I made our bed, dusted the house, and tidied up. I hit up the bookshelves and picked out a book and read. An hour later of reading, I heard my cell phone ring, but couldn't find it anywhere. "Jake, have you seen my phone?" I yelled.
"It's right here on the kitchen counter," he yelled back. I ran to the kitchen and checked who was calling me. Alice. I quickly flipped my phone open to answer.
"Yes, Alice?" I said, breathing heavily from running in the house.
"Well, hello to you, too, Bella," she replied sarcastically. Ha. Ha.
"Sorry, hello. What did you need?"
"Don't you like to get down to business?" She thinks she is so funny.
"How've you been," I muttered.
"That's better. I've been great. Jasper and I are doing wonderful, thank you. How about you?"
"I'm fine."
"Fine, as in not good. No good sex lately, huh?"
"What does sex have to do with anything?" Silly girl, you got to love her though.
"That's why I'm always in a good mood, Bella. Jasper is a fantastic lover."
"Ew. That's gross, Alice. I don't need to know about your love life."
"Whatever, Bella. What's Jake's problem? Size?" I walked outside to the neighborhood park so Jacob wouldn't overhear our conversation.
"No! Jake isn't the problem, it's me." Sigh.
"What's wrong?"
"All I can think about is Edward. He is in my dreams, he is everywhere."
"So what's new? We all know that you've never got over him. He's not over you either."
"I know."
"What do you mean you know? How do you know?" Confession time. Yay me.
"I called him up late last night when I couldn't sleep…" I mumbled.
"What?!" she screamed.
"Ouch, Alice."
"Sorry, sorry. Explain, please."
"I honestly didn't think he would pick up. I just wanted to hear his voice from his voice mail. I thought he would be asleep and have his phone turned off, but he wasn't. He was awake and he answered his phone. I don't know what I was thinking but we ended up talking a little bit. We confessed that we miss each other, dream about each other, and never got over one another. But I said the most stupid thing, Alice! I asked if we could meet and catch up sometime! I'm an idiot; we are both in a relationship, just not with each other."
"So sweet! And you are not an idiot!"
"Thanks, Alice."
"So?"
"So what?"
"Did he agree that you two should meet up?!"
"No," I sighed.
"Why the hell not?"
"He didn't think it a good idea, because he could never be just friends with me, he would always want more."
"What's wrong with wanting more?"
"Didn't I tell you that we are both in a relationship? He has a girlfriend and I have Jacob!"
"Well those two relationships could easily end and a new one can start. Voila! I am a genius."
"No, you are not, sorry. I can't easily end my relationship with Jacob. He is important to me. You know that, Alice."
"You do what you got to do, Bella. You and Edward are meant to be."
"I wish things were just that simple, but they aren't. Life has to be so damn complicated, for what reason I don't know."
"I'm sorry, Bella."
"It's okay; we can't all be like you and Jasper."
"I know, you wish. Haha."
"Anyways, why'd you call in the first place?"
"It can't be for no reason, like I just want to talk to my best friend?"
"Nope."
"Okay, you got me. I'm inviting you over for Christmas dinner."
"I can't, Jake and I planned to spend it with Charlie, Sue, and Billy. Sorry!"
"It's okay, but you better come to the New Year's Eve party then. That's an order!"
"Yes, ma'am! Is it alright if I bring Jacob?"
"Of course, silly! You got to kiss him at midnight!"
"Okay. It's at Carlisle's and Esme's right?"
"Yep. We've got to go shopping for dresses!"
"I'm already going to the mall with Jacob; I'll just go buy my dress today." Please say yes. I do not want to have to go shopping with Alice. She goes berserk.
"Alright, I'm letting you off the hook this time, but you got to send me a picture of the dress, shoes, and accessories so that I can approve of it. Do I make myself clear?"
"Yes, mom," I replied, teasing.
"Good, now I've got to go. I want that picture!"
"Bye, Alice!" Sigh, now I have to go tell Jake. I walked back to the house and got inside where Jacob was watching some sports game.
"Have fun talking to Alice?"
"Oh yeah, it was a blast," I muttered and he chuckled.
"What did she want?" We know Alice so well.
"She's invited us to their New Year's Eve party and I said we would go."
"Okay. Will Edward be there?"
"I don't know, Jake, I didn't ask!"
"Sorry, Bells! You know I'm just looking out for you. He hurt you, remember?"
"I know, but why do you always have to remind me?!"
"Sorry…"
"Stop saying you're sorry, Jake," I sighed. I'm getting so tired of this.
"Am I forgiven?"
"Yes, already. Are we leaving for the mall soon?" I asked, changing the subject.
"Yes, I'm just going to wait for this game to finish and then I need to take a shower and then we can go."
"Alright, well I still need to shower, so I'll go now while you're watching the game."
"Sure," he replied. I went into our bathroom and took a shower. After I took a shower, I dressed in jeans, a v-neck green shirt, and slipped on gray ballet flats. I went back into the living room when the game had just finished. "Alright, let me just take a quick shower," he said and kissed my cheek. I nodded. I grabbed my purse and cell phone and sat on the couch while he left to go shower. Not even ten minutes later, we were out the door headed for the mall in my Audi.
We got to the mall soon and Jake and I decided to split up and meet up at the bookstore later. I went to a bunch of stores to find a dress that Alice would approve of. I did take me a bit, but I found the one. It was a cute and short navy blue dress. It was simple and flowed out after the bust line. I just needed to find the right accessories and shoes. I figured that I should go for the shoes first. I found the shoes right away—they were high-heeled, black, and strappy. Perfect. Dress. Check. Shoes. Check. Accessories? I picked out a long pearl necklace with matching pearl earrings and bracelet. All set. I called Jake and headed to the bookstore which he was already at waiting. "How long have you been waiting for my call?"
"Ten minutes, maybe? Find something Alice would approve of?"
"Yeah, let me just get a few books and we could go out to eat?"
"Sure, sure." I perused the bookstore and decided on a saga about a teenage girl and vampires. It sounded like an interesting story and I heard they were making it into a movie. Then Jake and I walked out of the bookstore and headed out. He grabbed my hand while we were walking.
And that's when I see him. Edward is sitting on a bench in front of Victoria's Secret. He is looking gorgeous, as usual. He looks a bit more mature and muscular than when were in high school. He looks even more amazing, just like I thought he would. He literally took my breath away. Then he looked my way and for a moment it felt like time stood still. I just wanted to freeze it so I could stay in his eyes forever. I might be imagining this, though, he might not have even noticed me. Did he see me?
I felt Jacob pull on me to walk faster and I snapped out of it. Did Jake see Edward? I figure it best not to mention it.
Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're, you're never there
But when I sleep you're, you're everywhere
You're everywhere
Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
You might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oh, oh
And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?