7th April 3006, Monday
3:04 AM

I'm considering giving up this writing effort... what's the point of it? I'm going to die of old age here, the walls around me carved with my story... and no one is likely to even find it... and do I even care anymore for anyone to know anyway?

I don't know why I'm here, what my purpose is anymore. What is he even keeping me alive for? I don't understand...

18th April 3006, Friday
12:03 PM

Obaa-san, Amaru-chan, Okawa-san… Konan-sensei… So many have died, there is no purpose to me living anymore. But Kyūbi won't let me die, she's forcing me to stay alive!

Every day is torture, my uncle appearing and attacking me until I am an inch from dying. He does it over and over and over and over again, telling me my anger is weak, that I don't have enough hatred.

1st May 3006, Tuesday
7:36 PM

I HATE HIM, I HATE KYŪBI, I HATE THE SHIROI ONI!

Why am I even writing this? It doesn't help...

I suppose it's because I genuinely have nothing else to do in between my uncle's appearances. Kyūbi told me I have been here for five months now, I've no clue how she can tell. Everything is always the same, the low lighting in this cave, coming from somewhere I can never figure out.

It's a perfect square, hundreds of feet across and tall, made out of stone, it hates me…

4th May 3006, Saturday
5:56 AM

I left Konoha because my cousin finally came for me, wanting to check up on me and get to be a part of my life. Sarutobi failed his promise, leaving me in the slums, letting the villagers beat me.

He told the villagers that I held the Kyūbi. He wanted me to suffer! He lied to Nagato, he failed my parents, broke their trust.

If my mother were here, she would make them all pay for what they did to me. I know the truth now, I know what happened. Sarutobi wanted me to suffer, the Kyūbi killed his wife, and he blamed me for it!

He's a murderer, a criminal, a killer! I will make him pay till the abrupt end of his days… I loathe them! I hate them all!

I will find them, I will make them suffer, painfully and slowly.

23rd July 3006, Sunday
11:07 PM

Why is my life only suffering? Only pain? The joys in my life, I'm just allowed to have them long enough to get attached to them, and when they yanked away, it hurts worse than the last time!

I hate it! Despise it! I hate him, making me have to defend myself over and over again, beating me up so easily. What does he want me for? Why hasn't he killed me? Why does he keep trying to make me stronger?

My hatred isn't strong enough! He keeps telling me that, over and over and over again, slamming me into the wall with that cursed Shinra Tensei. I can never reach him. I can never beat him, he won't let me use the Kyūbi chakra, he taunts me!

I will escape here, I will make all those who have wronged me suffer, I will BURN Konoha to the ground! That red-eyed lady… Kurenai Yuhi, Asuma Sarutobi, Kakashi Hatake, Hiruzen Sarutobi, The Shiroi Oni… They will all pay, I will make sure of it.

I will get stronger, he has to eventually let me go, I will get free!

13th February 3008, Monday
4:00 PM

I scratched him! I actually hurt him, my sword sliced his arm! He's human! I knew it! He can die, and I will make him, slowly, painfully! He's tormented me everyday, it doesn't matter what I'm doing... sleeping, eating, writing.

31st May 3008, Wednesday
3:09 AM

I scratched him! I actually hurt him, my sword sliced his arm! He's human! I knew it! He can die, and I will make him, slowly, painfully! He's tormented me every day, it doesn't matter what I'm doing, sleeping, eating, writing.

35th June 3008, Tuesday
13:96 PM

Kyūbi keeps telling me I'm going insane, begging me to think and calm down. She's manipulating me, she wants me to put down my guard so she can take over and escape. Well… I won't let her! She's keeping me here, and I am not going to let her go either.

This is all Kyūbi's fault! If she hadn't come to Konoha, hadn't killed my parents, then I wouldn't be here! I WOULDN'T BE SUFFERING!

9th September 3008, Saturday
8:14 PM

He electrocuted me… he's never done that before. He hurt me until I couldn't stand... then electrocuted me over and over and over and over and over again. It hurt, and no matter how much I screamed he wouldn't stop.

I'm going to kill him!

6th October 3008, Monday
3:09 AM

Nagato had taken me to his village, to safety. I finally had people that loved me. Yahiko-sensei, Konan-sensei, Nagato… they tried so hard to protect me, she DIED PROTECTING ME! I've always been too weak to defend myself, but no more!

I'm going to find them all, make them suffer, make them pay… I get stronger every day, I last longer, I can't even feel the pain anymore.

30th November 3008, Saturday
12 AM

They're all dead, why did he tell me that… Nagato… Yahiko… They are all dead, the Shiroi Oni killed them! That DEMON! I WILL MAKE HIM SUFFER! I WILL KILL EVERYONE HE CARES ABOUT BEFORE HIS EYES!

No… why… why does everyone who matters to me die… why does Kami hate me?

19th January 3009, Thursday
2:05 pm

I remember waking up, having been beaten by Konoha shinobi, but saved by Konan-sensei. I found myself in a camp, three people I didn't know, I tried to sneak away. But they saw me… I am so glad that they saw me.

They accepted me, I got to eat ramen with Yahiko-sensei, we talked about pranks. I was safe… I would give everything to return to that day, to start over…

They brought me to Amegakure, I met Okawa-san, and we became real friends. Life was good, and I learned many things about myself. I learned that I was really great at Fuinjutsu and I learned the history of the Uzumaki clan.

Konan-sensei said something to me during those days, those days of peace. What she said I will never forget, "Nakada-kun, there is nothing more important than one's family, than the people that you love and care for, and love and care for you. Protect them, Nakada, never let them go, protect those that are precious to you."

I FAILED! SHE DIED! IT'S MY FAULT!

They... they are all dead.

There is only one thing to live for now...

Revenge.