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Disclaimer: Vampire Knight belongs to Hino Matsuri

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The Familiar Feelings

"Did we really ever meet before?" Kuran Kaname thought alone in his room deep in the moon dorm. He faces the morning sunlight right in front of the window, does not care if it hurt his vampire eyes. He stares straight beyond the window, looks like facing the sunlight, but actually he is not. He is thinking something else: the thing that happened last night.

Cross Nina asked him that question. All he can give is only perfunctory answer, the answer he just got that time. But it is not really the answer. When Nina asked him, he concluded that Nina feels the same as he felt right then: the familiar feelings. He feels it too, towards Nina. Especially because Nina is so similar to someone he knew few years ago.

Several things from Cross Nina are the same as that girl: the phobia of the dark and the acute asthma. Every time he sees her, the girl appears in his sight: reminds him about his old scar from long time ago. Cross Nina was adopted—Kaien used to tell him once—so there is a possibility that Nina is her.

He decides one thing: he has to investigate Cross Nina; he must know everything about her.

Kaname looks down and see the school's officer prepare some kind of gate, some gates on left and the others on right side of the road. All the gates are put along the way of the school gate. With his vampire eyes, Kaname can see that there is his name on one of those gates. There is one name of night class's students on each gate. He just remembered that tomorrow is Valentine's Day. Those gates must be prepared for the day class's student.

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"Nina, will you make some chocolate for someone?" Wakaba Sayori asked her friend, Cross Nina at the break time.

"No, I will not." Nina answered. It is serious. Every year, Nina passes the Valentine's Day without making any chocolate for anyone, even for her father. For her, Valentine's Day is meaningless, making chocolate and etc is just waste her time. "How about you, Yori...?"

"Me neither." Yori answered. "Are you sure you will not make one for your father? I think he deserve it."

To think about it, Yori is right. This week, Nina had troubled her father so much. She almost makes him get heart attack twice and made him cries. May be I can make some as thank you gift for my father, Nina finally decided.

She stares her friend. "Yori, do you have a recipe book? I think I will make some for my father." Nina asked.

Yori smiles at her friendly. She looks relief to see Nina accept her idea. "I will give the book to you."

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Thanks God she does not need to go shopping to the market. There are some chocolate in refrigerator. So, here she is, stands in the kitchen with all ingredients she need. Nina reads the recipe books carefully and starts cooking.

Fortunately, she is often cooking in the kitchen secretly. Thanks to it, her cooking ability is not too bad.

When she chops the chocolate, something passes in her mind. If she wants to make some chocolate as thank you gift for her father, then Kaname would deserve it too. That guy has helped her twice too. Well, she has to make some extra portion.

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Valentine's Day

"Everyone, pay attention, please!" Nina yelled at the Day Class's students. Fortunately, today they can be ordered easily. Everyone has ready on their position in each gate. All of bring a box of chocolate on their hand. For a second, Nina thought that all of their chocolate looks delicious, but then she comes back into reality when she hears the gate is opened.

She turns around and faces all of those charming angels from Cross Academy. "Everyone, listen carefully!" she ordered the night class. Nina once again explained the rules of Valentine's Day to the night class's students. They listen carefully with no sound to be heard. "Do not ask anything. Just accept the chocolate. Those who break those rules will get a detention. Any question?" Nina accepts nothing but silence, meanwhile the day class's students can not waiting any longer. She can hear their protests back there. "All right, let's begin!"

Every night class students move into their own gates. Every gates has its own queue. Everything work fine, no problems occurred, but also Nina has no chance to give the chocolate to Kuran Kaname because the dorm leader is busy with his very long queue. She is surprises when Kaname being the first students who get back to the dorm. She can not lose this chance. Nina turns around to see that everything is fine behind her. As soon as possible, she runs aim to Kaname.

Far away from the crowd, she yells the name of the moon dorm leader.

"Kaname-senpai!" With one calls, he stopped and turned around. He is not smiling as usual.

"Nina, do not run that fast." Nina realized that those warn is for her asthma. She nodded and say thank you for his worry. When she wants to pick up her chocolate, she gets disappointed. Kaname's hands are full by the chocolates. "Why did you call me, Nina?" Kaname asked.

Nina picks up her chocolate and shows it to Kaname. "I was about to give you this, but your hands are seems to be full." She smiles with disappointed but then Kaname moves all the chocolate to his left hand.

"I can accept one more," he said and gives her his hand. "Can I take your chocolate?"

Nina hands over her chocolate to him. "Let me help you, Senpai." She gives him her hand. Kaname hands over all the chocolate on his hand to Nina. The girl watches the dorm leader carefully. "I want to give it to you as thank you gift because you helped me twice."

"May I eat it now?" Kaname asked her permission.

Nina was never expect that Kaname would say it, but then she say, "Sure..." Nina replied. Her heart pumps faster when Kaname rips apart the cover and opens the box. He takes one of four chocolate in that box and put it into his mouth. Nina watches carefully without wink even once when he chews it and swallows it. Everything happens in slow motion in her sight. "How is it?" she asked curiously.

"It is pretty delicious." Kaname answered and smiles. Nina breathes a sigh of relief. She seems so happy. Why not? It is the first time she makes a chocolate and the first tester said that it was delicious. Her chocolate is success. "You can take it all."

Nina blinked her eyes. "What?" She looks down and sees the mound of chocolate on her hands. "All these...? For me...?" Her eyes growing bigger and shiny with stars in it, like a cute kitty face.

"Yes."

With that answer, Nina jumps happily. She is yelling "Hooray" for many times. Then, she stopped and faces Kaname. "Thank you, Kaname-senpai!" And then, she leaves.

After Nina leaves, Kaname stares the chocolate box on his hand. Nina made it for him and its taste is really delicious. But it is not the chocolate that makes him stands in silence, but the reaction she gave. The girl's reaction is the same as her: the girl in his past. It revealed the old scar, raise the memory. Every time she cooked something for him, she will wait until he ate it and wished to know his opinion, no matter how bad it is. When he shared his food, she would accept it happily. They both—Nina and the girl—have the same habitual. It looks like Nina has more similarity with the girl than he ever thought.

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Nina brings the chocolate with her and walks aim to her house, instead of school—please do not try this at home—In the middle of her way, she hits something hard or... someone. Both of them fall onto the ground. Nina touches her shoulder and cries a little because of the pain.

"Hey! Watch your way!" The man he hit grumbled to her. Weird... The voice is so familiar.

Nina looks up and faces a blonde-haired guy. His lazuli eyes blinks at her for several times. "Aidou-senpai?" Nina gets up quickly and bowed down before him. "I am sorry. I did not pay attention to where I go. Forgive me!"

One of Aidou's eyebrows is raises in amaze. "You are the daughter of chairman Kaien, aren't you?" He points his index finger onto her.

So what? Is the daughter of chairman that scary? Nina had been sick already of those questions. One more question like that and she will get out of this school. "Yes." Nina rises up and faces him again. "You are Aidou Hanabusa-senpai, right?"

"Of course...! I am the only Aidou Hanabusa in night class!" he said full of pride. Nina almost vomits her breakfast if she has no enough stregth to face someone with hyper confidences like this guy. Then, Aidou back into serious mode again. "What are you doing here? Shouldn't you at class now?"

Ups! This guy has caught Nina red-handed. Nina gulps in horror. She is looking for another answer, the answer that can help her out of this situation. "You too, Senpai... Shouldn't you in your dorm right now? The Valentine's event had over already." Nina gave back the question Aidou gave her.

Aidou responses it with "Oh" and then he coughed. Aidou let out his shiny eyes, gave her deathly glare that have made all the girl yelling his name crazily. "I want to meet you." Of course it is not the real answer and not the answer Nina wants to hear by. That is why she response it coldly instead of fainted happily in front of this guy. It gave no effects on Nina. Cross Nina knows that Aidou is trying to flatter her for something she could not understand. Isn't there any girl else he could persuade here? Looks like not. "Don't you want to meet me?" he asked again.

"Not really." The answer freeze the atmosphere, gave them Siberian-like-atmosphere. The unseen arrow stabbed Aidou's chest as deep as it could be. He never gets ignored by a woman like this.

Nina just remembers that she has another box of chocolate. She put her hand in her pocket and pick up the chocolate. She gives it to Aidou, melting the Siberian-like-atmosphere between them. "This is for you, Senpai."

Aidou's hyper confidence is back. "I know you must have made one for me. You acts like you are not interested to me but actually you interested with me, aren't you?" he teased her.

"It is just leftover chocolate. I made three only: for my father, Kaname-senpai, and Sayori. Who knows that I have made too much chocolate?" Nina laughed cheerily, does not know that Aidou's mood had fallen into the lowest mood of his life.

Aidou Hanabusa accepts the chocolate rigidly like robot. He feels like every inch of his body is freeze. His jaw drop and his eyes never blink even once. He stares Nina unbelievably. How could there is a girl like her in this world?

"Bye!" Nina left him behind, without any guilt on her face. In fact, she is look happy as usual. She left him and never turned back.

Aidou Hanabusa sighed. It is the first time she meet a girl like Nina. Her cold reaction may be because of her acknowledge that he and the rest of night class are vampires, Aidou could answer like that, but he has no answer for why that girl immune of his charm. Usually, even it is human, even it is the girl who acknowledge what exactly he is, they would fall into his charm. He never failed to make any girl interest with him. It is his first failure. Moreover, the girl who refused him is the plain-faced-girl like Nina. How shame. It is his biggest failure.

The lazuli eyed boy looks down to the chocolate Nina gave him just now. It covered by red ribbon. Aidou opens it and take one of four chocolate inside. He put it in his mouth and chewing it before swallows it.

"It is delicious..." he murmured.

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"How was it?" Cross Nina sits in front of chairman's table full of enthusiasm. She never blinks her eyes, watches her father carefully when that man chews her chocolate and swallow it. Her pound faster when Kaien looks up and thinking. She waits the answer patiently.

"I think it taste good." Kaien finally said. Nina breathes a relief: one more good testimony. After feel a bit relief, she yells happily again. She feels no shy to do that in front of her father.

In Kaien's opinion, right now Nina looks like a five years old child. But it does not matter. Kaien even never think about it. His feelings are fulfilled by happiness now. That man never sees his daughter this happy before, this is her brightest smile ever. "Did something great happen?"

"Yes. I have received no bad comments about my chocolate." Nina answered it with smile. "I think I will make it more and tastier next year!"

"I will wait then." Kaien responded. He replied his daughter's smile, but Nina seems to be confused. Her face as if she said: Why-you-smile? "It is the first time I see you smile like this, My Dear."

Nina raises one of her eyebrows. "What do you mean? Do not say that you never see me smile, Dad!"

"That is not what I mean." Kaien refused. "I just want to say that this is your most beautiful smile I have ever seen."

Everyone know that Kaien means to praises her, but it looks like Nina does not know it, or she does not like of what he said just now, because her face turn annoyed and the dark aura spread around her instead of smile and say thank you. Kaien pushes his chair to back up to avoid those dark auras. The man knows that he said something wrong but he does not know which word.

"If this is the most beautiful smile you have ever seen from me, Dad... say it," Okay. Now Nina's face and smile is so scary. Kaien froze in Goosebumps on his seat, "how was my smile all this time?"

What so wrong with that praise? Kaien thought confusedly. It is impossible to ask her about it because she is in her lowest level of mood today, thanks to Kaien. The chairman had made his own daughter—which was in her best mood ever—fell into the worst state in her life. He wept over his own mistake. "It looks like all my words are making you annoying, Nina."

Nina pounds on Kaien's table. She gives her adoptive father a death glare. "That is true. Your words ARE annoying me!"

Kaien surprised for a bit and then, he starts to cry very dramatically. He drops his head onto the table and cries desperately there. "My own daughter hates me! I am surely a useless father!"

Without gives any mercy, Nina walks away. She left behind her crying father. That man is still crying on his table. She knows that it is not real cries, but still she has made her father sad in this Valentine's Day: the day she supposed to make him happy. Nina stops in the front of the door. She has reached the handle when she suddenly turns back.

Nina smiles when she sees her father is still crying on his table. "Dad," she said. "I will cook more and make a tastier food for you!" Then she leaves.

After Nina left, Cross Kaien stops his cries, act so serious again. He improves the position of his glasses and smiles to the empty door where her daughter stands there for a while.

"Finally she found her hobby..." he murmured.

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Shower time is the time Cross Nina hates the most, because she has to reveal her disguises and face her true self: the self she always tries to avoid by. The thing she hates the most to do is facing the mirror in the bathroom after taking a bath. She will see her true self with her own eyes, like this time.

Nina has worn a new clothe when she face the mirror. She washed her hair today, but it does not need shampoo to reveal her true hair colour. It just need cool water and fuala, you can see the true Cross Nina.

Nina let go the towel that cover her wet hair without seeing the mirror. She takes a hair dryer not far from her and starts to dry her own hair, again no seeing the mirror. After several minutes, she is done. It takes a while until she dares to see her true self.

The hair she possesses is not black like everyone sees every day; it is pure white like silver. The eyes she possesses are not pitch black like everyone sees; it is purple like amethyst. Nina looks at her own reflection on the mirror in silence. She touches her own reflection and then touch her eyes before stroke her silver hair. There are no similarities between her and her father, Cross Kaien: Not the eyes, not the hair, and not the face. She is not her father's biologic daughter. She knew it since long time ago. She used to think and hope that the forty years old man who wants to adopt her is her father who came back for her and picked her up. Years passed and she learns that it is impossible. There is no way Cross Kaien would be her biologic father. It may be her true father already dead or too poor so he sent her to an orphanage. She does not know which one is true. She has no chance to find out. The only clue about her family and may be her past is he necklace surround her neck.

Ah! If she remembers that, she feels more pathetic. She is just a girl named Cross Nina, a fragile girl who even does not remember her own name. That is right. The people at the orphanage gave her the name "Nina". Then after she was adopted by Cross Kaien, the name Cross is added and becomes her first name. She used to confuse why Kaien adopted a sickly girl like her: she has an acute asthma since unknown time, she could easily have fever or get coughed, and many disease that often come suddenly. There is nothing she brings to her father's life except trouble, even so Cross Kaien never complained.

"He is such a good father." Nina thought and then she faces the mirror again, touch her cheeks once more and close her eyes. "I wander if there any people out there who resembles me. It would be great, but it has very little probability."

It is not meaning that Nina is pessimistic; it is because she found nothing all these ten years. No one resembles her hair so she thought may be her true family left her and avoid seeing her because they can recognize her by her hair and her eyes, so she decided to hide it when she entered high school. Wakaba Sayori and Cross Kaien is the only people who know these true colours of her eyes and hair. She hopes by doing this, she will find her true family sooner or later.

"Run away!"

Suddenly someone is screaming inside her mind. There is another sight. She feels it is bad sight but she wants to know it more than avoiding it. So, she stays close her eyes and let those sight flows into her.

Dark... Everything is covered by darkness. But she cans still seeing in that dark state. There is a young man who lies on the floor, but it looks clearly that the young man is trying to reach her. He creeps on the floor and swing her hand, ordered her to go away from him. The boy is bleeding, his blue pyjama has turned into red, he sink in the puddle of blood. Nina found out something frighten: the boy's hair is silver just like her. But she can not see the boy's face. It is too dark to see.

"What?" Nina murmured in shock.

"Don't you what me!" Nina surprised the young man is answered her, as if he can hears everything she says right now. "Just run away, you dammit! Run as far as possible!"

When Nina wants to say more, the sight begins to fades away. "No! Wait! Who are you?" Nina tried to reach the boy's hand, but when she opens her eyes, she only reaches an empty air. She closed her eyes and hope she could see the sight once more but it did not work. The sight is gone.

Nina is out of breathe likes a runner. The sight took all of her energy. She feels to the floor weakly. In the sight...there is a boy who has the same hair as her, suffers and bleeding so much. It is dark and the floor is full by blood.

What exactly is that?

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At Midnight

The Class is dismissed quicker than usual. How relief... Kuran Kaname has a business he has to finish as soon as possible: the business with the chairman. The leader of the Night Dorm comes to the room of chairman Kaien. He knocks the door and gets the permission to get in from the room's owner.

The room's owner sees him in surprise. It looks like the old man did not expect that he will come in such a time. The chairman serves him a glass and a box of red tablets. Cross Kaien put in one of those tablets into the glass. The tablet is vanishing, turns into a glass of red liquid. Kaien gives him the glass and walks back to his seat. Kaien stares Kaname but the guy is stares the red liquid in his glass.

"It is rare to see you come into my office this late, Kaname-kun." The chairman opened the conversation. "Is there anything you want to talk about?"

"It is not a big deal, Chairman." Kaname said. He quiet for a while. "You never told me that you had adopted a child."

Kaien is wandering what is mean of Kaname's question, but he holds himself. "I have no obliged to report anything to you, haven't I?" Kaien replied him with no fear, just like the other people like him. "Is it matter with you?"

"No. I just surprised when I found out that the girl I helped few days ago is your adopted daughter." Kaname answered.

"I told you at the same day when you saved her, didn't I?" Kaien asked confirmation. The guy did not get of what Kaname want to talk about until now.

"Yes." Kaname took his glass and drinks the liquid in it. When he done, "That is not what I want to talk with you, Chairman Kaien. There is something I want to ask you, that is all."

Kaien frowned. "What is it?"

"Did you adopt Nina from an orphanage?"

"Yes." That answer is enough for the dorm leader.

Kuran Kaname put down his glass and walks aim to Kaien. The dorm leader glares Kaien. If anyone else accept that glare, they would be tremble in frighten, but Kaien would not. The glares of vampires have been common thing for him.

"Could you tell which orphanage it is?" he asked seriously, very serious that if Kaien making jokes or does not give the answer he wants the time; he will tear the man's off.

To be continued...

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Ouch! My first cliff hanger in this fan fiction! Sorry, everyone! It is been the third chapter, do you feel something unusual in this fic? Like someone's disappearing for example? Ah forget it! All right, time to re:review!

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