Don't you just love Jacob?
It had been 10 minutes now and Edwards's posture was still like a rock, "Edward, are you ok?" He looked at me then, his expression softened and he smiled, but it didn't reach his eyes, "Yes, I'm fine. Some people's thoughts are just very inappropriate sometimes." Oh, I understood now, Jacob, "What was he thinking about?" I already knew the answer before I asked the question, "You"
"Me?" I obviously hadn't fooled him.
"Yes, you! I can't believe I actually let you dance with him, his thoughts were just vulgar, and thee worst part is, he thought it all for my benefit, he knew I could here everything in his head. And, he called you pretty, pretty? The nerve of him. You are far more than pretty!"
"Back up a second, did you just say he knew you were listening? How could he possibly know that?" Now, I was very confused.
"Yes, he is supposed to be just as much of a secret as we are. But he won't have told you about it, he's not allowed." Edward had a triumphant look on his face now, as though he was pleased with himself.
"Edward, I'm not sure I'm following you" Then he looked up as if someone had called him.
"I think its time to get you home Bella, love" It looked like I wasn't getting any answers tonight, and I was too tired to argue, I'd just ask again tomorrow.
"Errm, ok. Why? What time is it?"
"About 2 in the morning Bella" That was a shock, where did all the time go?
"Oh, I didn't realise it was so late" I let out one big yawn, and Edward pulled me out the door and lifted me into his Volvo.
I must have fallen asleep in the car because I only faintly remembered Edward carrying me to my room. That was the first night I dreamt of Jacob, the heat from his body pressing against me, his warm breath against my lips, his smooth hands.
I woke wrapped in Edwards's arms. Last nights dream was definitely not worth mentioning and if I'd given much away during my sleep, he probably wasn't going to mention it either. It took me a while before I could talk, there was a strange feeling overwhelming me that I couldn't quite identify. Plus, I felt absolutely wretched about last night's dream, why was I dreaming about Jacob Black? Once I'd got my thoughts together I looked up at Edwards beautiful face, he was staring straight at me, "Morning beautiful" he breathed, I wrapped my arms tighter around him and stretched my lips to his. He moved away at first, stroking my cheek with the back of his hand, then his face approached mine and our lips met. His kiss sent fear through me, this was not a normal kiss, it was too forceful, I remembered this kiss, it was the kiss he gave me when he thought he was going to lose me. I shuddered at the thought and pushed it to the back of my mind. Edward felt me shudder and pulled away, much too soon as usual.
"I love you" was all I could say. He looked at me and smiled,
"I have to go home and get changed, do you think you'll be ok for an hour?"
"Yer, I'm sure I can find someway to preoccupy myself, breakfast maybe?" I was very hungry.
"Ok, I'll be back very soon. I love you" And with that he was gone, out my window.
I went straight to the bathroom for a shower. As the water ran over all the curves on my body I couldn't help but think about last night. How could Jacob have gotten so tall? Why was his body so warm? And then all the feelings came flooding back to me. Jacob, me pressed against has body, his hands on my waist. My pulse instantly sped up. No, I couldn't think about Jacob this way. I had Edward, and he was all I'd ever need. I put the Jacob feelings away to the back of my head and avoided thinking about him. I went back to my room in my towel, I sat on the stool next to my desk and started drying my hair. My thoughts drifted off, to last year, when I first met Edward, he was so impossibly perfect even then, and he was so much more now. I thought about our meadow again. And how it would always be our place. I was so engrossed in my thoughts that I hadn't noticed Edward come in through the window. I was completely unaware of his presence until he chuckled from the corner. I spun round them to look at him, "I think I need a human moment, I'll be back in a minute" I picked up some clothes on my way out and walked to the bathroom. In the bathroom I sat on the cold floor, so many thoughts flooding through my mind, I began hyperventilating and the tears built up till I couldn't hold them in anymore. I'd managed to get dressed, it was difficult to see just how terrible I looked through my bloodshot eyes, but I was curled up on the bathroom floor crying when Edward found me. He lifted me up and took me back to my room. He sat on my bed with me curled up on his lap and he hummed my lullaby while I cried an ocean.
I cried for 3hours. Once I had finished my face was swelled up, my eyes puffy and tears streamed down my face, not to mention the huge wet patch on Edwards's shirt. When I felt confident enough to talk I turned to look at Edward, "I am so sorry you had to see that" he kissed my forehead and then whispered, "I'm sorry" I was shocked at his remark. He was sorry? What on earth could he possibly be sorry for? "You're sorry? Why are you sorry? You did nothing wrong?"
"I did though, I brought all this on you, this whole nightmare world, if I wasn't here you wouldn't have to go through all the pain." His face held a tortured expression, "No. Don't ever think like that. This isn't your fault, I swear to you." I was pleading with him now, why did he always find someway to blame himself? This was my fault. I was a terrible person. I was hurting him. He looked at me now, his expression calm, "I love you Bella, my Bella"
"I love you too Edward, I'll always be yours"
"I have to go away for a few days Bella, I need to hunt and Carlisle, Jasper and I have something to sort out. But Alice will be here, with Esme, and Rosalie, and Emmet. I promise you'll be safe." There was something in his eyes I didn't recognise. It sent a shiver right through my body. "How long will you be gone?" It hit me then that this wasn't any normal hunting trip.
"I'm not sure Bella, a week, two weeks? I don't know for sure, but I promise you I'll be back" The tears started to well up again, it wasn't long till they over flowed. He scooped me up in to his arms and kissed me, for longer than usual, then he set me down on my bed. "I love you Edward" I managed to whisper through my sobs, he sat down next to me and stroked my face, "I love you too Bella, I promise you, I will be back" and then he left, and I had no clue whether I'd see him again.