Here have some kiddie!Beremy. Flashbacks in Italic.

Unbelievable she had just ran out on me again. All I wanted to do was talk, I needed her to know the truth but instead she just left me once again. Why wasn't I good enough for any of the women in my life to want to stay there?
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Jeremy was four when he first met bonnie.

"Jer look what my new best friend gave me! Isn't it pretty!"

"It's just a leaf 'leana."

"No its a flower!" A tiny brown skin girl with a curly ponytail looked at him agitatedly with her hands on her hips.

"No it's a leaf, see!" He pulled an identical leaf off the tree the three of them were standing under. He waved it in front of them but their faces were still scrunched up.

"My mommy says that a leaf in Autumn is the same as a flower in the spring."

Elena looked at the leaf in her hands with wide eyes "how?"

The little girls green eyes started to water.
"Um…um I don't know" she played with her hands . Jeremy could see how scared she was.

" It's okay" he said grabbing her hand .

"Maybe your mommy was just playing pretend, but I don't really like pretend. I think it's crummy for a leaf to want to be a flower when a leaf is just as good. Let's play tag."

The little girl looked with uncertainty. "O..okay I'm Bonnie"

"I'm Jeremy, Elena is my cousin.

"No Jer! You're my brother" Elena pouted.

Jeremy ignored her and ran off still holding Bonnies hand
"Lena you're it! "
They met in the park at 2:30 everyday after that. When it started to get cold they played at each other houses. Jeremy's Mom made cookies and always gave the warmest hugs but they played at Elenas house mostly because she had a playroom. They learned how to tie their shoes together, caught their first flu together, lost their baby teeth together and took their first bully down together.

Jeremy was seven when he first learned what it meant to hurt.

After eating dinner at Bonnies house, like he usually did, his dad was once again two hours late picking him up.

"I'm so sorry Abby, I was sure his mother was picking him up tonight."

"Its fine we love having Jeremy here."

hugged him before he climbed into the car. It seemed like his parents were always forgetting him lately. Pulling up to his house Jeremy looked out the window with wide eyes all he could see were lights. So many lights. Except inside his house where only the light in the living room was on. Who were all these people in front? What did they want? Jeremy had a bad feeling in the pit of his stomach.

"What the hell happened?! Is Karen okay? This is my house someone tell me what's going on!'

"Sir, I need you to calm down. The officer over there will take your child."

Jeremy was rushed off. He stood with a group of men in blue who kept throwing him pitying looks and asking if he needed anything. Jeremy didn't pay them any attention he watched his father talking to the other officer, he was screaming. He had never seen his dad turn so red as he grabbed the policeman by the collar and shaked him violently. It took three cops to hold Mr. Gilbert as he kicked the air furiously. When more people came out of the house carrying a black bag on a stretcher his father went completey limp. He sunk to the ground and started to sob. His whole body heaving as he stared at Jeremy. Jeremy started to cry too, he was confused and scared and really wanted his mom.

His mothers funeral was a blur of black. Nobody had told him much except mom had went to live with the angels. He didn't get it were the angels better than him? They couldn't possibly need her as much as he did. He went out back to find Elena and Bonnie .

"What does Su-a-side mean?"

"I'm not sure where did you here that from?" Elena picked at her plate spilling doughnut crumbs on her black skirt.

"Your parents were talking about my mom and they kept shaking there head and using that word."

"Hold on, I'll go ask them!" she shoved her plate at Bonnie and ran off.

"She just doesn't want to be around me." He spoke towards the ground kicking at the grass with his shoes "Nobody wants to be around me today."

Bonnie grabbed his hands.

"Come with me, I want to show you something. You have to cover your eyes when I tell you to though!"

They ran through the backyard to the woods that were a little behind Elena's house. When they'd decided that they had outgrown the playroom the trio started to spend their days by the small stream inside the woods.

"Can I uncover my eyes now?"

"Not yet, a little farther. Okay now!"

He looked around untill he spotted a maple tree with a marking on it.

"What does it mean?" He ran his hand over the carving it was beautiful.

"Its a leaf made out of e-fin-ity symbols. My dad taught me that it means forever. The stuff inside is just our initials." She played with her hands.

"Anyways it means that no matter what happens i'll be here and i'll take care of you. Forever."

He had been holding back tears all day but he couldn't stop them this time. He wasn't sure if he hugged her or she hugged him but all of a sudden he was crying into her shoulder like if she let him go he would never have the power to stand on his own again. When he couldnt cry anymore she wiped his face. Leaning against the maple tree they shared their first kiss.

Jeremy thought of the hour spent by the maple tree often. It helped him when his father drank himself into a early grave a year later. It helped him when he went to his first foster home. It even helped dull the pain of the bloody swollen lip his second foster mother gave him for not doing his chores right. When his Uncle and Aunt finally won custody of him at the age of 12 it felt like the only thing left he had of his past.

"Hey man, are you using that book?" Some guy in a red lettermans jacket and dark hair appeared next to him.

"What? Oh no it belongs to my friend"

"Aren't you the kid from the news? The one who helped rape that girl?"

"No. Sorry, I have no idea what you're talking about"

Jeremy grabbed Bonnie's physics book and his bag with the text books he had just rented and walked out. People were starting to recognize him, so much for a fresh start. How could he explain that they had no idea what had actually happened. He knew one person he could start with and he knew just how to find her.

More backstory next chapter! Thanks for reading!