Chapter 4
Four months after the birth of their son, Jeffrey had been seeing someone else behind Audrey's back; and to make matters even worse, Audrey hadn't been acting like herself, lately. She wouldn't trust herself with the baby, so she had hired a nanny. But the nanny had to go home eventually, which meant that Audrey had to care for Robynne when Jeff wasn't home.
Most people would argue that Audrey was a good mother but she just didn't feel like she was cut out to be one. She had never intentionally harmed her child but she did have the thoughts, along with thoughts of suicide. Ever since she gave birth, she was always crying or in a depressed mood, she never wanted to talk to any of her friends nor did she have any desire to do some of the things she used to love. Problems sleeping and fatigue along with appetite problems weren't new with Audrey but after giving birth they seemed to get worse.
While his fiancee was struggling with her problems, Jeff's affair was starting to heat up. Her name was Jolene and she was 26. She had brown hair down to her shoulders with strawberry blonde highlights and emerald green eyes that you could just lose yourself in. She was just everything that Audrey was not; tall, skinny, blonde, and a country girl. He would creep in to the house at all times in the mornin, then wrap his arms around Audrey, like everything was okay.
"Morning baby." Jeff drawled, looking at his soon-to-be wife. Audrey sighed and rolled on her side. "Babe, what's wrong?" he asked, gently rubbing her back. "I'm ugly..." the young woman cried. "Awww.." Jeff wrapped his arms around her and kissed her shoulders. "You're more beautiful now, then the day I met you." He purred into her ear. "So you're saying I was ugly then?" Audrey looked at him and began crying harder. "Baby, whats wrong? You've been crying A LOT lately. Over little things too. Is there anything wrong?" He asked her, kissing her neck. "I just don't.. Don't touch me Jeff!" she broke out of Jeff's embrace and got up from the bed. "Just don't touch me... I'm ugly!" She cried and sat on the edge of the bed.
"Audrey, I can't take this anymore. You need to get help for this before it ends up fatal for yourself or even worse, the baby." Jeff took a deep breath. "You also need to know that I've been seeing someone else." He confessed. "YOU WHAT?!" Audrey screamed! "Why would you do this? Jeffrey, we have a child together! Has that ever crossed your mind?" She yelled at him! "HAS IT?" She picked her up baby and cuddled him in her arms.
"Audrey, it has crossed my mind. I don't why I'm sleeping with her... I feel real bad for doing this to you." Jeff went to wrap his arms around Audrey's waist but she moved out of the way.
"How did you meet her?" The young girl asked. "ANSWER ME!" She screamed, still holding her baby who was now crying.
"I was doing a signing in Atlanta and that's where I met her. She was just standing there and she was shy; and I felt like she 'the one'. So I asked her for her number and from there it escalated into something more. Then we began sleeping together." He admitted everything and felt his heart sink when he saw Audrey burst out into tears. "But honey, I am so sorry."
"Just answer this last question, Jeffrey... Do you love me?" She stared silently at her baby's father.
"You know I love you with all my heart. I always did and I always will."
"You're lying! If you loved me then wouldn't have cheated on me." Audrey sobbed. She got out a pair of black sweatpants and a baby blue spaghetti string tank top. She got her son dressed in a pair of black sweats, a white t-shirt, and a blue jean jacket then grabbed his car seat. "Until you can actually prove that you love me, and I mean PROVE you love me, we're done."