Just in case you have not read the summary. I have revived all the chapters. :) So go back and read from chapter 1. It's the same plot, just with more details.
He heard her sobs and smelt her salty tears before the small frame of the young human woman stormed out of the forest, followed by Jaken and Ah-Un not too far in distance. Jaken had been muttering some many colorful words along the way. The scene before him left him to wonder what could have been the caused to make her mood to swing so drastically.
She was happy, teased him even, before she left to gathered food. So what's changed? And why was she crying?
Jaken was muttering something about not being abandoned under his breath as his short legs are trying to catch up with her.
Rin's ran came to a halt in front Sesshomaru who had been sitting under the big tree wearing an uninterested expression, but quickly shot draggers at his servant who shrank and covered in cold sweats.
"I- I didn't do anything my Lord," the imp protested nervously at Sesshomaru's accusing glare.
"Rin," he stated to the crying girl who had been rubbing her eyes in front of him.
She understood his silent question and looked into the demon's lord golden eyes.
"Rin, wants Lord Sesshomaru," she stepped closer and kneeled down beside him before grabbed a hold of one of his white and red sleeves. Tears were drowning her beautiful brown eyes like over flown rivers. She continued on between sobs, "Can you help Rin find Lord Sesshomaru?"
He felt a sharp pang stabbed at his cold heart, known as quilt and something more, at her word. She eyed him pleadingly and hopefully.
"Please take Rin to him and Rin promise Rin won't take a long time to find food anymore. Rin doesn't want to be abandon." Her fat teardrops drip down her pink cheeks onto his forearm.
His eyes soften (to her eyes at least) as he put all the pieces together. Jaken must have complained about her taking too long and that Sesshomaru would not be happy about it.
Why did Jaken have to open his rotting mouth and made matters worse? Jaken had known him too well, yet not knowing him at all. Why did he have to ruin his already bad day?
Sometimes he wondered if Jaken had been secretly enjoyed being beaten and purposely ruined his moods. He gave the imp another dead glare which made the already small creature felt even smaller.
He almost sighed. He had to comfort Rin somehow and made her stop crying. But what could he do in this situation? He had never tried to comfort anyone before. He did not need to.
Even when Rin was a child, she never needed comfort. All he had to do was calling her name and all fears and uneasiness would disappear from her.
No, she never cried as a child.
Just then, Jaken decided to show how tough his body was and that he wanted more black and blue bruises to decorate on his green body, he opened his mouth,
"You ungrateful human! How can you be so blind and not see that Lord Sesshomaru is sitting before you! How can you asking Lord Sesshomaru to go find Lord Sesshomaru? No wondered he-"he never had the chance to finish the sentence, but his too familiar scream could be heard for miles across the sky.
"Rin," Sesshomaru stated which got the crying girl's whole attention, "Sesshomaru," he decided to not mention the fact that he was Sesshomaru knowing she would refuse to believe him. To be honest, his chest felt tight at the fact that she had been strongly rejected to believe that he was Sesshomaru, "-is never too far from you. He will never abandon you only because you're taken your time to find food".
"Really?" sniffed the girl.
"Hn."
"But why is he not here? Where is he?" sadness occupied her beautiful face.
"He always watches over you wherever you are. He will come running at your call when you need him."
"You think so?" her voice was hopeful, a smile appeared again on her once teary face.
"I know so," his voice was almost sad. To others it would not sound any different from his normally cold and bored one, but if Jaken were here he would be bursting into tears.
~XoooX~
It had been a few days since Rin had joined him. She was happy most of the times, sang, danced, laughed, did a lot of talking and picking flowers around like her old self. Her eight year-old self. Until Jaken decided to stir things up and mentioned Sesshomaru's name. She would then cry and try to find where her Lord Sesshomaru was and Sesshomaru would have to calm her down.
It wasn't an easy job he would admit. He could not shut her up by tearing her head off or walked away and left her to stop crying on her own. Jaken was even worst at comforted her because the more he tried the louder and longer and sadder Rin's cry became.
And for the first time in his life he had to baby siting someone. And not a child, but and adult who had the mind of a child.
Sesshomaru looked at the sleeping woman beside the fire. Or what used to be the fire since it had been out for a while now. She nowadays was acting more like a child than when she was a child, he thought. She was crying openly and frequently, begging to be with her lord, acting clingy unlike when she was a child and listened to every commend he said. She was always so independent and strong back then even for a human. But now she seems so fragile.
And it was his fault that she had become this way.
He was glad that she had been sleeping in peace. Glad that she had been smiling again. Glad that she was no longer seemed to be in pains. But he needed to turn her back to her old self. Whatever it may took.
The night airs was cool. The moon light was dull and barely shone upon the earth. Sesshomaru focused his eyes back on the stars, thinking of a way to turn her back. Maybe he should find a healer. Inuyasha's mate was a healer but she could not help Rin, saying it was because of the stage of her mind. That she escaped into her mind to protect herself from the painful reality.
But he would not give up. He would find a way.
Just then he heard Rin shifted and started to twist and turn in her sleep. Cold sweats broke down on her forehead. She must have a nightmare again. Just like the old days.
He gracefully stood up and quietly made his way to her.
"Lord Sesshomaru," she murmured in her sleep.
"Rin," she gently shook her shoulder and her eyes shot opened.
"Lord Sesshomaru?" her hands were reaching out into the darkness, her browns knitted together, her breathing was heavy, and her entire body was trembling. "Lord Sesshomaru," she called again, her hands felt the empty space searching for him. She was afraid.
She who had never showed an ounce of fear in any situation was now trembling.
He gave a hand to her and she grasped onto it with her dear life. "Lord Sesshomaru," she murmured making sure it was really him.
"Hn," he answered. She smiled with relief before leaping into his chest. He growls as his free hand quickly come to block between her and his spiky armor. He then rapidly, but carefully removed the armor and allowed the girl's body to press against his torso.
"I had a nightmare," she started. "I dreamt that you have left me and will never back." Her voice was quivering and her hands grasped tightly onto his clothes as if it were her lifeline. "There were fires everywhere; burring everything down. So many people were killed right before my eyes. I wanted to call for you, but I couldn't. Because a voice inside my head told me you won't come for me no matter how hard or loud I cry. I couldn't find my voice to call your name. But it was just a nightmare. I am still having you with me." She looked up to where his face was supposed to be because it was too dark for her human eyes to see. She smiled.
A lump caught in his throat. He was not one to lie and he never had trouble to say he needed to stay, but he could not answer her. He could not tell her that it was all true and he had left her. Abandoned her in the most needed moment. That it was all real and he was more than sorry for leaving her. His arms wrapped around her warm soft body.
"From now on, don't hesitate to call me. No matter where you are, I will come for you."
She smiled and rest her head against his chest feeling protected. "I know," she whispered and sighed happily.
His chin rests on her crown inhaling her scent. Her smile was bittersweet for him. It was he who took that smile away from her. Her sunshine smile.
"Go to sleep, Rin," he ordered quietly.
"Yes, Lord Sesshomaru," she answered and closed her eyes. She didn't plan to move from his embrace, and he didn't mind. Soon she let out an evenly breathing rhythm indicated that she had been to dream land.
He lifted her sleeping body and carried with him to where the tree he had been sitting was. He leaned against it and closed his eyes.
"I will always come for you, Rin. So don't stop calling my name," he whispered to the gentle night airs.
Tisg167: Yes that will happen… someday. :D
Minky Sam: Yes, that will be great, but he would be suffering for a while before that would happen.
ChocolateReader: Thanks.
Sotam: Lol, Thanks. Sorry for not answer you earlier.
Rinshy: Lol Sesshy is regretting it. And yes, Ah-Un is such a cute creature. ^^
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