What You Don't Know Chapter 4: What you don't know, a twilight fanfic

.A/N: Ok this is as long as it would go. So this is the last chappy. Hope you guys like it. Please tell me what you think.

Dedication time!!! Lol! This chappy is dedicated to three of the most amazing people. Misty and of course her daughter Hailey. And my great Aunt Tant Rania. Love you guys!!!

What you don't know

BPOV

It's been a week since my painful change. Have I seen Edward? No. He doesn't remember anything. Alice told me that the last thing he remembered was when they were leaving. After that he doesn't remember anything. Meaning he doesn't remember changing me. And he doesn't know. Alice was going to take me to him when I had some control on myself, but the first two days I was impossible. I needed to hunt like a human who haven't seen food for a week. But after that the weirdest thing happened.

I was back to normal. Normal as in I'm not so crazy over blood. I can control all my instincts as if they aren't there. I am so in control that right now I'm back with Charlie. His scent doesn't bother me. Not the least. I could control my strength very well. When I would hug him, I wouldn't crush him. I could control the temperature of my skin around him so that when he touches me I don't feel like cold ice to him. I could change my eye color when I'm in front of him to make it brown like it used to be. So he didn't really notice much except the abnormal sudden beauty. And that was easy enough to explain. Three words. An Alice makeover.

At first we were confused and then we figured out that it was my power. I could do the opposite of anything. When I was human I did the opposite of everything expected. That became my power. I could eat human food and not puke it. I could sleep if I want to but it's not needed. I could do anything. Which was cool.

"Bella, come on!" Alice whined. We were at the meadow. Edward wasn't here. He left once he snapped out of it and found out how close he came to "damaging my life again" ugh!

"Sorry Alice" I said as I took her in my arms again. Alice was teaching me how to waltz. I wanted to learn everything before I met Edward. I wanted to be capable of doing everything he likes. He liked to waltz with me but I couldn't dance before. But now I was fixing that. I was going to see him again. And when I do, nothing will be able to pull us apart again. I will be just like him. I would never have to leave his side. Even when he hunts. I'm going to see Edward tomorrow!

EPOV

"Esme, please. Why do I have to come?" I pleaded. The whole family was going out to some-place. I didn't care enough to know where. And they all insisted I go with them.

"Edward, Alice is going to play the piano in the theater. She is so excited, we have to all be there to encourage her. It's her first time. A lot of people are going to be there, would you think she would be happy if you didn't come? Would you ruin this for her?" Esme said quietly staring into my eyes.

I sighed. Of course I wouldn't do that. But I couldn't go out. I don't think I'll be able to really hear the music she'll play. But then again, this was Alice. I could go and pretend that I heard it and then clap with everybody else. I know Alice is a wonderful pianist I don't need to hear her twice to know that.

"Ok, I will go with you" I said grimly. That's what Bella would have wanted I added mentally. I missed her so much. It was so painful to be in the same place that she was in and not run to her. I don't know what happened to me or how I got there. All I remember was telling her the words that crushed both of us then everything after that is so dark. Sometimes I remember her voice telling me things like "There's nothing to forgive" and some other times I remember that she kissed my cheek. But I couldn't remember when did those things actually happen? Maybe it's just my imagination and they never happened. I don't know. All I know is that I miss her, and I need her.

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We were in someplace somewhere. It was crowded with people. I can't really tell you how it really looked like because I didn't really see it. It was just full of rows and rows of empty seats and there was a big stage with a big black shiny piano. There were glass bars in the middle of the stage that made the shape of half a circle. Each glass bar had colorful roes wrapped around it from top to bottom.

There was a spot light on the seat of the piano and in the middle of the glass bars. I was shocked to see that no one was here but us. Poor Alice would be disappointed. Well, I'm glad now that I came, it would be bad enough without my absence.

Alice stepped out onto the stage and didn't seem to notice that there was no one but us there. That was strange. I tried to read her mind but she was blocking it as usual.

"Wow, she's beautiful" I heard Jasper whisper. Alice looked his way smiled and gave her husband a quick wink. He was right. Alice wore a black strapless dress, that was knee length and white spotted. It had a wide red ribbon wrapped around her waist. And at the very end of her dress was colored in red. (A/N: picture in my profile for the dress and shoes). She also wore really high heeled, shiny, red shoes. Yes she did look beautiful. I clapped along with my family and plastered a smile on my face.

"Thank you for coming" she whispered to me. I smiled and nodded.

She turned to face the piano and sat in the bench. I heard ticking, like there was a clock nearby. After seven ticks Alice started to play. The tune was sweet, modest, and very charming. I closed my eyes and buried my face in my hand as I realized that it was a romantic tune. Here I am listening to the most romantic tune ever played without the love of my existence sitting wrapped in my arms. It was painful to hear it but I held myself in my seat for Alice.

I felt a movement beside me and I opened my eyes to see that I was sitting alone. They were all gone. I was the only one sitting and listening to Alice's playing. Where had they gone? They'll hurt her feelings that way. I tried to look for there thoughts but I couldn't find them. I was going to go look for them but I didn't want to hurt Alice, so I kept in my place.

Then, I heard a voice so familiar yet so strange. So real yet so unreal. So close yet so far. It was a voice so beautiful that it could only remind me of my Bella. But it sure wasn't her voice, it was so different. Yet still the same. I lifted my head up and concentrated on the voice, picking up the words in the beautiful song.

"What you don't know,

is that your scars are beautiful

What you don't know,

is your imperfections are what make me whole,

What you don't know

Is how to spare the time

Cuz I can't speak whenever you're around, oh"

I stared at Alice who had a big smile on her face. The voice was heart melting. It made my eyes weld with tears that would never fall. But who was it?

"And it's not like me to hide behind a wall

And it's not like me to fear the fall"

And then the most amazing thing happened. The place where the second spot light was shinning in, the one that was full of flowers, started to shine more brightly. Glitter started to fall from the top on the floor. And then she appeared. The most beautiful thing I could ever lay my eyes on. She descended from above. The first thing that appeared were her pink high heels. She had one leg in front of the other before she reached the floor. Then there was the uneven endings of her dress. The edges were in pink but the whole dress was black. When she descended more, the thin pink ribbon that was tied around her waist appeared. She had one pale hand over the other in front of her. A little more and I could see that the dress was strapless. (A/N: pics for the dress and shoes in my profile) I saw long brown curls covering her shoulders. Then I saw her.

I gasped, "Bella!"

Once her name left my lips her head slowly lifted up and her eyes opened. They were golden! Beautiful golden. My beautiful Bella was a beautiful vampire, but how? When? And was she flying?

I shook the questions out of my head and stared at her, she was so beautiful. And more, she was here. Just a few steps away from me. And she was singing.

"What you don't know is that I lie awake

Wishing you were here tonight"

She started descending the steps of the stage. I was staring at my love, and she was singing to ….me!

"What you don't know is that I love you

Long before we were alive"

She was getting closer, and closer. I wanted to stand up, to run to her. To take her in my arms, but I was frozen. All I could to was gawk at her, and try to convince myself she was really there. And that she just said that she loved me.

"Cuz how would you know?

How could you know?

So now I'm gonna tell you everything……"

She stopped in front of me and took both my hands in hers. I stared down at our hands and then back at her. She was really there. Truly. Her warm touch sent shivers down my spine, her scent was mesmerizing as her voice. And then I couldn't control myself. In one very quick movement She was in my arms. I held her tight and sobbed soundlessly. She stroked my hair as I shook in her arms. She continued singing to me as she pulled me with her up the stage.

" What you don't know
I have studied the way you walk "

She pulled me up the stage and wrapped both my arms around her. She put one hand on my neck and the caressed my cheek with the back of her other. I leaned into her hand without noticing.
"What you don't know
Is I've already kissed you in the shadows of my heart"

She then traced my eyebrow and that's when it happened.

I love you, Edward. I heard her voice in my mind whisper. I gasped and stared at her (again), She smiled and nodded, while she was singing.
What you don't know
Is that you're poetry
If you turn around there's someone you won't see"

I've missed you so much. I still love you by the way, I can never stop loving you, no matter what you try to do. And just so you know, this is not a one way connection.

Bella?I thought hesitantly. She smiled.

Yes I can hear you, just as you can hear me. Now I want you to hear this. And then she flooded my mind with our memories. All of them. From the first time she laid her eyes on me, and I was surprised to feel her feeling when she saw me. She really did love me more than I knew. I underestimated her feelings for me. My mind was filled with both our happiness, that it made me smile. Really smile.

"And it's not like me to hide behind a wall" She sang. Then she took one of my hands in hers and she lifted my hand from her waist to her upper back. She put a hand on my shoulder and started swaying us gracefully. I let her lead since I was still shaking from my urge to sob.

You're……waltzing? I thought stunned.

"What you don't know
is that I lay awake
Wishing you were here tonight
What you don't know
Is that I loved you long before we were alive
Cause how would you know, how could you know
So now I'm gonna tell you everything"

For you. Was her answer. I heard in her mind how hard she worked with Alice to do this. So I straightened up and took the leading, wanting our first waltz to be special.

It is special. She thought. I smiled as I spun her around, and she spun gracefully without tripping. I spun her out and then quickly back in, not baring any distance.

"What you don't know,

What you don't know" She kept singing her high notes that I swear were so soft that could have made me sleep if it were possible.

Do you trust me? She suddenly thought. I stared at her, Was that a real question??

"What you don't know
Is when the moon and the sun collide
The morning comes
there's time I won't be afraid to try"

Of course I do.

Then hang on. Her hand fell from my shoulder and wrapped around my waist. Then I didn't feel the floor beneath my feet. Bella was flying, and she was carrying me with her! I looked at the floor that looked like it was falling away from us, when actually we were the ones leaving it. I looked back at Bella who the wind was ruffling with her playfully, making her look more and more stunning.

Um where are we going?

How about cloud nine? She grinned. Her grin was so breathtaking. I felt my breathing hitch. Her smile grew wider and then she took my hand and intertwined it with hers and closed her eyes. I just stared at her, not knowing what to do but that. Just stare at her beauty. The beauty that I missed. It has been too long since I felt so alive.

Her eyes opened again and she smiled.

Trust me. She thought. And before I could ask her what she meant, she let go of me. We were so high from the ground that I expected to fall into pieces. But I didn't. I was still in front of her. Flying!!

"Bella!" I gasped, she smiled and nodded. The air around me felt like a soft supporter, like I was standing on a ground made of silk. Very soft and caressing silk. I looked around me and found nothing but the black sky that was covered with dozens and dozens of shiny stars. There were a few white looking smoke, that I figured were the clouds. Bella pulled me on top of one. I laid beside Bella on the bed-like cloud. It felt like I was laying on a bed made of nothing but light feather.

I chuckled, "I feel like Peter Pan" I said turning to my side. She was on her side too. She took my hand and squeezed it.

"You don't look like Peter Pan" She whispered. I touched her cheek and traced her features with my fingertips. She closed her eyes at my touch and I closed mine too. I pulled her closer to my side and tucked her head under my chin and sighed as she hugged me tighter.

Not wanting to ruin the moment by breaking the silence I thought,

When? She knew what I was talking about. And I felt her hesitate a little to tell me. Please?

She sighed and showed me everything. I winced as I watched myself suffer. I didn't know that I was that bad. I can't even remember being in this state. And then she showed me when my family got her. I made a mental note to thank Jasper and Rosalie, their words were what made her come. Then She showed me her……..plan? I gasped. I bit Bella? How was that possible? When did I do that? Bella replayed it again when she sensed my shock. She sliced her palm open and gave me her blood? I tried to attack her? The family pulled me away? How could I do this to her? I was such a…a…

"Please, don't" Bella whispered. I was silent for a moment. "Edward, this is what I want. I can't tell you how happy I am. You are happy too, I can hear it. Underneath it all, you are happy too. Please, just leave yourself to be happy for once. For me? Would you do it for me?" I touched her cheek again and then sighed. What could I say when she put it that way?

"Thank you" She said and I could hear her smile in her voice, "Moving on to more cheerful topics" She showed me how she had planned all this with my family. How she hard she trained to give me one of the experiences I once wanted to have with her. Even though I never told her. I guess, maybe Alice did. She also showed me how gifted she was.

After she finished she was silent. She turned on her back and stared up at the stars like I did.

"I missed you" I whispered. She looked back at me and put her hand over my heart.

"I missed you too" She whispered back. And then I realized that I didn't tell her till now. It felt that the words were going to explode if I didn't say them soon so I murmured,

"I love you"

She smiled and said, "I know"

I laughed, and I leaned and kissed her forehead. When she was staring at the stars again, I started debating on whether or not to just tell her.

"Do you think……" and then I trailed off. I've never been so nervous in my life.

She turned her head to look at me with a smile, "yes?"

I stared at her and made up my mind. I took a deep breath as I bored my eyes in to hers, ready to read the first reaction that comes out of her. I didn't have full access on her brain. Only when she wanted me to. "What do you think Wendy would have said if……Peter Pan had asked her hand in marriage?" I blurted out quickly. Staring intently in her eyes, I noticed a flash of something but she hid it before I could define it.

"Oh" She said then looked at our hands. I held my breath, "I think that Peter is too good for Wendy. Far…far too good for her. It wouldn't be fair to him. He deserves better" She mumbled.

I held back anger. I don't understand the way she sees herself, "but that's not true. Wendy, is more than perfect. Peter is the one who doesn't deserve her. Besides, What if Peter really believed that she was the one for him. That he would never want anything but her. That he wants to have her forever. Would Wendy still say no?"

She was silent for a moment. I put my finger under her chin and lifted her face up to meet her eyes. Her eyes looked torn. Like she was caught in an internal dilemma.

"What would Wendy say?" I repeated. "What would you say?"

Her eyes were full of tears, that ran down her cheeks as quickly as they came. I was about to tell her that she didn't have to answer if she didn't want to, when she beat me and croaked, "I would say that Wendy, is the luckiest girl that had ever walked on the face of this earth, and that she would be a fool to say no." I smiled and pulled her into my arms again. I let her cry for a while, but I knew they weren't tears of pain. They were tears of joy, so I let them fall, feeling my own joy for once. Bella had just agreed to marry me. To be my wife forever. How more perfect can this night be?

After a few more minutes, Bella stopped crying. We sat there and I watched as Bella played with her new gifts. She kept moving the stars form their places and making shapes, we both laughed whenever she made a funny shape.

What can you not do? I asked laughing. This time I was using the question she had once asked me.

She laughed as she recognized the question. I can do anything. And then I heard the excitement flash in her head as she said, I can give you whatever you want too. Wish for anything.

I smiled. I don't really want anything. All I wanted was her, nothing more and nothing less.

Please? There's got to be something She pleaded. I don't know why she wanted to much to do this but I considered it for her.

Nothing. I always wished I could be human for her, but now this wish was pointless, what did I ever wish I could do….? And I trailed off as I remembered one thing. Something that I wished for ever since I met her. Even when I left I kept wishing for it. And now I am still wishing for it.

What's that? She asked at once. I could feel her thrill as she was so happy that she could give me something.

I stared into her eyes for what felt like years before I answered her, "I've always wished to be able to sleep, so I could dream about you" I whispered. This stunned her. It took her a moment to recover and when she did she smiled.

"I could do that" She said happily.

"Really? Can you make me sleep?" I couldn't believe it! Finally I'd be able to sleep and dream about her. The feeling that rushed through me was indescribable. You could say I was thrilled but that would be an understatement.

I've always wondered how it felt like for Bella to fall asleep in my arms while I hummed her lullaby then have a dream about me that made her smile. How would that feel like?

"I'll show you" She whispered. She pulled me into her warm embrace and rested my head on her shoulder. She wrapped her arms around me and started singing softly to me.

Her voice was so soft and so hypnotizing that it didn't help my eyelids that were falling. I didn't understand this strange feeling. My whole body over relaxed. My mind diming as my vision. I smiled as Bella's soft voice painted a happy picture of a beautiful woman wearing a white dress.

Thank you. I love you. Were what I was able to say to her.

I love you too, now sleep, sweetheart. Dream the dreams that you once made me dream. And feel the happiness that you make me feel. I was way past answering her as I saw the bride walking down the aisle to reach her husband. Who she would be with till forever.

"What you don't know"