Disclaimer: I do not own Glee or any of the characters.

I have decided to update often, I want to keep people interested. I don't know how long this fic will go, I don't know how it will end, probably with Kurt in a happy place, and all of the things you guys have mentioned will happen. Puck and Kurt will have something, Finn will realise he's been a crap brother, and I'm pretty sure we'll meet Blaine, I don't know if he will be dating Kurt though. I realise how cringe-worthy it is to see how oblivious Finn is being to Kurt's abuse, but don't worry, things will get better.

'I don't want it to get better, I want it to be better! NOW!' – Artie Abrams

Last Time, Kurt saw Puck shirtless, and he liked what he was seeing, Finn only brought Kurt and Puck to New York because it will help his NYADA application, Rachel is a selfish bitch, and Kurt collapsed after he kept hearing VOGUE in his head from everybody, which was kind of creepy!

Finn sat in the hospital, talking to Burt about the incident. Burt didn't come to the hospital because it was too far away and he insisted that Kurt would be fine and Finn not to worry, Finn thought it was dumb that Burt and Carole didn't come to the hospital, something could be really wrong with Kurt and they didn't even want to come and see if he was alright or in good hands or anything like that!

'I don't understand why it happened. I thought he would be so happy, I thought he loved Vogue, but he said he didn't want it, then he just fainted.' Finn explained, still confused about the whole situation because you know… He's Finn.

'Good.' Burt said

'Wait what? How is it good?' Finn angrily protested.

'He shouldn't be reading that gay shit.' Burt said, surprising Finn.

'But he is gay, and he likes that stuff Burt. He read it through the whole plane ride!'

'Interesting. Well I was only joking Finn.'

'Your sense of humour is unusual.'

'Haha, I guess it is, tell Kurt I really. Really. Hope he gets better, and I can't wait to see him.' There was a evil grin on Burt's face.

'Will do. Cya.' Finn hung up, and he didn't think Burt was joking…

'I thought he loved Vogue.' Rachel pouted, Puck felt like punching her in the face, she's said that like 100 times now. A doctor left Kurt's room and approached us.

'Kurt Hummel?' The doctor called out

'Yes! We're here for him! How is he?' Finn worryingly asked.

'Hello, I am Dr. Nicolas, Kurt is fine, it seems he only collapsed because of stress of some kind.'

Finn put all the pieces together, Burt said Kurt shouldn't be reading Vogue, and Kurt said he didn't want to read it anymore even though he used to love reading it! Kurt must of wanted to stop reading Vogue but Burt wanted him to keep reading to show that he was gay and proud! But then Burt decided he only cared about what Kurt wanted!

'Burt is such a good dad' Finn thought

'Thank you doctor, we'll try and keep him under any stress and let him relax for a couple of days.' Rachel assured, and Puck nodded in agreement.

'Just let him have some rest, please.'

Kurt got home and had some coffee and Puck was staring at him for hours.

'What are you looking at Noah?' Kurt defensively asked.

'You are just going to pretend that never happened Kurt? You collapsed! There must be something up with you, that story Finn said was not believable at all!'

'Most of Finn's assumptions aren't true.' Kurt thought.

Did the Football Guys do this to you?

If Kurt told the truth that day, maybe things would have been different… Maybe his future would have been better. And maybe… He would be happy.

'Well, Finn doesn't sound sure when he says anything, trust me, that's the truth, I am fine.'

'Why do you fucking push away anyone who ever cares about you Kurt? Do you even realise for a minute that it might help you? That that person may help you get out of your problem? People aren't supposed to face problems alone Kurt! And if you didn't push everyone away, you might be happier!' Puck ranted.

Kurt stopped drinking his coffee. Puck was right, he pushes everyone away…

Flashback

Kurt climbed out of the dumpster, there's another scar, oh well, he thought. A boy came up to him.

'Hello, are you okay? Should I get a nurse?'

Kurt was surprised that someone actually cared enough to come up and confront him.

'Who are you?' Kurt asked

'My name is Sam. Sam Evans.'

It was love at first sight, the blonde, silky hair attracted Kurt. Someone that cared about him, but, someone like him… He couldn't find love… He wasn't made for love, he was made for depression…

'No I'm okay…' Kurt sadly replied.

'Are you sure? You look very dam-'

'LEAVE ME ALONE!' Kurt yelled at ran away from the boy.

Sam would look at Kurt apologetically in school after that incident, he wanted to help Kurt, but he was actually scared of Kurt, they never talked again after that…

'You're right…' Kurt admitted

'So are you going to tell me what's going on with you?'

'I collapsed because my father doesn't want me reading vogue.'

'And that made you colla-'

Puck stopped mid sentence because he realised what this meant, it meant that Burt was punishing Kurt for reading Vogue, but how…

'Did he beat you?' Puck asked, knowing he would say yes, but praying he would say no.

'No, I just didn't want him to be disappointed in me, he doesn't want me to be gay, I might as well give him something to be happy about.' Kurt lied, he didn't want Puck to go through trouble, he didn't want Puck to tell Finn or anyone else, because then Carole would divorce Burt and Carole would be so miserable, and Finn won't ever forgive Kurt for letting the secret out, for making Carole miserable again, he would hate him forever, and Kurt couldn't let that happen.

'Kurt, you shouldn't change yourself for your father' Puck said

'You're right, I'll keep reading Vogue… Are we done here?'

'Are you sure we are done?'

'Yes. I have nothing else to say.'

Puck was just as gullible as Finn, Kurt thought. But, at least Puck made him tell him the problem, even if the problem was a lie.

Mercedes Jones was in L.A. She was granted a record deal after her performance of 'I will Always Love You' was posted on Youtube by Sam Evans. Mercedes hadn't seen Sam since, she heard he was in New York. She also missed Kurt, Kurt never kept contact with her after they graduated, Mercedes still had their Graduation photo hung up in her room. Some day, she hopes to see Kurt again, he can't stay away from his true best friend for long.

Rachel has been telling Finn that Kurt needs to join NYADA since he has nothing else to do and that may lead to another breakdown, so far, Rachel was loosing the battle, as when Finn asked Kurt to join NYADA he declined.

'Fine, but don't be crying Finn when Kurt collapses again! He is in a bad state of a mind right now! In fact, he scares me!' Rachel judged

'It's his choice Rachel, and he said no, and don't make him look like a pyscho, jeez, he's just confused and depressed.'

'And you aren't doing anything to help, are you? Aren't you supposed to be a awesome brother? Brother of the year here everyone! Doesn't even care about his brother's condition!'

Rachel had a point, Finn wasn't doing anything to help Kurt, neither of them were, in fact they were just adding more pressure to Kurt.

'Kurt is grown up, he can take care of himself.'

'He has problems Finn' Rachel said sourly 'And he shouldn't have to face them all alone.'

'He doesn't have fucking problems Rachel! HE IS FINE!' Finn shouted, taken Rachel aback.

'Okay.. Sorry.' Rachel apologised, too afraid to keep battling.

She didn't understand, it seemed like Finn didn't want Kurt to have a good future, so Rachel was going to persuade Kurt herself to audition to NYADA. It won't be that hard, Rachel is a master manipulator and persuader.

Kurt POV:
I'm so embarrassed that I collapsed, they must think I am a freak, espescially Rachel who doesn't' even know me that well and now this is the impression she got from me. That weirdo who collapsed in my flat because he didn't like Vogue. I love Vogue, but I don't like the beating… New York doesn't mean I have completely escaped from my tormentor, which is sadly my father. Should I tell someone? If I was watching myself I would be screaming at myself to tell someone about my father, but, it wasn't that easy. I don't want to be a victim, I don't want to be someone that they all worried about nonstop. Finn asked me to try out for NYADA, I said no… But, it might be my first step in getting away from… You know who, I don't have to be dramatic. NYADA will give me the experience to be a Broadway Singer! And then I can let out the truth about my father to the whole world! … But, that might not happen… So maybe I will try out for NYADA. I've been starving all day and Puckerman finally decided to get off my ass so I'm thankful to be getting lunch at Le Bernardin. I heard the food at this place is awesome, so time alone here will be wonderful for me.

'Are you ready to take your order sir?' a blonde waiter asked looking down at his clipboard, getting ready to write down my order. Then it hit me… Evans… SAM EVANS! SAM. FUCKING EVENS! I couldn't push him away now, that was the biggest mistake I made in High School!

'Sam?' I nervously asks, and then he rose his round head head and he had that adorable smile, with those gorgeous blue eyes… Why did I ever tell him to leave me alone in high school? He could have been the key to my happiness!

'Kurt?' Sam asks, surprised to see me.

'Hello…' I awkwardly say, how else am I supposed to greet him?

'I can't believe you're here, in New York. How are you?' It's so sweet how Sam genuinely cares about me, so he definitely deserves answers.

'I… I'm… I survived' What the hell? That was a terrible thing to say!

'Well, you may be able to get a discount if I tell you I know you…' Sam says, with that charm in his eyes.

'Well, that would be great since all I can afford is the tuna special.' I joke, and receive a laugh, his laugh is amazing… So cute… What am I thinking? Frist I was interested in Noah, now Sam. These guys are straight, they will never want someone like me.

'Well, I'll go put in a word in, maybe come back in 20 minutes, we can have lunch together, it's on me.' Sam generously offered.

'Thank Sam, that would be lovely of you.' I thanked.

Finn POV

Maybe I should give up on satisfying Kurt, he seems happy for like 2 hours then he's back to his depressed self again, what was I doing wrong? I brought him to NYC! Puck told me my prediction about how he collapsed was a piece of shit, what right does he have to judge my prediction? He thinks I don't care about Kurt, but I do… I mean, not as much as other things like Rachel, Mom, my future and NYADA, which is the only reason I brought him to NYC. Rachel said having Kurt as a brother with him being gay and me being straight will make me look more likeable… But I wonder if I would of brought him if I didn't care about the NYADA audition…

I heard my phone vibrate in my pocket so I dug into my pocket to retrieve my phone. It was a phone call from Burt, I mean, my dad.

'Hello?' I answered the phone.

'Hey Finn… Good news! Me and your mother are visiting tomorrow!' Burt excitedly announced.

I wasn't sure what to think, like jeez, this was their 2nd day in NYC and Burt wanted to visit on the 3rd?

'That is great… I'll tell Kurt later.' I said

'Yeah… You tell Kurt, and tell him, I can't wait to especially see him.' Burt creepily ordered me.

Burt always seemed kind of predator-ish when talking about Kurt. Hmm… Weird…

'Sure…' I unconfidently agreed.

'Cya later Finn, love you, you're my favourite.' Burt said and Finn could feel him grinning from his house.

Why was I his favourite? Kurt was his real son, and I called him Burt, I didn't even call him dad. Once again… Weird…

Kurt POV

I had ordered a Cappon Magro, it was delicious, but I think kissing Sam on those big, smooth lips would be more delicious… What is wrong with me? In high school, I had some feelings for Sam, but not this much, maybe because now I aren't pushing him away… If I accepted his friendship earlier in High School, maybe I would be dating him… And I might even be… Happy?

'So… This is kind of awkward, but Kurt, when I tried to help you after that dumpster incident, you totally freaked out on me, I thought you wanted someone like me, to support you. And all I want to know is… Why?' Sam asked pleadingly, he really cared about this.

'Sam… You did nothing wrong at the time, but I was scared. Scared of finding another friend in high school. The only friend I made was Mercedes and that was only because she didn't want to talk about me, she wanted to talk about herself. And, I don't like attention, because when the attention is on me, the people close to me always get hurt.' I explained, sadly, it felt nice to put that out there, because it's really how I felt. Wow, something I say that isn't a lie.

'Kurt, you can be completely honest with me, I l- I like you.' Sam awkwardly says.

Was he about to say love? OH MY GAGA. Was he about to say LOVE?

'Thanks' I said, I wasn't going to question him, to ruin a wonderful friendship.

'Well, I'll see you around Kurt, you have my number.' Sam says

Before he leaves, he turns around and faces me again.

'And, please call.' Sam ended the conversation.

And, I will call.

I heard a buzz on my phone and was scared to death when I read the message.

Mum and Dad are coming to visit tomorrow! – Finn

Uh oh! Poor Kurt! Will someone find out Kurt's secret? I really want someone to find out, but I feel like it would be too easy, when the time is right I'll decide.

I may be starting a new story to update alongside this, and they probably will both be updated once a week, but maybe twice on some occasions when I can get a lot of writing done. Please review, favourite and follow!

QUESTION OF THE DAY: Do you ship Sam and Kurt? (Surt? Kam? HEAVANS?)