It starts with a flashback you guys, just be aware! Alright? Enjoi!

"C'mon Len, just this once, I know you'll like it." He said, moving closer to me.

"No, Kaito! I said no, and I mean it!" I screamed at him, backing up.

"Shh, Len~" He said, cupping my mouth with his hand, "We wouldn't want Rin and Miku to find out." He whispered and replaced his hand on my mouth with his own lips. It's not what I wanted. I couldn't do this.

"Kaito, please!" I begged and cried through his rough kisses.

"I'm not stopping, Len-Kun~ You're just going to have to sit there and struggle. But the more you do that, the more it will hurt, honey."

"Kaito! Stop, please!" He continued. His focused shifted from my lips to my pants. I struggled and kicked and hit him as he tried to pull them off. It was useless, because in the end, he got his way.

It was horrifying. It was painful. It felt horrible. It felt... good...

"Len! Please come out of your room!" I jolted up in my bed as I was brought back into consciousness by my sister banging loudly on my bedroom door.

"No." I said plainly and emotionlessly. Just like every other time she asked.

"Come ON! It's been two weeks since you've come out!" She yelled, worried as always.

"I do come out. Sometimes."

"Only to go to the bathroom and go to the store. You need to eat!"

"I am eating."

"Eating what?" She asked, confused. She contemplated what all I had ever bought at the store. It was the same thing as always. Pills. and more pills.

"Nothing."

"Len, depression pills don't count as a food. Please eat something that's actually a food." She said with more worry in her voice.

"No." I responded plainly again.

She hesitated, and then left. She gave up too easily this time.

Lovely. I thought. Now she really doesn't care about me...

"Who's fault is that?" a voice said.

"Yours, Len. It's you fault."

It's my fault. That's what they always say.

By the way, if you hadn't guessed by the flashback, Kaito was a little too attracted to me, and well, you know, did some things I'd rather not talk about. Turns out, Rin had heard my first scream and called the cops. Kaito was put in jail, I was put in therapy three times a week. Life was pretty happy.

Well, Kaito's little act of kindness gave me pretty severe anxiety attacks that he was going to come back, and pretty bad depression, too. I need pills for that.

The really screwed up thing about all of this is I'm the definition of a stereotypical "Emo." If you don't know what that is, let me sum it up for you with all of my actions I've done in the past 2 weeks:

Cut

Done drugs

Drank alcohol

Contemplated suicide

Of course, there are a lot of others like cussing out my friends and sister, throwing things, beating up people just for the hell of it, but those things are the four main things. I'm sure you've had enough of my explaining, so let's get back to the story.

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"You guys... I'm really starting to worry about him..." Rin said. She was staring at the ground and starting to tear up. So was Miku.

"Yeah, I am, too. This is really kind of sad." Miku mumbled. Rin put a hand on her back, trying to cheer up her best friend.

"It's alright. Maybe it's just a phase." Luka suggested.

"Yeah, I think so, too." Gakupo agreed.

"Of course you agree with her, you creep." Meiko spit harshly at Gakupo. She was drunk.

"You guys, please try to not fight. This is serious!" Haku cried.

"Everything feels so empty without Len and Kaito..." Teto pondered.

"Yeah." Rin agreed.

It was quiet for a few minutes. Then,

"I have an idea!" Miku shouted, smiling brightly.

"Huh? What's your idea?" Luka asked.

"The next time he goes to the store, we'll follow him! It's a foolproof plan, you guys, I know it! We'll just sneak out after he's out of sight, follow him, and surprise him by having a bunch of...! Wait, what's his favorite thing?" Miku went on.

"Um, what is his favorite thing?" Haku asked.

"Rin? Do you know?" Teto asked Rin.

"Hmm..." Rin thought for a second. Then, she remembered. "Oh! It's that video game, Kingdom Hearts! He really likes that, but he only has one game. He really wanted the, um, what was it... Birth By Sleep? He says he has a PSP, he just really wants that game. We could get him that!" Rin shouted, liking Miku's plan.

"Yeah!" Everyone agreed at the same time. So the day went on...

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It was time again. Time for me to sneak out, get my pills, and sneak back. But this time, I'm taking a detour...

I put on my shoes, and went outside. I made sure I had my money, 100,000 Yen extra for the detour. I walked out the door, and usually I would expect to see a bunch of lazy popstars chilling playing Rock Band in the living room, but not this time. They all looked like they were getting ready to go somewhere. That surprised me.

"You guys going somewhere?" I questioned, curiously. They haven't done anything special in 2 weeks, because they refuse to do anything without me. Of course, I reject, but it feels bad not having them invite me and just do it this time. I guess I deserve it.

"Yeah," Miku said, hesitantly, "Just to the mall for a while. You going to the store?"

"Yeah." I said, plainly. Getting more pills was better than the mall.

"Okay, well, I guess, have fun on your way there." She gave a half-hearted smile, and continued to do what she was doing, which was finding something in her purse.

"Mhmm..." I mumbled, and left the house.

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Well, I didn't have fun on my way there, like Miku had wished. I had a horrible time. Tokyo was crowded, so people kept bumping into me every now and then. It sucked.

"Oh, sorry!" They said.

"My apologies, sir."

"Excuse me!"

All the same. Well, at least I was finally at the store. Alright. Get my drugs, take the detour, go home. It was simple.

It didn't turn out that way.

"Yo, Len! Got the money?" He said. He was a drug dealer. He sold good stuff, and cheap.

"Yeah, I got the money. You got the stuff?" I asked, hesitant. This was my first time buying real drugs besides anti-depressants, so I was a little nervous.

"'Course I got the shit. You hand over the cash, I hand over the coke."

I handed him the cash, he handed me the drugs. It went like it was supposed to. Not when he suddenly shook his head and ran away. I turned around.

"Len... Why...?" Rin choked on her words.

"I-I, what the fuck are you guys doing here?" I yelled.

Gakupo shook his head, Luka glared at me, Miku started to cry. She had a bag in her hand. It read the words GameCastle.

"I thought you were better than this, Len. Here," Miku walked forward, handing me the bag, "You deserve this." Then she hugged me, and ran away crying, the rest following her.

Suddenly, I was all alone again. Ten minutes later, I held a bag that carried a video game, empty hope, and my tears.

I wanted to kind of explain, because I'm not really feeling the creative flow, and I want to make sure the story makes sense further on. So yeah, it get's a lot better on Len's part.

Review, favorite, what not! Yes, he was buying cocaine. No, I do not condone the use of any drugs, and I do not want anyone to flame. Please. I just want people to enjoy.