Disclaimer: Don't Tell Any One But I Plan On Stealing The Inuyasha Foundation…

(A/N:) Alright shot out is for the people who read my story then actually reviewed so thanks! I even want to thanks those who read but didn't review, Thanks! Ok onward with the chappie.

Full Summary: A baby is born and is force to become something he is not and rather someone. Born a girl but grew up all her life as a boy. While in college Kai falls in love with his best friend and roommate, Inuyasha. Inuyasha discovers his love for him and puts together the puzzle of Kai and the love notes. They begin to date and Kai finds out he's a—GIRL!!!! What will happen to Inuyasha and Kai's relationship? Why wasn't Kai told about his past? Who did this to him? And most importantly, how is he to live now?

Rated: Angst/Romance/Fantasy/and slight disgust NC 17-M no little kiddies unless you can handle it and even then if you get caught reading this shit it ain't my fault because I clearly labeled this story heavy and to much for kids.

(A/N:) A small fact…

Kai: 19-sophmoreMiroku:20-sophmore

Inuyasha: 19 ½-sophmoreSango: 18 ½-sophmore

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My Secret Letters

Chapter 4: Off Day (Kai and Inuyasha)

Kai crept back up the basement stairs and quietly closed the door before numbly stumbling toward his dorm. His shirt was wrinkled, unbuttoned, and the ends of his shirt were kind of sticky. His pants were stained with white spots from his earlier activities and they were also wrinkled and unfastened exposing his boxers. Kai was hunched over and his legs were shaking terribly. The feeling he had experienced was something magical, only something from heaven could have given him such a feeling. Kai dropped to his knees and finally fell on his face as he relished in the feeling of his earlier activities. A sigh huffed its way out of Kai's mouth and he slowly began to pick himself up.

Kai stood to his feet shakily only to fall to his knees again. He looked up the hall and saw his room and figured it wasn't that far, he could crawl there. So Kai began crawling toward his dorm room. His arms were shaking and his head was slowly becoming too heavy. Kai stopped and crawled over to the hallway wall and sat at the base of it. Kai slid his hand down his pants and began to rub his dick. The sensation of crawling and his thighs rubbing together had him horny again. 'Just a quickie then I'll go to my room.' Kai pulled his best friend out of the crotch of his pants and began stroking himself. "You always know how to make me feel better…"

He whispered to himself and blushed at his dirt talk. Kai gripped his dick even tighter and leaned his head against the wall as he got lost in the feel of his cock (I hate that word, but it seemed to fit.) being stroked, pretending it was Inuyasha stroking him, instead of his right hand man. A moan escaped him as he drew closer to his target. It was getting so hot. Kai hurriedly yanked off the left sleeve of his shirt and continued to stroke himself as a groan tore through him. It felt so damn good. Kai's body bowed off the wall as he stroked himself even faster. His mouth hung open from the sensation of it all. He was so close; he could feel it coming. "Oh God, I'm cumming!"

A groan so powerful tore from his throat as Kai exploded onto his chest, chin, and his pants. Kai fell back against the wall panting as the after shocks of his orgasm swam through him. Who could have thought a simply thing such as a piece of paper could evoke such powerful feelings, but it could-it did. Kai sighed as his breath finally caught up with him and he moved to stand once more. His legs were shaking even more terribly than before. But Kai had a plan, he leaned against the wall as he slowly made his way to his dorm room. As he continued to walk down the hall his mind began to travel to another place, one which indulged in Inuyasha and himself. Kai bit his lip as he continued to make his way to his room. He was almost there, he could practically see the numbers on the door. Something in his stomach tightened and pulled and Kai looked down and smirked when he saw his best friend was up for another round. Kai leaned against the wall and looked at his dorm room door. Now how was he going to get over there when he couldn't even stand?

Kai huffed out a puff of air and pushed himself off the wall and launched himself across the hall. Kai stumbled a few times but he made it, he slowly turned the knob, and fell into his room. He looked at the clock and saw it read, 4:40 am. Kai walked to his bed and flopped down on it. Inuyasha stared at Kai for a moment and took in his clothes and physical appearance. Wonder began to fill his mind as he tried to figure out were his best friend had gone off to. "Where've you been?"

"Oh you're awake then? Heh, I thought you were sleeping."

"I was until the smell of your thick arousal suffocated me." The truth was he had never been asleep. He was simply waiting for Kai to return. "Oh sorry."

Kai stood and walked over to the door and flipped on the light switch and turned to face Inuyasha. Inuyasha frowned when he saw Kai's appearance in the full light. Clearly Kai had indulged in some sexual activities and clearly he had done it more than once, but the strange part was that Kai was still hard, like what ever he did, didn't satisfy him at all. "…Kai what happened to you?"

Kai looked at Inuyasha and smiled. His eyes were droopy and his smile was a lazy one. His words slurred as he took off the rest of his shirt and stumbled to his bed. "I jacked off."

Inuyasha looked at Kai sit down and frowned at his friend before he, "Keh"ed and went to sleep. Kai simply shrugged his shoulders and looked down at his harden member. "I guess it's just you and me."

Kai pulled off his pants and began stroking himself, once more. Inuyasha turned over so that he could look at Kai as he beat off. And Inuyasha could've sworn if he didn't know better, he'd say Kai was a girl…but it was obvious that he wasn't. Still Kai looked damn sexy stroking himself. Inuyasha licked his lips, slowly sliding his hand down to his aroused member, and silently began stroking himself.

Kai was so wrapped up in his own world that he didn't even hear Inuyasha moan his name. He only knew of the sensation he was stroking within himself and nothing more. A groan tore through Kai when felt himself pulse in his palm. Inuyasha groaned too as he continually looked at Kai. The sight was purely magical. Kai sitting on his bed, leaning against the wall, his body pink with passion, his eyes shut closed as a groan rang from his lips, his dick a dark pink color, and then to top it off, the boy forgot to take off his shoes. To Inuyasha, Kai looked like a lost angel in the mist of a fierce battle with himself and he was sexy.

Inuyasha groaned deep in his throat as he sped up his pace. Kai leaned off the wall and moaned out to the ceiling as he tightened his hand around his dick. Oh he was going to cum again, he could practically feel it racing through him. 'Oh this one was gonna hurt like hell!' Kai tighten his grip as he glared down at his dick. He was gonna catch this one in the mouth. His left hand gripped his sheets in a death lock as his right continued to stroke. Inuyasha looked over at Kai as he drew closer to his climax. Kai screamed out as he came, his eyes clenched closed as his orgasm tore through his every being. His cum squirted everywhere even into his mouth. Inuyasha moaned out as he too came at the sight of seeing Kai sallow his own cum. He grabbed a sock from off the floor and exploded inside the fabric.

Moments after their orgasms rolled through them the two boys collapsed. Inuyasha dropped his sock onto the floor and went to sleep. Kai on the other hand fell asleep where he was and he didn't move until the next day…

"Hey wake up…Hey it's morning. A new day has started."

Inuyasha growled low in his chest, reached to pick up the boy lying on the bed, and dropped him onto the floor. "Hey what the hell was that for?"

"Get your ass up, it's morning."

"Who gives a fuck." Kai grabbed his unsoiled blanket off his bed and curled up on the floor. Inuyasha glared at him and kicked the useless fuck in the stomach, until Kai woke up again.

"Now what? The sky is falling? It's raining ducks?"

"NO! Get your ass up!"

"And what if I don't? You gon fuckin' beat me up?"

"No, I'm going to fuck you up, now get up."

"Tsk. Yeah right." Kai turned over and started to go back to sleep went he felt a hand slide under his blanket and wrap itself around his shaft and begin to stroke it. Kai looked at Inuyasha in surprise. "What, you thought I forgot how to do you?"

Kai turned to lie on his back as Inuyasha continued to stroke him. "Mm, that feels good."

Inuyasha brought his free hand up to caress Kai's face before he kissed him on the lips. Kai moaned as he brought his hands up to caress Inuyasha's hair before they slid down his back. Kai pulled down Inuyasha's pj bottoms before wrapping his hand around his already hard member. Inuyasha groaned deep in his throat as he continued to pump his friend. Kai's eyes fluttered closed as his body went stiff as a board and he came under the blanket. Kai opened his eyes to see Inuyasha smirking at him. Inuyasha stood and pulled his pants up before returning his gaze to Kai's. "Now that you had a hand job, you feel like getting up?"

"What for, it's our off day."

"So what? Get up and do something, you can't just lay around in bed all day jackin' off."

"Yeah I can, watch me."

Inuyasha glared at his friend walked toward their dorm room door. "And make up your fucking bed."

"You ain't my daddy."

"Well, Daddy said, make your bed."

Inuyasha walked out the room and down the hall to the locker room. Meanwhile Kai hurriedly stripped his bed, walked out the room, and hurried toward the wash room. As he continued to walk down the hall, whistles, gasps, and glares were shot his way. Kai frowned at this but did nothing more but continue walking toward the wash room. Kai had successfully made it to the wash room and began depositing the charge fee into the washing machine. Kai had put the laundry detergent and fabric softener into the water, when he felt a cold and sweaty palm lightly touch his lower back. Kai turned and glared at the person.

"Don't touch me."

Kouga chuckled softly as he gazed at Kai. "Come on, we're friends and plus you're the one whose inviting people to touch you…"

Kai frowned at Kouga and as the creepy wolf continued to smirk at him. Kai had been right in his first mind to stay away from this creep, but his heart had to disagree. The guy really spelt out rapist and he was getting scared. "What are you talking about?"

Kouga lightly moved Kai out of the way to load Kai's clothes into the washer. He had just about finished when his hands came across an article of clothing that had sex all over it. It was Kai's shirt. Kouga looked at Kai then back at the shirt and slowly brought the item of clothing to his nose and deeply inhaled. His eyes fluttered closed and his head bobbed a little but the feeling was still the same and Kai was growing nervous. "Give me that!"

Kai snatched the shirt from Kouga, threw it in the washer, and closed the lid. Kouga smirked at Kai and licked his lips. "Kai, do you know that you're completely naked?"

Kai looked down at himself and was shocked to discover he was naked and he was hard with desire for Inuyasha. A slow smirk spread across his face as he slowly brought his head up to face Kouga. "Oh so that's what all the commotion was about-me." Kouga nodded. Kai smirked and walked pass the creepy wolf and out the room. Once he entered the hall everyone was still staring at him and his smile grew. Kai walked to his secret place and plopped down on his bed before taking out a pencil and paper then writing down his thoughts.

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Inuyasha was in the showers bathing and washing his hair. Something just wasn't right. Something must have happened that he didn't get a letter this morning. Inuyasha had walked out of his dorm and headed straight for his locker because he knew Akira had a letter waiting for him and he wanted to read it. But when he got to his locker and opened it nothing came out, nothing. What was going on? Did he miss something, was Akira really getting tired of writing him letters or maybe something happened? Inuyasha knew one thing, his head was starting to hurt and his heart was beginning to sink.

Inuyasha rinsed his hair for the second time before lathering it up again with soap. A sigh puffed pass his lips as he continued to wash his hair. Why did Akira write that letter if he wasn't going to write anymore and why didn't he mention in his letter that he wasn't going to write after this…? Maybe he just slept in or something. The sound of a locker slamming caught Inuyasha's attention and he turned off his water then stepped out of the shower to walk over to his locker. Inuyasha opened the door and the expected letter floated to the floor. Inuyasha looked around then stooped to pick up the letter. He grabbed a pair of sweat pants from his locker and walked back to his room then flopped down on the mattress before tearing open the note.

Dear Inuyasha,

I dreamt of you. Again, you had me burning with desire and lusting for your flesh. I must have you. You are like a secret treasure that I must own and possess, conquer as my own. Inuyasha I need you, I must have you. The thought of you being away from me is too painful to bear. I must have you all of you, so today I ask of you to not give any one but me your soulful attention. I don't want you touching no one but me. Inuyasha soon you will see me and soon you will fuck me. I want your body intertwined with mine. I want you to call me yours…

Inuyasha…I read your letter. And I want to answer your question and put your soul at ease. I did not choose you as my target, for it was you who chose me. I saw you when I first came to this place and fate pulled us closer to each other. Inuyasha I keep myself secret because I want you to be sure that you want this as much as I do before I reveal myself. I've been hurt before and I don't want to go through that again. I will be your one and only and I want you to have me. Inuyasha I want you to control me with all the power of a strong god and keep me just for yourself. I don't want to be shared and I don't want to share you. Inuyasha please answer my question. Can I have you?

Akira

Inuyasha folded the letter and closed his eyes as he began to picture what Akira was feeling when he read his letter. All sorts of emotions washed over him as he dreamt up images of Akira. Slowly another member of his body throbbed as Inuyasha's dream took a turn toward sex. A tight groan ripped from his throat at the clenching from his dick. When Inuyasha opened his eyes he saw Kai standing in the doorway butt naked. Rage tore through him. "What the fuck?"

"I would think that someone who's got a full on hard-on would be mellow."

"Fuck that, where the hell are your clothes?"

Kai stared down at his uncovered body then shrugged his shoulders. "In the washer being washed."

Inuyasha nearly crumpled up his letter but instead chose to stuff it under pillow. Kai closed the door, walked over to his bed and stared at it in displeasure. 'Hmm stupid bed.' Kai walked over to Inuyasha's bed and flopped down on the sheets before moving to kick Inuyasha off the mattress. Inuyasha let himself fell to the fall in a tumbled heap then he glared at the offender. "What," came the simple reply.

"You pushed me out the bed."

"So, you'll get over it. Any way on to more juicier things, what did your little boy toy write this time?"

Inuyasha glared at his friend again before handing him the piece of paper that said so much about his secret crush. As Kai read the note, Inuyasha picked himself up off the floor, reseated himself on the mattress next to Kai and watched him as he continued to read the paper. Kai read the note he sent to Inuyasha and almost smiled at what his words had done to his best friend. He snuck a glance to his right and saw Inuyasha looking at him as he read the note, then he returned his gaze back to paper and continued to read.

A blush surfaced to his cheeks when he read the second paragraph, had he really written those words? What was he thinking? Of Inuyasha, of course! Kai folded the paper and tossed it over his shoulder before leaning to hug Inuyasha around the waist, as he snuggled against his manly shoulder. His words were soft yet strong, "I don't want to share you either, Inuyasha. …I don't like this Akira-guy, he's a little greedy. Don't you think? I mean, I had you first, so you should be…"

Kai blushed as he bit the inside of his cheek and focused his gaze on the floor. He couldn't believe this, he being jealous of his own self! It was his letter to Inuyasha and he was acting jealous, because of the simple fact that Inuyasha didn't know it was him! What kind of man was he? Kai moved from chewing on his cheek to biting his lip as he thought about his sudden rise of jealousy. His brows furrowed together as he seemed to burn holes into the floor below his feet. Why would he become so jealous? No one was after Inuyasha in that matter, but himself and now he was starting to get jealous of that! It wasn't making sense-it wasn't!

Inuyasha sat in silence as he studied Kai's profile and the smells that he emitted. He was frustrated, that much he could tell. What had made him say that? He knew what their relationship was and he seemed fine before hand, so what was it? At the smell of blood, Inuyasha pulled away from Kai and turned the boy to face him, as he tilted his face up to his. A frown creased Inuyasha's face as he looked at Kai's bloodied bottom lip and he moved his thumb to wipe away the blood. Inuyasha paused and looked at the blood on his thumb, before returning his gaze to Kai's lip and slowly he lowered his face to Kai's. Slowly and softly Inuyasha's lips touched Kai's and the two kissed. Kai hesitated against Inuyasha's, as if not sure what to do. But when Inuyasha's tongue swept across his bottom lip, all Kai's fears melted and his fiercely pushed against Inuyasha in a desperate need to be comforted.

Inuyasha sensed the silent call and brought his hands up to cup Kai's face in his hands as he slanted over the boy's lips and deepened the kiss. Kai moaned as he curled up against Inuyasha's board chest and kissed him back with all the intensity he had pent up over some years' worth of time. Inuyasha leaned back and pulled at Kai's shoulders to follow him. Kai eagerly did as he was silently instructed and crawled on top of Inuyasha and rested his bottom on over Inuyasha's crotch.

Inuyasha let his hands skim to length of Kai's back as he pulled away from the boy's lips to breathe. Kai sat up and looked down at Inuyasha as his hands splayed across his board chest. His short finger nails lightly scratched his nipples in a teasing manner and he watched in fascination as Inuyasha closed his eyes and whimpered lightly at the gesture. Kai licked his lips and leaned down to kiss Inuyasha's left nipple, before letting his tongue slip out to taste the dark bud. Inuyasha hissed loudly and arched off the bed slightly. 'It's like it use to be…'

Kai smiled at his little thought and kissed the sexy bud before biting it hard and watching in fascination as Inuyasha groaned out, shuddered, and arched even higher off the bed than before. Kai leaned forward and whispered quietly in his ear. "It's amazing how I still know your body…"

Inuyasha growled softly as his dick twitched at Kai's words and Kai smirked as he began grinding himself against Inuyasha. Inuyasha licked his lips as his hands flew to Kai's hips and gripped them for dear life. How did this boy remember? How did he still know how to work his body in such a manner? Subconsciously Inuyasha pushed his hips upward as they 'clothes' burned. "Oh God, this feels…so fuckin' gooood…"

Kai moaned lightly at the feeling of Inuyasha pushing against him and he whispered back, "Mmhm, don't stop…"

Inuyasha grunted in return as he lost himself in the feeling of Kai. Suddenly the door busted open and in came Miroku. "There was a phone—"

Miroku stood frozen, door handle still in his palm and he held onto it for dear life. Inuyasha embarrassed by what happened, quickly threw Kai from his body and stood to stare at Miroku in a guilty manner. Kai laid on the floor beside the bed as he watched Miroku and Inuyasha. He angrily licked his lips and pulled himself up from the rough carpet floor to stand. Kai looked at Miroku, nodded slightly before walking over to his dresser, pulled out a pair of boxers, and slipped them on. Kai then walked over to Miroku and muttered before walking out of the room, "I'm going to take a shower."

Miroku was forced to step inside as Kai brushed past him to leave out of the room; closing the door. Inuyasha swallowed as he walked back over to his bed and flopped down. Miroku hesitantly stepped forward and watched Inuyasha cautiously, before surprisingly asking, "What was that?"

Inuyasha looked up at Miroku and licked his suddenly dry lips. What was he going to say that he lost his mind for a minute and made out with his best friend/roommate? No! Even he wouldn't believe that…well maybe. Inuyasha sat forward and leaned on his knees as he blew out a breath of air. Shaking his head slightly, Inuyasha leaned up from his knees as he ran his right hand through his hair and groaned in confusion. "Inuyasha…"

"Yeah I heard you! Damn I don't know, I wish I did but I don't. Shit."

Miroku cocked a smooth eyebrow and walked over to his friend then flopped down on the bed beside him. Inuyasha looked at him expectantly and Miroku shook his head. "You don't know, eh? Heh, seems to me like you and Kai were about ready to make it. Seems to me like you were having a hell of a time and it also seems to me like this wasn't your time…you know like that."

"WHAT!?"

Miroku simply nodded as he leaned forward on his knees and looked at his friend. Inuyasha was full of rage as he watched his friend stare at him with a knowing grin, as if he knew everything about himself and Kai. Yeah RIGHT! "Miroku, I ain't never done anything like that before."

"So you say, but judging from the way Kai walked out, I'd say something like this has happened before. I'd even go as far as to say, you guys dated some time before."

"W-what? What are you getting at, Miroku?"

Miroku grinned as he shook his head once again before turning to grin perversely over at Inuyasha as he spoke. "I saying you and Kai were way too comfortable to be just exploring something so new and should be-weird."

At Miroku's words, Inuyasha flushed and averted his gaze. But Miroku continued on as if nothing changed about Inuyasha's demeanor. "And I'm a sex expert. So when it comes to that subject or anything dealing with the matter, I'm blessed. I know when something is so damn comfortable that you could do it in your sleep and when it's not. So, Inuyasha, which one is it or do I have to continue on?"

Inuyasha licked his as he sucked in a bit of air. His jaw clenched as he tried to decide weather or not to say anything. Cause technically, the pervert didn't have anything to go, except the fact that he and Kai were in bed together. But he was right about one thing, being with Kai like that was comfortable. And even after all this time, if he really put his mind to it, Inuyasha would bet his soul he could still fuck Kai in his sleep. "Promise you won't tell?"

"Scout's Honor."

Inuyasha sighed as he ran his hand through his hair once again. "Kai and I were boyfriends a little ways before we went to college."

Miroku nodded as if trying to piece some type of unknown information that Inuyasha knew nothing about together. Inuyasha waited patiently for his friend to say something, but slowly he was starting to worry. Like what if he didn't want to be his friend anymore or if he stopped hanging around him because of his past. However he was off by a mile and then some, Miroku hadn't even thought for a second about either of the things Inuyasha had dreamed, instead his mind focused on other matters. Like for instance… "Inuyasha, do you still get those letters?"

"Huh? What's that got to do with this?"

"Just answer the question."

"Well yeah, I got one today."

Miroku looked at Inuyasha and smiled. "Good. Let me read it."

"What? I thought you didn't want to read my stuff."

"I don't, but I just need to test-just give me the damn letter!"

Inuyasha glared at his friend but handed to note before scooting back some to wait for Miroku to read the damned letter. What was so interesting about a piece of paper when the big deal was about him and Kai? Maybe he just wanted to read for…no that doesn't seem to fit. Or maybe he was trying to find out about…no that didn't sound right either! What was he reading that damn note for when he should be grilling him about how he and Kai got together in the first place. "Miroku-"

"Shh!" Came the quick reply as Miroku continued to read the piece of paper with extreme interest. His eyes brows donned a frown as his jaw clenched, while his eyes scanned the paper. Something was not right, why was he reading that damn piece of paper. Miroku's head snapped up from the note, a blush on his cheeks but still confident as he spoke. "Do you have the others?"

"Yeah I never throw 'em away."

"Get them, hurry." Inuyasha frowned at his now weird friend as he stood and walked over to his computer desk, opened the drawer, and grabbed a handful of notes. Inuyasha walked back over to Miroku and sat down on the bed. He handed his friend the notes and Miroku glanced at them all before asking, "Which one is the most recent?"

Inuyasha picked through the papers and pulled the note Miroku had asked about and he began reading the contents within.

Dear Inuyasha,

I'm sorry I couldn't make to our little meeting, but I guess you could say I got scared. I'm worried what you would think of me. But I didn't leave you empty-handed. I wrote something just for you. I had a dream last night that I was your roommate and you were lying in your bed naked stroking yourself. I came into the room and dropped everything I was carrying and walked over to you. I watched you stroke yourself and I became aroused. I wanted you. I could feel my dick pulse against the hold of my pants I moaned at the sight of seeing you completely naked. I wanted to memorize every part of you and I wanted you to remember me. I fell to my knees and began to suck you and I heard you moan my name. As I bobbed my head up and down on your dick and I felt you release your hot cum into my mouth. I slowly stood and quickly stripped myself of my clothing before climbing on top of you and kissing you. I guided your dick inside of me and I screamed your name as we both reached for our climax together. "Inuyasha! I want you!"

Inuyasha…I need you and I want you to have me, all of me. Inuyasha will you take me as your lover and friend? Will you be my boyfriend?

Akira

Miroku looked up sharply from the note and asked breathlessly, "What meeting?"

Inuyasha blushed slightly as he answered the questions. "Akira sent me an e-mail during class yesterday, daring me to right a note him, since I wanted…I-I wanted to screw him so badly…"

Looked at Inuyasha and nodded before frowning. "How did you get to exchange the notes?"

"He sent some geeky kid to deliver the note and I guess after I left he came picked up the note I dropped on the floor."

"Hmm." Was all he said as he continued on with the next. It didn't matter which one he read, because they all said the same thing and it all led to one person; Kai. Miroku glanced at Inuyasha before smirking again and he almost laughed when Inuyasha frowned. "What?" Came his gruff question.

Miroku simply smiled and shook his head, he handed Inuyasha back the note and sat up. This was going to be hilarious, he couldn't believe he hadn't thought of this sooner. "Inuyasha, when did you and Kai start dating?"

Inuyasha startled by the question, choked on his salvia and dropped the papers he was holding. Miroku smirked and watched as his tried to control his coughing and shock at the same time, he was failing miserably. Inuyasha's eyes began to tear as he coughed up what felt like his lung and more spit. After Miroku's helpful-painful, but helpful slap on the did his coughing cease and he began to gather up the notes. After he complied them neatly together he gently stuck them under his pillow and turned to answer Miroku's question. "On Kai's 11th birthday."

"And when did you break up?"

"Um…like a few months later, I guess? Yeah I had just turned twelve."

"Who broke up with who?"

"I did."

Miroku nodded and stood from the bed as he began pacing the room. He was adding up the facts of this information and he was coming to one conclusion, that Kai turned into Akira 'the secret letter stalker' just to win Inuyasha's heart again, because he wasn't ready to say goodbye. It all appeared so easily and it made perfect sense. Those letters started as soon as Inuyasha hit college freshman year and they haven't stopped since. Of course it made perfect sense for Kai to still be hung up on Inuyasha, when the relationship, in Kai's opinion hadn't even had a chance to grow. Miroku turned to Inuyasha with a smug grin and asked in a sly voice. "Do you want to know who your stalker is?"

Inuyasha shot up from his bed and shouted way to eagerly, "Hell yea!"

Miroku folded his arms over his chest and said in a sly manner. "What would you say, if I told you already know him?"

"I'd say 'what the fuck' that's what."

"Well Inuyasha you know. In fact you know him so well that you practically grew up with him and probably did."

"What the fuck?"

Miroku nodded. "Mmhm!" He was so excited. He was such a fucking genius. "Yep, in fact your secret admirer is the very same person who recently left this room."

"What?" Miroku sighed and closed his eyes. Sometimes Inuyasha took the fun out of any game with simple-minded mannerisms. It was practically embarrassing to even know the guy when he was like this and sadly Miroku was feeling the embarrassment even though no one was in the room but the two of them. Miroku shook his head slowly and sadly before opening his mouth to speak. "Kai."

"Huh?"

Miroku rolled his eyes and knocked on Inuyasha's head before repeating his words. "Your stalker-admirer person is Kai!"

"Oh. …Oh! Shit! Fuck! No it couldn't be! Wait-but how? No that's not what I want to ask. Are you sure? I mean how did you know?"

"I can't tell you that, but I can definitely tell you that it is Kai."

Inuyasha growled in frustration before brightening again. "How can I – Wait. It can't be him."

"Why not, it makes perfect sense."

"No, earlier before you came in, Kai said he didn't like Akira and that he wanted me all to himself. He said that he didn't to share me either and that he should have me first… Miroku I think you're right."

"Of course I am."

"But why didn't he just come to me?"

"Inuyasha you broke up with him remember?"

"So? He still came to me about how much he wanted us to go back together. That was when…Shit!"

"What?"

"I told Kai that being with him would disgrace my family name and honor."

"You dumb fuck." Inuyasha glared at his friend before sinking his teeth into his bottom lip. How could he be so stupid as to forget that small piece of information? Inuyasha looked at Miroku once again and asked uncertainly. "How do I catch him?"

Miroku smirked as he tucked his hands in his pockets before strolling toward the door. His smile said it all and Inuyasha could barely contain himself after he heard the words. "It just so happens that your families want to come home for a family visit while you're on vacation."

"We're going home?" Kai walked in on the end part of the conversation and watched the tell-tale signs fly past him. Miroku and Inuyasha were up to something, too bad he didn't know what. Miroku waved Kai good-bye before closing the door. Kai looked to Inuyasha and asked his question again. "We're going home?"

Inuyasha looked at Kai in a whole new light and had a hard time trying to keep from choking the little bastard. All this time…Inuyasha blew a breath of air that he hadn't realized he'd been holding and answered in a strained voice. "Yea, so start packing."

Kai frowned as he looked at Inuyasha, but the hanyou had turned and started grabbing clothes from his drawer and began throwing on his bed. 'What's wrong with him? If anything I should be the one that's mad.' Kai sighed as he walked over to his drawers and began pulling out clothes then neatly sat them on his bed. Something was definitely wrong with Inuyasha and it just had have something to do with Miroku…

Sadly, Kai was way off base and he would soon get the shock of his life when he went back to where it all started. In Kyoto, Japan…

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Well that's the fourth chappie, hope you like! It took me a while to gather my thoughts on how I wanted Inuyasha to find out. Well anyway please review! Thanks! NO FLAMES!!!!!!!!