Can you look at me now?
~Disclamier~ still dont own anything we didnt in Chapter 3 either *walks away grumbling*
BPOV
As I came out of my daydream, things were just not sitting right in my head, why do I have this pull to go there, why was Jake acting like he was about to do some damage, and if he really thinks he can ground me like child … I got up and ran into my room and grabbed the first things my hands touched and threw them on not really caring what or how, I grabbed a hair tie on my way out the door along with my keys, and threw my hair up as I was getting in my car.
This is one of the few times I did not miss my old rusty truck, I am now the owner of a 1998 chili pepper red Durango, I punched the gas and was on my way. I was so lost in my thoughts when I realized where I was I was already half way up the twisted driveway, my hands griped the steering while like it was a life line. Then there was a break in the trees oh god I really cant believe I have taken it this far but I could not turn back now, the pull to go on was greater then the pull the run away.
I stopped in front of the house and just let my car idle I taped my fingers on the wheel as I thought about how actually insane this is. The house was dark and there were no signs of life or unlife for that matter. After a good few minutes of fighting with myself like a moron I left the car running and I opened the door, and I was hit with a feeling I have been here. My dream....this is to surreal for me but I still move toward the porch my heart raced and I was shaking almost as bad as Jacob before he phases.
With an unsteady hand I grabbed the rail and made my way to the door, I took a relaxing breath and moved over to the large picture window and stepped closer and peered in and saw something I really didn't need to see, there in front of the window as it always has was Edwards piano it was covered in a plain white sheet. The hole in my chest erupted after being sealed for so long I turned and went to make a run for it but I tripped over air and ended up on my ass on the top step.
I was to far gone to pull myself up as my emotions pulled me under. The tears came at once clouding my vision I could not even see my car at this point, but something was telling me something big was about to happen I just could not put my finger on it. Then I felt it the feeling I have been longing for, granite smooth ice cold skin brushing against my cheek wiping a tear away, I blinked a few times to try and focus then I saw him standing there and right before everything went black I called out his name… Jasper.
JPOV
As they all started to leave I looked at Alice letting her know I had no intent on leaving when Bella was this close, I need to be here for this I needed it more then I have needed anything in awhile, she gave me a knowing look and was gone with the rest. I could hear her car pulling up it was not her loud ass truck, it was something newer but it was bigger then a car. I quickly moved over behind a large hemlock and watched. A red Durango pulled up and stopped close to the house she sat in there for a bit and I felt a lot of uncertainty I am sure she was in there arguing with herself on wither or not she should get out, a small smile spread on my lips despite the situation just knowing I was going to see her really for the first time, in so long was wonderful to me.
A few pieces of bark crumbled from my grip as I saw her walk over to the house. She was still unsure but panicked on what to do, I could see her in perfect detail the tiny little crease between her eyebrows, just made me want to touch her all the more, and smooth it away. She looked like she had not slept in ages, her hair was pulled back in a messy little ponytail it looks like she got dressed in a rush, I softly chuckled as I took in what she was wearing she must have gotten dressed in the dark. She got to the top of the stairs she looked like she wanted to turn and run but she went to the window and looked in, there was a brief feeling of disappointment, what I would do to get into her head right now, the disappointment was quickly replaced with sadness.
She turned and headed for the stairs and in true Bella fashion she tripped over nothing and I had to fight everything inside me not to catch her, I watched her fall on her ass onto the top step, it was then she let grief take over and I was almost knocked to the ground with her pain. It took me a full second to regain control the last thing she needed was pain coming at her from all directions, this was going to be hard enough as it is. I made my mind up and headed over to her, fuck this not letting her know we are here. I could smell the sweetness of her blood but it did not effect me the way it used to I could smell the salt of her tears as I got next to her.
I made sure I was keeping my control over my own emotions, but I could not stop my hand from reaching out to her and wiping a tear of her sparkling cheek. Her head shot up and she blinked a few times, I am sure to get the tears out of her vision then her emotions went haywire right before she fainted she whispered my name, it was the most beautiful sound in the world to me.