Author's Note: Nobody's birthday this time, just wrote this for fun! I have recently discovered this song and have fallen in love with it. Reminded me of Alec so I thought, hey, let's go do Chapter 4! Hope you all enjoy. Remember to review! ~Alethea
There was a time, I used to look into my father's eyes
In a happy home, I was a king I had a gold throne
Those days are gone, now the memories are on the wall
I hear the sounds from the places where I was born
Alec climbed into his bed silently, waiting for sleep to wash over him. But it wouldn't come. How could it? There was just too much going on. With Jace missing everybody was frantic, Sebastian was on the loose and his Father didn't seem to be coming back from Idris. His mother was heartbroken. The Lightwood family seemed to be broken now. They all still blamed themselves for Max and with their Father abandoning them, well everything was in pieces at the moment.
Alec wished that time could just turn back. When he was younger he had lived the ultimate life. Max was still alive then and his Father was a permanent member of his family. It had been a great life. Running the Institute was like running a kingdom in his naive 11 year old eyes, and he was going to be the King one day.
That life was gone now. The only piece of that family left was a couple of framed pictures on the back wall of the Institute. Echoes of past laughter and joy weren't common but sometimes you could dig out some object that linked to a happy memory. These were rare. He caught his mother in Max's room a while ago. She was crying agonizingly, as though it hurt her to breathe without her little boy. Violent tremors shook her body as she clutched to one of Max's old comic books. It had broken Alec's heart watching her. When he asked her if she was feeling better later she had just shaken her head at him and said "Don't you worry Alec." But how could he not? Everything was broken.
Up on the hill across the blue lake,
That's where I had my first heart break
I still remember how it all changed
My father said
Don't you worry, don't you worry child
See heaven's got a plan for you
Don't you worry, don't you worry now
Yeah!
Don't you worry, don't you worry now
Yeah!
Ooh ooh ooh ooooh!
See heaven's got a plan for you
Ooh ooh ooh ooooh!
Alex felt a tear slip down his cheek as he remembered his brother. Max had been the only brother he had ever known, apart from Jace. Jace. Now there was a man the angel's must have sung for when he was born. Once upon a time Jace had been everything to Alec. Not anymore. Jace had been Alec's first love. Everything he did was perfect to Alec, everything he touched turned to gold. Alec's heart had broken when Isabelle had told him what had happened at the Seelie Court. She had told him what Jace and Clary had to do for Clary's freedom.
As Isabelle described the journey Alec's heart felt like it was breaking like the frozen waters of that river at wintertime. He had hated Clary, no, he had despised her. He had cried many tears that night. Isabelle had held him the entire time, comforting him. "Don't you worry Alec," she had whispered softly, "He does love you. Clary is just a phase, a little distraction." He hadn't believed her, and now, truth be told, Alec now didn't think she'd believed it herself.
That was what made him love Isabelle. Many times had he heard the saying 'Love isn't blood'. But in Alec's and his sister's case the shared blood just strengthened their bond. Alec would die for Isabelle and she'd do the same for him. He remembered her arms around him that night, whispering that things would get better between Jace and him. Of course, she was right. Isabelle was always right.
There was a time, I met a girl of a different kind
We ruled the world,
Thought I'll never lose her out of sight, we were so young
I think of her now and then
Still hear the song, reminding me of a friend
Alec wrapped his arms around himself, trying to ease the pain of remembering. He did get over Jace. He had moved on to someone who could love him back. Magnus. Alec's heart did a happy little flip flop thinking of his magical sparkly boyfriend. Letting the world know he was gay and publically announcing his relationship with Magnus was the best thing Alec had ever done. It was also the worst. Every time he went to a council meeting he was looked down on, his opinion discarded. He had described it to Isabelle as "A thousand tiny paper cuts every day". It hurt. But he loved Magnus and was willing to go through a little of public humiliation to be with him.
Still, there was a matter of Magnus' immortality that haunted him. How could Magnus be willing to stand by him as he grew old, while being a warlock Magnus would always stay young? Magnus constantly chastised him for thinking of it, saying that it was a dark line of thinking and just wasn't worth beating himself up over. "Don't you worry Alec," Magnus said. He wasn't the one slowly aging, growing older every time the sun set over the horizon. But Magnus didn't worry about these 'trivial things'. He was more focused on where they would go next, what they would explore. Alec loved traveling all around the world with Magnus. Somehow the world seemed brighter and more... just when he was with Magnus. But some things don't last. He and Magnus had been getting in more and more arguments about Alec's mortality lately. All things faded apparently. Just look at his parents.
Up on the hill across the blue lake,
That's where I had my first heart break
I still remember how it all changed
My father said
Don't you worry, don't you worry child
See heaven's got a plan for you
Don't you worry, don't you worry now
Yeah!
Alec sat up in his bed. Don't worry. That's what everyone told him to do. Every since he was a child Alec had been told to 'loosen up'. But someone had to worry right?
A soft sobbing noise came from his mother's room down the hallway. Alec quietly got out of bed and walked down the hallway. His mother was clutching a letter to her chest as she shook, trying so hard to keep herself quiet. Alec entered the rom and sat next to her. His mother abruptly stopped crying, wiping the tears clumsily from her eyes. Her face was a mask, trying to hide her true pain. Alec gently took the letter from her. His mother bit her lip as though doing so would hold the tears in. Alec started to read the letter.
Alec's chest tightened as he finished the letter. His father would not be coming home. His mother whimpered softly next to him. Alec wrapped his arms around her and began to sing softly:
'Don't you worry, don't you worry child See heavens got a plan for you
Don't you worry, don't you worry now
Yeah!'
Alec stayed by his Mother's side most of the night, holding her tight as she cried her broken heart out. Eventually the tears ceased and Mayrse fell asleep. Easing her head onto a pillow Alec tucked her in and tiptoed quietly out of the door. He needed to go somewhere.
Ten minutes later he arrived at Magnus' flat. He quietly let himself in, shutting the door behind him. Magnus was asleep in bed. Alec slid into bed carefully. Magnus awoke next to him.
"Alec," he murmured, "Dat yooou?"
"I'm here," Alec said, his voice full of emotion.
Magnus looked at him carefully. "What's wrong?"
Alec told him everything.
Ooh ooh ooh ooooh!
See heaven's got a plan for you
Ooh ooh ooh ooooh!
Yeah!
Alec finished his rant, slightly breathless. Magnus was looking at him with sympathetic, wide eyes.
"Are you OK Alec?"
Alec smiled and kissed Magnus lightly.
"I am now."
Magnus kissed him more deeply. In that moment all of Alec's worries went away. He was completely himself and had not one care in the world. That was how it would stay for tonight. For now he could just be with Magnus. He could worry tomorrow.