Dean hugged tighter as Sam's head fell against his shoulder, his body becoming heavy in Dean's arms. "Sammy… Sam… wake up… Sam" Dean staggered, the not too unusual emotion of fear bubbling in his gut. "Sam… please… don't you dare leave me" Sam's eyes opened as his head rose but quickly snapped to catch Deans gaze. Dean let go, his face curling into a picture of shock. "S…S…Sammy?" he managed to stutter, staring into those eyes. The eyes he knew so well yet hated so much. Alien rings of bright yellow staring at him from Sam's face. "I'm sorry, Sammy's not home right now, please leave a message after the beep"
Sam's mouth opened again a look of sheer pain distorting his face, but it was the noise that hit Dean like a double barrel of rock salt. The scream of terror and agony coming from his little brother came with a wind so strong it knocked Dean off his feet slamming him onto the floor.
The noise stopped, Sam was gone. Dean sat, hands around his knees, his eyes shut and rocking backwards and forwards. His world was falling apart, the thing that plagued their whole lives finally had Sam, and he could do nothing. He started to sob still rocking in the same spot muttering "it's not real" over and over and over again in-between sniffing and sobbing.
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"I can't stand it any more, Ruby" Sam said looking across the small diner table where she sat.
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Dean opened his eyes; he was now sat in the isle of a cinema. He was alone but there was something playing on the screen. It was Sam and Ruby just sat chatting.
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"You have to go with the plan Sam" ruby instructed "What, be his little sex toy? It's disgusting!" Sam answered "When he touches me, my skin crawls. How could he hate me so much" He spat with a look of detest. "You where always just a toy to him, Sam. I would kill to know what goes on in that dirty little brain of his."
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"No Sammy, it's not true, I love you, Goddamn it!" dean shouted at the screen. Or was it true, was he pushing Sam into something he didn't want. Grooming him and then taking advantage like some sort of pervert. The thoughts made Dean sick to the stomach and he started to wretch as tears again cascaded down his cheeks.
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The motel door burst open. To Ruby's surprise Sam ran in "Where is Dean?" he demanded. Ruby quickly pointed to the bed unable to speak with amazement. As Sam took one step towards the bed Dean shouted out "No Sammy, it's not true, I love you, Goddamn it!" Sam just stopped, just for a second. Dean's body began to shake on the creaky mattress. Sam quickly jumped on top of him pinning his arms to the bed and lowering his mouth to Dean's ear ready to whisper. "Regna terrae, cantate Deo, psallite Domino. Qui fertis super caelum. caeli ad Orientem. Ecce dabit voci Suae. vocem virtutis, tribuite virtutem Deo." He stoped to gently kiss Deans head before leaning back to his ear. "I love you more than anything in this world"
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The room began to rumble as Dean found his feet. The film being projected onto the screen was melting leaving only light. The light shone brighter and brighter and dean could hear muttering I may as well die, stop hurting Sam dean thought to himself as the muttering droned on and shaking grew more and more violent. I'm a monster! He shouted in his head, slumping in the nearest chair.
The cinema screen exploded bringing with it a whisper. A whisper that Dean heard louder than anything he ever had "I love you more than anything in this world". Brilliant light filled the whole room. Dean was falling he didn't know where to, but he was descending fast. *thud*
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Dean's body stopped shaking and his eyes began to open. As his vision strained back to normal, he saw Sam, water running down his face, still pinning him to the bed. "Welcome back" Sam said affectionately as he removed his hands and got up off the bed. As Dean sat up Sam ducked to kiss him.
Dean quickly drew back. "Sam you don't need to do that, don't let me hurt you any more." Sam's face dropped what the hell? He asked himself lowering his hand to Dean's face. Without warning Sam dived in again and this time got his kiss. "I don't know what they told you Dean, but I want to kiss you, and as for hurting me, you never have."
Sam sat in the space on the bed next to Dean, reaching out his arms beckoning his big brother into a hug. Dean gave in laying his head onto Sam's chest. Sam rubbed Deans back with one hand and wiped away his tears with the other. "But it sure does make a difference you being the princess" Sam joked with a loving grin.
After Dean composed himself, with the help of Sam, he thanked Ruby and helped her pack away. When Ruby had left he softly lifted the covers and got into bed next to a sleepy Sam. They just lay there for a while holding hands before drifting off.
Dean enjoyed waking to find Sam snuggled close to him. He never used to be the snuggling type, but Sammy just did that to him.
~FIN~