It's been a couple months now since I left the apartment. I've been relying on Akihiko and his lover too much and I'm starting to feel bad about it.
"I've gotten over it." is what I'd like to say, but I don't know if I can... Nowaki is really the only one I can see myself with.
I've gotten back to going to work, but Prof. Miyagi has been quiet. I wonder what's up.
"Hey, Prof-"
"Hiroki, you can just call me Yoh, we're friends. Friends call each other by their first names." Miyagi seemed serious, for once. I was quiet shocked since I hadn't ever seen him like this before. He wasn't really acting himself when we were taking my stuff from the apartment.
"Right... Yoh." It felt weird at first, but it became comfortable. "Can you take these documents to the Dean for me? I still have some things to work on and then I'll be heading home." He nodded and took them out of my arms and walked off. I was expecting him to be all "Kamiijouuu~ You do it~" but I guess not. Well, things have changed a rather lot lately. First I find Nowaki cheating on me, then I start living with Akihiko and his lover, then I pack my stuff and- just...
It's sort of weird living with them... And it pisses me the hell off because every single night. And I mean, every night they do it. And they do not shut up. We're like a bed room apart from each other and all I hear every night is "ahh... no Kamijou-san is... nnhgh" and Akihiko going; "It's okay, he's probably asleep."
No. I cannot fucking sleep because you and Takahashi-kun are fucking all night long.
God, it's really annoying. Have some concern for others you stupid shit!
But actually, I'm the one in their private space. I really should start looking into getting another apartment. I have enough money, I can do it.
It's not right for me to live here free of cost, no matter how rich Akihiko is.
Well, work is finished. I guess I'll go out to the store and get myself a few beers.
On my way out of the room, I saw a boy. Oh. That boy. I thought to myself. I wondered what he was doing here. Was he a student?
I've never seen him before though. What is he doing here?
The boy stopped when he saw me. He glared and hesitated, but walked over to me.
I glared back at him, "What are you doing here? School is over."
"I was looking for you." he said, staring down at me. He was a bit taller than me, it made me angry. He had a pretty face, a baby face. I don't see why Nowaki wouldn't want him. He's got a thinner body, nicer legs and a cuter face and doesn't look like he wants to kill you every five minutes, he's younger than Nowaki. And Nowaki can finally have somebody he surpasses.
"Why?" I sighed and glared at him again, "Going to tell me to stay away from Nowaki? Something among those shit lines? I won't go near him, don't worry." I laughed a bit, causing him to shake his head.
He replied; "No, I wasn't going to say that! I wanted to tell you that Nowaki-san says he's sorry!" Is this brat serious? You've gotta be shitting me.
"Listen, brat." I slammed my hand against the wall in front of him, "If he was really fucking sorry for the shit he put me through, he would say it himself instead of making his little boy-toy come and say it! You guys can just leave me alone, just don't ever come near me again, you hear? I don't want anything to do with you two! He's already caused me enough pain." I could feel the tears leaking from my eyes, I'm ashamed. "Mmf... You guys... You have no idea how much pain I've been through these months! Having to live with my friends because of this shit! He didn't have to go behind my back and cheat on me with some other brat." I said choking on my words, crying and sniffling.
He started to cry as well, "I'm sorry!" he said, getting on his knees and bowing. "Please... please forgive me! I'm so sorry for everything. I'm sorry. But I love him. Please give Nowaki to me!"
My eyes widened. I'm stupid. Nowaki isn't mine. We didn't say anything after that, we just sat there crying. I guess you could say that... this was my approval.
After that, I returned "home" and told Akihiko and his lover that I was going to find a place of my own. Akihiko didn't mind, but he told me I wasn't bothering them, and Takahashi-kun asked if it was... the things they were doing, denied. Even though it was partly the reason why. I just didn't want to rely on them for any longer.
I'm going to have to start over. It's been six years since I met Nowaki. Can I start over with somebody else? If so, who is that person I'm waiting for? Are they coming to make me feel better any time soon? Look at me, thinking these stupid thoughts. What am I? A lovesick teenage girl? I laughed at myself for a few minutes.
My eyelids were getting heavier, I caught myself sleeping many times, forgetting why I wanted to stay awake, but I ended up losing to myself and falling into deep sleep.
I see Nowaki, he's waving at me with that idiot- Handsome smile of his. Asking me to take his hand. He's walking away and I can't reach him, he keeps walking and walking and I can't move. I scream but I make no noise. Nowaki... Nowaki! Nowaki come back! Nowaki! Please don't leave... "Nowaki!" I jumped up, tear filled eyes.. "Ugh, just a dream..." I said, crying. "Just a dream, calm down, Hiroki."
I couldn't sleep the rest of the night, good thing I didn't have work. But I did have to get up early and check with a real estate agent.
Ten in the morning wasn't even that early, but that's when I got ready. A "good luck" from Takahashi-kun and well... Akihiko was asleep. And I've known him long enough to remember to never wake him up.