Once again, here I am… fantasies running wild and hoping that you continue to enjoy the smutty side of Jacob Black.

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Not Stephenie Meyer, She just created the character that stars in my dirty little fantasies by giving me Jacob Black! UGH!

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Jacob's POV- Give It Some Time

"I don't want to go too fast, Nessie. I don't want to hurt you," I sighed as I pushed my nose into her hair. She smelled so damn good. I wanted her, there was no doubt about that, and she was here in my arms, my hands cupping her ass. She lifted her face to look at me then, and I swear I could see her urging me to just take her. "I can't hurt you."

"Jake, I'm not a little girl anymore. And I know you would never hurt me," she sighed into my neck. "Not intentionally."

I knew in my head that she was right, but I wasn't sure that she knew what she was asking of me. Did she fully understand what was going on here? The dynamics of our relationship had just made a complete 360 and we were now treading on unfamiliar territory, I had little to no experience when it came to all of this. My only grounds for comparison were…

I shook my head to clear my thoughts. My mind hadn't returned to those things for a while, though they were always there, gnawing and nagging at the back of my mind. Just one word could fuck it all up, and I had to get past it.

Bella

I had to stop being a whiney bitch and get over it, because she didn't want me, she'd made her choice… I had the love of another, and still couldn't get over someone who I'd never even had. She had never even been mine, and I was still pining over her. This had to stop…

Yeah, I was a total loser. I'd only ever kissed one girl besides Nessie, and it was her mother. Oh yeah, this was as fucked up as it could get.

"Ness, you're making this very hard for me, I want to take it slow. No regrets..." She had no idea the truth to those words at this moment; I didn't want to have regrets with her like I did with Bella. I would never let anyone take Nessie away; I would fight until I drew my last breath if that's what it took.

Nessie broke me from my thoughts as she rotated her hips slightly, making my dick strain against her inner thigh. I could feel her hands grip tightly into my hair again as she made me look into her eyes.

"Jacob Black, are you afraid of me? I won't bite - hard." she moaned as she rubbed against me again. I kept looking into her eyes, waiting to wake up and pull myself out of my lust-induced haze.

"You have no idea how scared of you I am," I sighed heavily. "You're so beautiful Nessie, and I want this, believe me. But I've never been more afraid of anything than I am at this moment."

She stared at me for a moment as if I'd grown another head, her eyes darting back and forth between my eyes and my mouth.

"Why are you scared of me?"

Her eyes were wide and her mouth was hanging slightly agape, her lips swollen from our kisses and her hair slightly mussed from my fingers running through it. Why was I afraid of her? What about this girl right here scared me?

"I… I've had my heart broken, Nessie."

"And you're afraid that I'll break it again?" She whispered.

I nodded slowly as I looked toward the floor; her arms were still tightly wrapped around my neck, her breath fanning across my face in short, even breaths.

"Oh," She said simply before she unwrapped her legs from around my waist and she dropped her arms from around my neck. I let her slide down my body slowly and folded my arms across my chest. "I didn't mean to upset you, Jacob."

I shook my head slightly, that wasn't it at all. It wasn't that I was upset with her; she just didn't understand some of the things from my past. "Look," I said softly as I looked at her, really looked at her. She looked so sad, as if I'd just kicked her puppy or something. "There are some things you don't understand, Nessie… but I want you, God, do I want you. But…"

She raised her eyes, her face a mask of calm. "This is because of mom, right?"

I nearly choked as my eyes bugged out a bit. "W-who told you that?" I asked looking up at her.

"No one told me," she shrugged. "I overheard mom and dad fighting about it one night. Dad is upset that mom doesn't want you with me and he thinks it's because she's jealous, I don't know. So are you going to tell me? No more secrets, right?"

I shook my head; Edward would kill me for sure now.

"Jacob, please."

"No more secrets," I whispered. "You're right."

So I told her, I told her everything. Every little detail of what had happened between her mother and I before Nessie had along. How I'd fallen in love with Bella and wanted to give her everything. How I'd fought against vampires (good and bad) to try and win Bella's heart and still it wasn't enough. I'd never be enough for Bella… I made sure she understood that this was all in the past, though, and that I wasn't bitter. (Okay, so maybe I was - a little bit.) I was just having a hard time coming to terms with what happened and I was terribly hurt. You don't just get over your first love, no matter what happens. Magic bond to someone else or not, I still cared for Bella and seeing her with Edward still stung.

"Jacob, I'm so sorry. I had no idea,"

"You couldn't have known, honey. It is what it is, you know? And I want to give you the man you deserve, not the man that your mother broke those years ago. I can be more, and I can be better, I just need some time."

"I'd never force you to be with me, Jacob. I want you happy, that's all I've ever wanted. You have to know… when you're sad; I feel it. And I know that this still hurts you," she said softly as she slid her hand along my jaw. "It's written all over your face."

"It's not about forcing me to do anything, I love you, I do… it's just that I'm afraid of giving my heart to someone again, and not being enough. I wasn't enough for Bella, and I want to be enough for you."

"You're more than enough, but if you need time, then I will give you that," she smiled at me and lifted my chin so my eyes met hers. "Don't let anyone make you feel that you're not enough, because you are. And I'm so very sorry that you went through all of that, mom had no right to pull you along like some…"

"Yeah, a puppy," I nodded. "I get it."

"Just take your time, I'm not going anywhere. Like I said, I'm in this."

"I'm in it too, honey… I just need some time to figure this all out. It's all mixed up, you know? Like I can't have one single thought, it's all just a jumbled mess…"

She nodded slightly.

"I do want to be with you, I love you," I sighed heavily. "I want this to work."

"And I want this; I wish I could explain it to you. I wish you would believe me that it's fine that you need time," she said as she ran her fingers through her hair. "I understand. I'll wait all my life for you to be ready if I have to."

She lifted her hands then and rested them on the sides of my face. She started showing her thoughts to me then, thoughts about my lips against hers. I could actually feel her happiness when I'd complied with her and kissed her. Then she flashed a picture that made me gasp. She was lying on the bed, covered in my blankets and motioning to me with a finger. She lifted the blanket as I saw the gentle curve of her breast… she was naked. I slid into the bed on top of her, gently lifting my weight from her body as she shifted underneath me; her skin was so beautifully enticing. It touched me in spots at that moment; I could almost actually feel it against me right now. She moaned as I slid a hand down her side and grasped her hip, sliding forward and catching her lips against mine her breasts crushed against my chest. I sighed with contentment as she laced her fingers through my hair.

"We'll have all of that someday… you'll be mine." She whispered.

"Ness," I blinked quickly and pulled my face away from her hands. "Please."

"I know you want me; I've seen how you look at me. It's there, all of it's there inside of you, you just have to find it and give yourself to me. But it has to be when you know, like, really know… Because I won't come second, Jacob."

"I know." I agreed with her, she shouldn't have to be second. Especially to something that never even was…

Bella and I never even became more than friends who had crossed some blurred line, so why was I still holding onto her even after I'd imprinted on someone else? I had to figure this out.

"You and I… we're going to be beautiful together." She said softly, her voice trembling slightly.

"Don't give up on me, and don't let go. I'll find my way…" My breathing was a bit heavier, and my eyes were burning. I wouldn't cry, not over Bella… never again.

"Like I said, I'm here, and I'm not going anywhere. You're stuck with me," she smiled and bit her lip lightly. "So where do we go from here?"

She wasn't even upset?

"I'm not upset with you, Jacob. It was before me, so I have no reason to be upset with you. Besides, you didn't have her… not the way you have me. So what do we do?"

"First off, you need to stop reading my mind, it's starting to freak me out," I laughed lightly. "I want to be with you, Nessie… I'm going to let her go and give myself to you."

"So, does this mean that you want to be my boyfriend?" She giggled.

"Yeah, yeah I do," I laughed lightly. "I'm going to trust again if it kills me."

"Just so you know, no one has ever had a chance, I don't have eyes for anyone but you."

My heart jumped excitedly as she told me this. I could feel my hands moving lightly over her body and she shivered slightly as my thumb grazed her right breast. She moved forward until her face was inches from mine, her chocolate eyes gazing deeply into mine.

"I'm yours, and I always will be."

"Nessie…"

That was all it took for the wolf inside of me to wake up and I realized that she was submitting to him. She knew more about me than I knew about myself. She was opening my (wolf) eyes to what he wanted… what I truly wanted, and it was her. She was giving herself to my wolf, and he wanted her. I couldn't deny him, nor could I deny her. She was my mate, whether my heart knew it or not…

"Mine," I growled deeply in my chest, the Alpha taking over.

"Yes, yours. Only yours," she smiled and then ran her tongue against my lips. She caught my bottom lip between her teeth, biting gently, sucking and licking. "Always."

My body wanted her and my heart would follow soon. She was slowly pulling me in, making me realize things that I hadn't before, that loving Bella never felt like this, I'd never felt whole… or loved back. With Nessie, I was loved… truly and completely loved. And I loved her…

She was mine, and broken heart be damned, I was hers.

Our lips connected once again, and I became lost in her arms, her soft and warm mouth…