I'm not as intelligent as you picture me to be
It was supposed to be a quiet and ordinary day like other, nothing new…
Tsukishima woke up feeling all dizzy and grumpy as always, so for his morning routine, he took a shower, dressed up, did his toilet, took his breakfast and said goodbye to his mother and Akiteru and went out.
He was on his way to school looking for a trash can to dump the leftover of his breakfast when he spotted one in a somewhat dark alley he headed to it and opened it only to find a small dead body there, Tsukishima took some step back dropping his finished breakfast on the ground as his thought raced and in a hurry he just threw his leftover in the dump and left walking faster than usual.
Through his day, this corpse was the only thing that was occupying his mind and he felt more and more guilty about his reaction, he definitely should have called the ambulance, now he have two choices : lie to the police and said he found it on the way back home or tell them he found it this morning, the second choice was the worst one, they'd ask him then why didn't he called them this morning, and it would made him a suspect, no that was totally a bad idea probably even the worst he thought about.
But what was worst was that he actually knew this corpse, like he already saw this person one day, moreover this person happened to be Hinata's little sister, Tsukishima know her because the little girl got lost and ended up at karasuno so Hinata had to take care of her and present her to everyone, she took a certain liking for him and Kageyama he hate kids and he know that he's not the only one on earth but who the actual heck will go as far as to show it by beating up a small innocent child with no defense to death, whoever did that was surely not human that's for sure.
The blonde took a decision, one that was important, he would tell about this to Ukai and Takeda, they are adults, they should know how to handle this, he'll be fine as long as Hinata doesn't learn anything about this.
So after practice he went to see Ukai and found him outside smoking his cigarette, he took a deep breathe in and walked up to him.
Excuse me ! He spoke loudly to be heard
Uh ? Ukai turned around to be meet with Tsukishima, ah, do you need something ?
It's something important actually ! Tsukishima looked away scanning the place to make sure no one was around
What is it ? Ukai frowned, not used to having Tsukishima asking him for advice or something like that
Actually, when i opened a random trash can in an alley this morning…Tsukishima paused to breathe in and reduce his voice, i found a corpse in the dump. He sighed cause it was finally said and known by someone else than him.
What ? Ukai screamed and Tsukishima panicked and hushed him quickly, geez, if someone was to find out he wouldn't see the end of it
You…do you know who it belongs to ? The coach finally managed to lower his voice after the weird news
Yeah…The blonde look down for a long time and bite his lips, remembering the scene
Ukai tapped his foot lightly against the ground, waiting for a proper answer only to be met by a glare from the blocker and a frustrated sigh
You remember the little sister of Hinata ? he asked, not wanting to raise his eyes
Yeah i do wh...Ukai stopped there his mouth agape trying to connects the dots, no…don't tell me it's her ? Tsukishima, you're not…and then he had a long sigh filled with sadness and regret, she was only three year…you must have made a mistake.
…how do i wish i was actually lying. When he said that, the blocker realised his voice was about to break
You…please tell me you called the police or the ambulance ! Ukai schrieked trying his best to keep his voice low. You think of everything so i'm sure you did !
…. I ran away, i didn't knew what to do so i panicked and choosed to escape this, i'm not as intelligent as you all picture me to be ! Tsukishima was the one to scream now, completely loosing it, which was an unusual sight coming from him
Calm down, now ! i understand your reaction actually, so we'll try to figure it out, okay ? it'll be fixed, i'm sure ! Ukai didn't knew if he was trying to convince himself or comfort the desperate first year, he was totally unused to him acting like that, he's always so calm even in the urgent situation.
As they were trying to find a way to solve this problem, they heard a noise like two person bumping together and hurried apologies, and then the duo just froze upon recognizing the voice cause it was so close so, naturally, they feared for the worst.
So sorry, hope i didn't hurt you ! a schrill voice spoke followed by another…
It's okay, Yachi-san ! it was Hinata's voice but it didn't sounded so cheerful as always.
Were you going somewhere ? Asked Yachi frowning at him
Actually… yeah ! the little boy rubbed the back of his head nervously and waved Yachi and told her goodbye quickly cause he had things to settle.
Meanwhile, Tsukishima and Ukai decided it's best to leave the conversation at this point because they didn't wanted Hinata overhearing things that'll hurt him, and on the other side the spiker had difficulty keeping his cheerfulness on after what he heard, and he just kept thinking « no, they are probably making another joke on me ! they just don't have any humour » needless to say, he was in a very strong state of denial, he headed to the changing room to get changing.
Once he was there, he heard his phone ringing so he picked up quickly and the call screen read « Mommy » he answered.
-Mommy ! i had a really great day today and i…Hinata went on happily as always when his mom would call him and she would listen to him talking while giggling from time to time but apparently today was not the day as his mother's voice faintly cutted him.
-Shouyou ! hurry up and come to the hospital, it's your sister, she…i'll meet you there, so please come ! she looked like she was sobbing and her voice was weird.
- uh…sure ! the boy had no other things to say as the phone hanged on him, he lowered his head, something already telling him that this had a link with what Tsukishima was saying about the corpse earlier but he decided to shut it off.
He quickly grabbed his bag without even changing himself and hurried to the exit of the school.
Hey, dumbass ! get changed at least ! Kageyama shouted from the room but Hinata was too absorbed in his thoughts to pay attention to what was around him.
He was walking so fast to the hospital he found himself running and pushing past peoples at some points cause everything in him now was screaming that something was wrong.
When he arrived in the hospital, he asked the first nurse he found for « Hinata Natsu » she solemnly lowered her head a moment, raised it to meet his gaze and said quietly
Hinata-san I...can you please sit down here ? the nurse looked nervous, nothing good, thought Hinata.
I have to inform you that … as the little boy heard these words he already wanted to tell her to not finish her sentence cause it means certainly bad new so he did the most stupidest thing to do, he actually covered his ears and lowered his head.
Hinata-san i know it's difficult but you have to hear this ! the nurse wasn't scolding him she was a bit worried that's all, she reached for his hands to take them off his ears, he violently pushed her away and immediatly apologized because since when did he became so violent ?
At that moment, he heard a voice, and clacking of heels against the ground, he turned around and was crushed in a hug, finding himself in a secure embrace in these arms should have made him happy, it didn't cause he felt his hair getting wet quickly.
My baby! I'm so sorry for everything! Mommy is here okay? I'm here for you, I'm … She couldn't continue her sentence for she fainted, not realizing what the nurse told her earlier about her little baby girl.
Mommy? Mommy! What's going on? Hinata shouted as he saw several nurses lifting his mother and carrying her to an operational block.
Hinata-san, you have to hear me now! The nurse grabbed him firmly by the shoulder, it's your sister, she was found in a dump this morning, the doctors did their best to try and heal her but it was too…she was too damaged so they couldn't do anything and since they spent the day trying to find a way, they finally gave up after many efforts and they just…sent her to the morgue so I'm really sorry and your mother will be okay, she's just really tired, she'll eventually wake up.
From the part where she says "she was too damaged" Hinata couldn't hear anything, everything around him was spinning as he grabbed his head and found a seat nearby, letting himself fall, he covered his head, wanting to end all of this now.
Some days passed after that, when Hinata was skipping practice and the team was worried about him, Ukai ended up telling them the reason for his absence, they were all really touched and sad for him, Kageyama actually went to his home, trying his best to shoulder his partner, it was also the first time Hinata had the setter hugging him and crying with him through the night, heck, when Hinata appeared two months after at practice even Tsukishima hugged him and apologized for not telling him, this warmed the spiker's heart so much to know that he could, now, consider the team as his family that would always stay by his side through thick and thin and even if he never ever forgot about Natsu, his pain was lightened considerably thanks to them.