A/N: I have to admit that I dreamt this story recently and I just couldn't wait to write it and post it here. I'm a Literati sucker, what I can say? Hehe. I hope you like this one. It's completely different from the other one. It's a little more drama and it's a little more complicated. The characters are little more dramatic and not easy to write, but I loved them in this way. As the previous story, I put something very personal in this one too. What Jess is going to live here, it was a state close to me before. The territory I'm about to enter hits close to home for me. But I think you're gonna like it despite the drama. I hope for your support as always and please review if you like what you read. That keeps my muse alive!

P.S. English is not my first language, but I'm really trying here. So, if you think that it's hard for you to read - just don't read it! The reason I'm in this alone it's because I have updates every day. I love my readers and I want to pleased them in that way.

Rating: T (maybe M for some chapters, but we'll see);

Story:

Rory comes back to Stars Hollow to try and pick up the pieces of her ruined life. But she is not the only one who want to do that. Jess is there too, but he is not the same.

Chapter 4 My way to you

Rory had heard her mother's words. This time it was too obvious for whom she was talking about. It was about Jess. Something serious had happened to him. Her mother had mentioned it and Rory was not a fool. She crossed her arms before her chest and stared at Lorelai.

"Mom?" Rory frowned. "Care to share the truth?"

"It's not my truth to share, Rory." Lorelai sighed and looked at her daughter. "You have to understand…"

"Then I'll find out by myself!" Rory snapped and walked to the door. She grabbed her coat, but Lorelai stopped her. She stood in front of her daughter with pleading eyes.

"Rory, please." She lowered her voice. "Don't do this!"

"You don't want to talk to me!" Rory looked at her mother stubbornly. "Jess was a part of my life. He was an important part of it and I want to know what is wrong with him. I have to know!"

"Why are you so stubborn?" Lorelai frowned. She still stood in front of her daughter and on her way to the front door. "Jess belongs to your past. Why don't you let him stay there? Why you want to relive all of your bad memories?"

"There were good also." Rory squeezed the coat in her hands. "He helped me a lot, mom. I loved him."

"And you still are?" Lorelai studied her daughter's face. "Are you, Rory?"

"What?" Rory took a step back. She looked at her mother with confusion. "What are you talking about?"

"I know you, hun." Lorelai tilted her head and looked at her daughter with softness in her eyes. "There is a part of you that still love him. You couldn't get over him completely."

"This is not true!" Rory hissed.

"Be honest to yourself, hun." Lorelai took a step towards her daughter. Rory still stood there. "I know that is too much for you, but…"

"Like you were honest with me, mom?" Rory lowered her voice. "You lied to me and you're keep doing it!"

"I told you that it's not my secret to share." Lorelai shook her head.

"And Luke?" Rory frowned. "He lied to me to, right? Why am I even asking? If I haven't heard it with my own ears, I wouldn't believe it! So I have to talk to Luke, then?"

"Please, don't!"

"But why?" Rory felt something clenching her throat. "Is it that bad?"

Lorelai just sighed and her face faded even more. Her eyes looked sad and that scared Rory more than anything. Her mother had never liked Jess. Now Rory could see sympathy there. She could see the pity there and that was even scarier than any words.

"Rory…"

"I want to know!" Her breath hitched. "Please!"

"I'm sorry, Rory." Lorelai shook her head.

"He is in Stars Hollow, isn't he?" Rory asked quietly.

"You came here to try and cure your life." Lorelai avoided the question. "Just… stay away!"

"You think I will?" Rory tilted her head. "I have to know the truth, mom! I haven't seen Jess since two years! I… I hurt him the last time I saw him."

"You hurt him?" Lorelai looked surprised. "What are you talking about?"

"I was afraid and too blind to see the truth." Rory whispered. "You have to believe me when I'm telling you…"

"I'm sorry, hun!" Lorelai shook her head. "I can't let you do this!"

"I'm not a child!" Rory snapped.

"But you know that I'm telling the truth!" Lorelai frowned. "You won't do this! You know I'm telling the truth!"

"We'll see about that!" Rory twirled around and walked in her room. She slammed the door behind her back and her eyes glowed. She would find the way to see him. Now she was sure that Jess was there, behind the window, last night. He was a reality, not her imagination.

When the night fell, Rory saw her mother sneaked out of the house. This time she did not bother to tell her where she was going. It was obvious, but Rory was prepared for it. She grabbed her coat and followed Lorelai from distance.

Luke was waiting for her at the diner. He was standing there and his face lit up a bit when she showed up. Rory saw that her mother asked him something and his face faded immediately. He shook his head and turned his back to her. Lorelai followed him inside and Rory waited awhile before she could do the same.

The diner was empty and Rory was not surprised. Luke could always put his nephew before his customers. Jess was the part of his family and Luke never forgot that. Rory was not surprised of his behavior now. If Jess was in trouble, Luke was the first one who would take care about him.

Rory sighed and tried to paste her pounding heart. She took the stairs to the upper floor and stood before the door of Luke's apartment. Nothing had changed since the last time Rory was here. The corridor and the door were the same.

Rory heard the voices came from the inside and clenched her fists. Her palms were already sweating. She swallowed hard and reached to touch the lock. Then a momentary confusion possessed her. What if she did not want to know what was going on there? What if her mother was right and she couldn't go there? What if this could hurt her? She had suffered enough these past few months. Maybe she did not need this. Maybe she should not do this.

"You were right." Rory heard her mother's voice. "He is worse."

"I told you." Luke's voice was weak and Rory winced. "I think we should put him on I.V. soon."

"Are you sure?"

"What else we could do?" Luke answered. "I'm afraid that I…"

"Maybe you should take him to the hospital? The things got complicated for you."

"I won't let him alone in this!" Luke insisted. "I won't do that!"

"Luke…"

That was the moment when Rory pushed the door open. The first thing she saw was her mother. She was standing close to the door. Luke had leaned on the wall, close to Jess' part of the room. They looked at her with sadness in their eyes.

"What are you doing here?" Luke frowned at her. Then he looked at Lorelai. "You told me that everything is alright!"

"She followed me." Lorelai looked at her daughter. "Rory! I told you…"

"I want to see him!" Rory insisted and walked to her mother and Luke.

Luke quickly stood in front of her. His face was stern and his eyes narrowed.

"I don't think so!" He snapped. "This is not a good idea!"

"Luke…"

"No!" He frowned. "I told you, you can't see him!"

"Get out of my way!" Rory clenched her fists. "I won't hurt him!"

"I don't care what you think!" Luke hissed. "I won't let you see him like this!"

"I'm gonna see him with or without your permission!" Rory breathed heavily. "I'm gonna stay here until I see him!"

"You can't!" He frowned.

"Try me!" Rory tilted her head.

"Maybe you should let her." Lorelai interrupted their argument. They both looked at her. "There is no point of hiding, not anymore."

"Lorelai." Luke grunted out.

"Come on, Luke." Lorelai almost whispered. "I know what you feel and I know you want to protect Jess, but I think that there is no need of it now. Rory won't hurt him and she wants to see him. She came here on purpose."

Luke sighed with hesitation. His eyes wandered around the room as if he tried to find the answer there. He looked at Rory and as if something snapped in him. His shoulders hung and his face faded again. He shook his head and stepped aside.

"I'll be outside." Luke almost whispered and left the room. Lorelai stayed with Rory.

"I have to warn you, hun." She touched Rory's arm. "The picture is not pretty."

"Okay." Rory whispered and sudden shiver passed through her body, but she took the final step. She almost fell from surprise. "Oh, no!"

Jess was lying on his own bed. His eyes were open, but they were empty. There was no life in them. He was an empty shell and Rory could feel it. She felt weak in her knees and knelt close to his bed.

"Rory…" Lorelai touched her shoulders. "Maybe you have to…"

"Leave me alone with him." Rory's voice cracked.

"Hun…"

"Now!" She insisted and few seconds later, the room was empty. Her mother had listened to her. Rory closed her eyes for a moment and then looked back at the man in the bed. His eyes were still open and he still could not see her. "I found you." Rory whispered and her hand reached out to touch him. "What happened with you, Jess? What?"

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