A/N: Sorry this chapter has taken so long, I've had to write 3 or 4 essays for this week.

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight.

Chapter 3- Hate is Such a Strong Word

Jacob POV

Today I was running patrol with Sam and Embry. I had to tell Sam my decision now. I didn't know how Embry was going to take it though. Hey Jake I heard Embry say as I shifted.

Hey Embry. Sam I made my decision. I paused expecting a reply. I knew he was shifted, so I continued, I accept.

Okay Jacob, we will start the training in a few days. Sam was just so uptight, he needed to relax and have some fun.

Jacob! I could feel how hurt and angry Embry was at me. W-Why did you lie to me?

I can explain

I don't want to hear it. I thought we told each other everything. I already knew you were lying to me about having a problem, but I let that go, thinking it was too personal and you would come around. I didn't think you would lie about not becoming Alpha. Hearing him mention that brought Bella to my mind, and waiting for her at the beach. Sam noticed that.

Jacob, is there something you want to tell me? I hung my head like a child being caught stealing cookies.

I'm sorry Sam, I wanted to see her. I couldn't be away from her any longer. I was hoping she would be at the beach. I don't know why I thought she would be there so late, but I was hopeful. She wasn't there, so technically I didn't do anything wrong. I peeked up hopeful, even though I couldn't see him.

Jacob, that was still against the rule. The rule was no Bella. Since you didn't actually see her, I'll still give you the chance to be Alpha.

After a few hours, Paul came to relieve me. I was still the youngest wolf, so I had the shortest patrols, even though I was going to be Alpha. Now that I was human, I could think things through without Sam hearing. Thank God he didn't use his Alpha command about Bella. I might have died right there. I decided to be Alpha so I could make the rules. Once I was Alpha, I wouldn't have to hide Bella anymore.

Since I had the rest of the day off, I decided to go to Bella's house.

Bella's POV

When I'm mad I can't sit still, so I was upstairs reorganizing my room. Charlie had the day off. The one day I really just want to have the house to myself, Charlie has no plans. I can't believe Jacob didn't come to meet me at the beach. How can you say you want to be together, then make plans, and not show up? I heard a knock at the door. Charlie grunted while he pushed himself up off the couch, to get the door. I couldn't make out what was being said. "Bella," Charlie called, "it's Jake." I groaned. He was the last person I wanted to see right now. I went down the stairs to see him, just so Charlie wouldn't get suspicious. I smiled at Charlie, and once I passed him, my expression immediately turned into a scowl. I refused to look at him. I stepped out on the porch and closed the door behind me.

Jacob's POV

I could tell she was pissed at me, but as soon as I saw her, my whole world changed. It was like I died and then was reborn with her the center of my life.

Bella's POV

I could feel him staring at me. I looked right next to his face, knowing if I looked at him, my anger would disappear. He had to know what would happen when he stands me up. I wasn't going to forgive him for a long time.

Jacob's POV

"Bella, I'm really sorry about last night. Something ca—"

"I don't want to hear it, Jake. You stood me up and I can't count on you anymore." I didn't like where this was heading. Especially after what just happened between us.

"Please, Bella, look at me." She didn't budge. "Will you let me explain?" There was no response. "Sam called me, I had to go…"

"So Sam is more important than me?" Crap, how was I going to explain this. She needed to tell me what she knew first.

"No, Bells, let me explain, please."

"Stop lying to me, Jacob Black. I hate you, and never want to see you again."

"Oh, c'mon, Bells, you don't really mean that. Hate is such a strong word." First Embry, and now Bella, everyone in my life is abandoning me. She turned and went back into her house. She lightly closed the door, but it felt like she was slamming it. I turned to the railing, and kicked it out of frustration. It broke. I started running home. I didn't need the Chief of Police after me for vandalism. I wanted to run faster so I phased. Paul, Jared, and Sam were all phased, too. They all knew everything I just did instantly because I couldn't get Bella out of my head. Sam was furious at me for disobeying him again. Jacob, since I can't tell you not to see your imprint, your Alpha training has been put indefinitely on hold. I didn't care. I didn't care about anything, I just wanted to get home.

When I got home my dad was at the Clearwaters' house. I went straight to my room, shut the door, and flopped onto my too small bed. All the legends say that you easily become whatever your imprint wants you to be. I must be the first one whose imprint wants to be enemies.

A few hours later my dad knocked on my door, "Jake?" Who else could it be? "Sam told me what happened. I know it's tough." He didn't know the half of it. I didn't respond so he continued, "Do you want anything to eat?"

"No." My simple answer must have led him down the same path my thoughts were taking me.

"You have to eat eventually."

"Sure, sure," I murmured. I silently vowed to myself that as long as Bella and I were separated this way, I wasn't going to have anything. Dying of starvation is better than being rejected by your imprint.

Days past and I never left my room except in the beginning to go to the bathroom. My dad knocked on the door regularly to offer me things. I turned him down every time. I could feel myself getting weaker, but I didn't care.

Bella POV

I missed Jake. Billy keeps calling me and telling me I need to come over. He says it's important. I wasn't going to go running back to Jake, though. There was a knock at the door and I held my breath, hoping it would be him. "Bella, someone's here to see you." Charlie's voice shock a little. I didn't know what to expect. I went downstairs and looked at the door.