No Glee ownage here.
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Months past by and they don't say anything to each other. Finn hates it. He wants to spend time with her. He confronts her at school.
"Santana, we need to talk," he said, leaning against the lockers.
"about what?"
he moved closer to her and grabbed her hand, she glared at him, "just let me talk."
She stayed quiet and let him hold her hand, "make it snappy."
"I really like you. And I want to be your boyfriend," he looked at her.
"why?"
"because I do, I think I l-"
"don't even say it," she glared at him and slammed her locker, turning to walk away.
He grabbed her arm and looked at her, "what? I can't say love?"
"we're in high school. Love doesn't exist even in the real world, let alone high school," she rolled her eyes at him.
"how could you be like this? What made you so cold? So put off to loving someone?"
"no! don't fucking say that to me. I don't love you. I don't even like you," she rose her voice almost to a yell.
"first off, the way that you and I…" his voice drifted, "you don't feel that?"
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"love does exist.. maybe I don't love you now, but I could," he looked at her.
"it doesn't. trust me," Santana glared at him.
"and why not?" he looked at her.
"if it does than why are my parent's getting divorced? And why didn't Puck want to be my boyfriend when I practically begged him on Valentines day? And why didn't Brittany say that she loved me back and mean it?" She frowned and looked down at the ground.
He looked at her, "look, Santana… I'm sorry that they hurt you.. but…"
"but what? You won't hurt me? Bullshit," she got out of his grip and walked away, " don't follow me."
She stormed down the hallway and walked straight to the bathroom. Rachel was in there doing her daily prep before glee club. Santana glared at her.
"get out, Berry!" she yelled, trying to keep her voice from shaking.
Rachel looked at her, slightly worried. even if Santana didn't show it. Somehow, Rachel knew something was wrong.
"Santana, are you okay?" her voice was quiet.
"I'm fine, Berry, but I don't really want to be in your presence. So.." she rolled her eyes and looked into the mirror.
"I'm not leaving. This is a public bathroom…." Rachel's voice drifted.
"Manhands, do you /want/ a smack down? Because I can give it to you if you want," She glared into the mirror at Rachel.
Rachel's eyes widen and walked away quickly. Santana stared into the mirror at her reflection. Why is this happening? Why does Finn want her? he can have anyone he wants. And he chooses her? She's not good at relationships. She backs away everytime she gets close to someone. She frowned at herself. She's only 17! she doesn't need to have all these weird feelings inside her.
Her phone buzzed. She looked at the text.
Finn txt: come out of the bathroom, please. I don't want to get detention for going in.
She stared at for a while.
Santana txt: why should I?
Finn txt: because I asked you to. I want to talk to you.
Santana txt: you already did. I'm not interested Finn.
Finn sighed and knocked gently at the bathroom door.
Santana yelled, "go away Finn."
"not until you come out."
Santana waited until the bell rang and she knew people were gone. Either at club or went home. She walked out slowly and looked at Finn, leaning against the wall opposite the bathroom. He was looking down at his feet, his arms crossed. His brow was furrowed. She bit her lip and coughed awkwardly.
Finn looked up and smiled slightly at her, "hey…"
"that's all you can say? "hey"…?" she laughed a little and looked at him.
"are you okay?" he looked at her, slowly walking closer.
She nodded and looked up at him, "I'm fine."
He nods and stays silent, "we should go to glee club. Mr. Schue is probably waiting."
Santana shook her head, "I actually don't feel very good. I think I'm catching something…"
He nodded and looked at her, "you want me to take you home?"
"no," she said quickly, "it's fine."
He put his hand on her shoulder and nods, "alright. See you later."
She smiled weakly at him and nods, walking to her car.
Santana wasn't catching a cold. But she was catching something else. The love bug. She laid down on her bed when she got home and stared at the ceiling. She can't honestly be in love with Frankenteen. That boy could barely walk down the hall without tripping on his two big feet. He was barely passing his classes. The boy was an idiot.
She ignored Finn for most of the year. Soon, Finn was with Quinn. It almost made her barf up what little food she did eat. She was alone most of the time. Yeah, she had Brittany, but Brittany was always with Artie. And Artie was an annoying little bugger who she felt too awful to make fun of because he was disabled. She has some flings with Puck. But after Puck decided to be fully committed to Lauren he backed off. Santana didn't know what to do. Her feelings were all mixed up. She liked Puck, she thought she loved Brittany, what if she liked Finn too? Was it too late? Did she really fuck up all three relationships she's had?
Finn and the glee club yapped on about loving who they are one day and Santana couldn't take it. Any chance she'd get she wanted to torment Finn..
"my dancing kind of bothers me… it almost killed Rachel, but.. I like the way I look…"
"oh please. You have weird puffy pyramid nipples. They look like they're filled with custard. You could dust them with powered sugar and they can pass for some sort of dessert."
After practice Finn had enough. He pulled Santana aside.
"you don't have to do all this. I gave you a chance and you didn't take it. Quinn likes me. And I like her back, so don't meddle and leave me alone."
She rolled her eyes, "well it's true. Your nipples are oddly misshapen."
"if you hated me so much you'd ignore me like you do Rachel." He looked at her.
"it's fun making fun of you," she smirked and shrugged, "I'm glad you're happy with Lucy Caboosey. I made the right decision in not dating you. And your weird awkward body."
She laughed a little at her own joke and walked down the hall. Satisfied for making fun of him. Honestly, she felt bad about the way she's been treating Finn. But the only reason why she did these things was to make him notice her. make him realize he made a mistake for getting with Quinn again. Who'd make that mistake twice? Really? He can't be that dumb.
"Puck I need to talk to you about something.." she pulled him aside at his locker.
Puck raised his eyebrow and looked at her, "love to Lopez but I have a date with Zizes tonight."
"I'm not talking about that, Fuckerman," she rolled her eyes.
"than what?"
"you play guitar right?"
"I do more than just play guitar. I own that shit. I'm awesome. I'm amazing, babe.." he grinned conceitedly at her.
"shut up, Puck…" she crossed her arms.
"get to the point, 'Tana.."
"I need you to learn a song for glee club.. okay?" Santana told him bluntly.
"you and me? A song?" he looked at her, "ah I know.. to make Hudson jealous."
"yes.. and no."
"I'm going to try and make it right. And if it makes him jealous than.." she smiled and shrugged.
Puck nodded and looked at her, "sounds good. I'll help you. You are my friend, I hope you know that."
she smiled a little at him, "yeah… I hope you have fun with Zizes."
Santana stood up in glee club a couple days later. Puck and her practiced enough. She hoped.
"Mr. Schue, Puck and I prepared something to sing…"
Mr. Schue looked at both of them strangely and then at the club. He nodded and stepped aside to let them sing. Puck felt like a pussy for singing a Jonas brother's song. But Santana secretly loved the original JB. She didn't care. The songs were good and were a great song to sing.
Santana pulled out a chair and sat down, Puck grabbed his acoustic and started strumming. Santana took a deep breath and looked at Finn, whose arms were around Quinn shoulders. Puck started singing first. Looking around at the glee club.
They say you know when you really find the one
But it's hard to tell with the damage that's been done
But I like to say that it's your fault but I know better
Cos I'm a fool to think you'd wait around forever
Santana gulped and started singing her part.
Maybe I could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you more than you could know
Don't say it's too late to try to make it right
Puck and her harmonized together, Pucks eyes glued on Santana and her movements. He didn't know what exactly was going through her mind. She was staring at Finn, frowning slightly and singing along.
I didn't know how good you were for me
Now it's clear I'm seeing all that we can be
And I know that it's my fault but I'm gonna treat you better
Cos if I had one wish you'd be with me forever
Maybe I could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you more than you could know
Don't say it too late to try to make it right
Is there something I can say
Show me how to break it down
So before you walk away
Take the time t turn around
Listen to me now
Maybe I could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you more than you could know
Don't say it's too late to try to make it right.
The club clapped for them, staring between her and Finn for a moment. She got up and walked out silently. Puck put his guitar down and went over to Finn.
"dude, do something."
"about what? It was just a song." He shrugged. His grip tightening around Quinn.
"Finnessa, seriously? You're gonna treat her like that?"
"Puck, shut up and sit down," Quinn glared at him.
he rolled his eyes and went back to his place next to Lauren. Santana sat down in the hall and heard everything. She couldn't help but want to cry. She tried her hardest to show to Finn that she did care for him. singing was probably the only way she could tell him. it was too late. He chose Quinn.