A/N: Finn's still struggling with this. (As am I.) But you'll see he's found a new way to handle the journal.
The Finnster REALLY likes his swearwords! Sorry for the abundance of the F-word in this one, he'll behave better in the future.
Enjoy!
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[Ninth Entry]
(a line with Dear Dad, crossed out almost to the point of being unreadable, then several attempts of the same underneath, twice with the beginning of another sentence heavily crossed out, then halfway down the page:)
Hi dad,
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(another crossed out line of totally illegible text )
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(three lines further down)
Hi dad,
mom said I could write it like I'm talking to you. This is probably the most fucked up idea, like EVER. I think you'd probably have told her she's crazy for talking me into this, this is so not cool for a guy.
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wtf am I writing this down? ? ? W T F!
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(rest of the page is covered in differently sized "WTF?"s)
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[Tenth Entry]
(looks like a continuation from the previous one, since it doesn't have any proper beginning and starts right on the margin at the very top of the page)
okay so why does shit like this have to happen to me, can you tell me that? ? no cuz you're a fucking BOOK! ! ! I would've given anything, fuck, I DID everything for her and she was a total FUCKING BITCH and a LIAR just like this ASSHOLE who called himself my friend! ! ! she gave me all this CRAP about how I need to help her pay for shit and I felt like a total loser for not being able to do anything! ! ! I hope they're fucking happy now cuz they totally deserve each other! Why would she lie to me like that? ? ? yeah right, idiot, you're so fucking smart you totally believed her lies. STUPID! She lied cuz she knew I was the one guy stupid enough to believe her. And all this shit about the baby, how fucking awful and terrible and hard it is for her and I shouldn't complain well FUCK SHE LIED! ! ! she fucking lied, and made me care anyw
FUCK
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(three quarters of the page down there is water damage, the C and K of the last word blurred by it. The last three bottom lines have been ripped out of the book)
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[Eleventh Entry]
(written in neater handwriting than before, starting on the first line)
Books are not to be thrown at walls.
Books are not to be thrown at walls.
Books are not to be thrown at walls.
Books are not to be thrown at walls.
Books are not to be
Yeah cuz who would've thought a book this size would make a hole in a wall?
That dude on the horse totally looks better without his head on
Shit that sounded so much cooler in my head
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(several lines below this, in big letters across the entire page)
WHY AM I EVEN WRITING THIS DOWN?
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[Twelfth Entry]
(The words "Hi dad" are written and crossed out several times on the first line, but the remainder of the text is written in an almost indecipherable scrawl directly below it)
SECTIONALS is today. I'm NOT going. I can't stand thinking about it. I don't want to see her or him or anyone else, I'd just get really really REALLY angry and do something even more stupid than believing in stupid lies
Shit I can't believe I'm actually writing all this down. I suck.