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Chapter 4 – Lonely Heart

BPOV

"Bells, you can have the window seat."

"Thanks Jas," I mustered all the enthusiasm I could and tried to smile. Jasper had been incredibly kind to me all day. It's almost like he knew that leaving the Cullen house this morning ripped me apart.

I settled into my seat, Alice beside me.

"Bella, you look tired. You sure you feel okay?"

"I'm fine Alice. I just didn't sleep well last night. I think I'll snuggle up to the window and take a nap on the flight back to Philly."

"Okay sweetie. I'll get you a ginger ale when the flight attendant comes around"

"And I'll spike it with some Seagram's 7 I snuck through security," whispered Jasper.

Alice punched him in the arm, "J, you didn't! How?"

"I used some of those travel sized bottles for hair products. Guess security thought it was hairspray since each bottle was less than three ounces and fit in my quart sized baggie," Jasper beamed at us.

"Thanks guys," I tried to smile at them. I wrapped up one of my sweaters, put it in the window to use as a pillow and covered up with my hoodie. As I closed my eyes, this morning played through my mind.

We set the alarm early so we would be awake before everyone else. I turned over and looked at Edward lying so peacefully beside me. I ran my fingers along his jaw, outlining his lips. His eyes opened and I swear he saw straight into my soul. The butterflies stirred in my stomach.

Neither of us spoke. Edward's hand had come up to trace my fingers that were still touching his lips. As he stared into my eyes, my body began to heat up, as if he was making love to me without touching me.

"You're still wearing my t-shirt," Edward growled at me with lust in his eyes.

Before I could take another breath, he pounced on me, his hands going under said t- shirt, his long body on top of mine. His breathing was staggered as his lips were drawn to mine as if they were magnets that refused to be forced apart. His tongue searched out mine with an urgency that mimicked the panic in my heart.

My hands grabbed his bare back, my fingernails digging his warm skin. He moaned and ran one hand down my stomach, pulling down both my shorts and his boxers. His mouth never leaving mine, his body never letting air between us, he entered me sending shockwaves like pin pricks through my body. I grabbed him, pulling him closer, wanting him to disappear into me. He shuddered and lay still inside me.

"Bella, I, I…" he fumbled.

"I know Edward, me too," I whispered back.

His kisses intensified, as if he wanted to taste every bit of me. We both grabbed and pulled, devouring each other; our bodies melded together, our hearts in sync. Neither of us blinked, burning the image of one another in our minds.

I felt the orgasm roll through my body from my toes to the top of my head. Every piece of my being had just been given to Edward.

"You may now use electronic devices," the voice on the speaker jolted me out of my reverie. I popped in my headphones and stole a quick glance at Jasper and Alice. Alice was showing him some buildings in one of her architectural magazines. Better him than me. I loved walking around with Alice looking at cool architectural elements, but sometimes she was over the top with her passion.

I closed my eyes planning to take a nap, but all I saw in the darkness behind my eyelids was Edward.

Emma demanded that Alice and I watch an episode of iCarly with her before we left. The three of us dressed up with boas and crowns and had a tea party on the living room floor. We laughed and sang and had an absolutely fabulous girly time. My heart felt so full in the attention of this beautiful little girl.

I felt Edward's eyes on us every time he passed by the living room. Once he caught my attention and stared so longingly into my eyes. It felt right. Once again, I felt a sense of home.

When it was time to go, Edward grabbed my hand and pulled me into the downstairs bathroom. He put both of his hands on my face. We heard Alice calling for me, so we knew we only had seconds. He softly brushed his lips across mine with the lightest of touch. "Isabella, you are extraordinary."

With that, he kissed each of my eyes and my lips once more and opened the door. My heart was beating so fast I was sure his family could see it pounding in my chest.

"Bella, do you want your ginger ale?" Alice asked me quietly.

"Sure, but only if Jasper put a little secret sauce in it," I grinned back.

"Bells, I'm shocked you doubt me!" Jasper feigned a hurt face and passed the ginger ale.

I took a sip of the drink and started coughing. "Dang Japer! I said a little sauce. With a drink like this, we might as well play some cards, if you think you can take me on."

"Yay! I hope you play better than you did this weekend, Bella," Alice sang at me. "You kinda sucked."

I watched her pull the cards out of her purse and smiled at the memory of that night. Yeah, I sucked alright and it wasn't just at cards.

"Seven card stud, aces wild," Alice started laying down the cards on our little trays. "Bella, I can't believe how much Emma loves you! It was so sweet."

"She is such a doll. She is an amazing little girl and it seems like Edward is a great father."

"Speaking of my bipolar brother, what was with you guys last night?"

I took a quick sip of my drink before I answered, trying to be coy. "Edward, Emma, and I had a nice day together. I suppose we became friends."

Alice let out a chuckle and raised her eyebrows at me, "All my girlfriends in high school crushed on him. I totes get it if you swooned over him just a bit."

"You know it takes more than some good looks to turn my head - although your brother is quite hot," I shot back at her while fanning myself.

"Ha! Well, I am glad my family loves you."

"Uhm, I'm not sure I impressed Rosalie too much. She really is an ice queen unless Emma is in her aura."

"I'm sure you noticed that we just ignore her sourness after awhile. If we could chip away enough ice I think we might find a nice person inside; at least one with a warm beating heart."

This was just what I needed. The angst over Edward was already burning a hole in my chest. A good strong drink and my favorite card game with my best friends thirty thousand feet in the sky was sure to provide a little distraction.

EPOV

After Bella, Alice, and Jasper left, Emma was sad so Rose took her into town for a treat. Mom was "inspired" and went to her studio out back to put her inspiration on canvas. Dad needed some help chopping wood for the winter so he borrowed Emmett's muscles. It was just as well to me, I could use some time alone.

I took a long walk in the woods behind the house replaying the last three days in my head. How did my sister's roommate get so into my head? More disturbing, how did she get into my heart? It felt like this girl was the missing puzzle piece of my soul. Was it real? Had it just been too long since I had been interested in a girl that I was magnifying this to the nth degree?

"Bella," I whispered as we lay in each other's arms this morning, "I can't explain how I feel about you. I just know that I must have more of you."

"Edward, I am going to be honest here, which is not my style, and admit that I feel the same. I am a realist though and I'm not sure how that is going to happen given the three thousand miles between us."

I sighed and kissed her bruised lips again. Pulling her to my chest, I stuck my nose in her hair and held her tight.

"We'll find a way to be together, Bella. We know we are amazing in bed, but I want to know all about you. Everything there is to know about Isabella Swan."

I felt the panic rise up in her as she tensed in my arms. I suppose I said too much. But I do want to know everything about her. She is magical and enticing and has danced her way into my blood.

I lifted her chin up and kissed her again, melting away the panic attack. Her arms slipped around my back and pulled me close to her. She didn't have to say anything more. I knew she felt the same.

My phone vibrating in my pocket took me away from the painfully pleasant playback of this morning.

"This is Edward."

"Hello, Edward. This is MacKenna."

"Hi Chief! I hope you had a great Thanksgiving."

"I was on call and the nurses put together a great feast for everyone. It was a typical hospital holiday. We didn't have many admissions, so that was a nice change of pace!"

"I suppose you aren't making a social call. How can I help you?"

"Is it possible for you to be back in the city tonight so you can take over Sam's 7:00 am call? He has come down with something nasty. I'm afraid he's oinking as H1N1 has really been getting around the city over the holiday."

"Of course! Let me talk to my brother and sister-in-law to see if they can bring Emma back with them tomorrow."

"If they can't you know there are plenty of us who will watch Emma for you. Just call me back if you need someone and I'll come over at 6:30 am so you don't have to even get her out of bed."

"Thank you MacKenna! I'll let you know."

It was only late morning. I wouldn't have to head back until evening if Emmett and Rose could bring Emma back tomorrow. I was about to head back into my deep thoughts of Bella when I heard a twig snap and turned to see my dad walking towards me. I saw the look on his face, and I knew what was coming. Undoubtedly a lecture on what he thought he saw last night when I came out of Bella's room with no shirt on and my jeans unbuttoned. I wasn't sure how much I wanted to say to him. My dad has always been my closest confidant, but I am scared to say what I think I feel out loud. How do I tell him that after three days I know, absolutely know, that Bella, Emma, and I belong together. That our souls are connected and meant to be together for eternity.

"Hi, son. I hope you don't mind me joining you for a bit."

"Not at all dad. We don't get to spend much time just the two of us anymore."

"No we don't. I might as well cut to the chase as I expect we won't be able to spend much time together right now either. You are normally very responsible and I would have never imagined you sleeping with your sister's roommate. Alice will be shattered when she finds out you used her roommate for a good time this weekend. How did you get tangled up in such a mess?"

Wow. He wasn't sparing anything on this one. I knew he didn't agree with things from his look and words in the hall, but I didn't know he'd go straight to the jugular when we spoke again. I suppose I have to be honest. I have to make him understand that it's not a mess, at least not in the way he thinks.

"Dad, I appreciate your concern about me, Bella, and Alice. I really do. And yes, things are going to be sticky with Alice when it's time to let her know what is happening. But it is not at all what you think it is."

He raised his eyebrows at me, "Go on."

"Dad, I know this is going to sound unbelievable and well, quite corny, but I think…I think I love Bella. I think, no I know, we were meant to be together."

"Edward, she's a teenager. A teenager you have only known for three days. How can you possibly know that you are destined for one another?"

"I just know dad. With every fiber of my being, I know. You are right, I don't know much about her, and yes, she is a teenager, but I know that I want to spend the rest of my life making her feel like this most incredible woman in the world. Saying it out loud to you now only confirmed it."

"Son, you know that sex can often intensify feelings and make you feel things that you don't necessarily feel. It's been a long time since you have been with someone whose company you enjoy. She is a very sweet and charming girl. Don't you think that it's possible that her personality coupled with the sex is making you project feelings that aren't real? I hope you aren't leading this girl on, making her think you love her."

I turned to keep walking down the worn dirt path in the woods. "I can't explain it dad. I know I love her. Emma loves her. I'm positive Bella loves us too."

"Is this about finding a mother for Emma? Bella is nineteen-years-old. I doubt she wants an insta-family at that age."

"It's not about that, though I will admit that it makes my love for her deeper."

I stopped walking and turned to look dad in the eyes. "Dad, I know that my days will be dark without her near. I know that hearing her voice will bring sun into my life. I know that seeing her again will make me complete. She is already running through my veins."

He gave me a pondering look and continued to walk, "And Alice?"

"We have agreed to not tell Alice for now. Hell, we haven't even admitted to each other that we feel this deeply. We have only agreed to phone calls, Skype, and seeing each other at New Year's when we all go for Jasper's party. We didn't even talk about not seeing other people or anything serious in regards to the two of us"

"So you will be taking it slow?"

"Yes. I can tell she has some issues with emotional intimacy. I want her come to her own realization of how right we are."

"I suppose your distance will either draw you closer together or force you apart. What about your residency and fellowship plans? Do you think you can maintain a long distance relationship for at least two more years?"

"You know that I am interviewing to transfer to a pediatric residency for second and third year. I already have an interview in January at CHOP. I will be an exception if I am allowed to transfer in, but I feel pretty positive about being able to make a transfer that is good for my career and just so happens to coincide with Bella's location."

"I guess that is a strange coincidence since you already had it in the works. Alright, I won't tell your sister either, not yet, but I do want you to be respectful of Alice and do what is right by her as well."

"I promise dad. You know I love Alice and I would never intend to hurt her or someone she loves. Oh, Jasper knows. He saw how Bella and I were interacting and asked me about it. I know he will keep me apprised of any suspicions Alice has so I can talk to her when the time is right. He would never let me hurt Alice."

"I am a bit relieved that Jasper knows of your affair. He will make a great addition to this family someday."

"Do you know that is what Alice and Jasper want? To be married?"

"In fact, I do. Jasper stole a few moments with me this weekend and asked if I would give my blessing for him to ask Alice to be his wife."

"What! All this talk of Bella being nineteen, well so is Alice !"

"I suppose it is a bit hypocritical of me to agree to let Alice marry and turn around and berate you for having intense feelings about her roommate. It's just that I want all my children to be happy and with someone that is their perfect mate. I know that is exactly what Jasper is for Alice. I hope that is what Bella is for you."

"I agree about Jasper. I can't imagine a time when he wasn't at her side and he is already a part of our family. As far as Bella, that is what she is for me, and time will prove me right."

"I hope so son. I hope so."

We had walked a full circle through the woods, coming back up behind mom's studio. "Let's go see if mom is ready for some lunch, I'm starving."

BPOV

After Jasper spiced up the plane ride with his illegal stash, we played cards until the plane touched down in Philly. While it didn't totally take my mind off Edward, it definitely helped ease the pain a little. I was glad Jasper didn't let me go to my emo place and wallow in my self-pity.

Now that we were home in our apartment, I couldn't help the feelings that washed over me. I went to my room and took Edward's t-shirt from my bag. He told me to take it with me and I willingly obliged. I put it up to my nose and inhaled the smell of our lovemaking that morning. My clit started throbbing at the memory of him beside me, on me, in me. It was as if I was still there with him, his warm, long, naked body pressed against mine.

I reached up under my shirt and bra and started tracing circles around my nipples. I felt his hot breath blowing on them as he looked up at me with green eyes. As I pinched my nipple, I felt his teeth grabbing it and rolling it under his tongue, a teasing smile on his face as he nipped and bit while playing with my other breast with his fingers.

I unbuttoned my jeans and slid a hand down in them, feeling Edward's hands on my stomach, his tongue on my clit. As my fingers moved faster on my wet clit, I could feel the stubble on Edward's face against my thighs as his tongue flicked across my clit and his fingers reached inside me to the golden spot. I arched my back and moaned as Edward moved faster and faster increasing my pleasure with every roll of his tongue, every movement of his fingers.

As the orgasm overcame me, I rolled on my side, the t-shirt still on my face, and I cried. I cried because I was alone. I cried because Edward was three thousand miles away. I cried because I knew I wanted him more than I have wanted anything in my entire life. I cried because I knew there was no way I could have him.

.Shit. I wiped the tears from my face and picked up my phone and dialed the familiar number.

"Bella!! You're back baby. Can you meet me?"

"Sure Jake. When and where?"

"How about a late dinner at Chart House and then I'll get our usual room at Sofitel?"

"I think I only feel like dinner and drinks tonight. You can fuck me in the car or in the restroom in a bar. I'm not in the mood to wake up alone in a hotel tomorrow."

"Bella, are you okay? You, well, you don't usually talk like this."

"I'm fine Jake, I called you didn't I? I need to shower; I'll meet you at 9:00 pm. Bye."

On my way to the shower, I literally bumped into Jasper. "Sorry Jas…I wasn't paying attention to where I was going."

"Yeah, you seem like you are thousands of miles away." I closed my eyes tightly hoping to push the ache I felt away. "Are you heading out?"

"I have a date with Jake."

"Really? I thought you might forget about him after the holiday in Forks."

"Why would I forget about him? I've been seeing him for months and it's not like any other options are in front of me at the moment," I responded defensively. I realized how harsh I sounded so I smiled at him and said, "We all can't be as lucky as you and Alice."

Jasper gave me the sweetest look and took my hand, "Bells, come on. I just want you to be with someone that adores you and will spend every moment trying to prove to you that he deserves to be a part of your life. Someone who wants all of you and will give you everything in return for just a piece of you. And I don't mean a piece of ass."

My eyes must have started crinkling in anger because Jasper hastily added, "Don't get me wrong, I know nothing of Jake. BUT if he was good for you, good to you, I would know more about him. I would know him."

"No, you don't know Jake, and have you ever thought that maybe that's MY choice, not his?" I pushed past him to get into the bathroom.

Truth was, I wasn't in the mood for Jake tonight, but then again, maybe it's just what I needed. I knew I would never have Jake, Leah would never allow it. He wasn't leading me on, making me think we had a future that was more than our present. I knew exactly what I was involved in with Jake. At least I'll get a good meal and some drinks out of it. Maybe fucking him will get Edward out of my head.

But as I dressed for my date with Jake I knew nothing could get Edward out of my head. In three days, he had slammed his way into my heart, ripping and tearing the fabric of protection I had carefully sewn around it. I knew Edward was pulsing through my veins and I knew Jake was no substitute. But what could I do? I was a nineteen-year-old college girl. Once Edward went back to his daily schedule at the hospital there is no way he would continue to want me. Besides, there were miles and miles and miles of literal distance between us.

With one last sigh, I sniffed Edward's t-shirt and left to meet Jake. On the way out, I could hear Alice and Jasper laughing in her room. I loved them both dearly, but my heart felt like a lead weight of jealousy knowing they had met their true soul mate in each other. In the dark recesses of my heart, I knew Edward held the key to my soul but my mind refused entrance to that thought because of the heartache it would bring.

EPOV

Emmett and Rose were more than happy to take Emma back to Seattle with them. Rose was ecstatic that she would spend the entire Sunday with Emma, especially since Emmett had to hop a plane to Vancouver as soon as he dropped them at the house.

I was only going to be apart from her for one day, but it was never easy to leave her. "Emma baby," I spoke softly as I entered the living room. She was peacefully sucking her thumb, and twirling her hair. She lifted her head and her green eyes searched until they met mine. I smiled at her before I lifted her up and sat her on my lap. "Daddy has to go to work. Aunt Rose and Uncle Emmett will take you back to their house tomorrow." I smoothed her hair out as she laid her head against my chest. I didn't want to leave her. A piece of me had already left with Bella. Leaving Emma really made me feel alone.

"You listen to Aunt Rose and Uncle Em, okay? Daddy's gonna miss you."

She moved her head from my chest and smiled at me. Her tiny hand moved to my face and she gave me a sweet kiss on the cheek. "I wove you daddy!" Emma proclaimed, and I couldn't help but smile. Even she could tell I was sad and worked her magic, trying to make me smile.

It didn't take much. I picked her up with a big smile on my face, brought her belly to my mouth and began to blow raspberries on her tummy, making her laugh loudly. When she was out of breath I pulled her back to me and whispered, "I wove you too, baby girl."

Emma was of course thrilled she would get to play princess with all of Aunt Rose's jewelry and didn't seem to mind at all when I left Forks. It was a vast difference from her response when Alice and Bella left.

Bella. My thoughts clouded up as I thought about her. It had physically hurt my heart when I pulled her into the downstairs bathroom for a goodbye kiss. The look in her eyes told me she was just as pained. As our family walked her, Alice, and Jasper to their rental car, Emma jumped from Alice's arms to Bella's, wrapping her little arms and legs around Bella so tight that my heart swelled at seeing the two of them embracing.

"Call Bella mobile," I spoke into my phone. I waited as the smart technology dialed her number. Straight to voicemail, hmmm. I was sure they would be home by now.

"Bella, this is Edward. I wanted to hear your voice and make sure you made it home okay. Uhm, I was called into the hospital tomorrow so I'm headed back to Seattle early. Uhm, call me when you get a chance."

What a dork! My first voicemail to her and it was ridiculous sounding. I sighed and went back to my happy Bella place.

We showered together and I inhaled her scent, the smell of peaches. I couldn't resist the chance to feel her in my hands and mouth one last time. She turned to me just as eager to devour me as I was her. Her hands, her lips, her tongue were everywhere, making me dizzy with need and pleasure.

As the water poured over us, she took my hardness in her mouth and deftly moved her tongue and lips around it, causing me to lean against the shower wall, moaning. I whispered her name, "Bella," and she ran her tongue up my hips, stomach, and chest to my mouth. Her tongue plunged into mine as if it was the last time they would meet.

I grabbed her ass and pulled her up, sliding into her effortlessly. I crushed her against the wall, my lips never leaving hers, not allowing her a breath. My hands held tight to her waist and I was sure I was bruising her with the forcefulness of my thrusts. She didn't seem to mind as she rode me fast and hard, her hands grabbing at my hair, her legs wrapped tight around me.

Okay Edward, pull yourself out of it man. I was turning into my neighborhood with the biggest hard-on ever. Plenty of time to go back to Bella-land and take care of the hard-on once I got the bags into the house. Emma may be riding home with Emmett and Rose but I brought most of her things back with me. It never ceased to amaze me just how much one little girl can bring with her.

As I pulled into the driveway at home, a rush of adrenaline raced through my body when the headlights swung over a figure. I sat in my car and adjusted my eyes as the figure stood and I froze at who I saw on our doorstep.

BPOV

I took the ticket from the valet and straightened the black shirt I wore. It was late November, but I didn't wear tights under my skirt just my knee high black boots. I was in a black mood and Jake was about to bear the brunt of it.

"Hi Bella," Jake whispered in my ear, slipping his arms around me from behind. "You look amazing."

I pushed his arms away from me, "Hi Jake. I'm starving, let's go eat."

"Okay sure. I want you to try the scallops, they are delicious." He took my hand and pulled me inside the warm restaurant.

We were seated in a cozy booth in the back of the restaurant, assuring us privacy from other diners. Jake put his hand on my knee as I looked over the menu.

"I think I am going to have steak tonight, Jake. Can you order me a red wine that goes well with red meat?"

"Sure baby, anything you want," he responded as he signaled for the waiter.

"How was your holiday with Alice's family?"

I stiffened at him mentioning the Cullen's. I hadn't stopped thinking of Edward and I didn't want Jake trampling on my thoughts of him.

"Uh, it was fine. Nothing to talk about. How was your holiday with Leah's family?"

"We had a great time at their house on the shore. I had an emergency call come in on a dog that was hit by a car, which is why I came home earlier today. She is going to ride back with her brother Paul early in the morning. That leaves me free all night if you still want to take me up on the Sofitel, and I really hope that you do. I've missed your beautiful body."

His eyebrows lifted suggestively at his last comment. Maybe I was taking this all out of proportion. Sitting at the table with Jake, his hand on my knee, things felt normal. Maybe the big gaping hole in my heart wasn't really there. Maybe my pull to Edward wasn't real.

"We'll see Jake. I am tired from the long flight back."

"Ah, you just need a good meal doll. Here, drink some wine."

With the wine in my veins, the rest of the meal passed by surprisingly pleasant. Jake was like an old pair of tennis shoes – comfortable and worn. He tore down some of my walls with his boyish charm and before I knew it, we were at the hotel.

"Bella, you are so beautiful. Come here to me."

I walked over to the edge of the bed where Jake sat. He pulled me down into his lap and I sat there, snuggled against him with his strong arms around me for a while. When he moved to kiss me, I hesitated. It didn't feel right. It wasn't Edward.

EPOV

I took a deep breath and opened the car door. She took a few steps towards me, hesitating. I held my breath and closed the distance between us.

"Kate?"

"Hello Edward. How are you?"

"Uhm, I'm fine. What are you doing here?" I was suddenly glad that Emma had stayed back with Emmett and Rose. She would be protected from whatever insanity Kate had in store for tonight.

"Edward, can we go inside and talk? It's chilly out here and what I have to say is going to take awhile."

"No Kate, I don't think we can go inside. It's been three years; you don't have the right to come into our home. You can get in the car you came in and meet me at Starbuck's up the street."

"Victoria actually dropped me off. I don't have a car."

"Victoria, of course. Fine, get in my car and we'll go somewhere to talk."

I sat back in my car and slammed the door shut. Whatever thoughts I had of going back to happy Bella-land were pushed to the back of mind. What was Kate doing here and what does she want?

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