A/n: And this is chapter 4! I actually wrote it right after I put up chapter 3, but I waited to post it.

Reviewers:

Babble: I wish it was longer, too, but it is hard to write long chapters without getting off topic.

Pippapear: Hmmmm, I never thought of Sirius as a "teenage girl" when James came up stairs. I agree with you on that, though.

CSIGIRL202: I hate cliffies 2, but they make my readers look forward to updates!

Sapphire L. Grey: I don't think he was going overboard. Hehehe. Oh, and Jr. Boy isn't avoiding me, lol. I freaked myself out over nothing. Hehehe.

Loverofbooks: here's an update for you!

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Last time:

"WHAT?!" James exclaimed. "Why didn't you mention that earlier?"

"'Cause Alice said that Lily would want to be left alone," Remus said.

"Plus, we forgot until now," Sirius added. James ran off. "Where are you going?" Sirius called.

"To find Lily!" James yelled over his shoulder as he ran the direction of the girls dormitories. Not long after, he was running out of the common room. I'll find you, Lily, and I'll help you with whatever is going on...

This time:

Chapter 4-

James ran all over the castle. He searched every classroom and corridor in the entire school. He even checked the Room of Requirement! So why was it that he couldn't find her?

James stopped in the middle of a hallway. "I should have started with that..." James ran out of the school, and down to the lake. He skidded to a stop about ten feet away from a tree. There she was. At her favorite tree, her head on her knees, her body shaking as she sobbed. James walked over to her.

"Lily?" He asked. "What happened?" Lily didn't answer, just held out a tear-stained letter. James took the letter, and quietly read it to himself.

Dear Lily,

There has been an accident here at home. Your parents and baby sister, Natasha, were driving to the doctors office for Natasha check up. It was raining cats and dogs. A young man wasn't paying attention about what he was doing or how fast he was going, and he hit your parents car. Your dad tried to keep the car from going off the road, but he was going to fast. The car flipped over, and landed in a ditch.

I'm sorry, sweetie, but your parents and Natasha are dead. The funeral service is on Saturday. I've already spoken to your headmaster, he said that he will set up a way for you to come home to be with me and Petunia that weekend.

I'm sorry,

Grandma Felice

"Oh, my God, Lily, I am so sorry," James said. He sat down next to Lily, and put his arm around her. He pulled her close, letting her cry on his shoulder.

"Why did they have to die?" Lily moaned, her voice barely audible as she cried. "My parents were so young! Natasha hadn't even reached her second birthday yet..."

"It'll be okay, Lily. I'll be here for you. Whatever you need, just tell me. I'll help you get through this," James assured the crying girl. He kissed the top of her head, and held her even closer than he was before. His shirt was getting all wet, but he didn't care. All he cared about was how the girl he was holding felt. It broke his heart to see her upset. No one deserves to go through something like this... James thought.

After a few more minutes, Lily finally stopped crying. "Thank you, James," she hiccuped. She looked at his shirt. "I got your shirt all wet. I'm sorry."

"You shouldn't be sorry for that. Anytime you feel like soaking my clothes, go ahead," James joked. He stood up, pulling Lily with him. When both were standing, James hugged Lily. "It's going to be okay. Do you want me to go to the funeral with you? Having a friend there might make help you." James put the pads of one of his thumbs under Lily's eyes, wiping away her tears. He left his hand one the side of her face, his other hand still holding her in a hug.

Lily hugged James back. "Yes, I would appreciate it if you came to the funeral with me. I don't know if I would be able to make it if someone wasn't there to keep me together."

"Do you want to go back up to the castle now?"

"Not really," Lily admitted. "We have a few hours until curfew, lets just stay out here, and just talk for a while. I don't exactly want to face other people right now."

"I totally understand." James led Lily over to a bench, and motioned for her to sit down. When they both were seated, they began to learn more about each other.

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That night, Mauraders' dorm:

James walked into the dorm about twenties minutes after curfew. He and Lily had spent two and a half hours talking. Remus and Sirius looked up when James entered, taken in his still slightly-wet shoulder.

"Did you find her?" Remus asked. James nodded. "Where?"

"By her favorite tree," James answered, shrugging.

"What made her cry like that?"

James hesitated. Should I tell them? Or would that betray Lily? James wasn't sure if Lily would get mad at him for telling anyone. He decided it was better for them to know in advance than have them ask her. "Her parents and younger sister were killed in a car wreck the other day. The funeral is on Saturday." Sirius and Remus looked at James in shock. Well, that definitely made Lily's actions make sense. "Don't mention anything about her family around her, please. I'm going with her to the funeral, to keep her together, but she is going to be struggling for a while."

"Don't worry, we won't," both of the boys assured their friend.

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Back in the girls' dorm, Lily couldn't sleep. James had been so nice to her... and now he wouldn't leave her mind. She didn't understand. She had spent all those years hating him... and now she got butterflies at the sight of him. She and him had just become friends, how could she like him so quickly? Unless... no, that wasn't a possibility. There was no way that she had liked him before now.

Lily sighed. She didn't like him now, did she? She needed to talk to Alice.

"Alice! Up!" Lily said, trying to wake her friend up. When that didn't work, she said, "Oh, my gosh! PEANUT M&Ms!" (a/n: just like SOMEONE I know! :coughSARAHcough:) "WHERE ARE THE PEANUT M&MS??"

Lily burst out laughing. She threw the bag to Alice. "Good, now that your awake... I need to talk to you."

"What about?" Alice asked, popping the candy into her mouth.

"James."

"OOOOOO! Okay, what about James? Confused about your feelings about him?" When Lily nodded, Alice continued, "So, what exactly do you feel when you are around him?"

"I don't know. Why do you think I'm asking for your help?" Lily said.

Alice laughed. "Lily, just answer the question. What do you feel when you are around him?"

"I feel... I don't know. Happy, I guess? My heart beats really fast, and I feel sort of... peaceful."

"I think you like him," Alice said, smirking.

Only one thought popped into Lily's mind. Oh shit.

OoOoOO

And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so

-"Hate that I love You" by Rihanna

A/n: and thats the end of chapter 4! Review and tell me what you thought!