Chapter 4

Who Do you Love

When his throbbing erection had finally gone down he opened the stall door and found himself face to face with Tama-chan who looked like his world had ended. They looked at each other for a moment before Tamaki finally blurted out his thought.

"Is it true?" Hani felt fear and anger take hold of his heart but did his best to control it. "Wh-what Tama-chan? Is what true?" He had a good idea he had been found out somehow, and was afraid for what the secret would do to poor Tama-chan's heart. It made him slightly angry to think that despite his best attempt's to hide it, someone had probably figured out what he felt for Haruhi. He was kind of curious who had actually noticed.

"Y-You have feelings for Haruhi too?" Actually saying those words seemed to hurt Tamaki's throat, but he needed to know. Hani felt himself turning red again, but tried to play it off as normal. "Who told you that, Tama-chan? Why would someone think that?"

A voice came from behind him near the door and he turned to see the other boys. "We all noticed things, but Kyoya made the connections between each of our observations," Kauru stated. Then Hikaru finished the thought with the hint of anger in his voice. "The last peice of the puzzle was the noticeable boner as you ran from Haruhi to the bathroom."

Hani became casual and tried to shrug it off like it was nothing. "She looked really good in the bikini, it doesn't mean I like her. I am a guy, I see something hot like that and I react. I just had to run off before she noticed and got uncomfortable. That is what it is to be a gentleman, right Tama-chan? To make a lady feel comfortable?" He passed Tamaki and started washing his hands.

The next words from Kyoya sent a small shiver down his spine. "And the fact that everytime you see Haruhi dressed like a girl you run off to the bathroom? Nobody's noticed an erection before, but it seems a little too convienient."

"She's a girl!" Hani snapped, "And she always looks attractive when she dresses like one, it doesn't mean anything!" He wanted to keep his thought's to himself but with the first outburst, a dam in his mind broke and the rest followed. "And even if I did have feelings for Haru-chan I wouldn't say it because I respect Tama-chan too much to hurt his feelings by letting him know I had the feelings for the same girl!" Tamaki took a step back in surprise at this particular sentiment.

"And I don't want Haru-chan because I don't want Tama-chan to just give up on the girl he likes because everybody treats me like a child and gives me what I want, or because they're afraid of me fighting them..." Without wanting to or even realizing it he had raised his voice to a near scream, he had to calm down before Haruhi heard the things he said, she'd recognize them as what he had been saying yesterday and know he did have a crush on her like so many of the others in the Host Club, but he couldn't stop.

"...And I don't want to make anyone else not like me here. Tama-chan and Hika-chan already have lots of secret fights over their feelings for Haru-chan and I don't want to cause more trouble." Tears were now coming from his eyes and he ran, pushing through the twins and leaving the boys in shock in the bathroom. He was so upset that he did't notice Haruhi standing outside the bathroom door listening to the whole conversation between him and the other boys.

The next day at school nobody saw Hani, much to the disapointment of his regular guests. Takashi was back however and noticably distracted by the absence of his little tag-along, which made his guests fawn over him more for his devotion to the smaller man. As the guests poured out he cornered Tamaki who was less than his usual enthusiastic self.

"What did you do to Mitsukuni." Still the only one to refer to Hani by his first name, He looked as though he might simply break poor Tamaki over his knee like a stick for a campfire. He felt the tug on his sleeve and turned to see Haruhi there.

"Mori-Senpai, it was all of us. We noticed he was having a hard time and confronted him about the cause." Mori stood and waited for the rest of the story silently, too getlemanly to be threatening toward a lady. Haruhi hesitated, then continued.

"He seemed to be in a bad mood and when we tried to find out what was wrong, he ran off. Then yesterday we realized he had feelings for me like Tamaki-Senpai and Hikaru-Senpai." At this, Mori involuntarily steped back and raised his eyebrows in surprise. Even he had been unaware of this developement. But he truely knew his cousin.

"And he tried to hide the feelings so he wouldn't upset anyone?" Mori finished gently, almost to himself. "Exactly." Haruhi said.

"Haruhi?" She looked at Tamaki, who looked on the verge of falling into his trademark depression.

"Out of Hani-Senpai, Hikaru and myself, who would you choose?" The room became quieter as some held their breath in shock and waited for her answer. She turned rather red in embarassment and asked, "Why? Why does it matter?"

"It matters to US!" Hikaru burst out, only to be smacked in the back of the head by Kauru. Tamaki corrected the thought carefully, "It matters to Hani-Senpai. He doesn't want to come between any of us as friends, so the only way to make him feel better about how he feels is to know honestly who would be in your heart. To know that his feelings aren't going to make things uncomfortable for you or anyone else."

She thought about it, and frowned. She began accidentally thinking out loud like usual. "Out of the three of them I know that Tamaki has already lost. Despite his feelings feelings for me I just don't think that we can really work out romanticaly together." She was deep enough in thought, not to even notice Tamaki's usual fade out into a dark corner of the room.

"Hikaru tried but he was too possesive, he didn't really care how I felt about things. He just felt like I belonged to him and got jelous of anyone else who even talked to me." At this Kauru grabbed his brother for comfort from this disappointment. "That just leaves Hani-Senpai..."

Unnoticed to all but Mori-Senpai, the door to Music Room Three had opened right before the question had been asked and a small shadow stood outside the door, listening despondantly at the door, expecting to be turned down by another girl.

Haruhi thought about it muttering things to herself before looking up and seeing the others listening attentively once more. "I really don't know." the little head outside the door fell and started to turn away. "I'd have to give Hani-Senpai a chance." The little shadow stopped and stood stiffly at the door in shock.

"Tamaki and Hikaru had chances and blew them, but Hani-Senpai hasn't gotten a chance. I don't know if I'd chose him perminently, but I think he needs a chance like the other two had." Mori walked to the door and opened it to display the ridgidly frozen Hani with tears leaking from his eyes. Haruhi saw Hani standing there as Mori-Senpai gently picked his small ward up for the journey back home.

She smiled at him. "How about tonight, six o'clock?" Mori smiled. He nodded to Haruhi that he would have Hani ready by then and left with the still shocked Hani craddled gently in his arms.