Chapter 4

"I know you missed me, too", Itachi whispered, before he left the room, not caring for the time he had left to spend with Deidara in this world. He had wanted to teach the blonde man a lesson. Show him his place, one could say.

From the shadows Shikamaru watched Itachi leave, he was worried about Deidara for some reason. What was this strange feeling he felt, he knew it had not been there before... what was it? Shikamaru felt like something was blocking his thoughts, something inside him had changed. He watched Deidara sink to his knees sobbing and felt a sharp pain in his chest. He felt worry. Why...?

Deidara stayed on the ground crying for a few more minutes before he managed to calm himself down. It was not like him to cry. He knew why Itachi was hurting him but he could not give the the black-haired what he desired. Deidara did not love him. He loved Hidan. However, the same jutsu that was now controlling Shikamaru had been put on the blonde man before. It was a long time ago but it still left him vulnerable and susceptible to Itachi's commands and actions. Until today, Deidara had not managed to rid himself of the jutsu's influence. Sighing and feeling tired he got up and moved over to Shikamaru. At least there was something good to everything. Shikamaru would obey him. Deidara actually started to like that boy more than was good for him. It was not love... but a strong desire with a touch of maternal care. He wanted Shikamaru to be comfortable yet submissive. Who would want their pet to suffer all the time? That was no fun...

Pushing the experience he had just made aside so he could keep himself under control he tried to smile at Shikamaru. Time to test the jutsu's effect. "Do you want to go see your family now? Or do you want to stay in and take a nice relaxing bath?", he asked. Shikamaru felt like he was frozen, he could not move. He wanted to comfort Deidara, after all he had seen what had happened, although he did not even know what exactly had happened. However, at the same time he wanted to back away and shout at Deidara. Shikamaru could not decide, he could not make his body move either way, as though his free will was simply switched off. Now that he was asked such a simple question he did not know how to answer it. What was confusing him so much? "What... what would you like more?", he asked, insecurity in his eyes. What was going on?

"I'd rather take a bath with you, Shikamaru-chan", Deidara replied smiling. Stroking Shikamaru's hair he sighed, remembering the confusion he had been through himself. This was not easy for Shikamaru, but obviously the jutsu had worked and kept him from thinking, which was good for Deidara. However, he was not sure whether this was enough. He had to convince the boy as long as he was confused... "I love you, Shikamaru. Don't you love me? Don't you want to be with me?", he asked, stroking the younger boy's hair. Shikamaru's face went red. "I... I think I do love you", he replied, as though he could not find a reason not to do so. It confused him even more. It seemed wrong to him. Feeling a little dizzy, Shikamaru was pulled to the bathroom by Deidara, sitting down in the elder's lap as he was told to. It felt good. But it should not. Why did he have the feeling this should not feel so good to him? "What... what is this, Deidara?", he asked, pressing his palms against his forehead. Something was wrong but what was it? Deidara smiled and wrapped his arms around Shikamaru. "Why, its the best feeling in the world. Its belonging."

"Belonging", Shikamaru repeated. Was he supposed to like that? Probably, judging by Deidara's words. Feeling Deidara's breath on his skin Shikamaru was once more confused by the situation he was put in. Deidara noticed but he could not care less. He needed to mark his territory. Now. It was hard to do so, after what had just... no. Thinking about it now would only make matters worse. Maybe Deidara was better off slowing down. For today it was enough to make Shikamaru get used to closeness like this. Tomorrow they would take the next step...

"Come take a bath with me", Deidara demanded, pulling Shikamaru to his feet who had been staring at the ceiling for several hours now. Just as they had done the day before, the boy sat down in Deidara's lap while the hot water surrounded their bodies. It was night, everyone was already sleeping but the blonde man did not feel tired at all. He had planned ahead what to do with Shikamaru. "Top or bottom?", he asked the boy, nibbling on the soft skin of the dark-haired boy's neck. "Top or bottom?", Shikamaru asked back, then shook his head. "I don't know. What... what would you like better?", he asked. Why could he not decide? He was still confused... His head was a mess. What was Deidara talking about anyways? "I wanna be top", the elder said kissing Shikamaru's neck. "And please, call me master." Time to be serious about education now. Deidara began preparing Shikamaru's hole the same way that Hidan had done for him. He did not want to hurt his toy. This was only to get Shikamaru used to being used.

Shikamaru tensed up when he felt Deidara's finger entering him. "Wh-what...?", he asked but was interrupted by the elder telling him to be quiet. Shikamaru had a bad feeling about this. The blonde man was now caressing Shikamaru's member with his free hand. "Are you ready, love?", he asked, already hard himself. This time, the boy would want it. If only because he had no choice but wanting it – but he wanted it. "Yes.. master... Ready for what? M-master?", Shikamaru aked. Belonging... did not feel so bad, after all. The unknown pressure of Deidara's finger felt weird - not exactly bad but not entirely good either. "What are you doing?", he asked, obviously Itachi's jutsu had deleted memory of what had happened before. He was like a blank canvas. Two fingers inside him made him moan, first from pain, then, when he had gotten used to it and Deidara moved them, from pleasure. "For me inside you", the elder replied, licking at Shikamaru's neck. "I want you so bad, can you feel me?", he asked, rubbing his groin against Shikamaru's bottom, then very gently pushing against the boy's entrance. "You're so tight... Relax and it won't hurt much, I promise, love." Only the tip of his cock had entered yet, this would need some time. Shikamaru groaned softly, turning his head to the side. He wanted to be good, he did not want to disappoint his master. But it hurt, even if Deidara was gentle, Shikamaru's hole was not used to being fucked. The boy tried to relax, subconsciously he had dug his fingernails into Deidara's arms. Now he released his grip, breathing deeply. It started to feel better to have Deidara inside him. They were so close...

Deidara groaned. "That hurt pet", he said, looking at the marks the boy's finger nails had left on him. He pushed a little further inside the younger, enjoying the tight, warm flesh. "I-I'm... sorry, m-master", Shikamaru replied but the unusual, painful sensation made it hard for him to talk. "Moan for me", his master demanded as he gently began thrusting inside Shikamaru. The boy reached for his cock to stroke it, he was semi-hard by now and started moaning softly with every thrust Deidara did, still only partly from lust and more from pain. Deidara reached around and let his hand-tongue lick at Shikamaru's cock. "Ah, I'm so close. Are you?", he asked, sucking on Shikamaru's neck. Deidara began to get faster and faster as he came closer to climax. "Y-yes", Shikamaru managed to say, though he was not, actually. This was too unusual for him to be so quick as Deidara was. Although the elder's tongue felt so good... However, when Deidara moved less carefully, Shikamaru bit his lip, he waited for his master to finish before telling him that it hurt. This was all about obeying, something inside him told him it was.

Deidara groaned as he came inside of Shikamaru. He looked at Shikamaru, the boy was as hard as wood still. "Don't lie to your master.", he scolded, pulling out. He moved the two of them into another position and leaned down to suck on Shikamaru's cock. "I'm sorry", the younger mumbled and moaned softly when Deidara started sucking him. It felt so good and did not take long now for the dark-haired until he came. Deidara smiled up at Shikamaru. "Now, if you aren't ready, tell me next time, alright?" After all, it was no fun if his pet was not being honest. "Yes, master", Shikamaru replied, finally managing to ignoring his own confusion. Deidara drained the tub, then dried both of them off. He got clothes for either of them, then led the boy to the kitchen. "Watcha want for lunch, Shikamaru-hime?" The dark-haired shrugged. "I... don't know", he mumbled. He did not know anything. That was the downside of Itachi's Jutsu... Shikamaru was dependent on Deidara. Always. Completely. "Its ok, love", Deidara sighed. "How 'bout some soup?" He kissed Shikamaru's lips, then heated up some soup from yesterday's lunch. He put one bowl in front of Shika and one in front of himself. "Mmmh, be careful its hot, honey."

"Thank you", the younger said politely. He started eating despite the elder's warning and burned his mouth. Deidara smirked. "Please, don't burn yourself." When they had finished eating, Deidara climbed into Shikamaru's lap and began kissing him gently. "Mmmh, you have soft lips." He enjoyed the feeling of obsession and desire he felt for Shikamaru. The boy turned him on just by being in the same room. And this innocent, confused look... "A... again?", he heard Shikamaru ask, the boy sounded a little afraid. Of course, he still felt sore. But on the other hand... he had to obey. "Hmm? Oh, no." Deidara looked down at him. "I just wanted to kiss. But a pet should never question their master, right?" Shikamaru felt guilty at once, he should know how to behave. However, before he could answer, Deidara began kissing him passionately again. Letting the blonde man kiss him, Shikamaru closed his eyes and tried to get rid of the small voice in his head, telling him what he was doing and the way he was acting was wrong. It distracted him so he did not answer the kiss.

Suddenly Deidara pulled back. "FINE! IF YOU DON'T WANT TO KISS AND BE NICE, THEN I'LL PUNISH YOU!" He was outraged, obviously his expectation and desire made him vulnerable to rejection. He dragged Shikamaru to the main room and shackled him to the wall. Shikamaru was pale, what had he done wrong? Scared and confused he waited for Deidara to move. He could not see what the elder was doing, as he was facing the wall. "What...?", he wanted to ask, already shackled to the wall but was interrupted by the whip cracking down on his back. Shikamaru screamed in shock and pain. Deidara whipped him again and again and Shikamaru screamed a little louder every time.

This would teach the boy manners. Deidara could not control his rage, he knew he was overreacting but hell, he could not care less. This was his pet and if it needed discipline, Deidara knew how to show it its place. He pulled Shikamaru's pants off, then went to a cabinet to get lubrication, so it would not hurt as bad. Sliding into the boy, Deidara moaned with pleasure. Shikamaru was trembling and started sobbing. What did he do? What did he do to make his master so angry? He did not think he had done anything bad... however, he did not ask, he did not want Deidara to get even more mad at him. He was not supposed to question his master...

Deidara continued, until he came. Panting, Deidara untied Shikamarua, and pulled him into his arms, cradling his head against his chest. "I'm sorry Shikamaru", he mumbled, "but I don't like to be ignored. Please kiss me back this time", he said, kissing the boy passionately. In Deidara's eyes, what he had just done was not wrong. It was punishment. Nothing more or less. Shikamaru kissed him back as well as he could, he was afraid to do something wrong without noticing again. He was afraid of Deidara. Even though the jutsu made him be submissive and obey the blonde one, it did not make him love or even like the elder. It was a given basis but it was so easily destroyed. 'Kiss him... kiss him back...' Shikamaru's back hurt from the whipping. His behind hurt from Deidara entering him. He felt so insecure...

Deidara pulled back, and cuddled Shikamaru even closer. He performed a healing jutsu on him, so the wounds from the whipping closed, though he could not make them go away. "There, this is better. Why don't we go take a nap." Deidara carried Shikamaru to his bed and lay down next to the boy. "Night, night." Still Shikamaru's mind went through the possibilities of what he might have done to Deidara. Why would he punish him so hard? Huddling himself against the elder to show he was sorry he closed his eyes. Deidara held him close and ran his fingers through Shikamaru's hair. The younger man was so, so vulnerable, a lot more than Hidan, and Deidara loved it. Both of them fell asleep but only a few hours later, Deidara woke Shikamaru up. The boy looked up at the elder man with a mixture of tiredness and fear. "Mmmh, do you want a taste of my cum, little one?", Deidara asked smirking. Was the blonde one never satisfied? Shikamaru wanted to ask whether he had to have sex with Deidara again but kept quiet. "Yes, master", he whispered but did not mean it. He was just too afraid to admit it.

Deidara pulled down his pants and made the younger man suck on his member, his hand on the back of Shikamaru's head to help guide him. "It's also not good to lie to your master." He managed to get out before he began moaning. Shikamaru tried his best to please Deidara but again he was not concentrated. Did belonging mean love? Did love mean doing anything the other demanded? To Shikamaru it did, at least as long as he was under Itachi's Jutsu. It did not make him happy. If it could make anyone happy, Deidara was still Itachi's lover. However, there was a reason for Deidara to hate Sharingan. And Shikamaru would do so to, as soon as he found out what was wrong with him. This however was not until the Jutsu was released.

Deidara moaned as he came into Shikamaru's mouth. "I love you", he mumbled after a while, not sure if he really meant it. Shikamaru swallowed as Deidara came into his mouth, it tasted surprisingly good to him. "I... I love you. too", the dark-haired replied. This was love, right? Huddling against Deidara he sought comfort. He did not know why, but suddenly Shikamaru felt very lonely. Deidara smiled widely. "You do? Oh, Shikamaru!" Deidara wrapped his arms around him and held him close. Somehow, this made him happy. Did he feel more for the boy than he wanted to admit? More than was good to him? Shikamaru was confused by the question. "Yes, I think so, master", he replied quietly and let himself be hugged. Suddenly he remembered what had happened when Itachi had been with Deidara and looked up at the elder. "What... happened to you, when that man was here, master?", he asked. He just had to hope he was allowed to ask, he was worried. Deidara sighed. He did not want to talk about it. "He used a jutsu on me, made me think and feel like he was doing.. bad things to me."

"That's why you... screamed?", the younger asked, seeming upset about it. "I don't like him... did he do that to you before?" Defending his master. Part of the jutsu. Deidara could not take his concern serious no matter how much he wanted to. "Yes", he sighed. "But let's not talk about it."

"Yes, master", Shikamaru replied without thinking. Whenever he acted like this he felt so confused... It was best for the boy not to think about anything that had happened today or the day before... After a while Deidara relaxed back into Shikamaru's arms. It felt good to both of them, somehow. Losing his trail of thoughts in the scent of the blonde's hair, Shikamaru awoke from his daydreaming by a question that came to his mind. "D... Master... I still feel so confused. I don't know why that is. Why do I keep feeling so confused? Like... like I forgot something I really have to remember..." Deidara sighed. "Its ok." He decided to tell him the truth, or at least part of it. "I don't want you to get hurt, and I did something to help you be good so you don't get hurt." He looked at his lap. "If you disobey and try to walk around the hideout, then the others might find you, and hurt you." He was not half as concerned as he acted. At least that was what he made himself belief. "Help me be good?", Shikamaru asked, not sure what to make of it. "But why is it confusing me? How... how did you help me?", he added. Hopefully he was not annoying the elder too much... "Oh, it doesn't really matter love", Deidara replied, looking back at him smiling. He seemed impatient and Shikamaru stopped asking. Soon he fell into a dreamless sleep.

The next morning, Deidara gently woke him up with a kiss. "What would you like for dinner?", he asked. Again Deidara asked Shikamaru about what the boy might like and again Shikamaru did not know an answer. "Whatever you'd like", he mumbled, not satisfied with the situation in his head. Deidara smiled and said, "I'd like what you'd like to have." He climbed out of Shikamaru's lap and led him to the kitchen. "Do you know how to cook?" Deidara thought he would lose his mind if Shikamaru didn't have another answer. "I don't know, master... I guess I don't", the boy replied. "What would I want to eat, then?", he added. Itachi's jutsu did not leave room for own thoughts or wishes. Not at this stage.

"Please. Leave." Deidara felt like he was going to explode. "Just... leave." He began making dinner, turning his back on Shikamaru. It was infuriating that the younger could not decide anything on his own. Deidara made up his mind, he would talk to Itachi after dinner and ask him about it. Shikamaru froze. Did he do something wrong again? "Yes... master", he mumbled, then he hurried out of the room back to his bedroom. Hiding beneath the covers he feared Deidara would punish him again. He was so afraid he even started crying. What did he do again? He was so stupid to disappoint his master, he deserved to be punished...

When Deidara had finished preparing the food he brought Shikamaru a bowl. "Be careful, its hot", he mumbled, and sat down on the bed, eating his own food. Shikamaru sat up and sniffed, he wiped his face so Deidara would not see the tears. "Thank you master", he mumbled, obviously still uneasy. Was the blonde one testing him? Would he punish him anyways? "Shikamaru, I realize that you're confused", Deidara said, looking down into his bowl. "But it irritates me when you can't answer me", he sighed. "Do you understand?"

"Yes, master", Shikamaru replied. "But... but I can't... think. It's like... there is something in me that... blocks everything. I can't remember and I can't think and it confuses me and... I always do things wrong. I always make you angry and then you... you punish me...", he explained and was close to tears again. "I'll try to fix it." Deidara said, kissing his forehead. When they were finished, he handed Shikamaru the bowls and asked him to do the dishes. The blonde man himself went to Itachi's room and knocked on his door. "Itachi... I need to ask you something."