Hello everyone,
I am excited to see where this one goes especially because I don't think I even thought this one out as much as my other ones but it is getting done. I am even starting the next chapter.
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Suke's P.O.V.
We have been dating for at least a week now and I think Naruto is slowly opening up to me. There is a lot of him that still hides from me and that much I can tell just by watching him.
We were sitting in our fear group and all I could think about the first night when we first kissed. We never kissed after that or even held hands but we did sit next to each other in all our classes well aside from Psych 101 because he sits with that Neji guy. The other person that happens to know all about Naruto from what Naruto says or what Naruto at least lets out.
"Suke, what do you think about the phobia agateophobia?" Naruto asked as he looked through all the phobias he was working on for another class.
"Do you think someone can have a fear like that? It is quite unusual for someone to fear becoming insane." I answered.
"Yeah but it happens. How many people do you think it happens to?" Naruto asked.
"Did you know people could fear ideas?" Naruto asked before I could respond.
"Now that one is crazy. Well if you really think about it, it really isn't shocking considering what fear really is." I said.
"Fear is an emotion. It is generally induced when the subject perceives a threat. Phobia is the Greek word for 'fear' and can be defined as the "excessive or unreasonable fear of an object, place, or situation." Naruto said.
"That's true, what are you looking at that is making you this talkative not that I'm complaining or anything." I said because trust me I'm not complaining but its early in the morning and he rarely talks this much in the morning let alone the whole day.
"Well I don't really have anyone to talk to about Psych because no one else I know majors in this and they won't understand it." Naruto said shrugging his shoulders.
"Hello class how is everyone?" The professor said coming into the room stopping everyone's conversations. "Today we are doing things a little differently so take out your notebooks because there is going to be a few notes that you will have to take." The professor said as he pulled the white board to the group. "My night group brought it to my knowledge that not a lot of people know the difference between phobia and fear. Can someone tell me if they are the same?" The professor asked.
Naruto raised his hand like he usually does.
"Naruto," the professor called on him.
I think the professor only calls Naruto by his first name everyone else he calls by their last names including me.
Naruto stood up because that's what everyone has to do when they have the answer in group.
"According to experts the answer to your question is no they are not the same." Naruto said about to sit down until the professor started talking again.
"What is the difference?" The professor asked.
"There is a subtle difference between what fear is and what can be termed as phobia. The main difference lies in the intensity and severity of the emotions experienced in fear and phobia." Naruto said making the professor smile.
"That is correct. Does anyone need an example of what Naruto just said?" The professor asked looking around the class.
No one even dared to raise their hands in this group unless they have an answer.
"What are different types of phobias?" The professor asked and I raised my hand. "Uchiha," the professor called on me making me stand up.
"There are several types of phobias. The common types of phobias can be divided into simple phobias and social phobias." I answered.
"What is a simple phobia?" The professor asked before I could sit down.
"A simple phobia mainly includes fear of specific types of objects, insects, or situations such as fear of flying." I answered.
"What is social phobia?" The professor asked.
"Includes phobias like marked fear of social or performance situations." I said.
"What would you categorize your phobia?" The professor asked.
I felt all eyes on me and a part of me wanted to faint because I knew since we started the project we all might have to be open about our phobias but I never thought I would be the first one.
"My phobia would be categorized as a non-social phobia but I wouldn't really consider it a simple one if you went by definition." I said.
"Naruto, do you know what your phobia would categorize in?" The professor asked.
"I would say mine is social." Naruto said.
"Anyone else know where their phobia lies?" The professor asked.
A girl that doesn't talk very often spoke up.
"Yes Medahi," the professor said.
"I would say mine is in the simple category." Medahi said.
"Okay everyone this is a homework assignment. I want everyone to look up their phobia and see where there's would be categorized, tell me the symptoms, and how they say you can cope with your phobia. Does everyone understand the assignment?" The professor explained. "If there are no further questions I will see you all at the next session." The professor said.
Everyone nodded and he dismissed us for the day. As Naruto and I started walking out the class the girl from before started calling after us mainly Naruto if I had to get technical.
"Do you think you can explain what you were saying earlier? I wanted to ask in class but the professor is kind of scary?" Medahi asked.
"Sure, I don't mind explaining what I was saying. Suke come on." Naruto said noticing I stopped.
He has been more considerate since we started dating and he declared I was his. I don't know at first it wasn't intentional but I am really growing to like him a lot.
"See phobia is the heightened form of fear. The Phobic person often tries to fight his phobia leading to greater form of anxiety and also experiences extreme fatigue in the process. Do you get it?" Naruto asked.
"I think I do so your saying is that fear is small and it is easier to overcome it while phobia can create more trauma and problems along the way." Medahi said.
"Yes," Naruto said nodding his head.
"Thanks, Uzumaki," Medahi said.
"You can call me Naruto. Honestly I am shocked anyone knows my last name in the group considering he always calls me by my first name." Naruto said chuckling a little.
"Well then you can call me Lela. I appreciate the help." Lela said.
"No problem, I got to go to my next class so I got to go. If you ever need help in the future you can always ask me for it." Naruto said turning toward me gesturing to come on.
I walked past her to catch up to him and noticed she was glaring at me. She must not know.
"That girl likes you." I said.
"What? No, she doesn't." Naruto said shock was apparent on his face.
How can he not see how attractive he is? Not only that but he is smart.
"Yes, she does Naruto. I know you only ever focused on the females from your friend circle but welcome to a much bigger circle where girls really like you because of your looks and your intelligence." I said gesturing to him then his head.
"Well I don't think any of that matters because I am already with you right?" Naruto asked tilting his head.
Those words provoked a smile out of me. He is slowly and surly opening up to me without even knowing it.
"Now let's go you weirdo." Naruto said grabbing my arm.
I reached for his hand so I could hold it and was shocked to see that he let me do it. I couldn't contain the smile that appeared on my face. He was slowly changing but not so much to the point where I think others would notice.
"Neji what's up?" Naruto asked sitting next to him.
These two had a strange relationship that I even didn't understand. Neji wouldn't talk to me unless Naruto was around and didn't even bother to acknowledge me. He usually whispers things to Naruto. Naruto's phone went off and I saw the wave of emotions that played on his face that I never seen before. I was shocked to see it. It never occurred to me why Naruto was so closed off from everyone and why he was so afraid to lose the people he was close to.
"I will be right back before the class starts I have to answer this." Naruto said leaving me and Neji by ourselves and it was awkward.
"Why are you with him?" Neji asked me suddenly.
"Because I like him." I answered.
"Do you really or are you just doing this because he is a puzzle you would like to figure out?" Neji asked rather bluntly.
"I don't think it's any of your business but if you must know I really do like him." I said offended.
"It is my business because he is my friend and has been since we were kids and I look out for him. He's like a brother to me and if you hurt him I will make you regret it." Neji threatened shocking me.
"I don't plan on hurting him. I just want to get to know him and be with him." I said irritated and before Neji could talk again Naruto came back in the room.
I noticed the sad look on his face and how he tried to mask it.
"Are you okay?" Neji asked before I could say anything.
"Yes," Naruto said in a cold voice that shocked me.
"Did something happen?" Neji asked worried.
"Not right now Neji." Naruto growled out.
"Sorry," Neji said and didn't say anything for the rest of the time.
"Hello class," the professor said walking into the room. "Today we will be working on how to make someone else's life better as future helpers of the brain. There will be ten groups of three and there are only five topics. So, get into partners of three and then I will tell you the categories." The professor said and immediately everyone seemed to swarm to Naruto.
"Sorry I am working with Neji and Suke." Naruto answered the people.
"Once you get your group sit next to them." The professor said.
When everyone was in their groups she settled everyone down by having them print their names down on the list us being first.
"Okay the subjects are Brain Science and Cognitive Psychology, Development Psychology, Human Factors and Engineering Psychology, and Sport and Performance Psychology. I already chose your subject for each group. I hope this project will give more insight on the subject at hand." The professor said as she handed out papers to each group.
We got Brain Science and Cognitive Psychology. I know Naruto was happy about it while Neji wasn't.
"Come on Neji it will be fun." Naruto mumbled. "You can always go to the group that has it." Naruto said.
"No, I will stay and do this one." Neji said stubbornly.
"Which one did you want?" I asked.
"I wanted the last one Sport and Performance Psychology." Neji said.
"Because he is a fighter and as a performer he would like to have the advancements to help if needed." Naruto answered the question that I was about to ask. "You know you can always look it up without being told right?" Naruto asked looking at Neji.
"Yeah, I know," Neji said pouting.
After we got assigned our projects class went by with note taking and small talk amongst the students. As we walked out of class Naruto grabbed my hand again I am assuming he didn't want me to stray too far.
"Naruto, I have another class so I will come by later to talk to you." Neji said.
I spotted him looking at our hands that were together but I couldn't help the smile that came to my face.
"Okay, just come to my dorm around nine." Naruto said then we walked away.
"Where are we going?" I asked.
"I'm hungry and we don't have any more classes, today right?" Naruto asked.
"True," I said and we were off.
I didn't really know where Naruto was taking me but we were already off the campus walking to a nearby food stand.
"Do you come here a lot?" I asked.
"I love it here. This place was one of the reasons I wanted to go to this school and because it's Psych program is great." Naruto answered with a smile.
"Welcome can I get the two of you anything to drink?" The waitress asked.
"I want water." Naruto said then nodded to me.
"Same," I said with a smile.
The waitress was gone.
"So, what is the best thing to get from here?" I asked.
"Ramen," Naruto said with a smile I never seen before well at least not directed toward me.
"I guess I will get that then. What are the kinds?" I asked.
"Miso or shrimp would be good for you." Naruto said.
"Okay shrimp sounds good." I said.
"Are you two ready to order?" The waitress asked as she set our waters down.
"We would like one pork miso ramen for me and one shrimp ramen for her." Naruto ordered.
The waitress nodded and left us alone again.
"So, what is your home life like?" Naruto asked randomly shocking me because this is the first time he was ever curious about my personal life.
I even spotted the blush on his face.
"Good but bad at times. My brother and I were alone once my parents passed away. I am eight years younger than my brother so it was a struggle to get back to who I was." I said sighing.
"What happened to your parents?" Naruto asked curiously.
"They were murdered." I said honestly because I knew if I wanted him to be open with me I would have to also be open with him.
"What?" Naruto asked shocked.
"Yeah they died in a house fire. We found out that it was intentional but I wasn't there I was at a playdate and Itachi was checking out colleges for the weekend." I said softly.
The table went silent in that time our food came to us.
"My dad died when I was young leading my mom to have a mental breakdown. She's in a mental hospital right now. My uncle took care of me if only to take my money that my dad saved up for me." Naruto said openly.
"Did you say your mom is in a mental hospital?" I asked shocked.
"Yeah, but I still love her and they say she is getting better." Naruto said softly a smile coming to his face.
"Is she the reason you want to be a psychologist?" I asked.
"Yeah it is I can't help but want to help her." Naruto whispered looking away from his food.
"You know when my parents died I had nightmares for years about it. I used to dream that they were trying to tell me who did it but I could never understand what they were trying to say. It scared me and broke my heart. I used to have to get psychological help for it." I said tilting back in my chair.
"I just closed up." Naruto whispered.
"You don't let people see the real you." I said.
"The real me is a terrible angry person. I'm just so angry." Naruto said shocking me. "I just got so much bottled up rage that I don't know where to put it." Naruto muttered his fist clenching.
"Let's get out of here Naruto." I said.
He didn't say anything just whipped out his money for the waitress with a decent tip for the girl. Naruto was already out the door with me following closely behind him.
"You know it's okay to be angry." I finally said as we started walking through a park that seemed to have no one in it.
"AND WHO SHOULD I BE ANGRY AT? My mom who can't control the fact that she had a mental breakdown, my sleaze bag uncle that only wants my inheritance, or my fucking father the person that ended up creating the problem to begin with? I'm just so mad." Naruto screamed shocking me.
When Naruto turned toward me I could see the pain in his eyes for the first time where he always wore his mask but this was the brunt work of Naruto's pain and it broke her heart to the core making her react before she or he could say anything.
"Naruto, I'm sorry." I whispered.
I felt Naruto tense then I felt his arms circle me tightly holding me close to his body.
"I'm just so scared that the next person I let in will leave me." Naruto whispered.
"I won't leave you I promise." I whispered back to him.
Naruto pulled back to look at my face to get an answer or something from my eyes before his lips were on mine.
"Thank you." Naruto whispered against my mouth.
It was the second time and this time Naruto initiated it. Something changed for both of us that night and at this moment I don't know if it's good or bad but I can only hope that it was for the best and not the worst.
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I dived a little into their past and how they are growing closer to each other. In all honesty Naruto just wants to be close to someone that he feels won't leave him and that he can be himself around that's why he is like this with Suke. I am thinking about how I think I want Naruto to acknowledge his feelings before Suke. But let me know if you think I should do something different I take ideas.