A.N. Woohoo. Mello's point of view. I suck at this but I need to write his point of view. It's compelling me to do so. Yes, It. No one knows who it is nor they. You can't tell they that I secretly rule the world. No, it's not them. Them is fine. They is the problem. I'm sorry my Mello is totally out of character and what not. I'm terrible at writing in his view... :( Alright, I don't often create OC's because frankly I hate them. It's fine as long as they're a side character though and they don't play a huge role. He kind of does but not really.
I heard him say that he loves me and then... I messed up. I just went and did as I pleased. He's only twelve. Of course he wouldn't be ready for something like that. It was so stupid of me. I made him cry. He might have said I love you but for all I know he was talking about as a brother or cousin or something! I didn't hear everything. I just walked in when he said I love you. He could have been talking about it in a family or friend way. I'm so stupid. I completely ruined my chance to confess to him. Hell, he might not have even accepted it but at least he would acknowledge my feelings. Now all he knows is that I'm some stupid pervert. I can't believe I was so stupid. I had planned out confessing to him and blew it. He'll never want to speak to me again.
"Near, I'm sorry..." The words left my mouth involuntarily. I never apologize to him. It doesn't matter that he's not here just that the words were said. I'm so stupid. I made him CRY. I should be apologizing to him. I have to. It's the proper thing to do and Roger has been getting on me about doing what's proper and what not. That's it. I'm going to apologize.
That's my last thought for the library as I'm standing outside of his door now. I don't know what to say. I've never really apologized for anything before. Hn... This is so stupid! I'm fucking second best and I can't come up with a god damned apology to some twelve year old! It shouldn't be this fucking hard...Ha! Fucking hard. Near... I damn. I'm blushing. I shouldn't be thinking of things like that. He's TWELVE. Despite the fact I'm two years older, twelve year old should not be having sex...even if they are the cutest thing you've ever seen in your life.
Knock knock knock.
"Near, are you in there? I wanna apologize." Apperantly my subconcious mind knows what's best because I had no idea I was doing that until the words came out of my mouth.
"M-mello?" I hear the door creak open and reveal a tiny white blob.
"Near, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you cry. I did that without thinking of your feelings. May I come in?" I looked at him in the eyes. He was so damned cute.
"Mello may come in." I blush. The thought of Near laid down before me begging me to take him did not just cross my mind.
"Thanks..." I walk into his room. The first thing I notice is that it's so plain. There are no posters or anything to make it different. It's just white. I like white. White is perfection. It's there to show you what you've done wrong and what it should look like. On black all you can see is the dirt. I'm dirty that's why I wear black. Near is a pure and innocent person that's why he's white. Not in the sense most people use caucasion as but literally white. His skin is free of any imperfections...except the hicky I left earlier.
"What was it Mello wanted?" I look over to him. His head is towards the ground. It looks as though he has no intention of looking at me through our meeting.
"Near, I wanted to apologize. I shouldn't have done that. I'm sorry." He finally looks up at me and I can see the tears in his eyes.
"M-mello did nothing wrong. It was all my f-fault...hic... I sh-shouldn't h-have...hic... said I l-love him...hic...Mello d-doesn't see m-me th-that way...hic.." Tears started to stream down his eyes as he spoke. I could feel my heart screaming at me to make it stop. To do anything to make him stop crying.
"Near, do you honestly think it's your fault?" His head started nodding. I could feel my own eyes start to water at the sight of him. It was just so sad. He was supposed to be some emotionless robot. He's not supposed to cry. He's not supposed to be sad.
"Near, come here." He walks over to me slowly. I give him a well deserved hug. I can feel him snuggling into me.
"Near, It's not your fault."
Bang!
"Well, well, well. Look what we have here. Two little gay lovers." My eyes look to see number thirty. He doesn't deserve a name. He goes and picks on lower ranking number which there aren't very many lower than him. The ones lower than him are usually little kids and he's almost seveteen. I can't wait unitl he's eighteen and Roger is forced to kick him out. Not really forced but will be very willing to kick him out. He gives Roger more problems than I do and that's saying something.
"SHUT UP!" I glare at him. Usually my glare sends people running for the hills. The only people it doesn't is Near, the emotionless robot or so I thought, and idiots. Seeing as how Near is cuddled in my arms and thirty's not I can say he's not Near. That only leaves him being an idiot since he's not long gone by now.
"Tsk tsk. Pushy little princess aren't we? Or are you top?"
"SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU MAN WHORE!" I've never really learned how to speak properly. Comes in handy sometimes.
"I just came to have a little fun." I roll my eyes. He has three seconds left to run.
"Three."
"What's wrong? Little count down to submission?"
"Two."
"You're not scaring me."
"One. Run." I charge at him and he sets off. The kid best be glad that I'm not serious now. I'm here to comfort Near which in itself is a odd reason but that's what I'm here for. I turn around to see him smiling. It's an amazing moment. One thought goes through my head. He's so cute.
"Near?"
*Giggle."Mello?" I hadn't realized at first but I'm smiling at him.
"You're cute. Come here." He walks over to me and I slam the door.
"Yes, Mello?" I give him a small peck on the lips.
"I. Like. YOU." He blinks at me. He looks confused. It's so adorable. I think I like hime best this way...
"You can't say you don't like me cause you already said you love me." I pointed that out before snuggling into his neck.
A.N. Yay for me ruining a potentially good story with my idiocy. Well, there goes my genius idea out the window. Oh well. I want you all to go to my profile and vote on my poll. You don't have to review if you vote on my poll. If you review you don't have to vote on my poll. I have good choices. It's for my next story. It'll be crime and romance. I just need the characters and that's what you would be voting on. Please review and or vote on my poll. It's on my profile which has gotten quite long. I have Near and Mello's compatibility of their signs on there along with Light and L. You don't have to read those. Please review and or vote on my poll. I beg of you. PLEASE?