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Chapter Two: Heavy in your arms.
Chapter Song: Everything I ask for-The Maine
Bella POV.
Little children screaming.
That beautiful noise is what I wake up to every Friday, when we take the orphanage kids to the zoo. Jasper's father built the orphanage from the ground up. At first, this was a punishment. Take little screaming kids too the zoo. Then it was a chore, Cleaning scraped knees, drying tears. Now it's a pleasure. The same little kids that we've grown close to, the kids that we love.
"Momma." A little girl pushed my eyelids up, trying to get me to open my eyes. I saw a blurry version if my little Lydia. She had taken accustom to calling me her Mother, my dark hair and brown eyes dangerously coming close to her mothers. But I was more a mother than she could ever be, selling Lydia for drugs, and smoking pot while Lydia was in her stomach. Lydia was born with drugs in her system, causing her to be premature. She was much much smaller than the other children, extremely healthy, her asthma in check and a smile on her face. I moved her fingers away and picked her up, placing her on the bed next to me. "Did Emmett make you pancakes?"
"dere' cookin." she said in her wispy little baby voice. I smiled at her as she played with a piece of my hair. "Are you ready to go see the giraffes?" that got her attention. She perked up with a smile and talked on and on about how the giraffes were her favorite. For a 4 year old, she was damn smart. "Alright, Let's go." I got up, slipped on some jeans and just left the shirt I had on, but put on my bra underneath it.
"Pretty.." Lydia pointed.
"What baby?"
"Pretty!" she squealed. She was pointing to my bra. I laughed, "this?"
she nodded. "Thank you love. Do you want to try it on?" she squealed with happiness. I put the lacy sky blue colored bra over her little arms and buckled it on the very last clasp. It still looked insanely big on her, because I was a 36 C. Alice Walked in and started laughing at the site of Lydia in my bra. "Model it for auntie Alice" I said to her. Her stubby little legs walked up and down the space between me and Alice, and we couldn't help our laughter from escaping. "FABULOUS, FABULOUS" Alice shouted happily. "Now put that on so we can leave." she instructed.
I rolled my eyes but put my bra on nonetheless. An hour later the kids were fed and we were on the way to the zoo. It was particularly chilly on this Friday morning. It smelled like morning rain, and it made me feel calm, content. We spent half the day looking at zebra's, lions, monkeys, and most importantly the giraffes. Three hours later found us back at the car's and every little kid whining about having to pee, having a stomachache, being hungry. Emmett boomed over them all, "WHO HAD FUN?" and all of them, even little Lydia half asleep on my shoulder lifted her head up to scream a 'yeah!'
"You are so heavy baby girl."
"I'll take her." Edward held out his hands, asking permission, not only from Lydia but from me. I shrugged and looked at Lydia, who was looking at me.
"Come on little one. I don't bite" that made her giggle, and she flung her arms out, wiggling her hands.
"I think she like's me." he said, smiling at me. I rolled my eyes.
"She's tired and delusional."
"I don't think so, I just don't think so." He boasted.
"Whatever." I smiled. He had the glimmer in his eyes as he held Lydia, The I'm-Willing-to-Be-A-Father glimmer. At that moment I realized that he would be an amazing father. I looked from his eyes, to his excellent jaw structure, to his chest, to his-
"Bella!" my head popped up and Emmett handed a paper cone to me. It was filled to the top with popcorn, and Lydia's name was scribbled on it.
"You want some popcorn baby girl?" she nodded and took a fist full, half of it spilling onto Edward's shirt. But he didn't mind, and I found myself liking that. And then I realized what I was doing. No way..
"What?"
I looked up and Edward was looking at me, a confused expression on his usually smooth features.
"Hmm?"
"You said 'No way' and then kind of let out a long breathe..."
"Oh...Nothing.."
he looked at me with an odd look in his eyes but then turned his attention to Lydia. Thank god, because I needed to contemplate this. I think he's cute. It's more of a 'I really want to fuck him and then leave' kind of thing, because love is a waste of time, and honestly no one really fall's in love. Love isn't existing... I sighed and looked over at Alice. She had already been staring at us, and when she caught me looking, she didn't even look away, she just raised an eyebrow in question. I shrugged. Because honestly I didn't know.
"That was tiring in so many ways..." I fell down on my bed two hours later after every kid was in their beds at the orphanage and seven books were read to them.
"Yeah. I loved how Lydia wanted you AND Edward to read to her. It kind of looked like you guys were a little family..."
"I know that tone..."
"Well..."
"No Alice.."
"But-!"
"NO Alice.."
"I was just!-"
"NO ALICE..."
"Fine. But your ass will regret it. Now I made three appointments for the spa tomorrow. Me you and Rose, and Then we're going shopping for your new wardrobe, and then-"
I just tuned her out as I snoozed.
"Bella!" Alice jumped on me and I looked at the clock. Asleep for exactly an hour. Success. That's just how long Alice could go on talking without noticing I was asleep.
"I'm Listening."
"No you weren't. Because I left the room 12 hours ago. And I'm waking you up for our spa appointments. Too bad you didn't finish listening. I was going to tell you what Edward said about you..." She sneaked a glance my way and I just looked at the clock again. 9:43am.
Hmm. I must not have caught the 'am' part..
"Oh."
"Yeah. So do you wanna know what Edward said about you...?"
"Not really."
"Well I'm telling you anyway. After you went to bed I went downstairs and told the boys about our little project. AKA make Bella a girl. And Edward said, 'Hmm. That could be nice.' and smiled..."
"Alice that mean's absolutely nothing.."
"It means, 'Hmm. Maybe she could be datable'.."
"Whatever. Let's just get this over with." I got up and changed shirts before walking out the door.
"Now, Nothing TOO sexy. Just sexy enough."
Alice picked out several tops that were extremely low cut. I sighed as she shoved several things in my hands. "Go try them on" She commanded.
An hour later found us in the lingerie section. "Rose, I just don't need all of this lingerie. I probably won't even wear it all..."
"Edward will see it on you."
"No, he won't."
"Alright, Some random hot stranger."
"Not even close."
"Whatever.. Just take it dammit. And trust me" She smiled a small mischievous smile that made the hair on the back of my neck rise. They were planning something.
"I don't want any part of what you and Alice are planning Rose."
"Yeah yeah same song and dance. Just try this on." she handed me a small lacy getup and as I realized what it was, the color drained from my face.
"This is ridiculous."
"Just do it. You have to model it for us.."
"The fuck I will.. I would never wear this."
"Ah. But you WILL wear it, Because I said so.. Now go."
I mumbled a few curses and something about this being too embarrassing for words before I shoveled off to the dressing room.
Several hours later we were headed to the car, and I was all dolled up. The sun was setting, and it was finally starting to cool down. As we reached the car, I saw my reflection in the dark window. I was...definitely different.
"You like what you see?" I jumped at the sound of Alice's voice. Her tinkling laugh put a smile on my face. "Yes, I definitely look better..."
"You were always pretty. You just look girly now. Let's get to the salon for your wax."
"Wax?"
"Mhmm. Bikini wax."
I have no idea what that means, But by the looks on their faces, I wasn't liking it too much.
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"WHAT. THE. FUCK. YOU BITCHES DO THIS SHIT EVERY DAY, I JUST. I DON'T UNDERSTAND..." I wobbled over to the counter, making large exaggerated gestures, and my legs so far apart I probably looked like a penguin or something.
"Not every day. Just every week, The earliest is every three days."
"Shit, I just can't walk. Give me that soothing cream stuff..." Alice handed me a bottle of cream before heading back to the room herself. I went in the other direction towards the bathroom. After adding a shit load of the soothing cream that smelled like vanilla icing for some odd reason, I headed up front, feeling slightly numb. Alice had just walked out of the room, walking normally.
"Did they use the cream on you?"
"No. I'm just used to it."
"What the fuck"
"Let's go. We still have to get you home to the boys, and I've already gotten several texts asking about where we are."
"Rose aren't you getting waxed?"
"I did yesterday."
"Crazy ass bitches."
"Just wait until next time." Alice said. I groaned at the twinkling look in her eyes.
-end of chapter two-
so this chapter kind of wrote itself. And I'm sorry for not updating in a while, I haven't had access to a computer in a few weeks, so I'm very, very sorry about that.
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