Chapter 4

Our Lives Suck

Adas POV

We entered the Med Center to find Master Dralligg, my old lightsaber combat teacher, fiddling with a datapad.

"Hello, Master Dralligg. What are you working on?" Ahsoka asked.

He said," Please call me Cin, Ahsoka. Oh, and this datapad isn't working very well. I'm trying to repair it." Just as he said it, he was shocked by a tendril of electricity.

"Kriff!" he said, sucking on the wound.

I walked over to him and said," Here, let me. I can repair almost anything."

Cin said," Well, Padawan Kressh, I haven't seen you in here for… I don't think anyone has ever seen you in here."

I smirked. "I'm not one for infirmaries."

He chuckled. "Me neither, but the Council put me here anyway!"

I gave the datapad back to him. "Anyway, Ahsoka asked me to help her out, today."

Ahsoka rolled her eyes. "More like you pleaded to come, but can he help, Cin?'

Cin nodded. "We need as much help as we can muster today! Apparently, an entire battalion of clones just got back from Sullest and over a third of them were injured."

Ahsoka and I both nodded and we got to work.

Four Hours Later

"Tired yet, Adas?" Ahsoka asked as I sat down, covered in sweat and bruises.

"I never knew that younglings could hit so hard," I said as she handed me an ice-pack that I placed on my… private area.

Some younglings had come into the Med Center earlier today and they had bruises from lightsaber training. It was my turn to help them, but when I gave them some painkillers, one of the kids kicked me in the shin and from there things went bad.

Ahsoka laughed. "Yeah, well it was a nice surprise to find you half naked and hanging upside down in a closet. And how did they beat you up?"

"I didn't want to hurt them so I didn't defend myself!" I said, wincing as Ahsoka placed some ice on my uncovered chest.

"Sure, that's what happened!" she said with a laugh.

Cin emerged from another room with an IV sack. "Can one of you go by room 374 and refill the patient's IV bag? The Council has requested my presence and I don't want to be late."

Ahsoka nodded and took the bag from Cin. He said," Thanks," and rushed out the door.

She turned to me and asked," Adas, can you take this?"

I glared at her while she laughed.

Ahsoka POV

I made my way down to the patient's room and opened it up to find an unexpected surprise. Barriss.

I gasped and backed out of the room. She must've switched rooms! I looked back in the room and saw that she was asleep.

Well, she seems pretty knocked out…

I tiptoed my way to her IV port and replaced the bag, but when I turned around to go I heard a voice.

"Wait, Ahsoka."

My eyes filled with tears as I said," Yes, Barriss?"

"I want to talk."

"Why would you want to talk to an outcast like me?"

"Because you're not an outcast to me."

"You're right. I'm not just an outcast to you. I'm an outcast to everyone in the Order!"

"You're not an outcast, Ahsoka!" she said, and I could feel her anger rising.

That's right. Be angry at me. You have all the rights to be…

"That's all I'll ever be anyway, a loser! I was destined to be a loser!"

"Damn it, Ahsoka! Just shut up and listen! You're not anything, but a great Jedi!"

I felt the tear coming, for I knew that she was lying. "You're a liar, Barriss. Everyone who has ever told me that I'm actually a good Jedi is a liar."

I raced out of the room even though Barriss was trying call me back.

Adas POV

I stretched my muscles and tried to ignore the pain that it was causing me. I got up and hobbled over to the closet, hoping that I could find some bacta, when Ahsoka came barreling down the hallway.

She rammed into me and we went down in a sprawl of limbs. I found myself under her as she struggled to get free.

"Ahsoka, what's wrong?" I asked. She pushed me off and ran out the door.

I got up and raced after her, even though my body was crying out in pain. I followed her to her room where she closed the door.

I sighed and knew that she wouldn't let me in. I took a small knife out of my pocket and went to work on the control panel.

I finally got the door to open up, but what I saw was Ahsoka on the floor of her room with her shirt off, cutting herself.

She saw me standing in the doorway and her expression changed to fear. "So what are you gonna do now? Report me to the Council? Or are you going to demand that I have sex with you so that this stays a secret?"

I walked toward her and kicked the knife out of her hands. I picked her up and sat her on her bed. I closed her door and her eyes widened out of fear.

I raised a hand and said," I just want to show you something."

I took off my shirt and let her see my scars. I felt her eyes roam all over my chest and abdomen. She looked up at me and said," You're a cutter?"

I nodded. "You are, too?"

She nodded. "So… what's your story?"

"Like I said, my mother died when I was young and ever since then, people have picked on me because of my species. I just decided that feeling physical pain would be better than emotional and mental pain."

"My story is… a little more recent. About a month ago, me and my friend Barriss Offee were on a mission when I acted arrogant and almost got her killed. When we got back, the Council put me on Med duty for four months and my master and I got into an argument. In the end, he ended up hitting me and I became a cutter."

I gave her a weak smile. "Well, don't our lives suck?"

She laughed and said," Heck yes."

I sat next to her on her bed. "Why did you run out of the med center?"

"I went into Barriss's room to replace her IV fluids and she woke up. she saw me and tried to convince me that I wasn't a loser, but it ended up a screaming match and now I'm positive that she hates me and now I hate myself too and –"

I didn't think that she realized that she was crying until I wrapped my arms around her and whispered," I don't think that anyone could ever hate you."

Ahsoka POV

i woke up the next morning with a blanket over me and a note lying on my nightstand. i picked it up and it read,

Dear Ahsoka,

Sorry I didn't wake you up this morning. My master called me in for some sparring and you can't really so no to a Jedi Master. I left you some breakfast on your dresser. Maybe we can meet in the gardens at say three o'clock? I'll bring food and chocolate. See you there,

Adas Kressh

I smiled and got up out of bed. I grabbed a bite of toast and checked the time. Twelve o'clock...

"First time I've ever slept in," I said jokingly and got ready for the date with Adas.

I stopped dead in my tracks and thought, Date? Ahsoka, calm down now! This is not a date. It is just two friends who happen to be a boy and girl meeting up for lunch and chocolate in the Gardens, the most romantic part of the Temple. So what if you think that he's cute? That does not make it a date!

Sorry, i haven't updated in awhile. My wifi hasn't been working so i don't have any webernet! (webernet means internet!) Please review and constructive criticism appreciated as well...