This chapter's about…-drumroll- Nudge!
Dear Max,
Iggy's been trying to get me to write this for a while now, so here it is.
Sorry for leaving the Flock...I know that I hurt you a lot. I'm really sorry about that.
But can you understand why I left for the school? Can you?
I mean, look at me. I am freakishly weird, I have wings, I have, for my whole life either been a) living in a dog cage, being cruelly tested on by whitecoats, or b) on the run. Except for that short stay with Anne, which turned out to be disastrous, I've never had a chance to live like normal people.
And I'm tired of hiding and secrets, of running and fighting. Do you understand why I want to be normal, at least for a few hours a day?
At the time, that school that Jeb had suggested seemed to be the best opportunity for doing that. I mean, it's in a remote place, with high security, and gives people to learn stuff and be like normal kids.
I knew that you weren't happy with the Flock's decision, but at the time, I didn't care. I just knew that we were going to a school, were going to get actual education. I was being selfish, and I apologize for that.
But even when the rest of the Flock wanted to leave, I still felt that way. I wasn't ready to leave such a place, an oasis in the desert of our life. Can you forgive me?
By now, you're probably wondering why I returned to the Flock at all.
Why? I loved you all, far more than school. I don't like being alone, much less alone in a building full of strangers. Sure, everybody was nice and I learned a lot and everything, but I just wasn't my life. You know?
I felt like there was this hole in my heart where the Flock used to be. I kept turning around to show Gazzy something, or to describe to Iggy what the room looked like, or to ask you what our emergency escape plan was, before realizing that you weren't there.
I had lived too long with all of you by my side, and I would never want to change that.
But I thank you for letting me go, for allowing me to make my own choices. I thank you for that.
Before my stay at the school, I have wondered several times whether the Flock would ever settle in one place again, whether we would ever belong anywhere.
But I know the truth now.
The place we should settle, the place where we belong, it's not any physical place on earth.
It's with each other.
From, Nudge
Remember: this letter wasn't ever sent.
That chapter wasn't one of my best…sorry for the shortness.
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