Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter or anything in it. Why else would I be writing crappy stories that aren't nearly as good as the real thing?
"Oh good you guys are down. Now Ginny I need to speak with you in the living room," mum says.
"Yes mum," I say as I follow her into the living room. She sits on the couch and gestures for me to sit in the armchair opposite her. I sit down and feel extremely nervous about what she could want and if I was going to get in trouble.
"Now Ginny, I have noticed you are not acting like yourself lately. Usually you're out back playing Quidditch or hanging out with Hermione, Harry, and Ron. And I don't want to hear anymore of this silly business where you're acting out at people. Do you understand?" she asks.
"Yes Mum," I reply.
"Good. I think you need to get out of that bedroom tomorrow and get some fresh air. I also want to ask if you're alright. You seem a little depressed," she observes. I have no idea why it makes me angry that everyone keeps asking me that, but it does and I explode.
"Why does everyone keep asking me that! Why wouldn't I be? Ugh you people are impossible!" I shout and march upstairs.
I slam my door and fling myself down on my bed. I let all my confusion, anger, love, and all the other emotions I can't handle our and break down into sobs. Usually I don't show my emotions and just bottle them up, but I just can't this time. Tears are running down my face and I feel nauseous. I cry for what seems like hours and eventually calm down. I'm glad no one came up to see if I was alright because I don't know what I would have done to them. A few minutes later someone comes in my room. They sit down on my bed and start rubbing my back. I twist my neck to see Hermione sitting there. I turn back around and shove my face into my pillow. I know I can't start crying again, but I just can't face her.
"Shh Ginny, It's okay," she consoles me. I whip around, startling Hermione in the process.
"No it's not okay. I'm just so confused and I feel so alone," I admit.
"But you're not alone. You have all of your family, Harry, and me," she says.
"Not with this. This is something I have to figure out on my own," I say, silently adding in my head that she's the one confusing me.
"You sound just like Harry, but even he needs help. He needs us to help him even though he feels he solely has to deal with Voldemort. We all need help sometimes," she says.
"But this is a problem no one can help me with. No one would know how to help me," I confess.
"Try me," she says with a bring-it-on face.
"I can't," I repeat.
"Is this about the person you like?" she asks. Darnit. She's too smart for her own good.
"Maybe," I mumble, hoping she won't hear me.
"I thought so. I mean I know I don't have much experience when it comes to this, but there are tons of trustworthy people you could go to," she says.
"But they won't understand. I told you. It's someone I can never, ever, be with," I say getting annoyed.
"It can't be that bad. Who is this guy. I mean even if it is Malfoy or some Slytherin or something surely you could still be with them. I wouldn't mind or care and I'm sure-"
"What if it's not a guy!" I yell frustrated, but then I just realize what I said. I again feel nauseous and lightheaded.
"Not a guy? A g-girl?" she asks. But instead of answering, I run out the door and down the stairs. I run through the kitchen, scaring my mother as I slam the door, leading to the kitchen, open.
"Ginny what's wrong? Why are you running? Hey where do you think you're going young lady!" she shouts as I run out the door and into the frigid night air. I keep running until I find my secret hiding place near the Quidditch Field. I sit down and just cry. I just told my best friend and crush that I like girls. I'm so busy crying I don't notice someone sit down next me. I feel someone touch my shoulder and I jump. I look over to see who it is.
"Goodness Luna you scared the crap out of me," I say, while trying to slow down my heart rate.
"Sorry I didn't mean to scare you. I saw you over here and thought I'd come over," she says with her airy voice.
"It's okay. Why are you out here anyway?" I ask.
"Oh the nargles were making my head fuzzy. I came to get some fresh air and search for the crumple-horned snorkack," she says with a dreamy expression.
"Do you think you'll ever find one?" I ask, not wanting to hurt her feelings even though I don't believe in such things.
"I don't know. Maybe some day. So what's wrong?" she asks sincerely.
"It's nothing," I lie.
"Well if you'd rather not talk about it. Good-bye Ginny," she says as she starts to skip away.
"Luna wait!" I shout. She turns and skips back to me.
"You don't have to go," I say wanting her to give me some company.
"Oh that's alright. It is getting kind of late. And father will sure worry if I don't get home. I hope he has some pudding," she says before skipping out of view. Alone again, I decide I should get home before someone comes looking for me.
As I walk through the door I'm immediately scooped up into a bone-crushing hug.
"Ginny you had me worried sick. I didn't know where you went or if something had happened to you," she says as she pulls back and points her finger at me," and if you ever run off like that again you will be grounded."
"I'm sorry mum. I needed some fresh air," I lie somewhat.
"Next time just ask okay," she says.
"Yes mum. I'm tired. I think I'll just go to bed," I say.
"Are you sure? Everyone else is in the kitchen eating dinner. Why don't you come get something to eat," she asks, looking worried.
"I'm not hungry. I'd really just like to go to bed," I reply as I make my way up the stairs and into my room. Once in my pajamas I collapse onto my bed. My solution to this problem is to just avoid Hermione and hopefully I'll just get over this crush. Like that'll ever happen. I drift off into a sleep filled with dreams of Hermione.
Author's Note:
Soo I could give you 1000 different excuses as to why I didn't upload this faster. But I'm going to try to be better. If I can I'll try to upload another chapter or two tonight to try to make up for it! Read and if you want to tell me if you love it hate it or anything just review!:):)
-Sa5m