Chapter 4

The next day Richter said we were going to stay in Hima for a while. Slaying demons and doing other things to make a little money and be able to stay in the next town's inn. By this, he meant he would slay demons and I would be the one doing all the little errands...

"Umm, wh-where do you want these?" I asked, struggling to hold up a big, heavy box of supplies.

"Over there please, dear." Clarissa said, pointing to a spot next to a shelf of books. I struggled over to that spot and put the box down, sighing as the wight was finaly lifted.

"Thank you very much Ast- Oops, Emil." She said giggling. "I'm sorry its just that you look so much like him." She said giving me a sad look. "It is a shame he has past away now, he was a remarkable young man."

"What was he like?" I asked, the curiosity getting to me.

"Well aside from looking identical to you he was a very smart young man. He worked at a research facility in Sybak, Richter used to work there too. I guess the two had gotten bored of that place or something along the lines. Richter did have a talent with a sword, perhaps that's why he became a demon slayer."

"What about Aster?" I asked, wondering if he had followed Richter.

"Oh the boy was far too much infatuated with him to let him go. He gave up his job as a researcher and followed Richter, helping him slay demons. Those two were so perfect for each other." She trailed off with a sigh.

I looked down sadly. Richter had once loved Aster...did he still love him? If I look exactly like him am I just a replacement for what he can no longer have? Am I his new Aster...?

"Don't worry yourself dear." Clarissa said, giving me a sympathetic smile. "Richter may have loved Aster but he'll move on. No need to go all in a depression."

"I-I'm not..." My face heated up. Was it that obvious that I was thinking of Richter? Was it really? I sighed in defeat.

"I've seen the way he looks at you." She said, snapping me out of my daze. "Not quite the same way he used to look at Aster. He'll come around and then he'll be all yours." She said giving me a wink. My face brightened to an impossible shade of red. What did she mean by 'All mine'?

"W-well...um..Thank you Clarissa...I-is there anything else you'd like me to do?"

"Ah yes." She went to go get something from the kitchen. "Poor Richter has been out since this morning fighting demons he must be starving. Bring him these." She handed me a folded cloth containing sandwiches.

"S-sure, no problem." I took the package and walked up the hillside of the mountain to the top were Richter would be, careful not to run into any monsters.

When I reached the top I saw him killing off a demon, slashing through it as it let out a wail before falling limply to the ground.

"W-wow! You're really good." I said and he turned around to look at me.

"Emil? Aren't you supposed to be helping Clarissa?" He asked, whiping his brow.

"Yeah, but she told me to come give you these." I told him, handing him the sandwiches.

"Well, thank you I guess." He sat on a large, flat stone and unwrapped the cloth. "Want to join me or do you want to go back to town?"

"H-huh? Oh, I guess I'll stay. Clarissa didn't really say she needed anymore help from me." I took a seat next to him. Richter handed me one of the sandwiches and I gave him a polite smile.

"Thank you."

We sat mostly in silence and ate our lunch, exchanging some small talk every once in a while.

"So where will we be going tomorrow?" I asked. We had made enough money so we'd be setting off early tomorrow morning.

"Probably Izoold. I heard something about rogue demons attacking there so we might be able to get alot of money and you could do some odd jobs for the elderly folk there."

"That sounds good I guess." I turned my body slightly, my knee bumping against his. "Oh, sorry." I said and before I knew it Richter had tackled me down, pinning me onto my back with my wrists above my head.

"U-umm, R-Richter?" I stuttered, my face heating up at the closeness. I felt his knee between my thighs, spreading them further apart and I gapsed as it slightly rubbed against my crotch.

"Richter what are you-mmph" In an instant his mouth was on mine, silencing me. He pried my lips open with his own, slipping his warm wet tongue and rubbing it against mine. I moaned into the kiss, attempting to wrap my arms around his neck and kiss back with equal passion until it happened.

"Aster..." He moaned out and my eyes widened. I sat up, pushing him away, refusing to look at him.

"So it's true..." I said, my voice shaking.

"What?" He asked, a little shocked by my sudden resistance. "Emil, what's-"

"I really am just a replacement for Aster aren't I!" I screamed. It was the first time I had yelled at Richter.

Realizing what I meant his eyes widened then softened. "Emil, I...I didn't mean to it just sort of came out..."

I shook my head, looking away from him so he wouldn't see the tears. "You don't love me..." I said, my voice shaking.

"Emil I-"

"I can't do this..." I choked out.

"Can't do what?"

"I can't be with you like this! Not until I know that you don't think of me just as another Aster." I said and then stood up and left, feeling his eyes on my back. I needed time alone.

Richter's POV

I watched Emil leave, taking in what he had just said. I didn't see him as Aster...did I? I mean sure they were identical but there were lots of things I like about Emil that were himself like...like...DAMN!! I can't think of any.

I sighed, pinching the bridge of my nose. I was starting to get a head ache.

I felt bad fir the kid, I really did. He oviously has feelings for me and there I go, moaning someone elses name during our kiss. It was dispicable. Sure, I missed Aster, I mean I loved him. He had been my everything, my first love. I'm not sure if it's because he looks like him or not but I do have feelings for Emil.

He may look like Aster but the two were different. Aster was never as oblivious as Emil and his eyes had always been a dull gold not the bright lime green of Emil's.

Listing all the differences I was amazed that I had ever seen Emil as Aster and then it hit me. I only saw Emil as Aster and I surely never loved him for his looks, not that he wasn't handsome, quite the contrary but anyway.

I didn't love Emil because he looked like Aster, although I'm not necessarily sayong I love the kid, not yet, but for his own traits. Like the cute way he puts his finger on his lip when he's thinking or the way he blushes right before I kiss him. Aster never did those things and even though I miss him maybe it was time to just...let go and move on.

A/N: I would have written the lemon in this chapter but I only got 1 review :( You people are mean...SO I'm gonna be mean and make you wait for the much needed Richter/Emil lemon. Or maybe I'll just give you a lime cause Emil spelled backwards is Lime XD Nah, just kidding, I just felt like pointing that out. Anywaiy don't say I have no heart cause I will respond, in Demyx quote

"Oh...we do to have hearts, don't be mad ^^"

And also, just so I don't come off as a total bishee(lol censorship XD) I am working on something special for the Emichter(that name has seemed ti stick to me) fans. Wait for it, wait for it*Drum roll* A RICHTER/EMIL DOUJINSHI!!! WOOT!!! lol. Yeah, my art may not be great...or good...but a badly drawn doujin is better than none at all right? And don't worry, it won't be PG-13 ;) Let's just say I've seen and drawn a bunch of dj's so I know how the works work. Infact I had been working on(several) Soriku dj's but I'm very self-conscious of my drawing skills(or lack there of) so I never seem to finish them :( Hopefuly this Emichter one won't turn out that way, I mean it's not like there are any other doujins to compare myself to for this pairing *glares at Emichter fans that have really good drawing skills*