Liar's Roulette
Pairing: YUUxSHINOAxMIKA
NOTES: hello, everyone I'm back with a new chapter. Hope you enjoy it. :)
Chapter 4: Solitary Knight
[ Don't put your happiness in someone else's hand. They'll drop it.]
Ugh, so troublesome. Here I am, in front of the long table of Hiiragi's meeting room facing the whole family. Well, where is Shinya? I don't see him in the chairs sitting with the standard Hiiragi's stoical faces.
Mahiru's death had become a mystery. They said she died on a cardiac arrest, some other says she commit a suicide and some others says someone tends to killed her by poisoning her. But whats more surprising? Her family tries to cover the truth of the reason of her death, whatever it is. Its an ugly truth.
And the reason why I am here with her whole family is because I'm one of the people who'll be receiving a will from her, that I'll becoming the legal guardian of her little sister. That really surprised me, who knows she had a little sister? And the most interesting part is that the Hiiragi family has been hiding her existence in the whole industry. And if they wont surrender her to me I can make a file case to the court of Child Abuse that will leave the work of the hands of my personal lawyer.
If its something from Mahiru, I'll take it. Whatever reason why she had died I know there is something going on this family, maybe a murder. One of this stoical concrete faces killed her, I don't have any evidence to prove it but someday the truth will flow out. Or maybe not a murder. I dont know! My mind isn't working correctly since I'd heard the news. Mahiru, what did really happened?
After all the meetings and arrangement from here and there, I've finally get to escort the youngest Hiiragi. Heading to the south wing where she was located, I opened a door revealing a stairs up to the attic. Ugh, this is so troublesome. I take the lead of walking, following behind me my assistants Sayuri and Shigure. Arriving at the top of the stairs another door face us, by opening it made a tiny long squeak sound.
As we entered the room, the place is full of old furnitures that had forgotten by the time, burried by years and dust. Seems like no one is here. The door slammed shut behind us, and when we turned around there's no one. Seconds passed by and we're still starring at the door shut.
"This is starting to get creepy.'' I heard Sayuri murmured. And then we heard a laugh, a soft giggle. Something similar to Mahiru. And I could feel the two women stood closely beside me. This is getting ridiculous! Are they easily tricked something like this by a brat's prank?!
"Show yourself.'' I sternly said.
"Hahaha... You must be Guren?'' The figure comes out from the shadows corner revealing a short girl (almost with the same height with Shigure but still short) wearing an old dress down to her knees and her hair cascading down to her back with a little bit darker from Mahiru's hair color.
"If you know who I am, I believe you already know why I am here.'' I said to her, wanting to drop her playful act.
"Oh yes! I know. Mahiru did mention it to me.'' She chirpily said but I can feel the dourness behind her words. I raised my one eyebrow amused at her bubbly personality that I want to fall it down.
"So, you know how did she died?'' With the hint of my voice a little amused with sarcasm and her playful acts drop immediately, she looked down to the floor covering her eyes with her bangs.
"One thing I know for sure. She is a liar.'' Silently she said almost like a whisper but I can still manage to hear it. Her eyes gazed back at me with her blank expression, its the big opposite of Mahiru's cheerful personality.
And the conversation flew out to the window, looks like she don't want to talked about it. Everyone is mournful at Mahiru's death, especially their mother. Even me.
"You want to come with us? Because I'm not taking no as an answer.'' And I gestured to Shigure to walk with the girl and its a good sign that she didn't fight back to stop us.
Leaving the Hiiragi Mansion, we've manage to get a little shopping for Shinoa's clothes and other things she'll be need. Can you believe that? The Hiiragi's has been collecting more money in their company but didn't even buy her a single dress? Let alone slippers, when we leave the mansion she didn't even had anything wearing on her feet. Ugh, this is so troublesome to her. Now I understand why would Mahiru left her sister to me. But I know there is something more. The Hiiragi's wouldn't surrender their hidden treasure so easily. I must be careful, not making a false move or else they can use that to me to against it.
It's already evening, and I told Sayuri to dress Shinoa something representable. We will be attending her sister's funeral service. I went straight to her newly room prepared for her. Opening the door, I saw Sayuri doing something in the closet and Shinoa sitting in her coffe table chair located at the veranda sipping a tea.
"I thought Yuu was already here?'' I asked to Sayuri.
"Ah! Master Guren! I didn't feel you entering the room. About the young master, I believe he is with Yukimi looking for you.'' She answered hastily at her first sentence but a little bit of poky of her voice mentoning about the idiot young master.
I looked back to the door who suddenly burst open, with the idiot who hurriedly walk towards me. His raven hair is a little bit messy still wearing his school uniform.
"What took you so long?'' I asked him rather irritated at his late arrival.
"Well I came home late from school then I looked for you in the office but you're not there, I run into Ms. Shigure and asked her about you but she said I should search you on my own so I followed her around she might change her mind and tell me to where you are and―''
"Shut up.'' I cut him briskly, I have no interest listening to his blubbering. That make him silent with a scowl face. I walked to where Shinoa is and seated to the other vacant chair of the coffee table.
"This is Shinoa.'' And I looked at her that the brim of the cup was still in her lips. "And Lady Shinoa you are going to stick out with my son here.'' I dryly said at her.
"Huh? What do you mean Gu―Father?'' He densely asked and I let out a tiredly sigh.
"Son? Lady Mahiru didn't mention to me that you had a son.'' Shinoa tilted her head.
"Doesn't matter. By the way, Yuuichirou you will be serving Shinoa under my care and from now on she'll be staying with us.'' I explained to Yuu and I looked back to Shinoa where the cup is already on the table. "And you Shinoa you'll be looking out for him too, well sometimes he is… you know.'' And I finished my sentence with a little .
"Sometimes what?'' She asked innocently with a hint of gibing and I looked back to my idiot adopted son whose face made even more than a scowl and in a few seconds I could see smokes coming out from his nose. I smirk.
"You'll know soon.'' And I stood up. "I believe everyone is prepared. Are you ready?'' And I narrowed my eyes to Shinoa and her confuse expression still plastered on her small face, pretending didn't know what I'm talking about.
"About what?'' She asked baffled.
"To attend to your sister's funeral service.'' And I walked to Yuu giving him a heavy pat on his back. "Goodluck, I hope you will get along with her, butler. I'll be expecting a report with this within a week.'' And I went straight to the door. "I'll be waiting in the car for five minutes, and please don't make me wait more than that.''
And I leave the place completely and stopped back at my office to confirm some documents and appointments and leave some paperworks for Shigure. I went to my car and waited for the new bickering love birds will arrive. If you stick together an idiot and an annoying the outcome is one with a scowling face and the other with a pouting face.
Shinoa is hard to deal, sometimes with her playful act hids a double meaning of her words.
Mahiru is a liar.
I don't know what that means, one thing for sure. I know she hides something , not for me but to everyone. And maybe if she spends more time with Yuu there might be a slight chance that she'll open her heart to everyone, I shouldn't say to everyone but at least to anyone.
We arrive at the place where the funeral is been held, I opened the car's door and expecting everyone's eyes will be looking at us. Yuu followed behind me with Shinoa at his side, we enter the place and saw from afar the open-coffin of Mahiru. We sat down to the chairs thats been reserved for us and someone serves us with coffee and biscuits and sandwhich. Some intriguing eyes were still on us or to Shinoa, and she only displayed her blank expression.
"Aren't you going to give a glance at your sister there?'' I asked her, but she pretend that she didn't heard me as her attention was on her reflection swirling in the coffee.
I looked around, there were still eyes lingered on Shinoa and make some inaudible whispers. Today was the third night of Mahiru's funeral, then on sunday will be her burial. And Shinya still hasn't return from his bussiness trip in Guam. Within minutes the service had start then it ends after one hour.
We went back to the car after the service had finished, I want to stay the night and starred at Mahiru's sleeping face until the morning comes but I still have bussiness meetings and appointments to be done. Looking at the rearview mirror I saw Shinoa looking outside of the car's window with her same blank expression, she didn't even show any sympathy at the funeral and the people keep on talking at her back.
"So, she was the replacement of Mahiru."
"I heard that she was the Hiiragi's secret card.''
"It's true that there's another daughter in Hiiragi's.''
"She looks like Mahiru.''
Ugh, this is so troublesome. After the next funeral service, I didn't brought her because of those back stabbers and her unwanted presence. Her father didn't even look at her, her brothers didn't even know about her, and her mother who were physically and mentally ill that seeing Shinoa will only things get worst.
"Sayuri, I want you to personally tutor Shinoa after her sister's burial so we can enroll her to the next opening class.''
"Yes Master Guren, uhmnn…'' she trailed deciding to say it or not.
"What is it?'' I looked at her in the eyes that I will listen to what she's going to say.
"Lady Shinoa and your son were in an argument just a while ago, I don't want things go… you know… but it's much better if you knew it.'' She pondered and I sigh mentally. That idiot son…
"Where are they?'' I tiredly asked.
"In the kiosk near the pond.'' And I stood up from my chair and went straight to the place where Sayuri mentioned.
I saw them sitting in opposite direction, face to face while Yuu doing some school works and Shinoa, well, being Shinoa starring blankly at the pile of books in the table. I approach them with a smug.
"So I heard you two had a lovers quarrel?''
"Just a while ago and now we're okay.'' Yuu answered without lifting his head from the notebook he's facing to look at me.
"Ohh…'' and I looked to Shinoa who obviously in her blank expression that she was bored. "What happened?'' Surely I can feel the heavy tension between them.
"I just wanted to be alone in my room but the stupid butler wont leave me, feels like he was head over heals on me.'' She playfully said with her sweet voice and Yuu twitched his lips urging to ignore of what he had just heard.
"Isn't bad? Well, Yuuichirou here is your butler and I'd given him duty to be at your side 24/7.'' I cheerfully said but failed to hide my sarcasm in my words, riding with her acting skills. Let's see who is going to drop first with this egoistic attitude.
"But I'm old enough to have a baby sitter.'' She pouted and it reminded me of Mahiru's pouting face, she's always pouting at me everytime I didn't agree with her or go out with her. I grimaced mentally at the memory flashed in my mind.
"But he is not your baby sitter, you are.'' I managed to continue my acting.
"What?!'' Yuu slammed his pen with force so loud that he even stood up, both hands in the table, one curled with fist.
"You got a problem?'' I smug at him and he twitched, I poked him in the forehead. "Don't give me that look, show some respect to your father in front of a lady.'' He irritately removed my finger in his forehead, what a short fuse.
"Now, this is what I've called lover's quarrel.'' Shinoa blurted out tring not to laugh with her sham smile.
"What did you say?!'' Yuu almost yelled at her but manage not to shout reminding to his self that I'm still in his―their presence, and I rub my temple trying to calm down.
"Can I talk to you alone?'' Trying not to get annoyed at his sudden outburst as I too will start to blow my short fuse. Ugh, this is so troublesome. His scowling face turned in to sober, I looked to Shinoa who was still watching us with her hands cupped her cheeks, elbows resting in the table and eyebrows knitted together in amused way. What a headache sight, I think I've seen somewhere this kind of gesture or style.
"You can take your time to be alone.'' Despites of all, I showed to her my rare slight smile for assurance.
"That's all I've wanted.'' She stretch her arms forward and stood up. "I'll be only in my room.'' Then she give us a low bow and left, well that was unexpected for her to show politeness or is it that she was taught of étiquette and manners?
I sit to the spot where Shinoa seated a while ago and looked to Yuu who settled to sit down too. He composed his self and looked into my eyes that he was ready to listen to what I'm going to say, I've trained him enough but not enough, he has still lot to learn.
"I believe I've haven't told you the real reason why I let you to look for her.'' I said sternly with so much authority I've put to my words.
"Yes, but from what I've understand Ms. Sayuri told me that she was living all alone and never gone outside. So you assign me to look for her.'' He easily explained, but still he needs to learn more. To learn to study a heart and how it works especially to females, but nonetheless, this boy always give me an unexpected impression.
"That's one of the reason, listen Yuuichirou, every girl must treat like a broken fragile even if they are annoying or a bother―''
"STOP HUMORING ME GUREN, just tell it to me already.'' And I smirk at him, one of the reason why I'm proud of him; down to bussiness with no flowery words.
"First, you must learn to control your temper at her. I know sometimes she gets you in nerve, but no one can blame her if she is that way the way she is. The Hiiragi's hide her and it's true that she was living all alone without going outside, well there was a one time she tried but the the consequences is not really that good. From what I've heard her own mother tried to sink her face in the toilet or… is it in the drum full of water? Anyway, being here under my care this is all new to her. New environment, new people, new experience and new raw feelings. All of these are foreign to her.
You have to understand her, especially to how she will used her emotions. I know you already noticed it, but she's adjusting how to express her emotions.'' And that leaves to him to sank my words in his working mind.
"Yeah, I noticed it too. The night at the funeral of her sister, she didn't even show any emotions, looks like she was insensible to the people who talked at her back and stealing glances at her.'' He stated.
"That is why I wanted you to look for her, we didn't know what she'll gonna do. She maybe emotionally unstable, those playful acts, decisive smiles and taunting comments all of those are just a disguise to hide her real feelings. She don't trust anyone, since she grow up with no one to talk maybe Mahiru only and since Mahiru hates their own family she taught Shinoa not to trust to everyone.
If it's possible Yuu, you have to open her locked heart for her to express how she really felt, because we all believed that it's much better to let out all your emotions and feelings than to keep them inside.'' And I smiled at him enough to understand.
"I know now how she feels, it is something I can relate before I came to the orphanage. You can count on me Guren! I wont let her feel alone.'' And a new determination build inside of him. Looking to Shinoa makes me remember of Yuuichirou when he was brought at the orphanage when he was young, nine years ago.
"Don't fail her Yuu like those people who failed her.'' And I stood up, running my fingers in my hair while looking at him. "Oh, if you want advice on how to treat a lady you can seek Sayuri or Shigure or even me. Butler Yuuichirou.'' And I leave him with a scowling face.
Tonight will be the last day Mahiru's funeral and there will be a lot of visitor to come. Friends, business partners, relatives, media and etcetera. Bringing Shinoa is not a good choice, she may attract unwanted attention. She's still in first step of adjusting in this new world of her. Nothing happened in the last funeral service, and Shinya was still missing in his last glimpse of his fiencee.
Then on burial day, times seems to go slow down. With the stubborn Shinoa who alleged that she had a toothache so she wont be attending the cerimonial of her sister's burial, but glady Yuuichirou was there to make some sense to her. How did he do it? I don't know. (You will know it when it was his time for his chapter's points of view. XP)
Arriving on the church, Yuu decided that it's better for Shinoa to stay in the car with his company and I left them alone and went to church inside. After the church service, we arrive at the cemetery and Shinoa decided to show her appearance for her respect to her sister.
The priest was now in the middle of his sermon when Shinya too make an appearance, I didn't see him in the church, maybe he just came from the airport and teleport immediately here. Same with Shinoa, he also had an unreadable expression.
"Before we send Lady Mahiru to the heaven, all of her beloved this is your last chance to see her off. We know, I know that wherever she is now; she is happy, she didn't have any regret for all we know that a time will come when the light of our candle will die.''
The priest said and the maids starts to distributing white roses, and the main family too starts to glance at her sleeping form in the opened-coffin with their black shades. And Mrs. Hiiragi starts to cry hysterically in her wheel chair.
A red headed in bob hair approach us or to Shinoa, she's wearing a frameless glass in her eyes. She handed Shinoa a white rose for her to offer for her sister.
"I know you'll attend Lady Shinoa and I saved this flower for you.'' She smiled sadly at her, holding her tears and Shinoa only accepted the white rose with no trace of emotion. "I'm so very glad that you've finally out in that attic.'' And she embraced her, resting her cheeks near in Shinoa's ear as she closed her eyes. "I'm so very happy for you at the same time so very sad of your sister, when you're finally free then it was time for her to go. Everything was so very unexpected, no one would see it coming.'' And she released her that her tears is ready to go down any seconds now.
"I'm very sorry for the instrution Master Guren, I-I just want to see Lady Shinoa before anything else. Please take care of her.'' And she bowed formally in front of me. "Until then Shinoa, see you next time. I wanted to see you again so I wont say goodbye.'' And she pat her in the head and slowly leave us while waving her hand.
"Who is she Shinoa?'' Yuu curiously asked as he watch the girl distributing flowers.
"Ms. Yayoi, aside from Mahiru and Shinya who stopped coming in the attic. She was the only one remained giving me foods and collecting for my laundry.'' She monotonously answered.
And I heaved a sigh, releasing all the feelings I had inside as I rub my temple.
"It's time.'' I said to her. "You have to see your sister before they will close her coffin.'' And I started to walk to where the sleeping Mahiru is, and Yuu gently tugging at Shinoa.
I saw Shinya who is also wearing a black shades and his left hand covering his nose and mouth, he is crying. I'm not sure, he still wearing his business suit.
I looked to Mahiru's sleeping face silently, she was still beautiful even though her eyes wont open anymore. Her silky hair, cute nose, rosy cheeks and plump lips I wont be able to touch them anymore and feel its warm. I want to stop my tears from falling down, but I can't. I couldn't give her the happiness she deserve, I know it's too late to regret but there's nothing I can do.
She died.
She went ahead.
She left me.
And she wont be coming back.
Please wait for me there.
I might be coming to you.
Who knows.
I'm sorry if I couldn't shout to the world how much I loved you, how much I care for you, how much I've wanted to be with you, to make a family with you, to be the mother of our children but… all of those will happen only in my dreams alone. I know you understand, but I couldn't forgive myself. I've hurted you, I made you cry so many times and breaking your heart.
I'm sorry.
I glanced away to her and give some space for Shinoa to fully view her sister. She still have her emotionless face starring at her sister, I walked away to them to give her some privacy and Yuu followed me not so for away to them.
Everyone's eyes was on her, the semi-replica of Mahiru was there standing in front of them. Eyes in wided, silent gasp and inaudible whispers somewhere from the crowd.
"Shinoa dear…'' a fragile weak voice called her, and it's their mother sitting in a wheel chair, to her side stands the Great Tenri then to her other sides stands Kureto, Seishirou and Shinya with the very same expression just like they have seen a walking vampire in a heat summer. Shinoa turned to face her still with her expresionless face.
"Come dear, let's go home…'' her mother continued and Shinoa only shook her head in response and returned her gazing on Mahiru.
She remained unemotional from the intense eyes of everyone, she acted like they didn't even standing there. What is all it matters, was that she can see the face of her sister before she pass on heaven.
Shinoa's mother stood up from her wheel chair and walked shakily towards her daughter, she kneeled in front of her and held her shoulder in dismally.
"I'm tired Mahiru, let's go home now. Listening to me will only make things better right? Let's stop all of this nonsense and forget that this happened, okay? Did you understand Mahiru? Mahiru…?!'' Shaking the emotionless girl in her shoulders as she cried deliriously, still Shinoa remained impassive as she looked at her mother , she was shook terribly in her mother's arms like trying to wake up from a nightmare. And she didn't even stop her until she was push down to the ground.
Yuu tried to run after her but I stopped him when I saw Kureto and Shinya ran to them. Kureto assisted her mother to sit back in the wheel chair as Shinya helped Shinoa to stand up.
"How can you do this MAHIRU?! Listen to me!'' She cryingly screaming at her like she was betrayed by.
The priest decided to continue the ceremonial to bring down the coffin since everything was out of control.
Shinoa only looked down to the deep six feet ground where Mahiru's remains will be buried, Shinya stood next to her putting his arms in Shinoa's shoulder.
I shut my eyes tight at the distressing sight in front of me, Mrs. Hiiragi voice could still be heard in the background calling Mahiru's name, mistakenly calling to Shinoa as Mahiru. I opened my eyes at the unchanging setting, I shove my hand in my pocket to grasp Mahiru's handkerchief and tossed it to her burying coffin along with the white roses, the crowd starts to dissolve when the coffin completely covered by earth.
Shinya and Shinoa was still at their spot, neither are moving eyes still on the buried ground. Then minutes passed by, Shinya finally face her and gave a her a pat in the head. She looked at him hearteningly and seconds passed by she hurried her face in his chest and wrapped her arms in his back tightly them a muffled sobs can be heard. He was taken aback of what just happened but comprehend to stroke her back.
She is showing good sign. That who barely shows any emotions could be breakdown and bawl like that.
No matter how strong and tough you may show outside but deep inside of you is killing you silently and breaking you into pieces. Well, I can say for sure that she can have long deep sleep.
I walked towards them with Yuu following me and give Shinya a twice tap in his shoulder. I glanced to Shinoa who is still embracing him with her silent sobs.
"Shinoa, do you want to go home now?" And she slightly nod.
"But Guren~ I want to spend more with her~" and Shinya whined, I can't believe this guy. For real? Is he a pedophile? Or is he really that easily to change his mood? But after all, this is Shinya we are talking about. And I couldn't tell if his action earlier were real or not, this guy deserves an award.
And finally Shinoa decided to let go of him, wiping her wet face with her dress collar but Yuuichirou was there to give her a clean handkerchief.
"Are you feel better now?'' Shinya asked her with so much calm and soothing voice. Seriously this guy. He is like a weather machine who easily changes the mood with one swipe. I'm not surprised, even a situation like this he can be a clown.
"I'm fine, no worries. I'm still breathing.'' She smugly answered and I mentally slap my forehead the way how she answered, these two are giving me a headache. Just a while ago she was weeping and now she is being conceited. Ugh, this is so troublesome.
"Hmnnn…'' I raised my eyebrow at her. "Are you sure you don't want to continue your weeping?''
"Weeping?'' She tilted her head, looking at her adopted brother. "Whose weeping Shinya?''
"I wonder who?'' He asked quizzicaly. "Maybe when that someone could be finally alone, and he can weep all he wants."
Now I know where Shinoa get this kind of attitude. I sigh mentally at this and their nonsense bantering continues.
"Shinoa.'' And he suddenly changed into seriousness. "You are finally free.'' He smiled at her with no trace of playful acts. "This is what Mahiru wanted.''
And her playful act drops immediately, she looked down and her expression changed into stoical.
"She is a liar.''
And her playful voice dissolve into monotonous tone.
"If this is what she really wanted, I don't know. Maybe she really didn't want me to go out from there. She is a liar. No one really knows what she wanted. And it keeps on bugging me why you two of all people had fallen in love to her when you really don't know her in the first place? I don't understand?'' She shrug her shoulders and spun around, her back facing us.
"…'' she mumbled something and starts to walk away.
"Hey Shi―Lady Shinoa!'' And Yuu ran after her, leaving me alone with this clown.
Heavy tension build in the air, I looked down to the freshly new tombstone with Mahiru's name carved in it. Shinya released a long tiredly sigh.
"She's right; no one really knew what Mahiru did wanted.'' I looked at him intensively showing I'm in no mood with his sick jokes, he also looking down at the tombstone with unreadable expression.
"Do you know how she died?'' I asked him.
He shook his head dissapointedly. "Hell no, when I heard the news I really wanted to fly back here. But big brother Kureto that bastard prevents me not to come back if I don't finish my business in Guam. When I finished my deal as far as earlier, he added some extra appointments while I'm still there. He even assured me that I can still make it on time to come back here.
They hid something that only in the family knows about it, and since I'm just an outsider they didn't even give me an exception to know what they've hiding. They kept me away, excusing that I should focus more in my work.''
Even him, who was force to be one of them, making one of them was been keep away from the truth, and used the opportunity while he was on overseas for him not to the truth.
"Is this really what she wanted?'' I voiced my inner thought just like him, Shinoa and from everyone who closed to her.
"Who knows? Hey, want to drink?'' I snorted at his offer.
"I'm tired to drink, and you're tired too. Everyone is tired.'' And I turned around facing my back to him, raising my hand at him waving for a leave. "Maybe next time.'' I headed off.
Today was a tiresome day, I hope this is really what you wanted Mahiru. This time for sure, I wont fail you. I'll look after your sister who seems to know the real reason of your death.
Days past so silently, and everyone was still mournful at her death but slowly accepting from their hearts. Probably me.
Sayuri starts her tutorial to Shinoa for her mind to drift away from Mahiru.
"Surprisingly Master Guren, she is a fast learner and half of the lesson I gave her she already knows. I'm sure by the next opening school she can finally join it." Sayuri gave me her reports on tutoring Shinoa.
"That's good, she's really a Hiiragi.'' I glanced to Shigure on her desk doing some paperworks. "Shigure, how about the requirements for Shinoa's enrollment?''
"Aside from her birth certificate there's a little working on it, but the rest are ready. Right now I'm waiting for the schedule of her entrance exam to notify, I've arranged that she can be on the same year with the young master Yuuichirou if she can pass the exam.'' And I nod at her then looked back to Sayuri standing in front of my desk.
"Keep on tuturing her until she can finally enrolled, please include in your teaching how to speak in public audience and if you can also teach her how to play atleast one music instrument and how to dance with slow music.''
"Yes Master Guren! I can do that!''
Atleast everything is going on smoothly. Just watch Mahiru, your little sister is improving to everything. Just like what you wanted. I don't want her to live in my expection because that department is already reserved for Yuuichirou. I just want her to enjoy the life, to break down the mask that she's been wearing all this time.
And some nights I went out to have a drink with Shinya. Still as ever, he never change. His annoying stupid smile was still there, Mahiru is not here anymore why he's still wearing that smile?
"How is she Guren?'' He asked after he empty his glass.
"She's doing fine though, next opening school she'll be joining it.'' I answered silently, looking down at my glass of alcohol.
Silence engulfs us until I heard light sobs and I looked at my companion. His head was laying down on the counter with his arms crossed of it. He is drunk, an emotional drunker.
"Hahaha…'' then he laughed as he lifted his head to take another shot. There's no visible tears I could see from his face. "I've promised her that when Mahiru and I finally married I can release her freely to her prisonment that no one can stop it. Hahaha…'' as he laugh again. I snorted at his behaviour.
"But just like you wanted, she's already free.'' And I finished my statement with a drink in my shoting glass.
"Not in the way I wanted.'' He sigh. "Not all that it matters. She's out of that place and that make things go better.''
I didn't answer him, he knows it too. He's already drunk, and right now we slowly accepting the truth, accepting the fate what was stored in us in the future.
"And her happiness will come to her.'' And I looked at him from the corners of my eyes.
Happiness? There's no such thing as that. You didn't even have your own happiness.
I decided not to let out my thoughts at him, this poor guy is already broken for his own good, hearing happiness from his mouth makes me want to punch him in the face. I don't even have my own happiness, wishing happiness to someone is like wishing them to welcome your nightmares.
I hardly don't want to admit to everyone and its, ugh, it's so troublesome.
I also wished for her happiness.