This chapter was inspired by the song Good Enough

Chapter four, Roses

I was walking in diagonally looking over my shoulder every time I passed an alleyway. Wearing a green coat, a white t-shirt and jeans I looked after Bellatrix as I came closer to the wand shop. I saw her, she was standing by the door looking over at me, she smiled as I walked up to her. When I stood in front of her, she handed me a rose. One red rose and then a peck on the cheek, I blushed.

"You should have told me, I don´t have anything for you" I said, feeling kind of stupid.

"You are here, more I will never ask of you" The words came out of the blue, I didn´t expect her to say anything like that – of course I blushed even more.

"You look great" Bellatrix said to me looking in to my eyes. We started to walk, I was looking at the flower the whole time, we were silent. No one spoke until we were outside on of the few coffee shops still in business.

"Want to go inside?" Bellatrix asked, I nodded and we walked in. It was so warm inside of the coffee house Bellatrix ordered two coffees and a cookie to me. I said nothing, just looking as the scared waitress tried her hardest not to meet Bellatrix eyes. Bellatrix, sitting like a queen gazing over her kingdom. When the waitress left I said to Bellatrix:

"She is afraid of you" Bellatrix looked at me where I was sitting on the other side of the table, I looked at her black long hair falling across the chest.

"Are you?" She asked, I wasn't sure what to say, I know who she is so the truth was yes.

"Yes, I mean you are…you" I said after a few seconds, Bellatrix nodded then she took my hands.

"I would never hurt you" she said "Ok, never in my life will I ever hurt you" I felt how my cheeks went red and that feeling of not knowing what to say came over me.

"I don´t want to hurt you ether Bellatrix but…"

"Say Bella, I don´t like being called Bellatrix" she said making a switch move with her hand.

"Ok, Bella…I don´t wish you any harm but I need to know something" she looked at me with a smile going back to holding my hands.

"What?" She asked, I swallowed and took a deep breath before I continued.

"What kind of feelings is it that you have for me?" The question made her let go of my hands and her eyes wided. She looked down at the floor, as if she was suddenly very confused.

"I don´t know" she mumbled, and then she got out and left me alone by the table. The strange cold that came over me as I sat alone with the two cups of coffees, so this is how it feels to fall in to the abyss.

When I got home to Grimaldplace I didn´t listen to Harry's angry screaming but I just walked past him and in to Bella's room, it was not just HER feelings…but mine to. Did I love her? Or was this just some kind of experiment? But it is a war going on, this is not the time for false feelings, but they didn´t go away. I still wanted to be with her, hold her hand. I saw the rose, maybe I needed to see her world. If she could not be a part of my world, I needed to be in hers. Because I knew I needed her, she was in my mind all the time and I needed to face the fact that I probably had feelings for her. But how could I find her? Should I let myself get kidnapped by Deatheters, shouldn't be too hard considering who I am. I started to pack, at first it was slow so that I could have time to change my mind, then I started to pack fast throwing stuff in to my back using the shrinking spell Sirius had thought me. I felt how I needed this, needed to fell needed not just be there because I refused otherwise. They would not miss me, they had wanted me to leave ever sense I told them I was going with them. I grabbed my jacket and my bag as I left the room walking down the thin stairs. As I got to the hallway I looked around, a part of me wished that they would stop me, but the only one who was here was Sirius, his back was turned on me, he had not heard me walk in. As I opened the door he turned around, we looked at each other.

"Where are you going?" He asked, I felt tears rolling down my cheeks; I could not change my mind or let Sirius start trying to change it. Because he would probably succeed:

"I am sorry" I said, I stood still.

"Hermione?"

"Tell Harry, that there is another way. Remorse, tell him that if he feels remorse they will go away" I don´t know why I haven't told Harry this before, maybe because I had so much ells to think about. I got the door opened and walked up and grabbed my wand, I stopped. Where would I go, were did I know they were keeping an eye on. The ministry, there they ought to be. Sirius had left the house, he was pale and looked as if he were in some kind of shook. I looked at him as I spin around and vanished.

I was outside the visitors entrains, I went in and dialed. The voice was different from last time, the old bored female voice there was a dark male voice sounding a little like Kingsley.

"Name and errand?" the voice said, I waited and then I said:

"Hermione Granger, wishing to see Bellatrix Lestrange" nothing, then the dark voice spoke again.

"Come again?" I smiled, yeah I guess that was hard to believe.

"H-e-r-m-i-o-n-e G-r-a-n-g-e-r, I wish to see Bellatrix Lestrange" I could not help but to give away a little smile. Then the elevator started to go down, no name tag this time but I didn't care. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath before I straightened up and opened my eyes. As I came down, I saw that five men was waiting for me, maybe Bellatrix wasn't here. I recognized one of them, Lucius Malfoy. He walked up to me looking down as I was about a head shorter.

"Miss Granger" he said, memories from are first meeting hit me, his comment on my parents about them being muggle borne. I nodded and looked up at him, trying not to show any fear as the death eaters was grinning at me.

"I would never in my wildest dreams think that one of Potters friends would walk up to us" just as he said this, I could see Mr. Weasley walking to the exit behind them. He stopped and stared as I walked closer to Mr. Malfoy and said.

"I want to see Bellatrix, I will speak to her and no one ells" hoping that he would not try to torture me or something. Lucius seem to think over my words before he spoke again, his voice was hard and seem to be a try to frighten me.

"You will speak to me" I shook my head and crossed my arms over my chest.

"I will speak to Bellatrix or no one" I said not moving, I was more afraid of him then for Bellatrix. She had never talked to me like this, maybe she was not the one I thought she had been.

"Fine, I will bring you to her" his response shocked me, I looked at him feeling my jaw dropping. I closed it fast hoping no one had seen it, I followed him as I saw Mr. Weasley again. Are eyes met and I hoped for a moment that he would do something stupid, like running up and grabbing me and getting me out of there. Stopping me from doing something that I would probably always regret, but he didn´t he just moved out trough the exit. I shook my head and followed in to the office, he pointed at the chair next to the desk. I sat down; he sat down on the other side of the desk.

"So, why do you want to see Bellatrix?" He asked, the question took me by surprise everything seen to be doing that.

"I…I need to speak to her" I mumbled, I have never been a good liar. Lucius smiled he could see though my lie.

"Really, what is it you can only speak with Bellatrix about?" I bit my lip, and looked around the room.

"I have information" I said "About Voldermort" as I said the name a slap given by Lucius hit my face, I put my hand over the place where it had hit.

"Don´t say that name!" He shouted, I ignored his words and continued.

"I have some vital information, to give to Bellatrix" I added a tone to her name to make sure that he would understand that I would not talk to him. He nodded and walked over to the open fireplace, the flames turned green as he used his hand to do a yester with his hand that was the same as I used when I let someone through a door. I walked over and stared in to the green flames which gave away no heat as I touched it.

"Were shell I go?" I asked, he gave away a small laugh.

"My house, Malfoy Manor to be exact" he said, I nodded and then I turned to look at him.

"Will Bellatrix be there?" I asked, he nodded and I walked in and said loud and clear.

"Malfoy Manor"

I know it is short…forgive me? :O