A/n: Ok, so its been several months since I last updated this... I feel bad. As many of you noticed, I recently posted two fics called Deordorant and Condoms, they were just random things... I wanted to get the weirdness out of my head in order to focus on my two most important fics, this one and Tamed Animal!
Disclaimer: I've said this over and over... I don't own anything... other than the plot!
Sesshoumaru's P.O.V
I don't know what made me do it. Her lips just looked so soft, plump. This woman is more bothersome than I first thought. Surely this kiss is just due to the fact that her human hormones are emitting from her like a strong current. This was no attraction. How disgusting.
I pulled away from her plump lips and pushed her away from me, gently, so as not to harm the pup. I was more than ready to get out of the cursed room, which held the hormonal pregnant wench.
I stalked outside pass the courtyard and out through the stone gates. I don't know how long I had been walking. When I finally stopped I was just outside InuYasha's village, now named Edo. I could smell the mongrel, and his dirty whore, Kikyou.
Stopping at the creek, which happened to be near the old healers hut, I glanced at myself in the waters reflection as I took a deep breath of clean air. I was disgusted at myself. How could I let a stupid, simple, hormonal pregnant woman even near my lips. I growled in disgust and turned away.
Striding into the village, I instantly saw the bane of my existence, with his clay pot attached to his side like they were siamese twins.
"Half-breed. I see you haven't changed one bit," I practically spat the sentence out.
As I expected, I heard the mutt growl.
"Shut up, ya damn bastard!" the sound of InuYasha's voice was just as bad as his smell.
"Hn. I believe I knew my father, mutt."
"What did ya come here for? A fight, bring it on!" he pulled out the fang he so loved to abuse.
"You are a disgrace to half-breed race. Even a mutt wouldn't leave the one he claimed to love," the word came out with venom laced among it.
"You bastard! I love Kikyou!"
"If I recall, we already established that you were the bastard, half-breed."
"Piss off! What would ya know of love, asshole?"
"Hn. How is your, darling ex shard detector?"
I saw his eyes harden, and his sad attempt at a glare made me smirk.
"Bastard," I heard him grind his teeth, and felt my ears begin to ache, "Leave her out of this!"
"Killed her?"
"Sesshoumaru! What are you doing here?!" I heard a femimne voice call my name.
I looked over and saw that it was the demon slayer, a child attached to her hip.
"Demon Slayer, what is it to you?" I spoke pointedly at the woman.
"Stop harassing InuYasha. What is it that you want?" the woman spoke to me clearly, a few feet away from the half-breed.
"Harassing? Hn."
I briefly heard the monk, who I didn't see before, whisper to the Demon Slayer.
"Kagome isn't here," she seemed to say it with some remorse.
"Hn."
"She left. She never came back. InuYasha said she wanted to stay back at her home. She didn't... even say...goodbye." I heard her hiccup and sob a little as she turned into the monks robes.
"Hn," with that I just turned on my heel and left them standing there.
Kagome's P.O.V
I don't know what over took me! Yes I do. I'm hormonal, and pregnant!
I slid down the wall again after he left. I can't believe I actually kissed him. Wait, he started it.
Standing up, I walked out of his study and down the hall, no clue where I was actually going, but that didn't matter to me, I just wanted to get out of the room. Finally I reached a door that seemed to have light trying to penetrate through it. I slid it open and I was amazed at the brillant colors of flowers.
I swear I have never seen such gorgeous flowers like this before. Seeing a bench I wobbled toward it, with all this baby weight, it was hard to walk normally. Finally sitting down upon it, I looked out around me, and then it hit me. Rin wasn't here. Mentally I calculated at how old she would be by now. Eighteen years old, if I was going according to the furture ages.
That would mean she was a grown woman, she should probably have children already. I could just see it now, Sesshoumaru having little Rin's running around screaming and yelling, calling him grandpa.
Whoa! That was a scary thought.
Sighing heavily, I resigned myself to having to be watched over like beast watched over his rose. I glanced at the side of the wall that my gaze met after looking at the different kinds of flowers and shrubs.
Suddenly I was jerked out of my thoughts when I voice enter them, smoothly.
"Thinking of suicide again, Miss?" I looked over and saw a different demon than before, he was handsome.
"No, uhh, just staring off into space, thats all," I didn't even think about my answer to his question.
"Space?" came his confused reply.
"Oh, umm, sorry, I meant that I was just, uuhh daydreaming..."
"Oh, very well. Do you mind if I sit next to you, perhaps, Miss?"
"Uhh, go ahead, I guess." I watched him move. His hair was a tousled light brown, his eyes shown with a eargerness only young demons held, they were a deep sea green.
"You're quiet beautiful, Miss."
That startled me, I was so use to insults, I was almost speechless.
"Uhh, thank you. I'm not really beautiful. Especially while, pregnant."
"I beg to differ, Miss. You are very gorgeous. Would it be alright if I uhh... Nevermind."
"No, no, what is it?" I was eager to hear what he had to say.
"If I uhh, kissed you..." he seemed so unsure of himself now.
I was just about to answer when it hit me like a ton of feathers on what he said. He wanted to know if he could kiss me? This was truly astonishing. Never had anyone asked me if they could kiss me.
"Ok, thats good with me," I was eager again, and I knew it. He was pretty damn hot looking!
"Really?" I just nodded my head at his question.
Then I felt his lips upon mine, they were so gently, and not demanding, like Sesshoumaru's lip lock was. I could taste the slight taste of what seemed to be salad, Sesshoumaru tasted like chocolate, with an unlying taste of mint. This demons lips were slightly rough, yet not that full, he seemed too timid. Whereas Sesshoumarus' lips were smooth, full and would make a cute pout. He wasn't timid, he was a man, err demon, who knew what he wanted and how he wanted it. This one however, he didn't seem to know what he wanted, or how he wanted it.
Then it struck me. I was pretty damn sure I had an attraction towards Sesshoumaru. No, wait, strike that. I had an attraction to his lips.
I was just about to pull away, when I saw Sesshoumaru standing at least a handful of feet away, looking at me kissing this demon, who I knew not his name. I felt guilty, shattered, and relieved.
Guilty, I don't know where that came from. It just rose into my throat, making it go dry, begging me to quench the thirst, the rid myself of the guilt.
Shattered, because I was a mess. Here I was pregnant, kissing a demon I didn't even know. I tried to kill myself numerous times, only because I thought I was being selfless, because I didn't want my baby to live in a world full of hate towards him, or her. I was being selfish, because I didn't want to live in a world full of hate towards me, towards the fact that I had a partial hanyou baby, with a lying father. Shattered, because I knew I should be a grown up, and care for myself and this baby.
Relieved because I knew I still had a month to change my life around before this beautiful baby was born. Because I knew I could be a grown up and care for myself and this baby. I would bring this baby into a loving world, even if others hated this baby. I would love it, and thats what mattered the most. I would give this baby what it needed most, a mother who cared and wanted it with every fiber of her body. A mother who would be a mother, not a hormonal woman who went around kissing demons she didn't even know.
With that resolve I pushed the demon away, stood up, and started walking towards Sesshoumaru. He looked at me. I gasped. Then he was gone. I stood there for a minute thinking. I was pretty damn sure that I saw what looked like rejection, hate, remorse, and sadness in Sesshoumarus' eyes. It didn't make sense.
I wanted to tell Sesshoumaru that I was sorry. For what I wasn't quiet sure. However, deep down I knew that when he saw me kissing that demon, it broke something in him. Something I wasn't sure would ever mend. The guilt was back.