A/N: I love how this was supposed to be a one-shot but now it's turned into a multi chaptered fic. And I've started working on chapter five already. :)
"Ready to go home?" Alex's step paused as she approached my desk. "Or you can go to your home. You've not been there in about two weeks." I leaned back in my chair wondering if the strong willed attorney was going to correct herself again. Alex glared at my grin. "Shut up."
"I just need to pick up a few things. You can come with me." There was a pause in the room when Alex and I started talking. I knew everyone was listening to our conversation. But it was nice being able to be open about our relationship.
"Sure." I stood and locked up my desk.
"Must be nice getting off at a decent hour." Both Alex and I glared at Munch. We knew he was joking but couldn't help it.
"It's just until Captain let's me come back fulltime." Slipping into my coat, I started for the door. "Don't worry. Once I'm cleared, you'll see me as much as you'd like."
"I wouldn't say that. Alex may get jealous. Women always give into my charm eventually."
"Yes Munch. The day Olivia gives into that charm of yours will be the day I marry Cragen."
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"It's not much but…this is my humble abode." I unlocked the door and let Alex enter. It was strange being back here. My apartment looked generic compared to Alex's. Hers looked like a home and mine looked like a hotel room.
"It's not bad. You don't spend time here anyway because you work all the time. It serves its purpose." Alex took a seat on the couch.
"Would you like something to drink?" I dropped the large stack of mail on the counter as I brought down two glasses. "I'm sure not everything went bad while I was gone." I poured orange juice into the two cups and took them to the living room. "But you really don't mind me staying another night or two?"
"No, I don't mind. But you will have to come back here to clean out the fridge eventually." Alex shot me a smile before taking a sip from her glass.
"The joy of cleaning." I gathered a few things and we left. Alex and I ordered take out before leaving so we could pick it up on our way home. That thought unsettled me slightly. I considered Alex's place home instead of my own apartment. I had never felt that way before.
"You okay Liv?" I snapped out of my inner turmoil when I felt a soft hand on my arm. "You went somewhere. Everything alright?"
"Yeah…I'm fine. Ready to go home?" And there I go calling her place home. I wonder if Alex will read into it like I am.
Alex watched me skeptically before answering. "Yeah, let's go." Grabbing my bag and mail, we were out the door.
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"Sometimes all you need is good take out. Sadly it's so unhealthy." I chuckled as Alex propped her feet on the coffee table and leaned back.
"True, true." Once I cleaned up, I leaned back on the couch. Alex wrapped an arm around my shoulders and pulled me into her. As I sat, I listened to Alex's heartbeat. I enjoyed times like this; listening to her calm breathing and just being together. "Alex…" My voice trailed off. I wanted to tell her about the inner battle I had but at the same time I didn't want to.
"Yes, Olivia?" I could feel her eyes on me. "Something's been bothering you since we were at your apartment. What is it?"
I stayed quiet a few minutes before I just went for it. "It dawned on me that I consider this my home. I really enjoy staying here, with you." Alex was quiet. When she never replied, I became extremely nervous. "Alex…I'm sorry. I…" Pulling away I stood quickly. "I think I should go."
"Olivia." Alex's tone was even but it didn't stop me from freaking out.
"Obviously I crossed a line…"
"Olivia." Alex raised her voice and stopped my babbling. I looked cautiously towards the blonde. "Calm down. I enjoy you being here. That's why I hesitated earlier at the station. It just became a habit to consider this your home."
"Really?" When she nodded, relief washed over me.
Alex walked over and wrapped me in her arms. "Stay as long as you'd like. But eventually we'll have to do something about your apartment."
"Yeah. But not now." I sighed into silky blonde hair. I really have fallen for this woman.
Alex pulled away and took my hand in hers. "Let's go to bed." My heart pounded as Alex led us to her bedroom. Electricity rushed through me when she kissed me deeply. Our tongues danced and battled for dominance.
Once the kiss broke, both of us were panting for air. "Are you sure?"
"I am." Alex kissed me again. I was having issues with the buttons on her shirt. My hands were shaking. Alex placed gentle hands on top of mine and I met her gaze. "Don't be scared. Just do what feels right. I know this is new for you but I'll be with you every step of the way." There was something in her blue eyes that made me feel safe. All the worry I had washed away when I looked into Alex's eyes.
"Okay." I laced my fingers in long blonde hair and kissed Alex softly. I was still nervous but not scared. Alex smiled into the kiss when my hands started to explore her curves. I wanted to feel her skin against mine. I finished unbuttoning Alex's shirt and slid my hands inside. Her skin was so soft. Alex stood there as my hands roamed her. She knew I was skittish. A sigh escaped her lips when I cupped each of her breasts. As I massaged them, her eyes fluttered shut.
"Let's move to the bed." Alex guided me to the bed and stepped out of her slacks.
"You're beautiful Alex." The air hitched in my throat when I took the blonde in. She stood there in a matching black lace bra and panties set.
"Thank you Olivia." Alex pulled my shirt over my head and threw it onto the nearby hamper. Our eyes stayed locked as she unbuttoned my jeans and pushed them to the floor. I felt vulnerable standing like this. Alex pulled me against her and kissed me gently. My head tilted to the side as she kissed along my jaw and down my neck. A fire was starting inside me as she kissed along my collar bone to my bare shoulder. "We don't have to undress anymore unless you want to. If you don't mind, I'd like to take this slow."
"Yeah, let's take it slow." I captured Alex's lips again and she pulled me with her onto the bed. That night we explored each others' body. Being with Alex just felt right in every way. Maybe she was right. Maybe all of my other relationships never went anywhere because they weren't what I really wanted.