Happy new year everyone!
I hope you all had fantastic holidays -I certainly did- and that you weren't angry with me for waiting so long to update. I'm sorry. Here I am, though, giving you a brand new one.. =] Now aren't you all happy you had to wait for it..? No? Oops.
Anyways, have fun reading it!
Which one was the right key? I couldn't see it. It didn't help that I drunk a lot, either.
After I came back upstairs from the conversation with Tanya and Edward, I just felt terrible. Alice had already left, which I thought was too bad. I really liked Alice, she was nice, funny and easy to talk with. I hoped I could see her again.
Only Jessica and Kate sat there, they told me Angela had already left too. At first I was planning on leaving myself, since there wasn't really anyone I could talk with anymore. But then Jessica suggested I should drink one drink with them. Since I felt really terrible, I told her I would. I could use the alcohol.
To make a long story short; I drank too much.
And now, apparently, I couldn't find the right key to my apartment, so I couldn't get in.
"Bella?" Tanya said behind me. I wasn't really drunk, so I could think a little. For instance, I could remember that Tanya wanted to steal Edward away from me. And second, I could think about the fact that Edward could be with Tanya right now. I sure hoped not. I didn't want to turn around, afraid of what I would see. I had to, anyway, so I took a deep breath and faced Tanya.
She was along.
I let out a sigh of relief. Tanya had probably already noticed I wasn't quite the normal Bella, since she would never, ever, be outside the apartment trying to find the right key for the door.
"Hey Tanya. You're alone?" I asked her to be sure. For all I knew he could've been downstairs, parking the car or paying the cab. Whatever.
Tanya nodded though, and I smiled. "Yeah, Edward isn't the one-night-stand kind of person." I could definitely understand that. I had only talked to him for a while, but he seemed like a decent guy.
Oh what was I saying, he seemed like the perfect guy. "I kind of figured that."
Tanya started smiling, though. And it wasn't the friendly best-friend smile. It was the 'I did something wrong'- smile. "I totally kissed him, though." She said.
Ow. That hurt.
"Wh-what?" I asked. She must be kidding. He couldn't have kissed her. He couldn't! And she couldn't do that to me! She must have seen the way I looked at him. She must have felt the love radiating from me.
I know that I sounded like this very cheesy book or movie right now, but still. I felt as if someone hit me with a baseball bat, right in the stomach.
"I kissed him!" She shrieked. "He was totally distant in the beginning, even when I asked him if he wanted to dance with me. He kept looking upstairs, I don't know why. But after a while, though, he softened up. I think it was about after you left, I think I saw you walking away. Anyway, something happened to him. I guess he thought no one would watch him anymore, since everyone left." She took a deep breath. "So after about ten minutes of dancing, I totally put my flirt-smile on." She grinned. "He took the hint.."
My mouth fell open as I listened to her story. How could Tanya ever think that I'd want to hear this story?! Because I did not want to listen to her, telling about how great Edward is. I know he's fantastic, and great, and funny, and perfect. I don't need her telling me that.
I thought about telling her that, but that would be too cruel. She's my friend, of course she'd want to tell me about how things went with a boy. If it were me kissing Edward, I'd want to tell her all about it, too. "That's great, Tanya."
She nodded enthusiastically. "It totally is." I tried smiling, but I guess I drank too much to be able to fake a smile. "And you know what the best part is?" She waited for me to say something, but I didn't. So she went on. "He promised to stop by at the restaurant! He said that maybe he would eat there, and that maybe he'd take Alice." She stopped there, waiting for me to comment. I didn't. "His sister." I still didn't say anything. Tanya sighed at my lack of enthusiasm. But this was all she was going to get. I was tired, I had too much to drink, and I did not like the fact that she was planning on dating Edward.
I wanted to be really childish and tell her that I saw him first! But I guess you couldn't say that to your best friend. I wouldn't know, I was never in this situation. I used to being fine with Tanya getting all the boys.
Well okay, not all the boys. Sure, I've dated a few. Not a lot, though. I mostly focused on my job now.
"Tanya?" I was getting pretty cold.
"Yes..?" She asked, excited. She thought I was finally going to react to her story. Not a chance, you Edward-stealer!
"Can you open the door please? I think I'm unable to open it."
Tanya rolled her eyes and sighed. "Fine." She growled. I tried to hide my laughter. I never saw her angry at me, I think this was a first. Hey, if she wanted me to stay nice after she ran away with Edward, she must be mentally ill.
Tanya grabbed her key and opened the door. She went in first. Ha! Finally! For the first time in my life I got Tanya angry. It felt kinda good. Maybe I should do this more often!
Or maybe it was just because I had a lot to drink.
"I'm going to bed." Tanya grunted. I had to laugh, but I managed to hide it until she slammed the door of her room. Oh yes, this felt fantastic.
I walked to my room with a smile. I got ready for bed with a smile. But when I lay in bed, reality hit me; Edward didn't want me. Edward wanted Tanya. I could never be with him.
And that's when I started crying.
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I woke up after a very sleep. I woke up three times in the middle of the night. And every time I could feel tears in my eyes. It was stupid, I was stupid. I didn't know Edward. I've only talked to him for about five minutes. I've only seen him for about ten. I shouldn't be crying over a guy I hardly knew.
"Bella! Wake-up sleepyhead!" I heard Tanya's voice; she wasn't angry with me anymore. It had been late yesterday, and I had too much to drink. I felt pretty bad about how I acted. It wasn't Tanya's fault.
Well, not entirely.
I tried to get up. But my head hurt pretty bad. "Ow." I mumbled to myself.
"Bella, what are you doing?! We have to go, now!" Tanya rushed into my room, surprised to find me still lying in bed. "Bella?" She asked, her voice more gentle now, more kind. "Are you okay?"
My hand instinctively moved to my head, pressing it against my forehead. "Wow, I feel miserable." I wiped the hair out of my face. "What time is it?"
"Late. It's really late. Come on, Tom's gonna kill us if we weren't there on time. Now get dressed, get ready!"
I was a bit confused. "I thought we didn't have to work?" If I had to work today, I wouldn't have gone to that club. I wouldn't have drunk that many alcohol.
"Tom called last night." She said, unsure. "Didn't I tell you."
"No." My voice was angry now.
"Oops. Sorry." She said in an apologetic voice. "Really, I am. But now we have to hurry!"
I jumped out of bed, quickly throwing on my work outfit. Yes, we had a very special outfit. I hated the skirt, the apron, the stupid v-neck shirt. Tom wanted us to look old fashioned, but still classy, and girly. So I put on the stupid outfit and the stupid high heel shoes. I did it because I actually loved doing the work.
We rushed to our work, where we only got a small lecture from Tom about the importance of showing up on time. So it was okay. I did the daily routine, being friendly to customers and making small talk with them. I enjoyed it a lot.
Until lunch time.
"Edward!" Tanya shrieked. "You came." She quickly walked to him and gave him a hug with one arm, since the other held a coffee pot.
"I did." Edward grinned, though if you'd ask me, he didn't look like he was at comfort. But maybe that wasn't really true. Maybe I just wished it were true, but I was seeing things that weren't there.
"Hey Bella!" I gasped. She really scared me.
"Alice. Wow, hey." This time, I didn't have to fake the smile. "How are you?"
"I'm fine." She said in a singing voice. "I'm just here to check out the restaurant. And to see you again. And of course, the girl Edward hooked up with last night. I hadn't seen her last night. I'm really sorry to disapprove my brother's taste, but the girl looks awful. Too perfect, if you ask me." Alice sighed. "You know her, right? Since you two work together?"
I nodded. Normally I'd hate girls being bitchy about Tanya. This time, I didn't care. Alice wasn't jealous like those other girls. She was just looking out for her brother. "Yeah." I said to her. "That's Tanya." Alice looked at me, waiting for more information. "My best friend."
Ooohooh, what's going to happen now? You'll find out soon!
Tell me what you think! I'm only just starting this story, so I'd like to hear about your reactions...
Oh, and for people who have been criticising my grammar; I'm sorry. But I'm not from America, or England or whatever, and English isn't my first language. Also, my spelling checker on the computer doesn't really work with English, and sometimes makes weird words. Sorry.
I hope it won't bother you too much, though.
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