Chapter 4
A/N this chapter kinda ran away from me so uh there is smut in this chapter written entirely by me something I've never ever done before all the other smut in my stories are written by my bestie KimmyKoalaBear!
Dean liked to think he was a guy with a pretty normal guy for being a Hunter, he didn't have any weird fetishes, he liked to eat, and sleep, but when Dean woke up he was suddenly assaulted by images of what, Dean assumed, was a really bad dream, except he just opened his eyes no screaming. Then he looked around and froze, where was he?
The room was trashed and he knew it was nowhere in the Bunker, the wallpaper was peeling and it smelled like mold with a slight smell that was vaguely familiar, he rose his back from the bed so he was sitting and rubbed his hand over his face with a sigh.
"Good you're awake". A voice said from the doorway Dean whipped around fast and finally he thought he would get some answers, Castiel stood there in jeans and a t-shirt. Dean got a flash back from the future drug using Castiel he met in 2014 and shuddered, Castiel must've thought he was upset about him because he held his hands up in a white flag. "Dean what's the last thing you remember?" Castiel asked him.
The last thing Dean remembered? Metatron stabbing him and Sam helping him or trying to save him, he remembered pain everywhere. "Metatrton killing me". Dean finally told Castiel who nodded and thought, did Castiel really want to tell Dean everything he did? Would Castiel actually be able to stand to say it aloud? No it would be easier to ease him into it and show him what happened.
"Dean that was four months ago". Castiel told him, Dean dropped his hand from his neck and looked at Castiel with wide eyes.
"What happened?" Dean asked the angel, Castiel sighed not sure if he should tell him.
"I can't say it out loud but I can show you". Castiel said holding out his hand, Dean looked at it with curious eyes and finally after an internal struggle took it.
Dean was transported to Sam he smiled at his brother but Sam stayed with a frown on his face, looking at a computer, Dean or what Castiel actually looked over his shoulder and what they all saw will haunt Dean forever, Dean saw himself beating a man, slamming him into shelves and when he was done he looked up at the camera and with a flash of an evil smile, his eyes turned pitch black.
The next was at a bar Crowley and Dean sat talking about Dean working with him and finally Dean getting up and singing, and then slaughtering the entire bar.
The memories rushed by Dean all with the same elememts Dean was a demon, the last memory Dean saw before he was snapped back into reality was him chasing Sam through out the Bunker with a hatchet and Sam collapsing in front of him in a heap of blood.
Dean sucked in a breath as soon as he was back in the present. This had to be a joke right? Some sick joke that Castiel was playing with him, soon he would yell "just kidding!" and they would laugh and Sam would come in and everything would be fine, Dean waited and Castiel stood still.
"What happened to Sam?" Dean demanded in anger, Castiel sighed.
"We need to hit the road I have to pick up Bela at Missouri's still". Castiel said not answering Dean's question at all just grabbing him by his arm forcefully and dragging him out the door.
Bela sat awkwardly in the back seat of Castiel's car, not only was Dean human to her happiness but he was glaring at her meat suit, Bela knew it wasn't just her, he had to remember something about being a demon and Bela suspected he was angry at himself and in true Winchester fashion was transferring it to other people.
"Are you going to just keep avoiding the question? What happened to Sam?" Dean asked Castiel, his voice cracked and he cleared his throat.
Castiel sighed he didn't want t tell Dean the awful things his brother did, but Dean kept pushing. "He's in Heaven facing an inquiry he did….something rather horrendous and the powers that be are dealing with it, he's not dead but he might very well be, that's why I had to get Bela, she's staying with you to ensure her safety and I have to plead your brothers case". And hope for the best Castiel added quietly.
"What did Sammy do?" Dean asked the angel a tiny voice in his mind kept telling him to turn back now he didn't want the answer, but an even bigger part of him needed it.
"That's up to Sam to tell you it's not my place". Castiel told Dean turning into the Bunker, Dean sighed and got out of the car remembering that Castiel had stolen Grace before he stuck his head into the door.
"What about your Grace Cas?" Dean asked him, Castiel shook his head.
"Don't worry about my Grace Dean I got it back from Metatron". Castiel said lightly.
"Are you not going to tell Dean how you cured him?" Bela called after Castiel as he left, Dean's eyes grew wide and he looked over at Castiel.
"How?" He asked in wonder, he had never heard of curing a demon before except for the trials but then Castiel would be dead and Bela wouldn't be here.
Castiel sighed and glared at Bela who just smiled brightly at him. "Yes Dean angels can heal demons but," before he lost his nerve Castiel clenched his fists and came out with it "The demon and the angel have to be in love with each other in order for it to work". Castiel said in a rush, and then with a snap of fingers and a flap of wings left Dean with his mouth hanging open.
Dean hated it when choice was taken away from him; a prime example is when Zachariah kept trying to force Dean into saying yes. Was the choice really taken away though? Dean thought about this for hours, worrying about it like a girl worries about her clothes. The words that Castiel said kept playing in loop over and over in his head. Of course he loved Castiel, and a small part of him thought maybe Castiel loved Dean rebelling against Heaven was kind of a red flag for Dean.
The question was, was Dean or Castiel going to act on their emotions? Would that make Dean gay? Wasn't that a no-no for God? Dean didn't want the angel to get in anymore trouble then he already was. Then again if God really cared then he would've gotten his butt in gear a long time ago.
"Dean are you really being a girl over there and worrying just kiss him, he's not a really a guy so treat him right, do what you need to do when Sam gets back and he isn't going to freak out Castiel told him already," Bela said from the table she was sitting on top of it her legs crossed the one on top bobbing up and down. She had high heels on and was looking at Dean with an eyebrow raised.
"I mean come on Dean it's pretty obvious from what I've read, the running through Purgatory saying you aren't leaving without him, breaking through mind control with 'Cas I need you' if you brother didn't figure it out by now then he really is a moose". Bela jumped down from the table and walked closer to Dean, her face inches from his. "Granted I really don't want you and Castiel to be together but I guess I can manage". Bela spoke lowly and Dean made a split decision, granted it was a stupid decision and he was taking her up on her offer from all those years ago, it felt like a lifetime.
Dean captured her lips with his and kissed angrily shoving her into a wall, Bela hesitated for a split second and then kissed back with the same force of Dean. Dean's brain was telling him that this was wrong and everywhere was telling him to stop but it was like something completely foreign was controlling him. Dean didn't care his mind was off, all he could feel were lips and Bela's body all over his.
That's when everything got too and Dean pushed Bela off, he couldn't do it. He wanted a distraction but she wasn't the right one it wasn't even her body, the woman she was possessing was probably still in there and Dean wasn't going to do that, he was raised better.
"Why did you push me away this time?" Bela asked him in anger Dean chuckled.
"If you have to ask then Hell fried your brain". Dean told her and opened the fridge. "Where's all the beer?" Dean asked to really no one in particular.
"First of all, I have two theories, one is that your so in love with Castiel that you can't bear kissing anyone else but him, or two you don't like it because you think someone is awake in here but guess what Dean," Bela stood right behind Dean her hands cupping his ass. "This girl was a coma patient I found her in the morgue".
That's all it took for Dean he spun her around, wanting prove that he didn't love Castiel and the angels had it wrong or maybe even the demon side of him was in love with Castiel not the human side.
He kissed her hard and she kissed him back just as hard, pulling his hair and dragging him to the table and pushing him ontop of it, Dean flipped them over and straddled her hips she chuckled against his lips and Dean growled.
"I'm never the bottom Dean Winchester". Bela said flipping them hard and pinning Dean's hands on the table with her demon juice, Dean grunted and brought her lips back to his.
"Too much talking". Dean grabbed her shirt at the edges and ripped it off sending shreds of fabric around the room "Oops". He said with an evil smile.
Dean bit on Bela throat causing bruises to form, she moaned and took Dean's shirt off throwing it behind her, Dean unclasped her bra with one hand and threw it over her shoulder. He took when nipple in his mouth and sucked causing Bela to moan again, loud. He bit her again and moved to the other breast.
Dean hated rough sex usually but this wasn't just sex, this was angry sex and he wasn't in the mood for casual slow caresses. He kissed down her stomach and unbuttoned her jeans pulling them down hard. She wasn't wearing any underwear why wasn't Dean surprised by this? She sank down to her knees and unzipped down Dean's pants before pulling them off him. His boxers were concealing his erection, which was getting too much to handle.
She pulled out his dick and stroked it twice before putting the entire thing in her mouth Dean's head flew back and his eyes closed, its been way to long since he's had a blowjob, he thought he moaned as he could feel his release nearing, but Bela wasn't having that she released him with a pop and Dean groaned at the sudden loss.
Bela chuckled at him and pushed him back against the table with a force to rival a grown man she straddled his waist and pinned his hands, she rocked against him causing delicious friction right where it was needed. In all honesty Dean Winchester loved being the bottom, he didn't want to let anyone know that, he to keep his manly profile, but just the feel of something on top of you Dean loved. Dean's breath started growing faster at each of Bela's thrusts into him and soon he was coming with a yell and became jelly underneath Bela.
Not far behind Dean, Bela came with a shout of Dean's name and fell down beside him laying on the table. "That was a lot better than I expected it to be". Bela said with a smile.
"Yeah, well, your just a distraction don't expect it know go to the basement and stay there until Cas gets back, take your clothes with you". Dean snapped at her, her expression grew soft for a moment before darkening.
"Fine, use and abuse me Dean whatever". She jumped off the table with a small grunt and gathered her clothes quickly and walked away from him.
`Dean felt horrible, in his confusion and anger he did what he did best and fucked anything with two legs, when he really wanted Castiel he didn't want to have sex with a freaking demon! Dean sighed, he royally screwed up this time, not just with him being a demon and that stupid Mark but also with screwing Bela Talbot.
Dean got up from the table and pulled his boxers and pants on not caring about the shirt, what was he going to tell Castiel? "Hey buddy so you remember that time when you basically told me you love me and then you told me to watch the demon from my past and left yeah I screwed her because I wanted to prove I wasn't gay but hey no problem right? Yeah ok now come here I want kiss your face". Dean was sure that would fly well.
"Dean we've returned". A voice said behind him he turned Sam still wasn't with him but with a careful listen he could hear him in his room snoring.
Confused he raised an eyebrow at the angel who looked down at his chest and smirked, Castiel Angel of the Lord, the epitome of stick up your ass was smirking at Dean Winchester with a look that said take your pants off.
Dean cleared his throat and Castiel looked up shyly at him and smiled again, "Your brother is safe for the time being, he's sleeping off the demon blood know where's Bela?" Castiel looked around for the demon but found nothing, then he realized with a jolt that Dean's fly was undone and he wasn't wearing a shirt, his shirt was laying next to ribbons of a femine shirt and he still had sweat on his chest and in his hair.
"Look Cas, I was confused and you know me I don't deal with confusion very well so she was here and it meant nothing I regretted it as soon as she left for the basement". Dean told him, Castiel's once playful look at him turned into his Angel of the Lord look and he turned away from him.
" We will discuss this later, I would tell you off but I don't think I'm capable of staying gone, I love you too much, and its not like we're together or that we ever will be". Castiel told Dean who looked at him with a questioning brow, Castiel shrugged.
"I've lived with humanity for years and I realized that couples or whatever we are freak out too much over things they can't control, if it helped you gain clarity then I'm glad you felt remorse after you did it".
All Dean could was smile at Castiel as he left to check on his brother with his own eyes. Dean was smiling a lot but there was still a whole , it felt red hot and burning and when he looked at his brother the burning flared searing him in every way. Dean didn't know that meant maybe it was guilt? He pushed it aside like the rest of his emotions and focused on things in his immediate control. Sammy, and what he was going to say to him, along with Castiel, and what Dean felt for him, did he want a relationship? Hell yes! Did he think Castiel did as well? Hell yes! Was it good for both of them? That was the question and Dean would find the answer.
A/N Alright so wasn't expecting the chapter to go where it did but my editor KimmyKolaBear (Check her out!) introduced me to a couple songs by Papa Roach and I wrote this smut completely by myself! If you want to listen to the songs they are Hollywood Whore- Papa Roach, and I almost told you that I loved you- Papa Roach there really good but really inapproite lol viewer discretion is advised. REVIEW!