We drove and saw mayans I glared and put my visor down and looked at jax who looked nervous I pulled up front of them both and belle went in back. I shot at them and got one in the arm and they went off.

We stopped at a gas station and I smoked against the bike helmet off jax stole my cig and I snorted at him and he trapped me against the bike and he kissed me softly and surely. I grinned and went inside and got us a snack and came out I saw the girl with a split lip and a guy on my bike…she took a picture and he was on another…jax more like. I glared and took the girl away and gave her money.

"get away from him you don't need his shit.." I said and she nodded in thanks and Jax took the other picture and took his helmet and smacked him in the head. I smiled at him and kneed him in the face and stomped on his dick he groaned in pain and kneeled beside him. "you don't hit girls…we tend to hurt you worse then you did us…now how about never sitting on another persons bike…again…and get your life back together…" I said and jax wrapped an arm around my waist and kissed my cheek. Bobby and Susie got together and jax smiled at me but looked at her I snorted and took his face in my hands kissed him dizzy mostly following instincts.

"jealous?" He asked I smirked a bit.

"well how would you feel if you knew another guy was looking at me as you were looking at her?" I asked and he cringed a bit.

"not too happy I bet.." I nodded at his statement and kissed him again.

"lets go Susie Q…" I said and she grinned and I laughed a bit belle came out annoyed.

"I miss all the fun…who is the new old lady?" she asked and I grinned a bit as she stepped on the guys hand.

"belle Susie…Susie this is belle martin…I am Amber Dwyer…" I said smirking

"yep our old ladys…Amber mine especially" jax said grinning I socked his shoulder and we took off to his uncles…one look from his uncle and I smiled.

We went in and the Uncle looked at me and smirked a bit. "I hear about you Lily" he said I laughed a bit at him. "best girl with a wrench at Teller-Marrows..and of course miss belle here…chibs old lady…Jax tell me you caught this lynx" His uncle said and jax took my hand and pulled me close.

"Finally..i did atleast stubborn thing she is" he said I laughed a bit.

"of course mister teller here didn't tell you that miss tara was do eyed at him and he couldn't help but glance her way" I said snorting JAx went wide eyed at me and whispered.

"you saw me at the hospital didn't you" he whispered I snorted at him nd kissed him.

"Duh…" I whispered and jerry took care of Susie and taught her around belle and I got jax and his uncle new beers. I set them down and I saw Jax with another girl…I fumed and so did belle I shook my head and walked out she followed angrily and we drove home. It was freaking Susie….UGH! I drove hard and popped a wheely the Sons all looked at us and I drove harder home.

I went into my dorm and saw no messages form jax but tons from chibs…bobby…and gemma…along with clay. I ignored them and saw the boys juice and tig there they saw me angry and smiled at me. I went inside pulled out a jean skirt..then a purple bra, then a mesh top and I smirked doing my makeup and dark red lipstick and shit. I smirked and helped Jerry with the bikes and I stood with her and put my arm around her shoulders and I pulled my gun from my back and put it back and I walked out with these boots are made fomr walking going in my head the mayans saw me and whistled I grinned and belle came out as well her black hair shining in the wind her shorts ratty like my skirt with some boots on as well. She has a black bra , and white mesh top with some heavy makeup as well. We walked over to their bike and I pretended to smooch and saw jerry nod to my wink.

I carefully disengaged a couple brakes as did belle and we winked a bit and walked off. I went inside and glared at jax who looked worried he walked over after the shoot out and I smacked him in the face walking off. He grabbed my arm and whirled me around looking at me closely.

"what happened why did you run off?" he asked I snorted

"tara, wendy, Susie...i mean seriously jax where the fuck do I fit in?"I asked angrily clay didn't look happy at the name of tara, the others were with all of them.

"listen we never did say anything about us hooking up…we never discussed it" he said shrugging I grabbed his shirt front and pulled him down I glared into his eyes.

"listen here jax…if I am in this…I am in this fully and completely you make me your old lady I am not going anywhere you got it?" I asked smirking he looked shocked and sighed a bit. "and if you ever and I mean EVER cheat on me with tara….wendy…Susie…I will chop your nuts off no matter if I want kids" I whispered in his ear he shook a bit in shock and I nipped his neck and walked off yelling behind me "think about it"

I went outside smoking and I felt arms wrap themselves around my waist I jumped and whipped around and saw jax I relaxed and he twirled me into the wall. "im in…for the full thing and you have to be the one to push me away" He said looking down at me I couldn't help but smile and kiss him…I knew it was going to be hell but whatever.

I was in the van a couple days later to pick up this guy named chuck. I sat in the back gun in my back and jax kissing my cheek every once in a while. Jerry is with us…along with belle I grinned at them jerry is with half sack in the van and of course belle on her bike.

I sat in there and shook hands with the guy and nodded that is until he started to jack off…I gaped and so did jerry at his openness…jax didn't look too happy with how he looked at me and jerry my bike is in here so they pulled over and jax kissed my cheek and I got on the bike and jerry behind me. Halfsack nodded and we drove off.

Later we were at the school and I lent jerry a red top and a bit longer skirt and I slipped on my shorts, short sleeve light grey top and my boots. We went to the school function and I was on the bike with Jax. I got off and the blonde girl looked at me and jax enviously.

I smirked and winked and we waited for Opie I gave the kids hugs and kissed donna on the cheek and hugged opie. I saw kyle and jax and I glared at his woman she smirked and kyle didn't look happy walking away. I smirked and kissed jax and went to help gemma and Luanne.

"well then…what happened with you two?" gemma asked and I told her about the trip…and what I said later on. She laughed and hugged me along with Luanne.

"well dear you finally learned how to become a woman" she said I burst into laughter I saw opie and I excused myself and went into the gym. I saw them fighting and I broke it up and got hit in the face I fell down and glared at kyle and kicked him in the ribs. I went into the bathroom and wiped the blood from my eyebrow.

"what happened?" Jax asked I snorted and cringed a bit at the bruise.

"well they got carried away.." I said smiling I kissed jax and walked back to gemma taking care of chili I got another kiss from him. I saw him walk off and I smiled at the people and I couldn't help but grin with a very soft look in my eyes. I went to the stage and stood on it not knowing the boys were coming or not.

"hey lily.." she whispered I kneeled down at her level and she took my hand and whispered I gaped a bit and sighed shaking my head.

"alright I will go…belle will take my spot" I whispered she nodded. I went back home and smiled at jax on the roof and climbed up to it. I stood beside him and put my hand on his shoulder.

"hey.." he said I smiled at him and kissed his cheek

"finish the cig and I will meet you in our room" I said he nodded and I saw an acoustic guitar and stroked it changing into a new pair of black lace panties. I put on jax white muscle shirt and my hair in a messy ponytail. I strummed it and thought things couldn't get worse.

-next couple days-

I was in a pair of red panties lace and my hair sopping wet form the shower in a black muscle shirt I was thrown to the ground and I was pissed off royally. "well jax what the fuck happened?" I asked and he snickered and growled when one federal agent looked at me and I growled angrily jax looked pissed as he picked me up and slammed me into the wall. I kneed him in the groin and he smacked me in the face.

"HEY!" hale said I looked at him and hawked a logy and spit it into his face.

"I will file a report against you cone…" I said angrily. He threw me away and I stumbled into the wall and hale dragged him off and I was fuming jax was let go and he ran to me and I was uncuffed Jax ran off and I went into the dorm and gaped everything…everything trashed…I picked everything up I could and looked outside I gaped and moved away from the window and changed as fast as I could and brushed out my knotted hair.

"LILY!" bobby yelled I cringed and pulled on my low rider jeans and my boots and ran downstairs in my tight black tanktop hair in a ponytail.

"mom…dad….what a surprise.." I whispered they were holding a girl who was freaking out she is four.

"here take her…." She said throwing her at me I picked her up and held her.

"why?.." I asked confused they laughed and shook their heads.

"maids kid…she died so here you go..with your shitty life.." my dad said smirking I glared at him and handed her over to bobby.

"take her upstairs please.." I said sadly he nodded and I looked at my parents angrily.

"what?" my mom asked I grabbed her arm and my dads and dragged them to the Mercedes and I shoved them both and got into their faces.

"listen here okay…I am very happy here I love jax I actually have a nice man in my life…I don't know what happened to that girls mom but come here again and I promise I will make you so scared you wont be able to sleep or leave the house for a long time!" I hissed I glared at them and they rushed into their limo and left.

I went to clays and saw the mess and the pictures…I snarled and ripped them off the wall and went home and when came limping in I threw them at him and I growled and shoved him and hit him and I couldn't see straight. He held me close as he looked at the photos and I punched him hard a few times but he only held me stumbling around a bit.

I pulled back and looked him in the eyes I couldn't lose him I loved him…and abel…I pulled him down and kissed him he was quite surprised when I threw off his cut and jacket and kissed him for all I was worth…all I can say is I don't usually kiss and tell but our clothes went everywhere.