damonika2009: Seiya will have his reveal soon enough but for now he's going to be one of the big 'ooohhh!' moments. And yeah that reaction will be a jaw dropper. I'm still debating on how intimate to make that…

kera69love: believe me I can't even wait to write it out yet. Lol I've tried doing that before, writing it out before-hand then getting to it but then I end up re-writing it in a different but better format than before.

mryann: I think I was able to make those emotions work so well due to my own lackluster personal life. Transference can be good at times…at times…glad your addicted though. Lol

SMSM92: he does feel still completely heartbroken. And even after things happen he will still feel that way but only in a different manner. for him on motoki he feels more like he lost a friend and got blinded by all the anger that he isn't able to rationalize it as well as he could. Thanks I wanted to make the emotions high and fragile to a point that way when things come out it'll be a huge tearjerker. I want to make sure that everyone feels connected with all of the characters in some way or another. The reveal will be intense as he'll start to question lots of things in his own mind. he doesn't want the fabric of his reality to unravel and it will when the truth comes out. then he'll be forced to face not just his actions but Rei's and know that he was as responsible in some ways as Rei was and yet not really.

Puffgirl1952 the 2nd: well right now she's out of town so she's still in the clueless department. I was originally thinking that but I felt it would speed things up to much. I wanted to give the family a chance to connect that way Mamo and Usa can begin to have revamped feelings and place doubt in his mind over Rei's lies.

Guest (1): yeah but sometimes that's what we woman fall for…the jerks…trust me… :/

OrientalDanceGirl: suffering has been and will be going around for a bit.

Guest (2): they aren't really in this…

Mysticgrnbutterfly: mamo is still jealous of anyone being with her. its makes him highly irrational…trust me my 'whatever he is now' guy is similar. Only instead of confronting as mamo does he sulks by himself and says 'go fuck him' if he gets jealous. Seiya is into guys…I can't wait to write that reveal! Lol

Latebuttruefan: mamo is feeling things for her he doesn't want to. his feelings that he thought were gone aren't as much as he would have liked them to be. Its confusing him and making him act a bit more irrationally than he normally would. as far as Rei is concerned, she's 'anti-usagi' everything right now. Its whatever she wants and what she wants is Mamo big time.

Xoreese: thanks I'm glad the emotions got conveyed.

Silverfaerie91: she won't be…neither won't be able to remain emotionless.

Witchoftheforest: he'll feel something alright.

Scarlettwoman91: of course! lol

Sweet 14 reviews! That is awesome. Just makes me super excited for the big reveal scenes coming up soon. Please read and review!

BTW, I hadn't meant for the last sex scene to some viewers to come out as negative as it did. That will be addressed in this chapter. I re-read it myself at least three times and that was exactly how dark I wanted their first time back together to be. It was painful emotionally and that's what he was conveying to her. They both love each other immensely but for now that love is buried under the pain that Rei's lies have caused.

Shattered Pieces ch.4

Usagi POV

I woke up the next day exhausted. The sun shine shown through the window and woke me right up. for a moment I was confused as to my surroundings. I wasn't on my couch in the apartment and it frazzled me for a moment until I remembered what happened. I sat up, the sheets falling from my chest to my stomach, pooling there as I saw my phone on the night stand by my right side. How it got there after the torrid night we had I had no clue.

I didn't think so much time had passed by but we did have the passionate yet dark love making yesterday that went in to the late-night hours. At first I thought it had been excessive but I knew it was due to the raw powerful emotions we both had to release in that moment. In the end I knew he left because he felt a bit guilty over it and didn't want to admit to it. I saw it in his eyes a moment before he got up.

He wouldn't want to admit to it as it had been consensual. It had been dark and raw but there was a certain edge to it that I couldn't deny that I enjoyed. The darkness had been from all the pain he felt…the pain he felt. If he only knew it was from Rei's lies. I had to get him to see reason somehow…I just didn't know how yet. I would need to get into that conversation without him interrupting me.

I started to recall the moments we had last night. How he was over me, the look in his eyes. The feel of his girth inside of me and the harsh rhythm. I wanted to hate it…to feel like it was a wound upon me but it wasn't. had he not been in the emotional pain he was in I knew it would have been a more wild and passionate night of love and sex. I signed as I began to get out of the bed. Mamoru was already up as his presence was missing from next to me.

It was eight am and I was now thinking frantically as I had left Chibi Usa with – "I want to see you today at my office." Mamoru said. I looked up at him from the bed sheets. My thoughts still on our daughter so it took me a moment to grasp what he wanted. I almost protested but found that thanks to the contract I had to. Plus as much as I hated to admit it with what he probably wanted I wanted to.

I then felt the stupid urge to pull them back up to cover me. He had seen it all before many times so why was I trying to hide myself from him? I guess part of me was still trying to keep something in control for myself. I saw that he was almost fully dressed. He was buttoning up a cuff link and still had his jacket left to put on. I felt the silk sheets against my bare skin. It didn't bring me as much joy as it should have. I still felt a bit sore from our escapades.

Movement was a bit limited but manageable. I knew I'd have to get used to it again. Years without a sex life had left me feeling very virginal again. Plus, I had to admit, he felt bigger than I remembered…a lot bigger. I swung my legs over the edge of the bed and pulled the sheets away. I hadn't had sex in years and the first time I get it its hot, wild, passionate and angry. I felt his anger and let it fuel my own.

"I don't know where you work at." I told him. He flicked a business card to me, "My office code to get past security is 589." He told me, "Noon today. I have other pressing engagements I need to take care of but I want this again exactly at noon." He put his tie on next before pulling his business jacket over his crisp white shirt and walked out of the room. I felt completely and utterly used.

For a few moments last night, I had been able to pretend that he still loved me, that we were happy. This morning brought on the reality of the situation and the illusion was dissolved. A delusion I needed to rid myself of if I wanted my heart to survive this – whatever this was. I waited until I heard the front door close before sighing. Feeling sticky from the events that transpired I got up and showered.

I needed to wash last night from my body. Give myself a sense of wiping the events away even though it would never be gone…I didn't want them to be gone in all honesty. I still loved the man, still enjoyed the sex with him as I always had. Hell there is no bad sex when it comes to him I just didn't think my heart could handle what he was about to put me through. I looked in the mirror at my body and all the marks on it from the night before. I sighed and tried to think if I still had any concealer.

However, if being here in the arrangement prevented my daughter from being on the streets and letting her father back in as a role model something I had deprived her of due to Rei's interference then it would be worth the heart-breaking pain I knew he wanted me to feel over what he felt. So thank Rei for once again being able to screw with my life. Mamoru I knew would be getting in the car right about now.

That is unless his morning habits changed. I left the mirror and stepped into the tub. Prepping the water as I felt something behind me. I turned around, my hair flying past my shoulders to find Mamoru there. I saw the lusty look in his eyes at seeing my unguarded naked body. I had to bite back the urge to snap at him for startling me. "Thought you might need this." He held up a house key. Of course. I exhaled as he sat it on the bathroom counter. "Don't lose it. I don't want to have to change the locks…again." that hurt.

He looked me over, "What?" I demanded, trying to feel somewhat in control. He stepped forward towards me and reached down, slipping his fingers between my lower lips. I gasped at the feeling as he brought his finger back up, moisture there. He put the digit into his mouth and licked it clean, "Noon my office." It was a command, not a request as he left the bathroom. Gathering myself together I pulled the lever to make it hotter for myself.

I suddenly felt the need to burn my skin off. Not that I found his touch revolting quite the opposite really. I wanted more of it but my heart and body would soon become conflicted. It already wanted to savor the tender moment he gave me, but it would hurt my heart in the end, "Just like last time." I muttered. The spray heated up as I let my head and body sit under it for several minutes.

"Kami this is so convoluting." I muttered. The shower began to spray and for the first fifteen minutes I stood beneath the spray, letting it wash away the dirt on me from last night before scrubbing my skin with the soap in there. I was mildly surprised NOT to see any of Rei's personal effects in here. I'd have thought she would leave things over to instill her own sense of possessive nature over him but I guess either she hadn't or he hadn't let her.

I didn't dwell on it for long. didn't have the time nor the energy to do so. I had things to do in a short amount of time. First things first. I got out and got dressed. Googling the nearest donation place to my apartment I called the number, "Hello I'm looking to donate some furniture I'd like to set up an appointment today at 10am over at Jingu Marutamachi complexes in Kyoto." What was nice about it was that it was located by Chibi Usa's school and even a hospital.

I had gotten paranoid that if I made a mistake as a mother in my first few years with her that access to a hospital was needed. Safe to say when Chibi Usa had a tooth ache, or had a mild fever the doctors knew me by name. I felt so foolish at the time for such simple reasons to go but I was a new mother and after the first three visits the nurse there was kind enough to give me her cell number for me to call or text for points of reference in the future.

It really helped me a lot in knowing how to properly diagnose a simple cold to my daughters teething. It also lessened the visits to the hospital to. I was able to gain more confidence as a mother and not freak out over the simplest of things. "Hai, 10am today. I'm moving to a new place and its fully furnished." I explained. The person on the other line agreed to the pick up as I hung up the phone.

Leaving I grabbed the keys, both sets, and headed off getting a cab to take me to…my phone rang, "Moshi?" I answered, not looking at the ID screen, "Girl where are you? Chibi Usa wanted to see her mother. Luckily she had school today so I dropped her off for you. Say thank you." Minako may have been bright and bubbly but in cases like this she was a life saver. "I'll explain things later I promise just do me a huge favor and if you don't hear back from me by five pick her up and take her to Mamoru's place." I knew that would stun her.

"As in take your daughter to that dirt bag ex's place?" she clarified. "Hai, like I said I'll explain later. I have a lot to do today and not a lot of time to do it in. Can you?" I asked putting the call on speaker as I googled and requested a cab to come by and pick me up. It would take a few minutes but one would come by. "Of course but I want all the details. I just hope you don't have to talk to that bitch." Safe to say Minako hated Rei enough for us both.

Being the matchmaker of the group she always felt that Mamoru and I were destined. Rei on the other hand felt Minako was full of shit and kept trying to call Minako out on it. didn't go so well when Mamoru and I got together. Plus she also predicted that Rei and Jadeite would get together, which they did…for a little while. Minako was right destiny has a way of working itself out as Mamoru and I were married.

Rei left Jadeite and I was left with Rei's schemes going forward. "You'll get them all but for right now I need to get back to my place. I will talk to you later. Oh and just drop her off AFTER you make sure Mamoru's home if it comes to that. Don't say anything to him though, I don't want Chibi Usa to hear any drama." I tell her. "Take the fun out of it. Okay if I have to do it I will." I knew I could count on her for this.

Cab here I ended the call with gratitude in my parting statement. I got in and gave the destination to the driver as he took off. I'd forgotten how nice the neighborhood was out here compared to where I lived, or had lived. I still couldn't believe the legal loop holes that scum lords found to screw their tenants over with. No amount of googling it in the cab ride over could change that so when I arrived I paid him and left out.

I went inside and found the landlord standing there. "Do you have my money?" he asked, grinning like a dick. "No but I have some people coming in to remove a lot of things so there's going to be no need to throw things out." I stated tightly. He smiled, "Good luck to you and your daughter." He remarked, the happiness in his voice couldn't be contained and that was if he even cared to try to contain it.

"You're just loving this aren't you?" I remarked. He smiled, "I love money. You got it and you can stay. You don't got it you got to get out." I shook my head, "You're a scum lord and you know it." I remarked. "Take it up with the city of Kyoto. I'm just exercising my legal rights as a landlord." He smirked and walked off. I decided to take the stairs to my place, needing to exercise out the anger at him I felt.

"Little stinking weasel." I muttered as I went up-stairs. In truth I should have been all aches and pains from the night I had but the walk did me good and got me to get out a bit of the aggression I was feeling. So when I reached my place I dropped my purse and keys and began to pack. I was thankful that I had kept a half a dozen boxes folded up behind the couch. I held a fleeting hope that things would work out between Mamoru and me and kept them hidden. Even when things showed their true color of no return I left them there.

That and I honestly forgot about them. Until now anyways. So I pulled them out and repurposed them. Packing Chibi Usa's things first before putting those boxes to the side and packing my own belongings. I had collected very few things over my years here so the boxes were filled up to the brim for us both but were still able to fit everything in them. I didn't bother to try to box up the biggest stuffed animals, they could ride with me back to Mamoru's place after the movers were done collecting the furniture.

I was on my phone when the movers showed up. "You - " I cut him off, "You're here for the furniture right?" he nodded, "Then hai, you're in the right place. All of it is to be donated. The boxes and stuffed animals are all that I'm taking with me." I told him. When he and his crew of men came in to start moving things out I felt a sense of nostalgic hit me. This had been mine for years and now I had to give it up. I couldn't afford to put it into storage and the furniture in all honesty wasn't worth the price tag for it.

Didn't help that I spent many nights sleeping on that couch or that I paced this apartment countless times to sooth Chibi Usa when she was restless or afraid. I looked around as the movers grabbed the couch, the end tables, the coffee table that I pilfered from the side of a dumpster near a small business. The owners put it there due to a crack in the marble on the side but I needed one and I loved the black marble swill color scheme. I didn't care about the crack it added character to me.

I turned my head up as one of the guys motioned for the bedroom, "Go ahead, the furniture in there to." I recalled how Chibi Usa's baby room at the house had looked like that of a room fit for a princess. Mamoru and I had spared no expense to make sure she was comfortable. I hoped it was as we left it. All I had to do was decorate it for her now and get her a new bed. I was sure Mamoru wouldn't question it.

So when I remembered the dishes in the sink and cupboards I told the men, "The appliances belong to the landlord but the dishes are yours if you want them." Dime store dishes were easy to come by but if you needed spares they were nice to have around. One of the movers shrugged his shoulders and went into the cupboards. Within two hours the apartment was as bare as the day I moved in. Save for the boxes and stuffed animals.

I called for a cab as taking the bus with these boxes wasn't an option. "Hai, this is the taxi service on Mitsune right? Good. I need a taxi, preferably an SUV to take me to my destination." I explained. Getting the SUV wasn't easy as they were fewer and far between but I did. Thirty minutes later the driver pulled up and called me down. I had him help me get my boxes inside before giving him the destination.

I still had very little time before I was due at Mamoru's work. I paid the cab driver to help me load the boxes and stuffed animals inside before having him give me a ride back to Mamoru's place. I dropped off the boxes and animals before having the driver take me to the bus station so I could get to Mamoru's job site. I didn't have to much left on me for a full cab ride to his work so the small bus fare was enough to get me there.

Mamoru enjoyed being a doctor and he was good at his job to. I could never deny it nor want him to stop. He saved lives and helped people. It was a strong passion of his and I admired and was proud of him for it. it was also nice that it was owner by his family. 'Chiba Kashiwa Rehabilitation Hospital' was a good choice for him. His parents made him work his way to where he is now before they passed.

I arrived there just a few minutes before noon. Calling him I said, "I'm here. Care to let the front desk know your expecting to see me." I asked without asking as I walked in through the doors, I ended the call before he could talk. Last time I was here I gave birth to our daughter. I sighed walking up to the front desk as she got off the phone with I presumed Mamoru, "Are you Usagi?" she asked.

"Hai." She directed me to where his office was. Third floor. I took the elevator to get there. As much as I wanted to delay this I knew how he was on being punctual. So at noon on the nose I walked into his office. His lab coat hanging off the back of the door as I closed it. "Do you want it locked?" I asked. He nodded. I pushed in the center of the door handle to lock it in place. I watched as he wheeled his chair back a bit and stayed where he was, "Come here." He ordered. I walked over to him.

I hated this…but what I hated more was that I liked the ordering. It was like some dominating thing that he got a taste of and now I had kind of wished he had done so back when we were together. But that's neither here nor there. I walked behind his desk and saw that he had his legs spread, "I'm in need of relief." His hands sat resting on the arms of the chair. He didn't make a move to touch me.

He wanted me on my knees in service to him. In humiliation. No amount of me talking about the truth would set me free currently. He had his mind set on things and he wouldn't let it up but there would come a breaking point that I would hit where I said enough was enough. I just hoped I had enough yen saved up to pull Chibi Usa into a new place before that happened. So I swallowed my pride and dropped to my knees in front of him. I wordlessly unbuckled him and pulled his shaft from the confines of his pants.

Resting my knees more comfortably on the carpet I leaned forward and guided his shaft to the confines of my mouth. I heard his instant groan at the feeling. Knowing I got a better sense of how to please him when I was in the moment to I recalled how I had always teased him about doing this very thing. Only in the fantasy I would be in a piece of his favored lingerie with my grey rain coat covering me.

Rain coat and lingerie aside I pretended once more that this moment belonged to us and not to hatred or lies. Rei's lies and hatred. "Hold up." he ordered. I looked up, his cock bobbing forlornly in the air, waiting my mouth. "Take your shirt and bra off, I want to see your breasts." I was stunned by the request but complied none the less. I pulled my tan frilly tank top off to reveal my still worn out bra.

"Still love that thing huh?" he commented, "Someone I love got it for me." I admitted. I looked into his eyes to show him proof of my love for him…even now. I saw a spark of something more before it was snuffed out. I didn't see it long enough to be able to identify it. The look that replaced it was hard, cold. I felt like I lost him all over again. "Just suck. I don't have all day." His tone was bordering on well boredom.

"As you wish." I suddenly didn't have the energy to combat him. He wouldn't listen anyways, he didn't then why would he now? "Keep your hair back, I want to see your tits as they move." He voiced. I pushed my hair back behind me, my breasts bare for him to see to his leisure. I gently took his shaft with one hand and rubbed his balls soothingly with the other. It was a trick I learned when we first got together. Even he didn't know it was a turn on until I did it. And if I remember correctly that didn't last long.

The round the clock sex we had that day was proof enough that I had found a kink of his. I gripped him harder, and heard his increase in breathing. His chest beginning to take in more air frequently. "Inside." He ordered, his hand going to my head and pushing me down. Not as forcibly as one might think but enough to give direction to what he wanted. I licked around the head before engulfing him in my mouth.

I looked up to see his head falling back against the chair. His hands beginning to guide me over his cock as he directed my speed. "Deeper." He commanded. I sucked him further in eliciting a more guttural groan from his throat. My saliva gathering around his member as I sunk further in, swallowing the juices that were seeping from his length. The pre-cum there still tasted the same and I still enjoyed it. I couldn't help but moan from the taste.

Mamoru POV

That was it. I had forgotten how good she was at oral. She had a thing for sucking me down her throat and it seemed she hadn't forgotten what I enjoyed. She had been the only female to ever make me feel like I was coming like a firehose. Powerful. I watched as her breasts bounced with her movements. Her nipples tightening despite the position she was in. It was meant to show her the power I have over her in this agreement, it wasn't going as planned.

I pulled her off of me abruptly as she nearly stumbled back. I towered my form over hers as I became upset. She didn't get to enjoy this. This is for me, for what she took from me over the years. I pulled her up with me as I pushed her on my desk making the papers get pushed over the edge and several things fell down. I was glad she had locked the door if anyone head that they'd be looking to get in.

I couldn't be bothered with that though. I reached down her body till I got ahold of her jeans. I watched her reaction as I unzipped and yanked at the denim until they were pulled down past her butt. I broke the eye contact before pulling her off the desk and turning her around. I pushed her form back down on the desk. My hand between her shoulder blades as I shrugged my pants further down my hips.

The look in her eyes…I was stunned. I hadn't seen that look since the last time we made love years ago. It was the look of pure unadulterated love and it was aimed at me. How does a woman whom cheated like she did still give that look to the man she cheated on? It made ME feel guilty for the past few years. As if I had done something wrong and she was the innocent party to it all. I should hold no such feelings she should be the one in guilt.

All this time wasted is her fault! NOT mine! She's the one who cheated not me! Yet the bitch still managed to make me feel like an ass. I slapped hers. Once. Twice. I kept going, anger welling up inside at that look. That is until I saw how red her butt was getting. My hand smoothed over it feeling the heat from the irritation of the blows received. She was biting her lip from letting others beyond the door hear us.

I couldn't afford for anyone to get wise to what was going on. This may not have been the best venue as I had thought it would be but I didn't have a choice now. I wanted her. That look in her eyes combined with all the ass slapping she received, she wasn't going to get away with it. She'd just have to be quiet. I leaned forward, "You still maybe my wife but I'd rather not have an audience at the door. Make sure to keep your voice down." I ordered.

I spread her cheeks apart and found her cunny to be wet, not dripping wet but wet enough. It seems getting me off still got her off. I reached down and toyed with her opening from behind a bit. She whimpered. "Not a word." I warned as I spread her down below to receive my fingers. I marveled at how tight she still was. Even now. So when I felt her honey begin to drip from my persistent fingers I knew it was time. As much as I wanted her to be on the receiving end of my wrath I knew I would enjoy this more if she was as into it as I was.

Not to mention I had to admit but that loving look she gave me made something inside of me feel differently about her. Not that I forgave her for what she did but perhaps she would be falling in love with me. If that was the case then when she was fully back there I could kick her to the curb emotionally as she did with me so many years ago. I found another purpose to the agreement between us.

So for the moment I pretended that nothing had happened. I wished they didn't, kami do I wish they didn't. I bent her over the desk further as I lined myself up with her core. Her legs spreading naturally wider. Her ass perking up, the need of her own shining out as did my own as I rubbed myself against her lower lips. "You want this?" I murmured seductively. She nodded her head yes. Had we been at home I would have demanded for her to yell it but we weren't.

"You want my cum?" I demanded of her, "Hai." She whispered back. Keeping her held down I slid into her until my hips hit the flesh of her butt. My cock slid all the way home before I sighed and pulled back out only to slid in again. The angle was great and made me groan in sweet agony, "Oh kami Usa…" I moaned as I held her position still as I continued onward. I gripped her hips to gain more momentum when I heard a knock at the door, "Dr. Chiba. Your one o'clock will be here soon." My secretary.

"When I'm done in here I'll call for him till then have him stand by in the waiting room area." I told her while thrusting home again. I hadn't taken the time when we first got back into this to take a really good feel for her but now where we were I was feeling, oh what's the word…nostalgic…I couldn't remember her ever feeling so tight. It was like we were in high school all over again.

You'd think she had had sex in years. I kept trying to think of a reason for that. If she was with Seiya then why is she still – "Mamo – chan!" I listened to her vocal cries for more. I felt it as I hit that secret spot deep within her. The one that made her cum like a volcano around me. It seems only I ever found this elusive spot. She hadn't been able to even when we were married and it pleased me to no end.

I quickened my pace as I pumped harder within Usagi as she gripped the desk, her fingers clenched over the edges as if for dear life. It pleased me to no end on what she could handle with me. She had always been an eager learner with our sex life. Being still a teenager when we met and in high school no less she was inexperienced and I was the one who taught her. I had never been more happy to show someone how to do something till I met her.

She opened her legs further giving me more room to thrust deeper within her. I groaned in need as my cock hardened further. It wanted to stay inside of her and never let her go. Part of me wanted that to be true and real. To have her as my wife fully again and for her to be with me through thick and thin. It's how it was supposed to be. Feeling the thoughts drift down a negative path I forced myself to focus on the positive.

I wanted to enjoy this and not let them ruin the good sex we were having. So I let myself get drawn into a world where things between us were fine and happy. However it was the mewling she gave off that had me looking down at her writhing form. Gripping the desk and moaning for more increased my own want and need of her. I saw her back arch as she cried out for more and damn near bucked up to me in retaliation.

The urgency I felt to plant myself within her was overwhelming and not for the first time I wondered what spell she had over me. Wanting so badly for her to be mine again and not simply for a legal agreement I lost it. I felt her folds, wet as ever, grip me tighter than a snare drum. It was always an incredible feeling to be within her. I felt her walls closing in on me but didn't want her to come without myself so I began a harsher rhythm.

My cock pounding into her hard enough to push the desk forward little by little at every thrust I gave her. I could feel her beginning to convulse around me so I slapped her ass and rammed my cock deeply within her. I felt the orgasm rushing on fast by this point. My determined rhythm wasn't to be off-set by anything. I rammed into her with a ferocity not to be denied as I felt the cum rising into my cock. I felt the brush of my nuts to her ass cheek as I continued my pursuit of need and lust.

This was becoming something more than us now. Something I couldn't quiet fathom before she came around me. Her fluid gushing out in torrents as she grabbed a nearby pen and put it in her mouth to bite down on. An attempt to muffle her screams of pleasure form me. I jackhammered myself into her repeatedly until I felt my own need swelling within me. Over powered I leaned over and held her form close to me as I rammed into her.

I held her down as I pumped harder into her. My front molded to her back as I felt my cum rising from me into her. Then all at once I groaned loudly and felt myself erupting within her. I hadn't felt such intensity ever before I met her. It was ridiculous on how good things still were between us, how hot they were. I lunged forward one more time and felt and heard the desk move with it as we slumped over. But of us taking a moment after that hot session.

I pulled myself up and out of her as she turned around righting herself in the process as much as she could. Without even think about it we both helped one another get better dressed. Realizing it once she straightened out my tie, something she always did for me whenever our passions got the better of us, she looked up into my eyes. I gazed down and for a moment forgot all of the lies and the betrayal she caused us both. For a moment I saw the woman that I fell head over heels in love with, the same woman that was the mother to our daughter.

For a moment we were just two people and I didn't want it to end. So for that split second I leaned forward and gave her a real true kiss. She responded back. When we parted there was an unknown air in the room. She looked at me in wonder and hope before I shut my eyes to her gaze, "I have an appointment to get to. You should leave." I struggled to get the words out but I needed her gone.

She was awakening these thought to have been dead feelings of love and caring back to the surface. I couldn't afford to lose myself now. If I did this would have been for nothing. I saw the hurt look cross her face before she steeled herself against me and grabbed her effects before walking out the door. I watched my secretary bring in my appointment. I'd have to talk to her about it at home but I wouldn't be letting her affect me so again.

Usagi POV

I left the office truly confused. The sex was amazing, better than I remembered actually but still there was something in him that changed. Something shifted and he was either afraid of it or didn't understand it and ignored it. I knew I still loved the man but it seemed that he was fighting against himself at times. Like he didn't want to admit to himself that he was still in love with me while having sex with me.

It didn't make a whole lot of sense. The more I thought on it the more I knew something was going to happen. Despite how attracted or attractive you are to a person, if you truly despise them in every sense of the word then you couldn't have that need for sex. Mamoru feels something for me and I've been so consumed with the agreement and all the other craziness going on that I didn't allow myself time to think on it.

He had to still care about me. About us. If he truly hated me for what he believes I did then why would he require sex from me? We needed to talk about this. Catching the bus nearby I took it back to Chibi Usa's school. By the time I got to her school it was only an hour left till they were out so I waited nearby before picking her up and taking the bus back to Mamoru's and with all of our belongings at Mamoru's it made things easier.

"Mama where are we going?" she asked me, curiously as she hadn't been to Mamoru's since she was a toddler. "To our temporary home." I answered blithely. Not wanting to get to detailed. "I don't understand." She remarked. "Were going to be finding a new place to live. Until then were staying with - " I stumbled. How do I explain Mamoru to Chibi Usa. he's her father and he won't live with her and not have her know the truth. I sighed, "A friend of mine." It was all I could give at this time to her.

Pulling the key out after we walked the few blocks to get here, I used it to open the door and let us in before locking it and switching some lights on. "Wow!" she was in amazement. "This place is huge mama!" I felt horrendous all of a sudden. I pulled her from this. The life she should have had and I pulled her from it in fear of Rei's mental wrath upon her still growing heart and mind. I had to remember why I did all of this.

I went into the kitchen and made chicken and rice up. Our dinner for the evening. Once it was done I heard the door unlock. I went into the living room to find Mamoru home, "Dinners ready." I told him. He came in and loosened up his tie. "Moshi, moshi!" Chibi Usa greeted. I saw the love and tender kindness in his eyes upon seeing her. He simply smiled. I could tell her was stunned at the moment he walked into so I spoke up.

"Hope you still like my chicken and rice." I placed three plates on the table and made sure Chibi Usa was in his line of sight rather than myself. He looked so fascinated by her that I was as happy about the fresh moment as he was. He hadn't seen her or spoken to her in years. My own prevention on that one. My attempts to keep the drama from her life prevented an early stage of father daughter bonding. "So my friend ended up spilling the water on the carpet." She was talking about her day at daycare and Mamoru looked mesmerized by it.

I got lost in my own thoughts until I heard both ready to clear their dishes, "So mama why are we here?" she asked me. I had to word this carefully, "Were staying here because I'm working to get us a nicer place to live in." it was the truth after all. I saw Mamoru look to me oddly, "But what about our old place?" she asked persistently. "I ah…" how do I explain getting kicked out of our apartment to a child?

"I asked her to be here because I wanted to get to know you better." Mamoru intervened. I looked to him as he sat back down at the table. Having cleared both sets of dishes. Mine still in front of me, already gone of the food from it. "Why?" she asked. I could see it in his eyes and he wouldn't wait for me. "Because Chibi Usa I'm your father." he reached out and touched her hand in a warming gesture.

Chibi Usa looked stunned and confused before looking to me, "I don't understand." She replied. I knew she'd get confused. "It's a lot to take in I know but he is your father. The last time you two saw one another was when you were very, very young." I explained. "Why haven't you been around?" she asked him, no malice in her voice just confusion. "He's been busy. Mamoru's a doctor and as such requires a lot of his time." I tried.

He looked poorly at me for my choice of words. I looked over and found Chibi Usa to be whimpering in tears now, "So did you not want me?" she asked. It broke my heart and I knew I was the one who caused it. This was my fault. "What your mother meant to say was that because of my schedule I had a hard time making time for you but now I have been able to get to a great level within the hospital. I can see you much more than I used to." he responded. She looked unconvinced of his words.

He took her hand, "Chibi Usa I love you so very much that it broke my heart every day I didn't get to spend with you." his words cut into me. I began to tear up to. "I will forever spend my life making it up to you I promise." He told her as she leapt into his arms. A sense of peace washed over the moment before he looked at me with such splitting emotions I was torn and conflicted as to how to handle them.

On one hand he seemed to be thrilled to have Chibi Usa back and on the other hand he looked to me like I had ripped a piece of him out with everything. I was confused so I said, "Mamoru why don't you go tuck Chibi Usa in and Chibi Usa I want you to take a bath and brush your teeth before going to bed." I ordered. She nodded and asked, "Where is the bathroom?" I smiled a small smile but Mamoru beat me to the punch, "I've got it. You can clean up." he tells me as he ushers Chibi Usa up-stairs.

I cleared up the table and went upstairs myself. Showering I listened to them as he made sure she was properly dressed in her night clothes. I assumed he found out which room I put her things into. So as he was ensuring she brushed her teeth I went into another bedroom. I didn't want to assume he wanted me in his room on a regular basis. If he wanted sex he was going to have to seek me out for it.

So when I heard footsteps approaching I looked up to find him walking in. "Get to my bedroom now." He ordered. I gathered up my things for the night that I would be needing to use once our romp was over with. I closed the door behind me and turned around. He looked beyond pissed off, "She didn't know who I was." the guilt came back, "I..." he cut me off, "My own daughter didn't know who I was. Do you have any idea what that did to me?" he demanded. Guilt turned into fear. Fear turned into rage.

I did this for a reason and he wouldn't be making this ALL about me. He held guilt in there to. I knew deep down he could have insisted on seeing her, have ordered it through the courts somehow but he didn't. This wasn't ALL on me! "Do you have ANY idea what this whole situation has done to me? I'm sorry I took her away but you know what I'm not!" I snapped my voice in low tones in order to avoid our daughter from hearing.

"I didn't want Rei around her filling her head with lies. Or possibly worse. Rei has it out for me." and here he goes with the rolling of the eyes at me, "She has since day fucking one and you keep following behind her like some puppy dog." The look he threw at me had me mentally backpedaling. Mamoru wasn't the weak type. Rei was a definite weak spot for him but not in that sense. "You need to leave her out of this." He demanded.

"When she barged into our marriage and made those horrible claims she made herself a part of this." I smarted off. "She did this. All of this. She's the reason I fled with our baby girl. She's the reason were where we are right now." Though the agreement part she wasn't aware of. I saw confliction in his eyes. Like part of him thought about the possibilities before he shut them down. I watched his emotions regarding it get shoved behind another door to not be opened-up. "You just need to do what your here for." His voice was low.

I watched as he indicated to the bed. I got on it only for him to pounce. Things were still so raw between us emotionally that when he looked at me I let him see everything I felt. The pain. The love. The need. The anger. The frustration. Finally I let the truth of that evening be shown in my eyes. I had tried before but he wouldn't listen then…maybe now. "I promise you from the depths of my soul I never cheated." My eyes teared up but I kept them open.

"Seiya and I have never shared anything more than a hug between one another." I told him. I was trying to convey the truth but he shut down the moment I said Seiya. I saw it to late as he was putting his brick wall back up again. I sat up a little, "Mamoru?" I asked. He glanced at me. The emotions were plain as day. He wanted to believe me. I touched his face and gave him a real kiss just as he had in the office with me. Even if all I got was tonight to be real I would treasure it when he returned to being a dick in the morning.