s t a r l i g h t
A star, she figured, was a lot like the moon, but smaller. Of course, it only looked smaller. In reality, it was much, much bigger than the moon. But just as cold, just as distant. The stars lit the sky up with their hard, white light, and they always would, no matter what. Sometimes, she wished she could be as indifferent.
"Lily, wait!"
She ignored him. Be cold, be distant, be indifferent. Harsh if you have to. It had always works for her, it would work now. She mustn't break.
"Lily!"
Still she did not turn, she did not stop. She must ignore her shallow breathing, the pounding of her heart. She could give in, she yearned to give in. But she mustn't. Nothing good would come out of it, except momentary pleasure. But there was more to life than this moment.
He was closer. She could hear his footsteps as he ran, echoing in the empty hallway. Be strong, be wise. Don't break.
He was there; he was gripping her shoulder, turning her around. She resisted feebly, knowing she would not succeed in breaking free. "Lily…"
His amber eyes were pleading, his expression that of helplessness. She had him in her power, she knew. The Lily of days past would have used him shamelessly, broken his heart for the fun of it. But she couldn't, not anymore. Parts of her fumed at herself for going soft, letting a guy change her like he had. But she didn't regret it, not really.
"I- I can't. It wouldn't be right, it'll never end well. We might as well save ourselves the heartache." She blinked back the tears. She would not break, she wouldn't. She must be a star, indifferent. Her light will shine regardless- she could not let anyone turn it off for her.
"And then what? Ignore each other from now till forever? We can't do that. You know we can't, Lily."
"We can try."
"Be indifferent to each other for the rest of our lives? Be cold, distant, as if nothing ever happened? We're just humans, not gods."
He was right, in the end. You could hope, you could try. But in the end, it was only the stars and their light that could remain forever indifferent.
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