We all sat there for a few minutes, contemplating recent events in silence. Finally, Sirius looked up. If one looked closely, they could see he had been crying. This was a sure sign something was wrong, as according to the rest of the world, Sirius Black did not cry. While it was true that most people didn't find him doing it in public, for his parents had ingrained in him to not show weakness, his fellow Marauders had seen a fair share of tears, usually after nightmares about his home life. So the rest of the world was proved wrong when his red-rimmed eyes and tear-stained cheeks came into view."Did he say why he-you know… Or leave a note?" It was obvious that he wanted to understand what had led Remus to do this. James looked at me too, as I was the only one who seemed to know anything about this. I shrugged, and decided a bit of a backstory was in order.
"Guys, so, the thing is…" I didn't want to have to tell them, but they were his best friends, and would always keep him safe, even if it was from himself. "He had hidden himself in the dorms, and I broke down the door, and oh Merlin, he had a panic attack because I asked him about a mark on his arm, because I thought it was because of the full moon, and… " I paused for a breath, "He's been cutting for two years now, but I found out today, and he tried to kill himself and I don't know why!" I was slightly hysterical by now, and I was once again wrapped in strong arms, which I knew took a lot of effort on Sirius's part, because Remus was always his first priority. But Remus wasn't here right now, and his absence was felt. I knew that Sirius was depending on me as much as I was clinging on to him right now.