.Sutures On Your Throat- A Vampire Knight FanFiction by Clue-sama.
Disclaimer: I do not own anything legally affiliated with Matsuri Hino's Vampire Knight and am not making money with these fanworks.
Warning: Yaoi lemon~ ZeroxKaname
Note: Okay! Here we go ^^ The actual new stuff... That is, unless you're reading this whole thing for the first time. In that case, welcome XD Anyway... here ya go! :D Hee~ Kaname came out very...unlike my normal one.
Oh but... I haven't written one in a while since By Your Side ended and all XD (that was the lemonade stand, that one) so... I hope I can do it well *determined fists*
Ah, and this one starts IMMEDIATELY after the previous one.
Haha, if it matters: this chappie title comes from the same song as the others. I wanted the whole fic to be that way XD 'Cept, I've kind of exhausted that song's worth of good lyrics to make into titles XDDD The chappie title is supposed to mean the state of line that defines what they feel for one another, but in the song it's "cold tears smear your make-up" XDDD (hey, now you see where "Cold Tears" came from too X3)
Summary: The things- the sighs and the gasps- that passed their lips were meant for the ones they loved. The ones they cared for. So why was it that now, at the height of their taboo, sinful actions, did they spill forth? Well... he had wanted it once more and the one he asked it of gave it without hesitation... So perhaps...?
"Zero... I..."
"No... Please... Just let me give you all I can before we end it..."
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Chapter Four- Smear
It was a very strange feeling for both vampires. It began with Zero exploiting Kaname's intense desire to protect Yuuki from whatever he could. The hunter would come to the pureblood's room and cruelly ravish him as well as externally absuse him just to have the high of snatching one of the beasts off of its pedestal and hurting it. However, one night, Zero lost himself with Yuuki and, although the girl didn't really seem to notice the hand wandering somewhere where it normally wasn't, everything changed. The hunter had stumbled into Kaname's rooms, well aware of what he subconsciously almost did and he mumbled it to the pureblood. Said pureblood nearly killed Zero, but he forced himself to preserve Yuuki's guardian... in exchange for the guardian's body. Kaname wanted to give back some of what Zero had given him.
Pain, humiliation, shame...
But things only got worse because now, Zero was allowing himself to grant Kaname's wish. The pureblood wanted to make love one last time and for some reason, Zero completely understood and found that he also wanted to.
The prefect shivered lightly when he felt Kaname's chilled fingers brushing over his skin very briefly as the pureblood pushed his uniform top off of his shoulders- taking his time as if savoring each inch of pale, smooth skin as it was revealed. It wasn't as if it was the first time he'd seen it though, but Kaname didn't care to question it. He had learned that when he was with Zero, the things he knew barely applied. He was no longer a revered pureblooded vampire prince whom no one should even touch without permission. With the hunter, he turned into a passive being that Zero was allowed to do with whatever Zero wanted. However... that was for Yuuki... Zero probably knew their rape sessions were for her, too, on some level. But what they were doing now was for them.
The soft sound of white slacks hitting the carpeted floor was largely unnoticed by the two while Zero swiftly but easily undid his own belt, his eyes holding Kaname's with an odd air of affinity. It was kind of ironic- just when Zero let it be known that he no longer wanted to hurt Kaname, the brunette asks for it once more... with that soft, begging voice like if Zero didn't comply, the pureblood would cry himself to sleep... Why did they both want this? Zero didn't want to rape Kaname anymore; he didn't want him to feel that horrible, sickening feeling anymore and he wanted to spare Kaname anymore of that time after a rape where the pureblood would feel so filthy that he bathed hard enough to remove skin.
Zero moved his ever-so-slightly trembling fingers to unfasten his buttons on his pants, but Kaname reached up and tugged him down by his already half undone tie, firmly initiating a kiss. They only took a few moments to let the hunter run his tongue over Kaname's soft bottom lip to elicit a breathy shudder before deepening the kiss. They had never kissed like this before: with feeling and with the intent of giving and recieving pleasure.
Well... that was what made it different. This was not rape and there wasn't anything forced about it. Kaname would be allowing Zero to make love to him because it made both of them feel complete for that one instant when they were subjected to the fiery throes of ecstacy... And if they could experience that together in a sweet harmony of embraces and satisfied cries rather than in a tense, enraged fit, then why not ask it of each other? Kaname was sure that if he hadn't approached the subject first, Zero would have most likely done this under the pretense of wanting to at least make the pureblood feel good as an apology before they stopped for good. Whether or not the hunter knew it, he wanted to do this because once they began to see what the other felt during the rapes, the nasty vengance turned into a curious type of sympathy. And along with that came the warm feeling of... something more...
Of course they wanted to take it back, what they did, but at that point, a desire to feel the other feeling never went away. It was only something they made the other feel and saying that would only waste breath. This was good enough... It would have to be.
Kaname's jacket, vest and shirt were open and only on the bed because he couldn't seem to find the presence of mind to remove his arms from the sleeves under Zero's gentle ministrations to sensitive areas of his body that didn't include previously abused areas. He felt the embarrassing urge to cry when hesitant fingertips brushed over one of his nipples as if experimenting. It was amazing how many things one didn't even think of doing when all they wanted was blind revenge. Of course, the pureblood was glad Zero never touched him like this back then. If he had, it would have been so much worse because now the brunette found himself squirming in muffled delight and if all Zero aimed to do was rape, after causing Kaname such pleasure and bliss, then the pureblood surely would have broken down.
Zero's unknowingly open, curious lavender gaze remained fixated on Kaname's constantly changing one. How had he not noticed this before...? This face... this... lovely, soulful face? The ex-human almost felt like crying again- how could he...? He would never get over that... No matter how he suffered, he could have at least tried to see that Shizuka Hiou and Kaname Kuran had nothing alike other than their race. Kaname even stood for pacifism and blood tablets and the like... It wasn't even like he was the one who started this whole rivalry between them. It may have happened eventually, but Zero was the one who started off by stabbing him as soon as the pureblood had walked in. If Zero thought about it, some hunters were a little too radical with their hunting, becoming rather racist, but Kaname didn't go out of his way to hurt the prefect because of other people's mistakes...
"I'm... so sorry... Kaname..." Zero whispered, turning away from a new kiss slightly to speak into the pureblood's ear. Kaname sighed and ran his hand down Zero's elegantly muscled back and turned to nuzzle into the silver locks. If only it would be okay to really feel like they were lovers... Kaname felt like he could truly live day to day like he had all the time in the world if it were so...Happily, and knowing he'd have someone to come back to at the end of that day. Just because he had many, many years to live didn't mean he had sleepy days. Kaname Kuran was always busy and always will be.
"I... forgive you," Kaname murmured, bringing his other hand up to comb through Zero's hair slowly. He felt the hunter tense at the words, but the pureblood just continued quietly, "I apologize as well, but we shouldn't speak of it anymore. So... please stop apologizing, Zero..."
He felt Zero inhale deeply and exhale slowly before nodding. He pulled back and had a look of resolution in his light violet eyes painted over careful affection. Kaname smiled very faintly and the hunter returned the expression before they suddenly became aware of the pureblood's hardness pressing impatiently against Zero's stomach. Zero had seen it plenty of times before and Kaname, Zero's, so it wasn't too awkward, thankfully. It only took a half a second's worth of consideration and then the prefect gathered the clear fluid already beading up at the tip of Kaname's length onto the pad of his pointer finger. The passing contact to the now over-sensitized area made Kaname flinch and bite out a surprised gasp.
Zero stared at the liquid on his finger for a moment, as if wondering what to do, but feeling his own underwear becoming wetter the more Kaname wiggled and looked up at him with those dark, sultry eyes, he brought the finger to his mouth instead, his tongue flicking out to sample it. Neither of them had had the other's essence before since they didn't dare to put themselves too close to the other's fangs in case the other wanted to cause some significant pain of their own. Zero hummed in appreciation as Kaname's cheeks colored visibly.
Now out of the fluid Zero was going to use for lubrication, he firmly gripped Kaname in his fist to make more, making the other's hips jerk up against the hunter's involuntarily. Zero bit back a moan and pushed his own pants off finally, freeing his own rigidity. As he thought, he too was leaking, but he quickly produced more with Kaname using an alternating pattern of gentle but devastating squeezing and twisting. The pureblood gripped the sheets and lifted his hips, moaning a little louder than last time as the stimulation made him become even more aroused, creating enough of what Zero aimed to make rather quickly.
The hunter swept more off of Kaname onto two of his fingers and noticed more welling up immediately as he spread the soft, quivering thighs. Zero leaned over the brunette, between his legs, and reached down between them. He had never taken care to prepare the pureblood previously and both of them looked a little nervous as the fingers found their target. Kiss-swollen lips flew open to let out a rush of breath when slick fingers probed at his sphincter hesitantly. Indeed, Zero was a little unsure, but once he saw the hazy pleasure fall over Kaname's expression he forged on, pressing both of them in at once. The pureblood made a low growling sound of pleasure and discomfort as he moved his hips around the intrusion.
It wasn't painful since he'd been taken so much rougher, but it did sting for a very small moment when Zero had both digits in completely and scissored carefully. Even if Kaname wasn't technically a virgin anymore, his pureblood body healed itself so he was still quite tight. However, as with most things, his body did learn how to adjust to constant stimulation, so his rear never healed completely back since Zero always tore it back open. When it stopped though, he would heal properly after a few weeks. Never having to do this stage of sex, though, made Zero a little slow at it, but it also made him less considerate even though he meant to be...
Zero stretched the older vampire a little more before curiously bending his fingers, brushing against the warm walls. Kaname reacted beautifully, arching and mewling softly, which coaxed a purr from the hunter in a little jolt of lust. Pulling his fingers out at a point that would have been much too early for a first time partner, Zero used his own fluids to coat himself and there was quite enough of it to do so thoroughly. He edged forward, leaning down and lifting one of Kaname's legs over his shoulder. The pureblood was glad that they would be able to please each other, but he was relieved that Zero knew how to do some of these things as if he... cared about how Kaname would experience this.
When he entered Kaname, Zero pushed in completely, feeling the muscles squeeze him rebelliously and he winced, a groan vibrating in his chest. The pureblood also moaned and tilted his head back, his eyes closed as he tried to make himself relax. It was harder than he would've liked it to be, but he knew that his body was conditioned to fear this and reject it. Even when Zero raped him before, the pureblood's body automatically made it more difficult and more painful than it had to be, but now it wasn't that way. And he wanted it to happen so much...
"Mnnn... Kaname..." Zero sighed, looking like he was about to die from not being about to lean down at kiss the pureblood... so he changed his mind about their position. He took both of Kaname's thighs and bent the pureblood a little more so he could reach him. Even when he agreed to do this, Zero didn't think he'd feel so enraptured by the beautiful, passionate creature beneath him. He loved every quiet and loud sound Kaname made; loved the looks he was giving Zero... Loved...
Kaname's softened raspberry eyes looked uncertain for a moment but then he mumbled, "Zero... I..."
Zero planted a chaste kiss on the other's parted lips, quieting him.
"Please... Don't say anything you'll regret..."
A look of sorrow flickered through Kaname's eyes and Zero gave him a grave look and they both stared while the pureblood adjusted. Eventually, their mouths melted into silly smiles and they figured they would worry about it later- now wasn't the time for that... Zero dipped his head again.
The hunter slowly rocked his hips, pulling in and out in a sweet slow manner that drew out the feeling of the friction between him and Kaname's snug body while he kissed the pureblood in the same sensuous way. Their tongues waltzed leisurely and Kaname's long fingers took to idly tangling themselves in Zero's silky strands... It was less carnal than they'd imagined but this was just as well. Later, it would plague them as to what possessed them to want it this way, at this pace. Well. Right now, it sure felt like they wanted to sense every single stimulli, and memorize it for what it was. A precious piece of who the other was. Even if they weren't going to mention this again. Even if they would move on and have new lives, it would be there forever and they wouldn't want to forget it as long as they lived.
Suddenly though, their nerves ignited and their ginger movements and noises grew harsher and louder. Zero drew back for more leverage as his muscles began overriding his want to have this go on for as long as it possibly could. The hunter's body tensed and set itself make him thrust deeper and harder relentlessly. Hr clenched his fangs together as his body burned hotter at the sound of Kaname's wild keening and the feel of the body around him gyrating and rising to meet his pushes. Kaname reached in front of him, having nowhere to put his hands that would probably manage to destroy something in his blind passion, and pulled Zero back down by the shoulders. If that wasn't enough, long, graceful legs wrapped around Zero's madly thrusting hips and this only forced the prefects's body deeper as he pushed hard into the pureblood. Now Zero was brought to open-mouthed cries along with Kaname, and finally, in an explosion of some kind of impossible senseless, sense-overloading; numb, nerve-frying apex, they both climaxed. Zero shot his essence when he was fully buried into his partner and Kaname's spurted forth, covering the other's softly heaving chest in the thick, white substance.
With a long sigh, Zero collapsed on top of Kaname and they panted against each other's sweat-sheened shoulders harshly for a few moments. Never before had they ever orgasmed so hard when together... or perhaps at all. Both vampires made themselves forget who they were, where they were and what they promised so they could fully experience the descent from what must have been Heaven just now... Zero rolled off of the pureblood and Kaname turned immediately, curling up against the hunter's side. They both felt dirty, but this time it definitely was the kind that they wouldn't mind wearing for a little bit before it became uncomfortable.
"...Zero... Please , I want to say something..." Kaname tried again with a very quiet voice, his eyes narrowing with the effort of not backing down. He was sure of it now, how he felt, but he couldn't tell Zero about what was really going on- about Yuuki- not yet. However... if he waited too long, it would be too late and the hunter would never truly know...
However, Zero seemed to be a few steps ahead of Kaname which was very rare, to be ahead of a pureblood like this. The hunter turned to look at Kaname with such a sparkle in his lavender eyes and such a... smile that it took the words right out of the pureblood's mouth long enough for Zero to say, "I thought I told you... don't say anything like that..."
Kaname sat up on his side, still facing Zero and put his other hand on the hunter's other side, trapping him with his upper body.
"But, Zero--"
The ex-human shook his head, saying, "I know what you're going to say... But I don't want you to say it out loud..."
Kaname was not used to being cut off and he certainly wasn't used to being told to not say something at all, but when it was Zero... All he could do was glare at him slightly.
"How could you know what I was going to say?"
Zero turned his head to look out of the window where the sky was turning a bluish color and he murmured, "I feel the same way... But if we say it... It will really be there for us to recognize."
The pureblood stared down at a serious looking hunter and frowned. He was right... And Kaname almost ruined so many things... He sat back, away from Zero and closed his eyes. Pushing his emotions back down since they were making him almost say foolish things, he thought. If he really aknowledged the feeling, how would he continue using his knight properly? Saying it would put it in a whole new perspective and he might want to coddle the knight, holding it back and what would happen then? Especially... since the knight himself didn't know anything.
Kaname cast a sad gaze down to Zero where he was slowly falling asleep. As much as he would like to let him sleep there so he could watch him, the brunette thought that it would be better for the both of them- if they really were going to ignore the emotion, as excruciating as it would be for the first few weeks... maybe months... maybe more...- if he left.
The pureblood leaned down and kissed Zero sideways, gently, and the hunter gradually woke up again, kissing back automatically as Kaname reached around and turned his head back facing the ceiling.
"Kiryuu... Take a shower. And get out," he growled into the kiss.
The hunter was heard scoffing before he shoved Kaname back off of him. Neither one of them could stop the smirk for the second of Zero sitting up. But when the prefect grabbed his clothes and stormed to Kaname's bathroom, Kaname looked like he was a stoic porcelain doll and Zero looked like he was mad at the world.
...Of course... once Zero started the shower, Kaname fell face-first onto the pillow the hunter was just on and squeezed it, hoping it was muffling his quiet cries enough, and Zero was pressing his forehead to the shower's wall as the hot water washed his own tears away.
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Author's Notes: *dies* END... It's 7:30 a.m.... and I started this at like... 1 a.m. w; I hope you liked it~ My fingers feel all weird and heavy. XD ^^ Please review! (XDDDD I almost typoed 'please' just now with 'pleasure')
Oh but... I know Zero didn't feed and I only mentioned his fangs once (even then, as a substitute for 'teeth'). I don't even think I meantioned reddened eyes... I might have, dunno. But the point is, I wanted this to be more about THEM, if you know what I'm saying... If not, I dun care... My eyes are killing me... -_-
((the day after I typed this))
OMG! I didn't even go to my grandma's like I thought!! XDDD So I stayed up like that for no reason!! It's funny in a depressing kind of way. But... I guess now I don't have to type it and I did go over it and tweak it a bit while I ate lunch. e_e Hopefully, YenGirl won't find too many mistakes. o_o;