Lol, have I abandoned this story? No, just that no one seems to be reading it (silent readers) or so but still its okay. At least there are some out there bothered to take notice xD thank you all. I'll continue this story regardless but since time is a bit pressed for me---I will try and update soon. Sorry for the wait guys/girls. xD
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Chapter Three:
Will of love
The day came so fast that I collapse on my bed.
Today was weird…
That bloody no-life Katoki chased me around the place each time I thought he wouldn't appear. I didn't even get to eat properly and I had to actually skip the rest of the day by jumping the back wall of school. I don't know about you, but I feel somewhat afraid to even know what this stalker guy would do when he gets his hands on me…
Shivers were sent down my spine as I covered my head with my pillow. My father wasn't home, I presumed he went out to have his fun at some nightclub or probably went to rape poor school students…
Freaken paedophile.
And he's a freaken 43 year old man…
Damn, I still can't believe I am related to such a man-whore. For my sake, I hope I never see him again once I find that darn letter he hid. That reminds me. I sat up and stared at my bag. In all that time of being chased about, I forgot to throw that stupid girl's letter away.
I withdrew my bag from my study table and searched around for it. When I found it, I stared at the disgusting bright pink colour and stood to toss it into my net trash bin.
Well that was the end of that…
Yawning I sat back down and stared at the ceiling before slowly getting bored of doing nothing for the last couple of minutes. I ran down the stairs and fixed myself some food and once I was done with that, I entered my father's room.
Guess, I could still smell alcohol and booze he brought home. Sighing I begun to look through his stuff. I've did this before, looking through his stuff for that stupid letter he hid all the time. He never seems to show the letter to me but threatens me easily with it. Damn it, if he found out I had a job to make a living for myself, then he could easily steal all my savings up and use it for his own damn cause. He doesn't even care if I starve to death but he knows I somehow get food into me. I think he's starting to catch on…
Freaken bottles…
I toss his dirty clothes away and pulled out most of his draws only to uncover more beers and crap in there. What the hell is this guy thinking? There's a bloody fridge for crying out loud…but then again he probably stuff it full of beer.
Sighing after no success of finding it, I sat back and stared around the room. This room…it was the same room my mother used to tend for, she had flowers on the windowsill which she made me water everyday every time I wanted to. She hung bright lovely purple curtains but now they stink and were stained with a weird green colour. The walls used to be white and clean but now they were dirty and emitted a rotten smell. The bed…it was neat and tidy. She used a lavender scent blanket and pillow yet they smell like beer. Overall this room used to be clean and tidy until my father stunk it up with his flab and shits…
I used to love waking up and running down the stairs to see her, not including the snoring of the stupid father of mine. She…
My mother was the only person I would care for the most…
Back then…I guess I used to smile a lot and become more open but…
"Ah…where's…the—hick—fire?"
I grunted knowing that my father had returned from raping and drinking his life away. Standing up and exiting his room and I spied on him stumbling around the entrance of the front door. He lazily slipped off his shoe, failing to correctly grasp it and stumped his huge weight down the hallway. I hid in the closet and waited till he headed to the kitchen before making my way to my room quietly. He doesn't even care if I was home or anything, he just wants me there to feed off the money that the Centerlink gives us.
Sighing I locked my room and sat on my bed.
The moon shone into my room by the window blinds while I scratched my head. There wasn't much in my life. I remember I used to live fine until my mother died…
I didn't know how to act when she kil…
I fell onto my bed and rolled to my self staring at the wall. What was I to do? A boy…trapped in a hell of a life. Having to have to make money for himself and hide away from his father plus imprisoned here like a criminal. Life was just boring and I didn't want it anymore…
I don't want to feel the pain anymore…
I don't want to see my stupid father's greedy face anymore…
I don't want to hear anymore of his stupid self…
I just…I just want to live somewhere…anywhere far away…
I want to live in a different world…
A world only for me…
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I didn't catch the train anymore.
Instead, I stole a person's bicycle and rode it to school. The loser didn't chain it to the damn pole and I didn't want to go back to the train due to that last incident. I thought walking would kill my legs so I just suddenly stole it.
Heh, that'll teach him to remember to chain it next time…then again this bike might be stolen by someone else too. I better get myself a chain…
I parked the bike at some alley and hid it under some bags of sticks or something. I'll steal a bike chain later on and use it once I'm done. Hitting the road, I walked to school only to see that there were some police about. What the…
I froze thinking I might have done something wrong. Let's see…nope I don't recall taking or selling drugs…never drove a car in my life. Yeah, yeah I know I'm old enough but I can't afford to buy a car let alone drive one. Hm…I guess I can't be arrested for nothing. Walking, I somehow realized that they weren't here for me. Instead, they raced into the school like scared chickens.
I froze when I saw that the girl's toilet had been surrounded by many students. I didn't bother walking over to check what was going on regardless of the police about. I would have walked away until that stupid stalking no-life Katoki grasped my shoulders.
"What the---"
"Did you hear?" he interrupted seriously, "they said someone killed themself in the girl's toilet"
"So? What does---"
He interrupted again, "I heard that it was Natsumi Horinama from our grade!"
I blinked a bit surprised to know that it was her but…
"So? What about—"
"—I heard she went out last night without her parents knowing and into the school somehow even though it was locked. Then she took some rope and then hung herself after cutting her skin with a knife…"
"What---"
"And now every girl is scared to even go near the toilets. But, there's reporters and detectives going around for clues of why she suicide herself!"
I removed Katoki from my shoulders and glared at him annoyed. So what? Like I care she killed herself, like I care that she would committed suicide. I don't care about anybody.
Never have, never will…
"I don't want to hear about it" I told him before he could talk. "So go away"
And with that I left him.
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When I came home, my father was still out of sight.
Regardless I felt at ease knowing he wasn't around. Today was just another annoying day. I was forced to attend an assembly because of Katoki who said that we had to respect the dead or something and I was bored shit out of my mind of listening to the stupid principal. Darn, I should have made a run for it…
And then everyone in class was talking about it that I had to sleep my way…
I couldn't sleep so instead I listened to some music with my CD player. I was glad it didn't do that strange daydream again. Lucky me…yay…note the sarcastic tone…
And now that I was home, I heard the door bell ring. Annoyed I opened the door to see a man in his 20s with a notebook and pen in hand.
"Hello there Mr. Bokyaku. You are Kizu right?"
I blinked bored at him, "yeah?"
"I'm a reporter – Ushiga Korutawa and I have a few questions to ask about Natsumi"
"Okay…" I said unsure.
"I was told, by some of Natsumi's friends that she had a crush on you – they said that she gave you a letter. What was inside it?"
I blinked, "I threw it away before I could open it"
In truth I think it's still there in the trash bin of mine. But I can't be bothered to go and open it for him. Like I give a shits about what he wants, this aint his house.
"Oh, so does that mean you have…rejected her…?"
"I hardly know her" I stated as a matter of fact.
The reporter became silent and nodded his head. He smiled and said his goodbyes as I glared at him for wasting my time. Sighing I went back up to my room and stopped to look down at the letter.
Picking it up and opening it I read its contents…
What the FUCK is this?!
To Kizu Bokyaku…
This is a letter for you…I don't know how to express my feelings for you but I know that I feel everything right for you. In truth, I had always had a crush on you since year 2. You were so cute, so hot and nice, after your mother passed away, I realized that you had become…different. I understand you, I truly do…
So in this letter I want to say that I want to be by your side forever and ever. I want you to open up to me but I'm scared, with your new attitude towards people – you scare me sometimes…really much that I'm afraid to lose any hope of you feeling the same way to me like I do to you. Kizu, I understand your life is not as good as anybody's but so was mine. My father hits me along with my mother and it is because of my aggressive father that he makes my mother depress. He kicked me out of my house yesterday…
And I was too depressed to think of anything but I have a feeling…It was for the best…
I can't live in this world like the way you humans do. So the only thing I could do…I want to be beside you forever…
I love you so much Kizu that it scares me to do this but I have to…in order to be beside you forever…
That woman…in my dreams, I am haunted by her but she told me – she told me that I can have you join me if I join her…I will go because I know that deep down you feel the same way for me and that it's the right thing to do…
It is…and…
Kizu…I love you…I hope you join me very soon so we can live forever. I know it's a foolish and stupid thing to think but I know that woman will help me have you for myself. Let's live together, in another world…
I know this is weird but I guess you can call this my Will of love to you…
I'm waiting…
Natsumi Horinama
I blinked my eyes and threw the paper to the ground. Shock, I shivered at the words written. So…it was half my fault and her father's that she ended up killing herself. If it wasn't hard enough, why do these people do this? She is an insane girl…
Seriously? THE FUCK?!
Man, I'm too freaked out to even say anything…
Shock I ripped the love letter up and threw it into a plastic bag then stormed outside and threw it into the large garbage bin. Walking back to my room, I locked the door and windows and lay in bed. For some reason…
I really was longing for my mother…
What an insane girl…
Yet…I'm more scared of her coming to haunt me then I am shock…what was she talking about? Some woman is going to help her bring me to join her? Does that mean that I'm going to be…
Killed?
AH FREAKEN, DAMN, STUPID SHIT STICKS…
I didn't want a world like that…
SERIOUSLY, HELL NO!
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Crap…
So ends this chapter. Hope you enjoyed it. And please Review for me x3 or just let me know that you're out there reading this coz…well…yeah…LOL no words could describe what I'm getting at.