Once Twilight was popular and of course now new and maybe better things have come along. There are less readers hence less writers. I tried to find m/m stories that I haven't read and the rare few that are been written at the moment are great. Sad to see this fandom fade. Someone told me that I shouldn't beg for reviews and hold my stories hostage because they didn't owe me anything. Sadly that person was a guest and I couldn't respond personally. However they are right you don't owe me anything, just like I don't owe the readers anything. I choose to write for the love of it and because of that I am going to finish up and say good bye to fanfic. So all my stories are being wound down. I won't be adding new ones even one shots. So thanks to those who make it feel like I am giving them some joy for just a few minutes of their day.

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Chapter 4

"Please leave." Seth rolled away from Jacob.

"Seth, I…"

"Leave NOW!"

Jacob sighed and got up. "I do love you Seth just know that."

With that Jacob jumped out the window and walked back to La-Push not caring to phase. It was breaking dawn when he stepped into the house. Brady was sitting on the couch feeding DJ. Quickly wiping his tears Jacob smiled sadly and went upstairs.

"Jake?"

"Not now Brady."

Jacob went to his room and sat on the bed. Why did everything have to be complicated for him? All he wanted was a quiet life. Be a normal person. So deep in his own thoughts he never heard the rest of the pack get up and start their day. Not Leah singing while she brushed her hair her voice that of an angel. Or Embry throwing up in the bathroom the tea not helping one bit at the moment. The sweet words of love that Paul whispered into his lovers ear as they look down at their young son who squealed as his father's gushed at him.

Life carried on. Jacob did his patrols and sat with the rest of the pack at meal times. Seth returned home and it was like nothing had happened. They all acted as though they were happy and yet each carried a pain that they wouldn't share with one another. Embry was getting restless and a new nursery was being prepared. Often Jacob would come home to see someone by Embry's swollen stomach cooing at the unborn child.

Leah had organised a shower for Embry. The pack's mates were invited all knowing the secret. Sam invited Paul and Jacob over for a BBQ leaving the girls to gush over a very tried Embry. Jacob sat quietly out the back sipping a beer someone had handed him as he walked through the door.

"Wanna talk?" Jared said sitting down next to his former pack brother.

"What does it feel like to be in love?"

"Don't you know?" Jared asked unsure what Jacob was actually meaning.

"No not really." Jacob shrugged.

Jared smiled and patted Jacob on the back. "No one knows my friend. To each of us it is different. All I know is that I couldn't imagine my life without Kim. She is my other half. I'm not meaning the imprint. Sure it's there but when I let my wolf go the imprint is no longer what binds us together. It is our love that does. You know just tell them. Only you know what love feels like for you."

"Fucking imprinting. Another fucking screw up." Jacob growled.

"I can't say I agree with you about imprinting. I would never have given Kim the time of day. Yet she is perfect for me. She knows me better than myself. Love is scary Jake no one will tell you different. Its not perfect no relationship is. You going to tell me who it is?"

Jacob sighed and looked over at the house. "Wanna go for a walk?" Without saying anything they headed towards the cliffs.

Both men sat with their legs dangling over the cliff face. Jared looked down and cringed remembering all the times he and the pack jumped. If he tried it now he would no doubt die a painful death. Leaning back he shuffled back a bit more. Jacob chuckled and shook his head. They remained quiet while they finished off the six pack Jared had snagged on their way up.

"Paul." Jacob said suddenly.

"Paul what?" Jared asked his brows furrowing.

"I found out why the imprint broke and why it happened in the first place. It took Quil senior a lot of research and it wasn't until I laid my heart out that he finally figured it out."

"Wait back up. Are you telling me that you're in love with Paul?"

"Not now. Geez okay well maybe a little bit." Jacob chuckled trying to hide his blush. "Before I phased I had my first boy crush on Paul."

"Paul!"

"What? I mean look at him. Before he phased he was a hot bad boy."

"That is seriously wrong. Paul?"

"Yeah okay lets forget Paul for now. If you ever tell him I said this I will rip your balls off and throw them to Leah for her to eat." Jared covered his crotch and nodded but he was chewing his lower lip not to let the laugh that was building up inside him to escape.

"So you've been gay the whole time?"

"Nope, Paul was just a faze. I was fifteen at the time just before Bella returned to live with her father. Did you know that we are born with our wolves already inside? They grow as we do. They are just cubs like us who had no idea how to come out."

"I think Sam mentioned it once. I wonder if our kids will have it in them."

"Every generation we do. Some just never get the chance to come out and play." Jacob chuckled.

"Do you ever regret shifting?"

"Yes and no. I can't imagine my life without him now." Jared sighed.

"Carry on with your findings."

"Well according to the books I'm not the first it has happened to. Paul's wolf was calling to mine before either of us knew what we where."

"Wait so he is your mate your imprint."

"Nope that is where it gets interesting. How can me and Paul be mate's, he is a dom and so am I true alpha of the pack. It was my wolf denying me Paul by giving me an imprint and it had to be through Bella before Nessie was born. All interest in the same sex went right out the window. I was no longer curious because I had found what I thought was love."

"Why didn't you get to be with one of the submissives?"

"Because none of them were ready for me."

"But neither was devil spawn right?"

"Nope she was never meant to be my mate. It would seem that I was suppose to go this way. Leave the pack and find my way in life for a while until my mate and myself were ready. The only thing is I know who my true mate is but I love someone else. It is them I want to spend the rest of my life with. Who I can't imagine waking up to every morning and seeing his beautiful face and telling him how much I love him. I just wish I could tell him and know that I will never hurt him."

"Greedy fucker." Jared chuckled. "So you gonna tell me who they are?"

"You have to promise it never leaves here. I don't want either of them to find out who my mate is."

"I swear I won't even tell Kim."

"I'm in love with Seth."

"Yeah kinda figured that. I'm happy for you and I know he loves you too. He was so lost with you gone."

"Yeah I missed him so much. I didn't realise until I returned that I loved him more than a brother though. The minute he tackled me at Quil's he had my heart. That was until I laid eyes on my mate. It's Brady"

"Oh my god. Seriously?"

"Yeah." Jacob sighed. "Come on they will be sending the search party out for us if we don't get back.

"You gotta tell them Jake. You can't hide it forever you know."

"I won't break them up. They are so in love it's not funny. My mate is happy without me and as long as he is close I can live with that. I have Seth and I know I can make him happy and me him. If he will give me a chance. He knows I love someone else I have been honest with him I just haven't told him who that person is."

"Jacob if Paul finds out he will do murder."

"Yeah no shit."

"I still think you have to tell Brady though. Paul has marked him as his mate. So that means he is your !"

"Oh is putting it lightly. I'm so fucked its not funny."

"Jake we need to talk." Jacob and Jared looked at each other and cringed.

Jared got up and patted Jacob on the shoulder. "See you later." he said walking past his former pack brother. "Just hear him out." The wolf nodded his eyes not leaving Jacob's.

Jacob turned and looked back over the ocean. The waves swirling around the rocks just like the insides of his guts. "I'm sorry Brady I never meant for you to find out this way."

"Jake I imprinted back. Paul knows."

"What?"

"He's not blind Jake. I am his mate. I carry his mark, I had his cub. I love him like nothing else. Why do you think I allowed you to do what you did that night you saw me breast feeding DJ? I'll tell you. It was a test."

"A test?"

"I had to prove to Paul that I loved him more without an imprint than I do with the imprint on you. Jacob I'm not denying you and I hope you won't' deny me, but I want to be with Paul. I hope we can be best friends. I want to see you as happy as me. I know that Seth can give you that just like Paul can me."

"Why is Paul accepting this?"

"Embry."

"What about him?"

"Paul imprinted on him when he first phased."

"How?"

"Embry doesn't want to be loved by an imprint. Paul and Embry will always be tied together. I'm okay with that. They will be lovers from time to time, but they have agreed to follow their hearts and find love the normal way."

"Embry didn't imprint on Paul?"

"Nope."

"This is so fucked up." Jacob sighed. "Brady I love you."

"I love you too Jake. Nothing will ever change that. We were just not meant to be anything but friends. You're just too... "

"Nice?" Jacob chuckled.

"I was going to say to in love with a boy who has waited nearly ten years for you to be true to yourself. Go to him Jake, make him happy. If one day you decide to tell him about the imprint then I will support you. Honestly though I think right now you need to prove to him that you love him like no one else."

Jacob stood up and held his hand out to his imprint. Brady happily took it and they walked back to Sam's hand in hand. Paul was waiting outside for them. Jacob went to drop Brady's hand but the submissive held on tighter. The alpha glared at them as he watched them his gaze going to their entwined fingers. Once they were standing just a few feet from him Brady pulled Jacob's hand up with his and kissed it.

"Go get your wolf." he let go and went to his lover.

Jacob saw the tension leave Paul's shoulders and heard the gush of air leave his lungs. "You hurt him and I will personally see you ripped to shreds." Jacob said meaning every single word he said.

"Thanks Jacob I wouldn't expect anything less." Paul said while he tucked Brady under his arm.

Paul turned and walked back into Sam's Brady pressed to his side. Jacob smiled as he heard his old pack greet the happy couple. Now it was his turn to go find his happy ever after.

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