Previously…

She danced in a meadow, the white cotton dress flowing around her. Her brown curls fell to her slim milky shoulders. Her feet were bear, the dirt clinging to them. She laughed happily and threw her head back. The sound was enchanting and I found a smile start to creep onto my face.

"Jasper," she sighed, and turned so she could stare into my eyes. And her hand came to caress my cheek, a tender smile alighted her face.

"Find me…"

Esme's P.O.V.

Bella.

I shivered when I thought of the name. Like a burning caress it crawled over my hard granite skin and straight into my nonexistent heart filling me with an agonizing pain.

My beautiful Bella: Sweet and caring, selfless and brave. My daughter. Not like Alice or Rosalie, somehow… different. My love for her was so fierce that not even I could comprehend the meaning of it.

And now she was gone. And just as fast as she had appeared in our life, she vanished. A part of me left with her, and I knew that life would never be the same. She had given me back a piece of my humanity that I left behind long ago, a child. A child… not like my vampire children, a child that needed a mother, one who needed guidance and love. Though I loved my other children they didn't seem to need me, and I knew it sounded foolish, they were over one hundred years old.

I watched Jasper kneel on the floor a blank expression on his handsome face, his head was tilted back a little and I saw a soft smile grace his face. "Bella," he whispered, and sighed in content. Alice stepped forward to touch him but Carlisle stopped her shaking his head in protest.

"Leave him be Alice," he ordered but his tone gentle, "he's hurting". She stumbled back as if she had been smacked, anger evident on her face. She balled her hands into fists and laughed- a bitter cold laugh.

"He's hurting," she repeated his words shaking her head in disbelief. I reached out for her but she growled, giving me a glare. Saddened by her attitude towards me I wrapped it around my stomach, shaking my head at Carlisle when he snarled at her. Now was not the time.

"One second", she cried, "just one second and he fell out of love with me. And the thing is", she paused shaking her head, "I can't hate him or her, because it's not their fault. And although I'm excepting it I don't think… I just can't… I won't be able to face him anymore. I love him and seeing him like this", she waved her hand in his direction, "It's just too much. Watching him fall apart for another, its hurts. So don't tell me that he's hurting, I'm hurting. And I don't think I can do this anymore", she finished with a shake of her head.

"So your giving up, "Rosalie snarled, finally speaking up, "not only are you giving Jasper up but your giving us up- your family! I'm actually starting to think Jasper would have always been better with that human", she sneered in disdain, "than you, a vampire who doesn't have the balls to face her fears. I say you take it like a goddamn vampire, not a wimp, a vampire and show him what he's missing. But to go and leave… everything cause he doesn't love you", she spat, "that's cowardly.

"He will always love you," she said a little softer when she saw Alice shaking with silent tears, "But you won't be the Alice he…no… we know if you're giving US up for a reason like that. Alice the love you two share, it's not," she paused, "it's not how loves suppose to be. You control him and sometimes you make him insecure and I hate you for that, but I love you all the more for piecing him back together for being my sister," she smiled, "But we all know things happen for a reason, maybe Jaspers love for another will lead you to greater things. Even you can't see everything Alice," her voice cooled down and she pulled Alice into an embrace.

Rosalie, my firecracker. Cold and distant but when concerning her family loyal, fierce, and protective.

"We need to find her," a voice said. I realized it was Jaspers, he sat on the floor looking at all of us his eyes pleading, "We have to find her, she told me to find her," he cried. He grabbed his head and shook it, "she's waiting for me", he roared eyes turning black, "I promised her I'd find her. Find her. Find her," and without warning her collapsed.

Jasper.

Jaspers P.O.V.

"Find me…"

I reached for her but every time I did she danced away laughing in glee. I got up from the grass reaching out for her but sighing when she shook her head.

"Please," I pleaded," Don't leave me again". I couldn't bear to see her leave; I had just gotten her back.

"I never left Jazz," she sighed softly and twirled a piece of hair around a finger, " I'm still here with you, no matter what. I'm here with you… you just don't know it".

"They said you were dead", I whispered, "They said you were gone".

"Am I, am I really dead Jazz?," she asked with a sad smile, " You'd feel it, you'd feel me GONE if I was dead. Find me, find out the truth. I'm still here Jazz even if you don't see me. Can't you feel me?"

I wanted to ask her more questions but she silenced me by placing a finger against her own lips, and I closed my mouth watching as she smiled- such a beautiful smile.

"I'm closer than you think".

A/N: I know another cliff hanger but after this chapter the action starts. YAY! So Bella's not dead, but how? And where is she? Didn't Alice see her dying? What's going to happen next? All these will be answered soon enough. Confusing (sigh) I know, but it'll all make sense… soon. So I hoped you enjoyed this chapter I had a lot of fun writing it. Please comment good or bad. Thanks.