IV. Confusion

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Haruhi walked slowly to her classroom lost in thoughts. Of course, her head was full of thoughts of Touji that her head was aching. At first Haruhi thought of avoiding Touji even if it means to have to leave the school but Haruhi knew it was too late for that since she already met him, or perhaps she just didn't want to leave Ouran High School. After all, many things had happened there that she can't possibly expect to happen in her life time.

"I am thinking way too much about this matter…" Haruhi said to herself tiredly thinking that it wasn't her style to think so much as she clearing her head before going into classroom. But just when she was about to go in, she saw Touji talking to twins through slightly opened door. Haruhi automatically hid herself from being seeing. Her heart was beating fast. Seeing Touji in her class talking to the twins was least thing she was expecting although it should be obvious since Touji is same aged as her.

Haruhi lost interest in attending classes when she saw Touji in her very class. She couldn't face Touji especially when the twins were there. And so she fled from there and went to garden which was behind the school building hoping to find some place where she can clear her head and sort things out more thoroughly but there she saw…

"Umm… Mori-senpai?" Haruhi said a little shocked to see Mori there who was sitting on the bench.

"Ah…"

"You are not with Hani-senpai?" Haruhi asked looking around the area.

"Ah…" Mori responded in his usual emotionless tone.

At first Haruhi felt uneasy since the atmosphere was kind of dead but somehow she was relieved. The fact that Mori doesn't talk much makes her uneasy around him but if it was Tamaki she found there instead of Mori, it would only make things worse and so she was kind of happy to find Mori there. After all being alone would be lonely regardless what situation she is in. Haruhi sat beside Mori and thought about the situation she was in.

"Is something bothering you?" Mori asked looking at Haruhi.

Haruhi was shocked since it was unusual for Mori to say something first. "Umm…" Haruhi couldn't answer since the whole situation was a mess and mustn't be known to others, at least that's what she thought.

There was silence.

"Mori-senpai…" Haruhi said breaking the silence. "Umm… Do you have any secret that you haven't told to Hani-senpai?" Haruhi asked.

Mori was shocked with this question but, "No." Mori said simply.

"Really? That's something…" said Haruhi quite surprised with Mori's answer. "But what if that secret will cause Hani-senpai to leave you or something like that? Would you still tell him?" Haruhi asked uncertainly.

Mori looked at Haruhi emotionlessly but in his mind he was curious and was really shocked. "Mitsukuni won't leave me…" Mori said in his monotone but with confidence.

'I must be stupid to ask such question to Mori-senpai…' Haruhi thought with sweat drop on her head but she like the confident that Mori had, which she could say that she didn't have. "To have such confidence… how nice…" Haruhi said in a low voice.

Mori looked at Haruhi rather strangely and asked, "You have something you can't tell?"

"Eh?" Haruhi was startled because Touji face suddenly popped in her head when Mori asked. "I… I think everyone has at least one thing that they can't tell… well except Mori-senpai…" Haruhi said smiling rather bitterly.

"Is it your father that you can't tell to?" Mori asked out of curiosity.

"Well… yes…" Haruhi replied reluctantly.

"You are scared that he will abandon you if you tell him the secret?..." Mori paused for a moment when he saw Haruhi's troubled expression. "Don't you have faith in him?"

"Huh?" Haruhi was puzzled.

"If you have faith in him then I think you will be able to tell anything. I can tell everything to Mitsukuni because I have faith in him and I know he will understand it. I trust him." Mori said as he smiled gazing at the garden.

Haruhi was speechless but she somehow felt as though the worries of hers were lifted.

"Try to have more faith in your father. If it is you that concerns the matter I am sure that your father would understand." Mori said trying to comfort Haruhi in his own way.

Haruhi was more than satisfied although the fact that Mori said that without knowing her past that she was hiding saddened her. She wasn't sure that Mori would still say the same thing even after hearing her past.

"I trust my father but well…" Haruhi wanted say something but she couldn't find anything to say.

Mori looked at Haruhi closely. He was sure something was wrong but he couldn't ask further since he knew that it was something that Haruhi couldn't even tell to her father and that made him more curious.

While Haruhi and Mori were lost in their own world, they heard rushing footsteps.

"Ah? Takashi, Haru-chan… What are you guys doing here?" Hani said jumping out of nowhere.

"Hani-senpai…" Haruhi said rather cheerfully.

"Were you guys having fun without me?" Hani said tears in his eyes.

"Of course not." Haruhi said and laughed at Hani's childish behavior.

"Hehe… I want to eat cake with Haru-chan but Takashi and I have to go to class now… I am sorry Haru-chan…" Hani said regrettably.

"…" haruhi just smiled not knowing how she should respond to this.

"By the way, don't you have class?" Hani asked.

"Umm…" Haruhi hesitated.

"Sometimes it is also good to take break, ne?" Hani said smiling sweetly and Haruhi couldn't help but smile back.

After Hani and Mori left, Haruhi still sat there, alone. Although Haruhi found it quite interesting yet uncomfortable to meet members of Host Club unintentionally, she felt relieved after meeting them, especially when she met Mori. Although what Mori said still puzzled her and yet to be understood, she somehow felt as though she understands what exactly Mori was trying to say and at the same time she couldn't understand what that has to do with her.

'Faith… don't I have faith in my father and others? But I trust them, don't I? Isn't that also mean that I have faith in them? But what Mori-senpai told me was… Did Mori-senpai mean that I don't have faith in my father? But if I don't have faith, doesn't that mean that I don't trust them? What am I thinking? I am just not telling them because it is not necessary.' Haruhi thought and hoped that what she was thinking was right.

While Haruhi was thinking about this not knowing that time was passing very quickly, the other Host Club members were gathered together by Kyouya.

"So, what's this all about, Kyouya?" Tamaki asked sitting down on the chair tiredly.

"This is Lunch Time. Why do we have to come to Club even during the Lunck Break?" Hikaru complained.

"You can eat the cake… anyway why don't you sit down? I believe this is going to take a while." Kyouya said.

"But why isn't Haru-chan here?" Hani asked as he throwing himself on the sofa which was the nearest place to where the cake was.

Kyouya adjusted his glasses.

"Let's wait until she comes…" Tamaki suggested.

"Come to think about it, Haruhi didn't come to class though her bag was in classroom. I wonder if we should search for her." Kaoru said which made Tamaki half jump from where he was sitting with horrified look on his face.

'Didn't Haruhi went back to classroom after we went to our classroom?' Mori and Hani thought thinking back when they met Haruhi.

"There is no need for that…" Kyouya paused and looked at others who gave him look of shock, "Haruhi wants quit being a Host and that's why we are gathered here so…" Kyouya said getting ready for their respond to this although he knew what exactly their reaction would be.

There was silence. Of course, everyone was thinking that Kyouya was joking but then they realized that the Shadow King doesn't joke. Either way, they couldn't say anything in respond except…

"WHAT?!" all the Club members shouted together with dumb-founded look on their faces except Kyouya.

'It's just as I anticipated.' Kyouya thought adjusting his glasses once more. "Haruhi became Host because of her Debt and she said that she is going to pay the remaining debt in other way but…" but before Kyouya could finish his sentence, he was interrupted by Tamaki.

"What do you mean? Even though she became Host because of the debt, she is now an official member of Host Club!!" Tamaki said getting emotional.

"But there is problem…" Kyouya said and looked at the other members thinking how they would respond to his next little information, "Like I said, Haruhi became a Host to pay her debt and we won't lose anything if she says going to pay her debt in other way and we will have no right to stop her… but what she doesn't know is that her debt has already been paid off."

Everyone gasped when Kyouya said this. It was just too sudden. Although they knew that Haruhi became Host to pay off her debt, they never thought that this day would actually came when Haruhi wants to quit being a Host and at the most crucial time when her debt has been already paid off making her harder to stay at Host Club. But there was no way that the Host club was going to back down.

'We mustn't let Haruhi know that her debt has been paid off. We must find some way to make her stay.' Tamaki and Hikaru thought getting desperate.

'But why so sudden?' Kaoru and Hani thought thinking something wasn't right.

'Does this have something to do with her secret that she mentioned?' Mori thought who got the reason for Haruhi wanting to quit Host Club by chance, although he didn't know what the secret was.

'So what will you do now?' Kyouya thought who found the whole situation quite enjoyable though he was quite uncertain about the outcome. Although he did some research and could get the picture somehow, he felt as though something was missing which he actually found very challenging.

And so while everyone was discussing about the plan to make Haruhi remain as a Host, Haruhi was thinking how she can quit being a Host without having to go through all the troubles Host Club members are going to put her in and also what she will do when she meets Touji the next time when she meets him which is actually only a few hours away.

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To be Continued…