I'm kinda liking where this one is going so I'm gonna throw up a few more chapters see where it takes us. Who's ready for a new adventure?

Enjoy.

"And he didn't even look!" Axel said and we both laughed. "I couldn't believe he didn't look. He had to have known it was coming!" I hugged myself and tried to breath around the laughter.

"Oh god, how dumb can your brother be?" I asked as we pulled up to my apartment. He chuckled a bit and shook his head. I wiped at my eyes as the laughter started to subside. "I can't believe how much fun this has been." I said with out thinking.

"Did you think I wouldn't be fun?" he asked with a smirk. I blushed and looked out the passenger window.

"No, I just didn't know I was capable of having fun anymore. At least fun without alcohol involved." I said with a sad smile. I pulled the door opened and got out of the car without waiting for a response. Axel killed the engine and I paused on the sidewalk.

"You're not getting off that easy." he said as he got out of the car and joined me on the side walk. I smiled but didn't look up at him.

"I'd hoped not." I muttered. I felt a hand grab mine and I looked down as he placed his phone into my palm. I took it but gave him a questioning look.

"I need your number Roxie." he said with a smile and I wanted to swoon. I gave a goofy grin and entered my number into his phone and pressed call. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket and I hung up before handing his phone back.

"There you go." I said. He slid it back into his pocket as he grabbed my hand and brought it up to his lips.

"Now, if I recall correctly you wanted me to do this 'like everyone else.'" he said with a smirk as his lips brushed my hand. I blushed and looked away for a moment as I nodded. He pulled my hand above my head and spun me around. I laughed as I spun and gasped when he pulled me against him and continue to pull me along with him as we ballroom danced on the sidewalk. I continued to laugh as he dipped me down and pulled me back up and into a spin. "So, 'like everyone else' I guess I'll ask." he dipped me again but paused the dance and I stopped laughing as his face got serious. "Roxas, will you go out with me?" My face was burning up as I stared up at him from my suspended position.

My mouth was dry, my heart was pounding, and my hands were sweating where they were clenched in the back of Axel's vest. My mind was going a mile a minute. Yes, no, yes, no...

"Yes." I gasped and the smile that stretched a crossed his face was so genuine that I wanted to cry.

"Good." he said as he pulled me back up and spun me one last time before he pulled me to him, his arm keeping me trapped to him. "I'll pick you tomorrow at 6."

"O..Okay." I stuttered, my left hand on his chest and my right still locked in his. He leaned forward and kissed my cheek before releasing me and stepping away. I placed my hand on my cheek.

"Good night Roxas." he said as he turned and went for his car.

"Good night!" I called after him. He paused as he was lowering himself into his car and smiled at me.

"Until tomorrow." he said and then he was in his car and speeding off down the road. I stood there for a while, a bit dazed. I was going on a date with Axel tomorrow. I broke out in my happy dance right there on the side walk. Nothing could bring me down!

"Latest conquest?" came a chilling voice from behind me. I froze and quickly turned to find my oldest brother standing at the the foot of the stair case that led up to my apartment. I crossed my arms and locked my emotions down tight.

"No." was all I said as he stepped into the light that was being cast by the street lamp.

"Well I'm sure you'll fix that soon." he said. I rolled my eyes to hide my anger.

"What do you want Cloud?" I asked, my patience wearing thin.

"I came to tell you that Sora is moving." he said and I nodded.

"I know." I replied as I started toward the stairs and past him. "Is that all?" I asked as I past him.

"I just thought you'd want to know so that you could apologize before they left." he said. I could detect the touch of anger leaking through his voice. I opened my mouth to deliver some scathing response but Axel's advice had me shutting up.

"Thank you. That's a good idea." I said, I saw the shock on his face before I started up the stairs. I heard him follow me.

"Wait, what?" he asked. I stopped at the top of the stairs and looked down at him, forcing him to stop as well.

"I will apologize to Sora, what happened was a mistake and I was in the wrong." I said and I took a deep breath. "Also, I'm sorry to you as well. I know that my actions have taken a toll on everyone around me." He was glaring up at me now.

"Are you going to AA or something? Was that guy your sponsor?" he asked and I rolled my eyes.

"Actually his name is Axel and he's a bartender." I said and something about the way I said his name had my brother looking even more shocked.

"You like him?" he asked. I huffed and rolled my eyes. I turned my back on him and unlocked my apartment before going inside. I flipped on the lights as he followed me in, closing the door behind him.

"If you haven't noticed Cloud, I like everybody." I said as I tossed my jacket onto the couch.

"No, no, no." he said as he followed me toward the kitchen. "You are borderline sober, he dropped you off, kissed your hand, and then left. He didn't come up with you, and you were both wearing all of your cloths. You like him, like him." he said and I could just hear the smirk in his voice. I turned on him them and shoved my finger into his chest.

"Shut up." I said. "You know what they say about assuming things."

"I hope he chews up your heart and spits it out." he said with a smirk. I frowned and backed away from him.

"I know I deserve that but that's a little hurtful Cloud." I said with a pout.

"Whatever Roxas." he said. "Go apologize to Sora. Tomorrow." I rolled my eyes and waved him off.

"Yeah, yeah. I said I would so be gone with ya bad self." I said as I pulled out a bottle of water.

"And Roxas?" He said and I turned to find him by the front door again. "Try and be sincere about it. You didn't break his favorite toy, you tried to ruin his life." I felt my heart clench.

"I am aware of what I've done." I said as I let all the joking facade drop away. He searched my face for a moment before he nodded.

"Good." he said and then he was gone. I leaned against my kitchen counter and tried to control the anger that I felt rise in my chest. And for the first time in a while I realized that the anger was at myself and not at my brother. I had done this, I drove this wedge between my family all because of a misplaced drink and a little jealously.

It was true that I hadn't been in my right mind that night I fell into bed with Riku, one of my drinks (as I would later find out) had been laced with Rohypnol and most of the night is a blank. The next morning though, was seared into my memory like a reacquiring nightmare.

The easy way out would have been to blame it on the drugs once the test came back positive. But let's face it, no one would have believed me and then, they may have accused Riku of giving me the drugs. So I never told anyone. Not only to protect Riku but to save face on my part. I didn't want to admit that someone had gotten the better of me with a stupid ruffie.

The hard truth was that the drugs just helped along the inevitable, I had always been searingly jealous of Sora and Riku's perfect little relationship. I would have tried for Riku eventually and maybe he would have turned me down if we hadn't both been trashed beyond belief but it had happened. Riku and Sora where moving on from it, bounced back by the fact that I was a whore who tempted Riku from the light.

I took a swig of water and headed from my bathroom, no need to wallow in it tonight. Not when I was going to go rub my face in it tomorrow.

The next morning found me groggy and confused by the lack of hang over. I rolled over and examined my ceiling as the nights events came back to me. My face flushed as I thought of Axel and his damn sexyness, and then my face drained of all color as I thought of my brothers. I groaned and rolled over, having every intention of going back to sleep when my phone buzzed from its place on my bed side table.

I reached over and glared at the annoying little screen only to find a message from a number I didn't know.

Good morning sunshine! See you at 6 ;)

This had my face flaring with color once again as I let slip a goofy ass grin at the stupid message. God I was in so much trouble. I set up and sent a quick reply back I'm all a flutter with anticipation. I pushed myself out of bed and to my closet, looking for something normal to wear for the heart felt apology I was about to deliver.

I quickly settled on a pair of light jeans and plain black shirt. I grabbed my red leather jacket and headed for the living when my phone buzzed again.

I sense some sarcasm there Roxie, when in reality that comment should have been completely sincere. The stupid grin was back on my face.

Oh? Simple and gave him a wide opening to tell me what he had planned for the evening. I patted myself on the back before slipping on my shoes and heading down to my awaiting car. It was a sad little POS that had seen better days but it got me from one point to the next when I had to drive, which wasn't often. I slid behind the wheel and took a deep breath.

"You can do this Rox." I said aloud as I started the car. "It's just an apology, and then he's gone. You'll only have to see him on holidays maybe." I felt the dread settle in the pit of my stomach as I left my complex and headed towards Sora's. I pulled up in front of their building and imminently wanted to be any where else.

Everyone was here, they must have been having some kind of going away party. They were all outside, gathered around a couple of picnic tables. I silently cursed Cloud, he would have known this was going to be going on and let me come over here anyway. Before I could put the car in reverse though I made eye contact with Riku who was talking with some of the guys from our office. I let out a deep breath and put the car in park as most of the people gathered where now looking in my direction.

Can't back down now. I got out of the car and headed toward the group, my usual smirk in place as I made my way toward Riku and my brother. Sora looked like he had swallowed a lemon, his stupid little face puckered up and glaring at me. Riku looked a little worried but he was hiding it well. No one said a word as I approached.

"Well, well, well, look at the party I wasn't invited too!" I said with a smile for the group. Most just glared back at me but a few looked hopeful, like maybe now it would get interesting.

"What are you doing here Roxas?" Sora finally asked. I turned my smile on him, ready to make some kind of smart ass retort when I caught Cloud's eye and the knowing smirk on his face shut me up. He expected me to fail, he expected me to chicken out on my apology now that it would be in front of people. Fucker. I hissed at him mentally.

"I came to apologize." I said, the collective gasp was a little uncalled for. I rolled my eyes and glared at the people around me. "Oh fuck off." Sora opened his mouth, his face showing his anger but I cut him off. "I'm not here to make up, I'm not here seeking forgiveness from you. I don't deserve that. I'm simply here to acknowledge the fact that what I did was wrong. That I fucked up, and I'm glad you're leaving, I'm glad that you two are pushing through this. No one deserves happiness more then you Sor." Here I stopped because I was getting a little too sappy for myself. I cleared my throat. "So yeah, I'm sorry." I placed my hands in my pockets and felt a little vindicated at the shocked look on Clouds face. Riku looked like he wanted to say something but kept his mouth closed, waiting for Sora to go first. When I looked into the face that mirrored mine I found nothing but sadness there.

"Thank you." he said, as he reached back and took Riku's hand in his. "I know that couldn't have been easy for you and thank you for not asking for forgiveness because that's not in me at this point." When his eyes met mine again I saw the anger there, the pain, the betrayal. "I had thought that no one in this world was closer to me then you. I knew what you where, knew what you did but I never dreamed you do it to me."

"Honestly?" I said as I rocked back on my heels. "Neither did I. It wasn't like some grand scheme that I had cooked up in my head, it wasn't something I had ever even acknowledged that I wanted..." I trailed off. "I'm not saying it was an accident, and there is no excuse for what happened that night but it wasn't planned." I said as I held his gaze.

"There is something you aren't telling me." Sora said and I took a step back. Being twins had it's downfalls. Sometimes we just know things about one another, things you can't really explain.

"Sora, let's not do this right now." I said, my hands balled in fist inside my jacket pocket. He was glaring at me now, he reached out and snatched my arm.

"If you all will excuse us." He said and he drug me over to his apartment and into living room, slamming the door behind us.

"Sor.." I started but he cut me off with a jab to my chest.

"No! You owe me the truth god damn it." he snarled at me. I backed away from his accusing finger and shook my head. The door opened and Riku stepped inside, Sora turned his glare on his fiance. "I need to talk to Roxas alone Riku."

"He can be here Sora, he was already knows all there is to know." I said with maybe a hint of humor. Sora didn't find it funny.

"What the hell aren't you telling me?" he hissed at me. I turned away from him and pulled at my blond spikes.

"Just tell him Roxas." Riku said with a sigh. I turned back to them to find Sora looking slightly more worried now then angry.

"That night at the party, someone drugged me." I said with a sigh. "Most of the night is a blank. I honestly couldn't even tell you what we did or even if it was good or not."

"Roxas" Sora said, his voice laced with worry now as he came over and grabbed my arm, his face searching mine. "Why didn't you tell me this sooner?"

"Because I knew you'd do this!" I said pointing at his face. "You'd forgive me, claim it wasn't my fault that someone took advantage of me, and thankfully I wasn't raped and killed by some stranger! But Sora this is who I am! Even you said not even ten minuets ago! I'm toxic, I'm a mess and I don't deserve to keep dragging you all down with me."

"That's not fair! You're not a bad person.." he started to say but I broke him off by laughing bitterly in his face.

"Oh what? I just make bad choices is that it? Sora do us both a favor and don't forgive me. Move on with your life like you planned too, and don't look back." I said as I pushed past him. I paused for a moment, as I examined Riku. "It's a real damn shame that I can't remember." I said with a wistful sigh and then was out the door and headed for my car.

I found Cloud leaning against the POS and I shot him a cool glare.

"You did a good thing today little brother." he said and I was rewarded with one of his rare smirks.

"Fuck off Cloud." I said as I slid into my car and started the engine. I shot out of the parking lot and toward home, ignoring the searing pain in my chest and behind my eyes.

"FUCK" I snarled as I hit the steering wheel with the palm of my hands.