A/N Hi! I'm back! So here is chapter four.
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Chapter four
Time passed...yet again! I was so bored of this waiting about.
I wanted to do something...anything to stop the monotony of good pouring from the people around me. My family, my friends, etc, etc...
It had been several months since I had, I don't know, I wasn't born. Come to be, I guess.
At the three week mark I had started watching How To Train Your Dragon stuff, I was so bored.
I seriously respected each villain, and laughed myself to wheezing several times because of the good characters' ridiculousness.
Then I started thinking a bit more. I want the power that comes with dragons...
I started watching a bit more consiously, and I liked what I saw.
I wanted a dragon.
I didn't want a bonded dragon, no, I wanted a servant.
I wanted a slave.
I wanted Toothless.
And the more I thought this, the more I thought how weak Hiccup and the other riders were, basing their bonds off trust, companionship, love, ugh!
I made a plan. I would go to Berk. I would offer a choice. Toothless, and the cheifdom, (I was a girl, so what?) or I would destroy Berk itself.
I could do that. I soon discovered that I had magic.
But then...I found I couldn't.
I couldn't do that.
I told myself over and over again, There is no such thing as love, love does not exist, no, no, NO!
But I couldn't stop it.
I loved Hiccup.
It started with his eyes. I was watching an episode, I don't even remember what it was, and I noticed them.
They were very, well, green, and they were beautiful.
Things went from there.
I noticed his hands. I loved how he would mutter "Ooookay," under his breath whenever Snotlout or the twins did or said something particularly stupid. I watched his face. And when I watched How To Train Your Dragon 2 for the first time, I could only stare when he took off his mask. I'm pretty sure the only thought in my head at that moment was drop-dead gorgeous.
Crazy? Yes. This was the person I had planned to destroy for a long time, and here I was falling in love with him.
No, I told myself so many times. Stop it.
So I had a new thought.
I would steal him.
I would bring him to the future, where he couldn't get back.
The only way to send someone backwards through time is blood from the heart of someone who was in love with them.
Then I thought, that is what I will do. I will take him, and then send him back...after a while.
I knew the spell. Time through time, see what I lack. Heart's Blood of lover, send me back.
I would use my own. I would die.
Then I opened my eyes. I saw what I was, what I had become.
A cold, uncaring, cruel excuse for a human being.
A monster.
I was horrified. I tried to change, but was beyond terrified when I found I didn't know how. I couldn't.
It was so bad, finally, that one night, I shut down. I refused to do or say or think anything.
I'm so tired...can I just rest? For a minute...just a minute...
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What? Are these...my memories? But how, I'm...I'm not that cruel! Wait...who am I?
I opened my eyes. I was in a bunk bed. It was early morning.
Who am I?
I inspected my memories again.
I didn't know.
Was I Molly? No, I decided.
Morgause? Probably not.
...Syrena? Definitely not.
Who am I!? I wondered yet again.
The memories were black, full of pain and suffering and evil and self-hate and wait. They were black.
What is something that is white? I asked myself.
Wedding dresses. Snow. Paper. Ice.
Snow.
Snow.
It hit me. That's who I was! I was Snow. Why?
Because snow is white and white represents good and that is what I wanted to be.
Good.
Snow.
I inspected the memories again, lingering on the ones of the person named Hiccup. I seemed to have loved him. I still do, I thought.
But I had wanted to hurt him. To take him away from people he loved.
Never again, I thought. I will go and help him and his friends. I will be a companion. A helper. A friend.
A friend.
A/N See you all next chapter!