With These Words Chapter 4: Unfaithful, a degrassi fanfic

Woah, another chapter. CRAZY!! The song is called Unfaithful, by Rihanna. This story is kind of more Spaige than Palex but I have my reasons. It still has some Palexy goodness and that's all that matters. Review and continue to request song because I will use them.

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

Spinner and Paige were cuddling on the couch watching a movie when her phone vibrated. It was a text. She knew who it was without even looking.

"I'm gonna go to the bathroom, Hon," she said as she untangled herself from his body. He watches her as she walks away. She enters the bathroom and closes the door behind her. Paige sits down on the side of the tub before reluctantly opening her phone. She reads the message.

I need to see you. Please call me. I'll be waiting.

She doesn't know what to do. She's tired of hurting Spinner, but she can't resist the urge. She dials the all-too-familiar number.

"Hey, Beautiful," the voice on the other line answers.

"Hi, Hazel," she says a little too loudly.

"Heh, your firby must be home. I haven't seen you a few days. I miss you. Come over."

"Shopping," Paige replies with her eyes on the door, " that sounds fantastic. I'll be there in an hour."

"See you then, Baby." Paige can hear the smirk in the voice.

"Bye Hon," she says before hanging up the phone. She flushes the toilet then runs the water. She looks in the mirror and sees the sadness in her own eyes. She's doing it again. Hurting him again. And she doesn't know how to stop.

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

She leaves the bathroom and snuggles up to Spinner again. Her hand rubs against his chest as his rubs up and down her back.

"Spin," she says as she looks into his eyes, " you know I love you right? More than anything. You're so important to me. Everything I am and ever will be is because of you. You're my heart and soul. Please, tell me you know that." He looks down at her with a small smile.

"Of course I know that baby. We've been together for 4 years now. That's the one thing I am sure of. And I won't ever forget it." He kisses her softly n the lips and returns to watching the movie.

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

Paige can tell there was slight hesitation in his voice but she decides to ignore it. She has a feeling that he knows the truth and it must hurt him so much. Maybe he thinks as long as he has most of her, it would be okay. She does love him, but that other person makes her feels things she never felt before. It's addictive. She tries to fight it and just say no. But then that sexy voice whispers the world in her ear and she is left too weak to fight anymore.

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...a murderer

The movie finally ends and Spinner asks if she wants to watch another. She says no and starts to walk towards their bedroom. He grabs her arm and brings her body into him. He kisses her slowly at first, then more passionately. He puts all his love into that kiss, as if it's a last chance. He does this every time he thinks she's going to leave him, to let her know she has him. He wants her and loves her so much. She doesn't have to go to some other guy. He's all she needs. She releases her lips but holds her close. He looks into her eyes, mentally pleading with her to stay with him, be with him, and prove to him that she doesn't need someone else. Paige knows what he wants but she can't. She kisses him on the cheek and continues into their bedroom.

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Paige changes into her little black dress that she bought a few days before. It hugs her in all the right places and would make anyone go gaga over her. Spinners walks up behind her as she sits at the vanity. He watches as she applies her makeup and combs her hair.

"Where are you off to?" he asks as he kisses her lightly on the cheek so not to smudge her makeup. Paige looks up at him through the reflection of the mirror.

"Going to hang out with Hazel for a bit.We're gong to the mall I haven't seen her in awhile so we've got some catching up to do." His face is unreadable and she's afraid what he say next.

"I see. Will you be gone long?"

"Not too late I hope. But you know how girls are, we can't seem to shut up." She gets up and grabs her purse. " Maybe you should invite friends over, have guys night."

"Yeah, maybe," he says as she kisses him on the cheek.

"Bye, Hon,"

"Bye, baby," and then she's out the door.

Cause I know that he knows
I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

Paige gets into her car and drives the familiar roads. This is wrong, she's knows it wrong. But her body is aching, especially after that amazing kiss from Spinner. She knows what that kiss meant, all that he was trying to say. Yet, here she is. Another night away from her the guy she planned to marry someday. She gets out of her car goes up to the apartment building. She hits the buzzer to the apartment.

"Hello," the familiar voice says.

"Its me," Paige speakers into the speaker.

"Come on up," the voice says. There is a loud buzz before the door into the building unlocks. Paige goes in and walks up the stairs to the apartment. The door is already open so she walks in. She goes into the living room but no one is there. She tries the kitchen but that too is empty.

"Paige," she hears the voice whispered in her ear. She turns around and looks into the eyes of her lover.

"Hey Alex," she smiles. She looks into the deep brown eyes and gets lost in them. Alex runs her hand over Paige's cheek.

"You look beautiful tonight." Alex says as she leans in to kiss Paige gently on the lips. "Come on. I made you dinner. " She grabs the other girl's hand and pulls her to the dining room. They sit down at opposite ends of the small table. They talk about their days as they eat the meal Alex prepared. After their done, they both wash the dishes, joking and laughing with each other. Through it all, the guilt still weighed heavily on Paige. And its then that she decides what she has to do.

"Alex, we need to talk," Paige says in the most serious tone Alex has ever heard her use. Deep down, Alex knew this was coming…that her time with Paige was borrowed and she have to eventually give it back.

"Okay," she says with her head down. Paige goes and sits on the couch while Alex sits on the table across from her. Paige holds Alex's hands as she speaks.

"Alex, the day you came into my life was the day that changed my world. I was walking home thinking about what classes I have to take to finish my Master's and then I felt something run into me. I knocked you right on your ass. I felt so guilty about it. And as I helped you up, I looked into your eyes and saw how beautiful they were. And then I looked at you and was mesmerized. Your voice did me in though. That sexy, sultry sound that came from your lips made me weak. From that moment on, I've wanted you. You are so beautiful." She runs her hand down Alex's cheek. "This is gonna be the hardest thing I ever do. I'm sorry, Alex, but we can't anymore. I'm with Spinner and I love him. It's been killing him and me. I can't do this to him anymore. It's not fair to him or you. I do care about you. You're so important to me. I just have to do what's right." She wipes the tears that fall from Alex's face. It's so hard to hurt her like this but there's nothing she can do.

"I know, Paige. It was only a matter of time before you realized you had to leave me. I've dreaded it since the beginning. But I need…can I have tonight, one last night. It will mean everything to me. Give me tonight." Alex leans in and kisses Paige hard on the lips, not waiting for an answer. Paige kisses back with just as much force is all the answer she needs. She pulls Paige up and walks back towards her bed room, never losing contact with her lips. If this was going to be their last time, she was going to make it count. Hours and hours passes, and through it you can hear screams of passion, of love, of tears, and of last moments.

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore

Alex , wrapped only in a sheet, walks Paige to the door.

"I love you Paige," she says," and if you ever change your mind, I'll be here. Not forever, but for a while." Paige kisses her on the lips and walks out the door. She goes to her car and cries. She couldn't believe how difficult that had been. She loved Alex, a part of her will always love Alex. She drives away, forcing herself not to look back. When she got home, she sees Spinner asleep on the couch. He waited for her. She looks around. The place is the same as when she left. He didn't have people over. He just waited. She pulled a blanket over him, then kissed his forehead.

"I'm sorry, Spinner," she says to his sleeping form.

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...a murderer

She feels her phone vibrate. She looks down at the text message.

I love you, Paige. I lied, I'm not ready to say goodbye. Come back to me.

She looks over at Spinner and then back at her phone. She goes to her room and cries in her bed. She knows she will go back to Alex, just like she always does. Everytime she convinces herself she won't, she still will. Alex is her drug, her lifeline, and Paige is the addict that can't get enough. As longs as Alex keeps giving her what she needs, she'll keep coming. And that whispering voice will never let her go.

A/N: This was a one shot. I may revisit this storyline once I'm completely done with this. There are details that I really want to go into now after writing it. But that won't be for a long while. And I used Spaige as the main couple because I didn't want Paige or Alex to have to cheat on eachother. And I wanted Spinner to be a good guy because I think it made the story more complex. Its hard to say who Paige should be with, which makes things complicated. I'm not sure I like how I ended it. Another thing about writing this one is that I'm so used to writing in POV that it was hard to just write a story. I do like how it turned out though. Hopefully the next chapter will be up tonight or tomorrow morning and it will also be a one shot. I do have a beta now ( though this one wasn't because I got anxious to post, sorry Palexiot), so the next few chapters shouldn't have so many errors. I heart you guys!!

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